**IMPORTANT**
This chapter has multiple flashbacks, they are all marked where the begin and end. They are all Edward's POV unless marked otherwise. Also be sure to read the A/N at the bottom.


Chapter 9: For My Brother

EPOV

I can't believe I am about to do this. I was feeling a lot of things right now. I felt nervous, because I have never trusted anyone enough to tell them what I am about to tell Bella. I felt relief because I was hoping by saying this, I can get this off my chest, and maybe I can deal with it better. But most of all I felt scared. I was scared about having to all of a sudden relive these moments in my life that I have been trying to block out for so long now. I was scared about what Bella will think. I was just scared.

I looked up at Bella's face and saw the concern in her face, and I could tell that she cared. I'm not sure if she cares about me as much as I care about her, because I think I might love her, but it was enough and I was ready to trust her with this.

"I guess I should start with my parents. My parent's names are Elizabeth and Edward and believe it or not they are pretty wealthy." She looked a little surprised but nodded her head in encouragement. "Now I don't know if you remember but I told you Jack was eight years older than me, and my parents didn't mean to have us so far apart. I was a surprise I guess you can say. Growing up, I was always compared to Jack. Jack was perfect in the eyes of my parents so if I did anything that was slightly different than him, it was the end of the world to my parents which drew a wedge between me and my mom and dad. We were never really close to each other.

"I never resented Jack for it though, because I worshipped the ground he walked on. And he never made me feel like I should change myself because of him. He was always defending me against my parents. I can still remember the time when I was 11 years old. My dad was trying to get me to play baseball, and I wanted to take guitar lessons…"

~Flashback~

"But why can't I just take the guitar lessons instead? It's cheaper to take guitar lessons than playing stupid baseball." I told my father.

"Edward, your brother played baseball all of his life, and do you see what happened for him? He had colleges sending him letters almost every day so he could be in their school. Don't you want that to?"

"No, I don't want that because I want to play guitar instead, people go to college for playing music too you know."

My father ran his hands through his dark brown hair and sighed in frustration. "Listen to me right now, Edward. You are going to play baseball next week and that is final."

"Oh come on dad, please don't make me! What about I do both?"

"No, baseball only, and if you have a problem with it, I'm sorry but you will just have to deal with it." He said firmly and then walked out of my room, slamming the door behind him.

Once he was gone I snuck to the library and used the phone to call Jack. He was currently going to Harvard for medicine. Maybe he can help me.

"Hello?"

"Jack, its Edward"

"Hey short stuff, what's up?"

"I kind of need your help because dad is being very mean right now."

"What did he do, buddy?"

"He is forcing me to play baseball next week and I really, really don't want to Jack. I really want to play the guitar instead but he won't let me."

"Okay I'll be by there later and I will talk to him and see what I can do alright?"

"Okay thanks Jack."

"Alright I love you buddy, I'll talk to you later."

"Love you too, Jack."

~End Flashback~

"That night, he came to my room and told me he made a compromise with my dad and he said I could play guitar if I also played baseball. I whined at that but Jack promised me he would help me practice and stuff. And he did, every Wednesday he would bring me right here, to this meadow, and he taught me to play."

"Wow, that was really nice of him. I think that is great that you were both so close."

"I know, and it was. I would always try to be there for him when he needed me, and he was always, always there for me." I took a deep breath because I knew this part would be hard. "He was especially there for me when I got Heidi pregnant." I already felt an ache in my chest by just saying her name. It wasn't because I missed her or anything, it was just because thinking about her made me think about how much her stupidity is probably going to affect my girls.

"So that is Harper and Avery's mother?" Bella asked for confirmation.

