Hello guys, how are you doing? Hope everything's great on whichever corner of this planet you are right now. I'm still in totally awe that you take your time to read this little piece of written words.

Shadow Apparation- you turning into an emotional wreck shouldn't make me happy, but it does :) I'm a sap and always have the biggest smile on my face after reading your reviews. You really seem to feel with Naomi and always question stuff. I enjoy this enthusiasm thanks. :) Effy has a very special, lets say, personality. Making some actions seem more important or mean more than they actually do. Like her staring in to Naomi's eyes like this. I wanted her to show us that she sees a little different things than others do, and having drugs in her system made her get lost in Naomi's eyes. It wasn't romantic, erotic or even attraction that pulled her to Naomi. It was simply her mind in combinatino with the drugs. Who knows what she saw?

Sookieheartsbill- thank you soo much for reading and loving it ;)

Laynie- thanks for taking the time to leave a review. I couldnt respond in a PM because your not logged in sooo I had to do this here. :)

K.K.K- Hola! Welcome and thanks for the review. Since I saw your comment I'm wondering what your nicknames supposed to be? There's this one song, The K.K.K. Took my baby away. I think it's The Ramons. A fan? :) oh, and a trip on mdma or something is for everyone different but I actually never saw anyone being able to sleep or hungry after wards, or acting like they've taking some LSD instead of mdma. Totally over the top. That's what I've always read here in stories and I wanted it to be realistic. Thanks.

As always a big thanks to my beta!

Now off we go


She works real hard to try to make things right

To see if she can find a reason for what's wrong

she's gonna stay right in your face

Activity Grrrl trying to change the world

She's gonna knock on your door

Activity Grrl in an uptight world

She's impossible to ignore -Joan Jett-


"Good morning my lovely new friend with very kissable lips. I bring breakfast!" Naomi beamed as she shook the paper bag in front of Katie's surprised face. The twin had opened the door to find the blonde in front of it and Katie didn't even try to fight the smile forming on her lips .

"I have made sandwiches, with eggs, cheese, ham, pickles, salad.." Naomi listed when she was rudely interrupted by Emily pushing past her into the flat.

"Yeah, she made us go round hers because apparently she couldn't just buy you breakfast, she needed to make it herself." Rolling her eyes Emily teased. The redhead squeezed past Katie, nudging her to the side she groaned.

"Fucking move, Katie I need your clothes. Fuck, didn't think I'd ever say that in my life." Emily marched through the place while masterfully dodging every toy car and stuffed animal laying in her way.

Katie watched her sisters departure wide eyed and speechless. Her eyes fell on a barely upright Effy. She was leaning with her whole bodyweight on Naomi. The blonde didn't seem to mind, or realize it as her eyes were still fixed on Katie.

"Effy honey, did you drug Naomi?" Naomi's object of affection asked with a smirk.

"I brought her to you. You should thank me." Came the raspy answer. "Where's my boy?"

Katie smiled. It didn't matter how stoned or drunk Effy got, she would never forget about Bence. Sometimes, when she realized she was too high, she wouldn't come home until she knew he was gone or asleep. The brown eyed woman reached for Effy's hand and pulled her into a hug, kissing her temple softly.

"It's 11 am. He's in day care. Go take a shower babes, you stink and I don't think you can ever untangle your hair again." To prove her point, Katie ran her fingers through brown locks, getting stuck. She grinned when Effy snuggled into her and breathed her in.

Naomi frowned and shook her head as thoughts ran through her mind. She didn't like seeing Effy that intimate with Katie. Logically, she knew they were nothing more than friends but it didn't sit right with her so she placed a hand on Effy's slim shoulder. Naomi then turned her around and met her eyes.

"No Katie breathing." She announced with still glazed over eyes but the firmness of her statement wasn't lost on anyone. Effy frowned deeply in thought and bit her lip until she nodded, stepping away from an amused Katie. She gave Naomi a thumbs up, clearly impressed, before walking down the corridor to the bathroom.

Grin in place, Katie leaned on the door frame and looked expectantly at Naomi. The blonde stood exactly the same as she did before Emily and Effy interrupted her. Smile and bag directed towards Katie. The picture of innocence, as if she didn't just tell Effy off.