"Yeah, her name was Heidi Levonworth. She was that girl that all the guys wanted and all the girls wanted to be. She was beautiful, there is no denying that, but it's easy to see past the pretty face once you got to know her. I remember the first night I met her, and it just happened to be the night Harper was conceived…"

~Flashback~

"Hey Edward, look at that hot piece over there, she is looking at you." My friend Garrett told me. Me and Garrett were currently at a college party trying to pick up some hot chicks. It wasn't an unusual Friday night for us, this is what we always do, it's what we are known for. I don't sleep with all of them though, I've only been with two girls, and one of them was my girlfriend that I just broke up with yesterday, but I think that is going to change after tonight.

I looked over at the girl Garrett was talking about and thought I hit the jackpot. She was hot. She had dirty blonde hair, with the biggest rack I have ever seen on a girl, probably fake but who gives a fuck.

I made my way over to her because she most definitely was looking at me. Once I approached, she took my hand and dragged me upstairs….

~End Flashback~

"I was stupid. She didn't even say one word to me the whole time. After we were done she just said a quick thank you and then left. She didn't know my name and I didn't know hers. I felt really bad afterwards, I felt used and I wished I would have said something to her."

"That is horrible Edward. I can't believe she took advantage of you like that, especially when you were practically a child."

"It is fucked up, I know, but I didn't help the situation either, I was a stupid hormonal 17 year old."

"So if you didn't know her name, and she didn't know yours, how did you find out about Harper."

"Well actually it turns out that she knew exactly who I was and she came to tell me about Harper when she was already five months pregnant…"

~Flashback~

I was sitting in my room playing around with my guitar that Jack got me. I was home alone because my parents went out to dinner with some people. I heard the doorbell ring and immediately went to get it.

I opened the door and almost choked on my own spit when I saw the girl that has been haunting me for about five months. I was still confused about our whole exchanged and felt disappointed in myself.

After seeing her face I then looked at the rest of her and almost threw up all over her when I saw she was most definitely pregnant.

"We need to talk Mr. Cullen." She said.

I nodded my head and opened the door more so she could walk in, I walked in front of her and tried to lead her to the living room but she just took my arm and told me to stop.

"I don't want to sit and have a precious talk with you Cullen. This is going to be quick and simple. The kid is yours. I'm obviously five months pregnant and it's a girl isn't that just sweet?" she asked sarcastically. "Now I want to put it up for adoption but I am going to need you to sign some papers."

I stood there dumbfounded for a second, I am going to have a daughter? But wait she wants to give it up? Could I do that? Could I really go on the rest of my life knowing that I have a daughter out there? No. No I couldn't. I am all for adoption when the parents are incapable of caring for the child, but I am capable. I practically live in a mansion and I have enough money in my trust fund to last me at least a couple of years. There is no way I can let this happen.

"Wait, don't I get a say in this?"

"No, you don't, I am the one who has to carry the little shit for another four months so I make the decisions."

"Well then what if I don't sign the papers? What if I refuse?"

"Look, you are making this more complicated than it has to be. You're lucky I'm even having the thing. I found out I was pregnant too late to get an abortion so this is the last resort."

"But it's not the last resort! I want her, I will take care of her."

She laughed menacingly. "You're a kid, Eddie. There is no way you can raise a kid."

"I have a lot of money, I will be able to provide for her, and I can try and raise her the best way I can, I will have help. Just let me take her please, its better that she stays with me."

She looked at me like I was crazy for a couple of seconds, but then she nodded. "Alright I guess that works, now I don't have to spend all of this money to set everything up. Well I am due in the end of June so I would prepare for that I guess."

"I know this sounds really bad because you are standing there carrying my child, but can you tell me your name and give me your phone number."

"It's Heidi. Heidi Elle Levonworth. Here is my card." She pulled a bright pink business card out of her purse. It was for a nail salon. "Now I just want you to know one thing, . You better not try and make me be a part of this kid's life. I don't want it. I don't want it now and I won't want it later. From now on, whenever we talk, it will be about this thing and nothing else. I don't want to talk to you, I don't want to be your friend. Do you understand?"

"Yes."