"Now to you" Katie started but a hectic Emily barged in again. "What now Ems?" She snapped, annoyed that she couldn't have a freaking conversation with Naomi. Their separating at the pub and Naomi's avoidance left lots of unanswered questions to talk about but in that moment Katie's heart was ready to burst.

Emily looked at her incredulously and raised her arms in surrender while pulling her hair into a bun, burning fag hanging from her lips.

She was the fastest clothes changer Naomi has ever seen. With clean clothes and her make-up re-done, she looked completely fresh. And all that in what? Two minutes tops.

"Nothing, nothing just give me your car keys. Then I'll be out of your way, and you can shag your brains out for all I care." Emily panted. Her body was in full adrenalin mode because she was late for work and way too stoned to function properly.

Katie didn't give her the keys. She called her a cab and almost pushed her out of the door. Emily wasn't fast enough, again and stumbled a little flipping her sister the bird.

Walking hand in hand into the flat, Katie left Naomi on the comfy couch while she went to make some coffee. A freshly showered Effy joined the blonde. She flopped upside down on the couch with her head hanging off it.

"Spliff?" Effy's voice brought a grin on the blondes confused face.

Naomi mirrored her position on the dark brown couch. It looked rough with holes and scratches in it, but was actually unbelievably comfortable. This had to be the couch Katie told her about.

Contently sighing, she took the offered Spliff and took a much needed drag.

"She likes you." Effy breathed. Her wet hair created little water puddles on the old dark wooden floor beneath their heads.

Naomi giggled. She felt the Spliff's effect hitting her in full force because her poor body didn't have a chance to sober up yet. Thinking about Katie made her smile. Thinking about Katie liking her made her giggle like a little teenage girl with a crush. A thought ran through her mind that instantly wiped the smile off her face. Leaving her with dread.

"She isn't gay, is she? You said I'd be with Emily if I met you guys in college because she's gay and Katie isn't. What did you mean by that?" The words flew out her hurting mouth at rapid speed. The whole night she did nothing but clench her jaw, chew on her inner cheeks and tongue. Now it started to hurt.

"That she isn't gay."

Naomi laughed, because really, what else could she do? She was trying to pry things out of Effy Stonem, a stoned Effy Stonem. It was the stupidest idea she ever had.

It didn't take Katie longer than 10 minutes to walk back into the living room. Straight away with a scowl on her face when she saw the upside down hanging girls on the sofa.

The room smelled skunky.

The thick smoke clouded her sight.

Wondering how many Spliff's the girls were able to smoke in the short time, she directed her meanest look at the smirking brunette.

"Fuck off to bed. You're picking Bence up from day care in seven hours, and I want the room fucking cleaned by then, Stonem." Katie snapped, successfully bringing the calm girl to stand up and wordlessly go to her bedroom.

After Effy left the twin locked eyes with Naomi, her glare slowly transforming into a soft smile.

"I have exactly four hours then I need to be at work. Someone promised me breakfast." She smiled, showing her dimples in the process.

Naomi turned around, immediately jumping to her feet as she grabbed the paper bag and walked up to Katie. She wanted her to finally taste the breakfast she spend an hour making. It took her longer than usual, being that high made her want to make the most perfect breakfast ever made and perfection takes time.

Reaching for the blondes hand, Katie pulled her into the cosy kitchen. Naomi looked around in wonder, taking in the stylish Deco. Instead of pictures, plates and weird kitchen stuff, there were old vinyl's hanging on the walls. Oldies from the sixties, best hits of the seventies and some eighties were planted across the beige painted kitchen.

"Wow, baby, this is the coolest kitchen ever. Who's idea was this?" She was turning and twirling around. Her childish eyes danced across the kitchen taking in everything when two strong arms grabbed her. She was being turned around and kissed with passion. Gentle hands cradled her soft face and Katie shared the adoration she held for the blonde with passion filled kisses.

Seeing her that carefree and in awe about the kitchen left Katie no option but to kiss her senseless.

Naomi held on to the twins hips and pulled her to herself while she kissed her back with equal passion. Separating their lips, she put her forehead against Katie's. With closed eyes, she breathed 'hi'.