~End Flashback~

"So I guess you can guess the rest of the story. I told my parents that night. My Dad hit me, my brother saved me, and then I lived with him for about a month. Jack talked to my parents and got them to take me back to the house. They gave me advanced access to my trust fund and told me to go crazy with getting a room ready for the baby and everything. They were adamant that I do this on my own. They said they would babysit and stuff, but there was no way they were going to raise her. And I didn't expect them to. They had no problem telling me they were ashamed and disappointed in me they were. And I took it, because I made my bed, so I knew I had to lay in it.

"Jack, on the other hand was happy for me. Obviously he wasn't too happy with me at first but I get it, I mean I was a 17 year old kid about to have a kid. But he pretty much told me shit happens and there is no need to dwell on the bad things about it."

I looked up at Bella and saw the tears in her eyes. "I-I'm just speechless Edward. I can't believe how horrible Heidi is, I can't believe how much your parents don't care, and I can't believe how supportive your brother is." I brought my hands to her face and wiped the tears away.

"I know what you mean, and Jack was supportive 100%." I smiled a little thinking about the next part of the story. "He was there when Harper was born too; one of the happiest days of my life…"

~Flashback~

I was sitting in the baby's pink nursery putting away some of the clothes away when Jack called me from down the hall.

"Edward! Get your ass down here now! Mrs. Levonworth just called! You are going to be a Dad!"

I bolted from my spot on the floor and ran downstairs. I grabbed the bag I packed for this day and then followed Jack out to the car. Once I was in the car I started freaking out.

"Oh my God, Jack. I think I am going to throw up."

Jack laughed at me and said, "Don't worry little brother, all of your worries will go away once you see that daughter of yours."

"How would you know? You don't even have a kid."

"Well I actually don't know, but I have read stuff."

We made it to the hospital in no time and a nurse directed us to where the room was. Heidi and I already agreed that she would let me in the room for when my daughter was born, so I went into the room and Jack stayed in the waiting room. As soon as I walked in, I could already tell Heidi was pissed.

"It's about time you fucking got here."

"I came as soon as your mother called which was about 15 minutes ago."

"Whatever. The doctor is on her way so I can push this thing out." She said. She screamed really loud after that, so I was expecting she was having a contraction.

Ten minutes later a doctor came in and said she was ready to push. The rest of the delivery was a blur to me. I remember Heidi wouldn't let me touch her and there was a lot of screaming.

What I do remember though is the sound of my daughter's first cry and seeing her beautiful face for the first time.

The doctor pulled her out, and it was kind of gross but all I could see was my baby's tiny bald head and her scrunched up crying face as the doctor cleared her throat and nose. The doctor went to put the baby on Heidi's chest, but Heidi pushed her away. The doctor looked a little shocked and then looked at me.

"Would you like to cut the cord?"

I nodded my head yes and cut my baby away from her horrible mother.

After the cord was cut, a nurse picked her up, still crying, to the weighing station. I followed her because I couldn't imagine taking my eyes off of my daughter for more than a second. The nurse weighed her and then bundled her up. My baby was still crying and it broke my heart.

"Well we know her lungs are working fine." The nurse said with a smile, I smiled too. "Are you her father?" I was overwhelmed by her question. I am a father. I nodded my head because I felt so much emotion right now I don't think anything I said would make sense. "Well would you like to hold her?"

I nodded my head vehemently and she handed me my daughter. As soon as she was in my arms she stopped crying almost immediately. She looked into my eyes with curiosity and her little mouth formed an adorable 'O'. Once I had her in my arms, and my baby was looking at me, I began to cry.

I was laughing and crying at the same time and finally tried to say something. "Hello, my angel. I'm your Daddy." I ran my finger along her face and then took her tiny hand in between my thumb and forefinger. "I love you, baby. I love you so much my little Harper Elizabeth." I lifted her so I could rest her little head on my shoulder and I rubbed her back. I kissed her head multiple times and just held her close.