Katie nodded, her hooded eyes having trouble to focus on anything other than the vanilla tasting lips. She fought the urge to throw the blonde on the next surface and thrust her fingers back inside of her again finally. It felt like ages ago that she's been with her. Twenty-four hours felt like years.

"We need to talk Katie." Firmly whispering Naomi sighed. Some things were driving her crazy. She needed to clarify them or they'd need to stop this relationship from progressing.

It was important, and she was stoned enough to do it.

"Are you sure you'll remember? You are pretty out of it." Katie laughed, trying to ease the situation but failing to do so, Naomi didn't bite. She looked deeply into Katie's eyes, trying to show her the importance of that talk . The young mother nodded, pecking soft lips again before she stepped out of the embrace.

Reaching for the paper bag she opened it, when she smelled the delicious breakfast Katie's face broke out in a smile. Naomi really did think of everything, it looked like she has been on a MDMA influenced mission to win Katie's heart over with every possible thing to eat. A full success.

"Are you hungry? I could eat a whole cow. I don't even remember when I've eaten the last time. Probably the ice cream we had with Bence." She rambled. " You really thought of everything, yeah? There's even a salad!" She squealed, excitingly clapping her hands. Naomi grabbed and kissed them before interrupting the rant that was about to come out of Katie's mouth.

"Are you really hungry or just stalling for time? Because Katie, it's torture right now. I have all this horrible scenarios in my head, images that drive me crazy. Baby, we really need to talk." She begged, but her eyes still hold a warning that Katie noticed and understood.

Biting her plump bottom lip, she nodded. She gently took Naomi's hand, laying the paper bag to the side she walked them to the comfortable couch and sat down. Pulling the blonde down to her, she wrapped strong arms around Naomi and closed her eyes.

Her head was resting on the blondes collarbone, head tucked under her head. Katie ran her hands gently from Naomi's hips up around her shoulders. The purple haired girl's fingers were absently playing with the blondes neck hair as she tried to save this moment. This moment full of luck and happiness mixed with contentment meant the world to her.

It took years to finally find someone who awoke all this feelings inside of her.

Someone who needed to discuss important things because they cared.

Someone who needed to talk to Katie because they are stoned and partying without Katie.

Someone who needed to make every possible dish for breakfast on their own because they didn't know what Katie liked.

Katie desperately needed to store this moment forever in her mind before it is lost.

"Hey, hey baby look at me." Naomi murmured, untangling herself from Katie's body she lifted her head to look into scared brown eyes. It broke her heart to see this look in them, being the cause for it was even worse. "You, you don't have to be scared of me Katie. Never." She needed Katie to know that.

"I know." Her trembling voice was displaying her feelings as much as her eyes did. She had been burned before. Naomi had the urge to walk right up to the arseholes that have hurt her in the past and laugh in their faces for losing such a wonderful person.

With her soft fingers, the blonde stroked Katie's cheek, trying to fight off her fears but she knew it wouldn't do much good now.

"Katie, when I met you it kicked me to life. Don't get me wrong, I didn't fall immediately in love with you or anything but you intrigued me." The blonde began in a low voice. She was trying not to break the atmosphere they created for themselves.

"Shame. I did." Katie admission surprised her. Her plate sized pupils made her eyes shine even more when she leant in and kissed Katie's lips. Tasting her berry lip gloss, she smiled into them. It wasn't a make out session, it didn't turn into more than a few sensual kisses. Exactly what it was supposed to be.

"Katie, I really don't need to know every detail of your past, I don't. I'm not one of those crazy clingy girlfriends that need to discuss every little step you took in your life because that isn't healthy. It's not me! But I have to ask you three questions, I need to know the answers before I throw myself into you." It took all the bravery Naomi had inside of her to say this, to spoil their moment and time.

Katie's eyes locked on hers. They were open and laced with fear, she looked ready to jump head first into the water.

"What happens if you don't like the answer?" Katie had to know. She needed to know what the consequences would be. Scared brown eyes transforming, she looked ready for a battle. Naomi smiled, loving how much Katie cared about them.

The blonde playfully nibbled on Katie's lip. Tugging on it she grinned and ran her tongue teasingly over the purple haired girls bottom lip. She eased the tension a little, she even made Katie giggle.

"It's in the past. I can't possibly demand that you change it, yeah? I just need to know." She assured the now lightly smiling girl. Raising her brows she waited for Katie to tell her she's ready.

Closing her eyes for a second Katie took a deep breath, bracing herself before she nodded slowly.

"I really need to know, god, how do I put this without sounding like a crazy lesbian?" Naomi grinned, shaking her head at herself. She pushed Katie into the cushions and positioned her head between her shoulder and collarbone, kissing the soft skin on Katie's throat.

Finally comfortable, she searched her brain for a good way to formulate her question. Katie's fingers ran soothingly through her hair, untangling her matted locks. The gesture was so natural and intimate Naomi felt like she could walk on air. Again. She hated herself because she knew she was about to destroy this wonderful feeling.

"Yesterday, when Emily had that weird idea of us all going to Round-view? Effy said me and her would be together. Remember?"

"How do you know which college we went to?" Katie asked, interrupting her train of thoughts.

Recalling last night's party she tried to remember when she was talking with someone about the college but now she drew a blank. It had to be Emily though, they've been talking for hours. The MDMA made them want to discuss everything that popped into their mind while Effy had been busy dancing her brains out with Cook. He's showed up a few hours later with a shit eating grin on his face after Naomi almost felt guilty for scaring him off. Turned out he wasn't scared off, when she was busy joining them on that MDMA trip, he had caught a glimpse of some fit girl across the alley and went over to shag her.

"I don't know. I think Emily told me yesterday." She answered with a frown on her face. Still trying to find the conversation in her confused memories. "I really don't know." Feeling Katie nod Naomi kept talking.

"Effy said I'd be with Emily because you are not gay and she is." She finally spoke the words.

The words that have been flying around her mind since she heard them for the first time. Again she felt the other woman nod, but that was it. Nothing more beside a nod and a low 'Uh huh'. Reaching for Katie's free hand she intervened their fingers, stroking her thumb absently.

"Was she implying that you weren't gay back then or that you're Bi now? I think I can tell you're no stranger to straight sex" Both women giggled softly. "but I was still wondering what she meant by that."

She felt Katie's body tensing when she uttered the words. A feeling of dread ran through her. This couldn't be a good sign. She wasn't some insane lesbian only looking for lesbians. She could work with anything, really, at least that's what she's always told herself but in reality? It scared her because she cared. She cared about Katie losing interest. She cared about some bloke throwing her a sickening sweet smile, and Katie running to him. She cared about having to compete with both genders.

"You know how Effy is. She always says things to rattle people." Katie's voice was higher than usual and her laugh sounded fake to Naomi's ears, alarming her.

The blonde sighed, turning around to look into Katie's eye she hovered above her and tried to meet her gaze but Katie was busy dodging her look. Full of disappointment Naomi shook her head and laid back down, staring off into the black TV screen. Her thoughts were running wild, and she felt her bravery slowly leave.

Making her mind up, she slid her thigh between Katie's. Laying flat on top of her, she rapidly kissed Katie's collarbone, bit her throat and licked up her neck to suck on her ear lope. Her left hand moved underneath the dark purple top Katie was wearing. Frantically, she started to massage her breathtaking tits like it was the last time she could.

Naomi froze.

It felt as like it was the last time.

Looking at the visible curve under Katie's shirt where her hand was Naomi felt her emotions run wild, it hit her like a wave of sadness. This felt like a goodbye.

Did she subconsciously make up her mind about their situations? Why did she act like this was a goodbye shag? Slowly she lifted her head to meet Katie's teary red rimmed eyes.

Katie was about to break out in tears, and the blonde gulped the lump in her throat down. Realizing just then that her vision was unclear, and that her eyes were full of unshed tears as well. She looked in shock at Katie's hands that were laying motionless on the sofa.

She was laying there offering herself up to Naomi without participating, and the blonde didn't even realize it in her anger. Katie's eyes were closed, and she felt the tears fall from her eyes.

Ever since Naomi met the other woman she was riding an emotional roller-coaster. Nothing between them was average or easy, and she was a huge fan of easy. She cared too much and hated it when emotions got the best of her. Exactly what's been happening with Katie ever since the day she first yelled at Naomi.