"Excuse me sir?" I looked up and saw the nurse from before. "We need to take her to the nursery and do some tests just to make sure everything is going good."

"Can I go with her?"

"Of course, we will need to wheel her down, but you can follow us there." I nodded my head and reluctantly gave her to the nurse.

"I will meet you down there though, there is something I need to do." She nodded her head and left with my daughter. I went to Heidi's bed where she was talking on the phone.

"…yeah it's finally over. I'll be over there tomorrow, but just make sure you don't start without me." She said a couple more things and then hung up and looked at me.

"I told you I don't want to talk to you. I'm not pregnant anymore."

"I just wanted to say thank you, for her."

She laughed, "You are a sappy little shit aren't you? Well have fun having no life. You can leave now."

I can't believe this woman. I really can't, how could you look at your own child and not feel anything? I turned to leave, because I didn't want to ever see her again. Once I got out of the door I saw Jack outside of it with a big smile on his face.

"I saw her, little brother, when they wheeled her out. Congratulations, she is beautiful."

I smiled, still standing outside of the door, a couple of feet away from Jack, and just started crying again. My brother came up to me and wrapped his arms around me, he hugged me tightly and it was good to know that at least one person in this world was on my side. I wrapped my arms around my brother sobbed into his shoulder.

"It's going to be okay, little brother. I know you are scared but I will be here to help you I promise, and that little girl is going to love you so much. You can do this, everything will be okay."

~End Flashback~

I felt the tears come to my eyes thinking about that day and all of the different emotions that I had. "Jack helped me a lot, and God knows I needed it. He was at the house everyday and helped me. He let me sleep if she had me up every night, he helped when she got her first cold, he was there when she said her first word, he was there when she took her first step.

"My parents barely helped me at all. The would offer to babysit Harper a couple of times because she was their granddaughter, and they loved her, but they never really talked to me, they were still disappointed in me. But I didn't blame them. They helped me enough by letting me and Harper stay in their house, and I knew they loved me."

Bella was crying softly now, "So was Jack with you all the time?"

The tears that were in my eyes finally fell, because I knew this would be the hardest part. This part was going to hurt the most, I could already feel the scorching pain and I haven't even said a word yet. "Yeah he was there, right to the end." I took a deep breath. "This is where the story gets really fucked up, Bella. The night my brother died was a fucked up night and it was my decisions that made it that way. This is going to be hard for me so I hope you will be patient."

Bella held on tighter to my hands, "Take your time Edward. I am here. I'm not going anywhere." I nodded and kissed her quickly.

"It was on my 21st birthday. Harper was three years old. At this point in my life, I wasn't going to school because I had to be home with Harper and I was having a tough time excepting that I was never going to be a normal kid. I loved Harper with my whole heart, that wasn't the problem, and I never stopped trying to be the best father I could to her but I was falling apart inside. I began to have a shorter temper and Jack was noticing it, I was always yelling at him and I was always mopey whenever Harper wasn't with me.

"So on my 21st birthday, Jack told me he was going to take me out to get my first drink. So we asked my parents to babysit and made our way to the bar…"

~Flashback~

"So where are you taking me?"

"We are going to a small Irish pub that is right across town."

"Nice, hey thanks again Jack for taking me out. I really appreciate it."

"No problem little brother, you have been working hard dealing with Harper so I thought you could use a little break."

"It feels weird being away from Harper though, I miss her already and we just left."

"Yeah but it's only for one night and she will be fine." I nodded my head and looked out the window. "Hey Edward, I know this is your first time drinking, so I just want to warn you to not drink too much at once. I'm trusting you to be responsible okay?"

"Sure."

"I invited some of my friends to go with us and there is going to be a girl there that I met last week. I like her so don't be a douche."

"You make it seem like I am such a troublemaker."

"Well you used to be."

"I won't make the girl afraid of you."

"Good to know."

Once we got to the bar, there were a lot of people there. I finally got my first drink and it was vodka. Jack drank the first two shots with me and then he went to go talk to the girl he was meeting wiht. And I kept on drinking. I must have drank about 10 shots and I was wasted beyond all belief.

Jack POV

"So do you have any kids?" Ashley asked me. She was a nice girl, I liked her.

"Oh, no but I have a niece that I spend a lot of time with. She is really cute."

"Aw that's sweet what's her name? How old is she?"

"Her name is Harper and she is three." I said proudly. I loved my niece with all my heart and I loved bragging about her. My brother has really done a good job with her.

"What a beautiful name, so she is your brother's daughter? The one that is here?"

"Yeah she's Edward's daughter. He has had her since he was 17 and it's amazing what he has done with her, I'm really proud of him."

"Well it's nice to see two brothers so close." I nodded my head and we continued talking. I wanted to check on Edward but I didn't want to be a nag either. I trusted him and knew he would be responsible.

Ashley was telling me about her parents when we heard yelling and banging going on in the back of the bar. We both spun around to look at what the commotion was and then I saw red when I saw what was happening.

There was a tall man with blonde hair on top of my brother punching him repeatedly in the face. What the fuck is going on?

I got up from my chair as fast as I could and ran to them. I pulled the asshole off of my brother and threw him behind me. I really didn't want to fight him so I went to Edward and helped him up. Fuck, he's drunk.

I made Edward sit on the chair closest to us and then turned to the other guy who was standing now and looking fucking pissed.

I went up to him and got in his face. No one touches my brother like that. No one.

"What the fuck is your problem with my brother?"

"What is my problem? I just caught your brother fucking my girlfriend in the back room!" he yelled in my face. I turned to Edward and saw that he was barely there and didn't really know what was going on he was so drunk.

"What the hell were you thinking Edward?" He just looked at me and tried to stand up but he fell on his ass.

"I'm shorry big brother." He slurred. "She casted a spell on me."

"Who did?"

"Heidi." I was beyond shocked. Why would he sleep with her after what she did to him and Harper? Oh yeah, he's drunk and barely knows what he is doing.

"Yeah and she is my girlfriend. And I went to your dumb fuck of a brother to talk like normal humans when he punched me in the face. No one ever punches me in the face do you understand you dick?" He said looking toward Edward. "Do you have any idea who I am? What I am capable of?"

Edward was so out of it I don't even think he heard him.

"Listen I'm sorry for what my brother did, but he's drunk he doesn't know what he's doing..."

"Oh and you think that is a good excuse? Fuck no. He is lucky I just got off of probation or I would have killed the fucker. Instead I just gave him a couple of hits and I called the cops. They are on their way."

"WHAT? You called the cops?"

"The motherfucker assaulted me. If I am not going to waste my time on punishing him correctly, then the cops will."

Right as he said it I heard the sirens and the cops were in the bar in no time. They came in and roughly pushed Edward on the floor face down.

"Hey! Watch what you are doing! You're going to hurt him!" I yelled while running toward where they were so I could try and help my little brother, but another officer held me back and I tried to fight against him.

"Sir, let us do our job."

"But he didn't do anything! He is just a kid! He has a daughter at home that needs him, he didn't mean it!" I struggled some more and then another officer came and two were holding me back. The officer that was cuffing Edward pulled him up by the back of his hair and Edward yelped in pain.

"Stop hurting him! Jesus what is wrong with you people?"

"Jack…Jack…what is happening?" Edward asked, panicking. I felt a tug at my heart seeing my little brother so helpless.

"It's alright Edward, just listen to what they say okay? I will go get you, I'll get you out of this just cooperate alright, little brother?" I yelled to him. He had his head down and looked nervous as hell even though he was still ridiculously drunk. I stopped struggling with the officers and asked if I could just go talk to him for a minute. They reluctantly agreed and I went over to Edward who was now sitting in the chair again. There was an officer behind him, holding onto him talking on the phone. Edward's head was down and I squatted down in front of him.