She needed to hear Katie's reassurance, telling her that everything would be okay but Katie did the opposite. It scared Naomi that it meant so much to her how Katie responded.

This was new. It was a huge responsibility getting together with Katie. She was a package deal with her son. Naomi was no stranger to relationships, but they've never been that serious. They've never had her question everything and anything she ever did or would like to do. Was she strong enough? Katie was able to break her with one word, one sentence. She knew giving Katie Fitch her heart would change her life completely, and she would never be the same again after it. She asked her a question and just because she didn't get an answer, her mind played tricks on her and horrible explanations for it formed in the blondes mind. Letting her act like the biggest cunt walking this earth. Of course she was still pumped up to her eyebrows with MDMA and Coke, but was it enough of an excuse? It showed how much power Katie had over her. Now. After knowing her for a few weeks and spending maybe 3 days tops together.

She was pushed up into a sitting position with such a force her back met the other side of the sofa. Staring wide eyed at Katie, Naomi bit her lip, she wanted to check where the door was for an escape but her eyes stayed glued to fiery brown ones. Katie knelt between her legs with her arms holding on the armrest; successfully trapping Naomi between her and the sofa. Trapped.

"What the fuck was that?" Katie hissed with eyes that could turn the blonde into a pile of dust. "Are you fucking insane? Explain yourself right now, Naomi."

When Naomi still didn't say anything Katie flipped. "If you don't start talking in next 5 seconds, I swear you'll fucking regret it. Say something, say something..FUCKING TALK!" She screamed, and her arms squeezed the blondes shoulders together.

Naomi was paralysed, frozen in time. Her mouth opened but couldn't form any words. She was scared and totally overwhelmed with the situation she found herself in and her stoned brain couldn't focus on anything. Her eyes danced wildly around Katie's face too scared to look away and too scared to meet her eyes.

"FINE! You can fuck off now!" Katie yelled red-faced. Standing up she roughly rearranged her clothes. Disgustedly wiping her mouth with the back of her hand, she pointed to the door. Still paralysed, Naomi didn't move from her position. Katie was about to pull her up and kick out of her place herself when Effy's hand on her waist made her turn around sharply. "WHAT?"

"Calm the fuck down, Katie." The brunette snapped. She didn't know what happened but she knew that Naomi was coming down and Katie's probably send her on a horror trip, if the blondes appearance was anything to go by.

She was laying halfway on the couch, as far sunk in it as it would allow her and her arms were securely wrapped around herself. Naomi's eyes were the worst. She was looking panicked between everything near Katie. Her teeth clattering, and she was shivering. She looked right a mess.

"Go back to bed and stay out of this Eff." Katie warned, her patience long gone. She was ready to explode. Effy raised her brows, clearly mocking her with a smirk on her face.

"Really mummy? Should I brush my teeth first? Don't fucking forget who you are talking to Katie. Now leave her the fuck alone!" Effy's words seem to have an effect on Katie because she flinched, her fury faltering slightly. Effy picked up on it and pushed past her to sit down beside the terrified blonde.

She didn't try to touch her, worried she'd scare her even more if she tried. She laid her head on the back of the couch and looked at the mess in front of her. Reaching into her bra, she pulled a Spliff out. Ignoring Katie's presence all together as she lit it and inhaled.

"Naomi? Naomi it's okay. Here, take this. It'll help you coming down." She said, slowly taking Naomi's hand in hers she handed her the joint and directed the blondes hand to her mouth. Surprised blue eyes met her gaze as she took a long drag. Exhaling Naomi closed her eyes, willing herself to stop her body shaking.

"Fuck, I'm cold." She whispered, finally.

Effy sighed in relief, finding Naomi in that state while Katie was screaming like a banshee scared the brunette a little. She didn't know how Naomi handled her drugs and her coming downs. Some people went really crazy because they couldn't cope.

"She didn't tell me the truth." Sad blue eyes met Effy's, and the brunette shot Katie a disgusted look before turning back to Naomi and smiling gently.

"She freaked out! We, we talked about" Katie loudly started defending herself.

Effy smiled again at the blonde before jumping to her feet. She grabbed Katie's hand and pulled her into the kitchen. Closing the door behind her Katie jerked her hand away and glared at Effy. "What the actual fuck Effy? It's not my fucking fault you fucking drugged her up to her eye balls and she fucking lost it!"

Effy shook her head with disappointment written on her face.

"You know, we invited her over because she looked like the fucking saddest girl on earth when we left the pub. You couldn't get away fast enough, leaving her with fears and uncertainty"

"Because you had to be your fucking all seeing annoying self telling her that she'd be with my fucking sister!" Katie screeched, her hands flying around in anger. Finally, finally she could let it out. The moment Effy started putting this idea in everyone's head Katie knew it would backfire. And she was right.

"Oh, I didn't fucking know that you not being gay is a fucking secret now! To everyone else you spit it out the second someone even mentions anything gay related like it's a fucking illness!" Effy was right in her face, her anger getting the best of her because she couldn't stand Katie being in the way of her own happiness.

"She was fucking lost, Katie! And you didn't fucking care." Katie's finger poked into her chest as she build herself up.

"But I did, yeah? I fucking called her eleven times, she didn't pick the damn phone up!" Effy nodded, taking the information in.

"Did you ever think about how this is effecting her life Katie? It's not only yours that's being changed, hers is too. And she is crazy about you, I have no idea why but she is and the only thing she could talk about, the whole fucking night until we stood in front of you, was you. She needs a little reassurance Katie. She needs you to fucking take her hand and walk with her instead of yapping in front of her expecting to her to follow!"

They were interrupted by Naomi walking into the kitchen, looking more like herself but the sadness was still covering her whole being as she shuffled over to them. Looking into Effy's gentle eyes she smiled a little.

"I'll be off now. Thanks for everything, I had an great time Effy." She said, sounding normal again. She turned around and met brown eyes.

"Take care Katie." A genuine smile formed on her lips when she reached for the smaller woman and pulled her into an short hug. "See you later." She bit her lip, debating with herself about a proper goodbye she decided on a soft kiss on Katie's forehead. It was so soft Katie wondered if she's imagined it. She reached for the blondes hand when she was about to turn away, softly breathing her name.

"I'll call you." She promised with fearful brown eyes. Naomi only nodded, her jaw set when she turned around again but Effy suddenly stood in front of her shaking her head. She blocked her path.

"You're not going anywhere. Really, I can't let you go anywhere in that condition. You wouldn't survive crossing the street. Come one, I'll show you my room and the bathroom, you really need to take a shower. Do you need to work today?" Naomi nodded.

"Yeah, I have to be at the pub this evening. And thanks again Effy but I should really go." She insisted, the tension was horrible and she needed to breath. Air wasn't getting in her lungs with Katie around right now, and it felt like she was about to pass out.


One hour later in the bathtub


The blonde was laying in a tub filled with hot water, bubbles covering the surface she smoked a Spliff Relaxing. In the end Effy managed to convince her that in her condition anything other than staying would kill her.

She was in awe, that girl could talk anyone into everything she wanted to. The old Radio was playing some American Indie music channel, helping Naomi to relax. With the correct amount of Spliff's, the coming down was bearable. She wasn't used to partying that hard any more. Sure, she went out every weekend but it's been ages since she blew that much MDMA and coke up her nose, combined with the trouble she had it was no wonder she freaked earlier. Now, with the proper utensils it still felt awful but she knew she'd live.

That was the only thing keeping her from getting that stoned all the time, the day after, as she lovingly called it. Her nerves were on fire, and she was on edge. Her emotions all other the place going crazy it was a hell of a ride.

She was so far in her own head that she didn't realize the door opening, someone coming in until she felt the water move in high waves, almost drowning her. Her eyes shot open, widening after seeing a naked Katie Fitch climbing into the tub in front of her. The intruder laid her legs over Naomi's, wrapping her toes around the blondes hips.

Soft brown eyes met her icy ones, and the air started to be electrified again. The tension was back in full force.

"I'm not gay." Katie softly stated, running a wet hand through her locks she freed her hair off the bun. She shook her hair free and sighed. "I was never interested in girls, guess you can say I was a true cock cruncher." A small smile was sent Naomi's way as Katie reached into the water in search of the blondes hand. Finding it, she ran her fingers across her soft skin.