I took his face in my hands and made him look at me. "Jack, I'm scared." He said.

"Don't worry, okay? I told you I would get you out of this and I will, I just need you to help me out and just listen to whatever they tell you okay?"

"Okay, Jack." I kissed his forehead once, because I hate seeing my brother this scared and I wanted to reassure him.

"I love you, little brother."

"Love you, Jack." He mumbled.

"We have to go now." The officer took Edward out and put him in the police car. I looked around and saw that the guy who was beating up my brother must have left because he was no longer in the room. I went back to Ashley and told her I had to go but I would call her, she said she understood and gave me a kiss on the cheek. On the way out I saw Heidi sitting at the bar with a smirk on her face. I should say something to her but I decided against it because I needed to get Edward.

I went to my car and sped down to the police station. I kept driving until all of a sudden another car whipped out in front of my car, coming towards me. I swerved so I wouldn't hit it.

Everything went black.

~End Flashback~

"It was the guy that was hitting me in the bar." I said through my tears, I could feel sobs building up, and I honestly felt like I was going to throw up. "Turns out he was a pretty big drug dealer with a lot of connections. He rode my brother off the road and killed him as a way of getting to me. He thought he wasn't going to be caught but he was. He is still in jail.

"My parents went and got me out of jail that night and I knew something was wrong when Jack wasn't there. Once we left the police station my mom and dad didn't say one thing to me until we got back to our house…"

~Flashback~

We pulled up to the house and my mom and dad walked into the house silently. I followed in behind them and knew I needed to call Jack and ask why he wasn't the one to pick me up. My parents got in the house faster than me and didn't even bother keeping the door open for me. As soon as I opened the door someone punched me in the face.

I fell to the ground and I didn't know who did it until I looked up and saw my dad standing over me with a murderous expression on his face.

"This is all your fault did you know that! You really are a useless piece of shit, Edward!"

I was so hurt and confused. "Why what happened? What is my fault?"

"It is your fault that your brother was killed last night!"

I felt like someone had pulled my heart from chest and then stomped on it. I felt like my whole world was going to come crashing down on me. "Wh-What do you mean?" I asked weakly already feeling like crying."

"Your brother is dead! And he is dead because of you! I don't even want to look at you anymore Edward! You make me sick! We know what you did at the bar and it is because of you that that guy went after your brother!" He kicked me in the stomach and then looked away from me and tried to take calming breaths. I looked over at me mother, because usually she wasn't as mean as him but she just had tears rolling down her face and looked away from me when my eyes met hers.

"Me and your mother are going to the police station and the hospital to make some arrangements. We should be about two hours. And when we get back I want you and that child out of my house."

"What? But Dad, Harper, I can't just leave with her, I don't have any money! We will starve!"

"There are plenty of homeless shelters. You can keep the rest of the money that is in your trust fund, but you will not be getting the money that is supposed to be coming to you when you turn 30."

"But there are only about a couple of thousands in there! We can't live off of that!"

"I DON'T CARE! We are leaving now. You better be out by the time we get back." They both stepped over me to get to the door and I sat back up. I leaned up against the door and drew my knees to my chest and hugged them tightly.

Tears started streaming down my face and I was a sobbing mess on the floor. I was brought out of it by the sound of small, hesitant feet on the ground. I looked up quickly to see my angel standing in the entry way of the foyer. She still had her nightgown on and was holding her blanket to her face. I suspected my parents must have left her with the butler when they came to get me.

My baby had tears running down her face and she looked so scared. "Daddy?" she said in a little voice.

"Come here, baby." She ran to me and I let my knees fall and I opened my arms for her. Once she hit my chest she started sobbing and I felt the pain in my chest ache again. But I didn't cry because I need to be strong. I need to be strong for my baby she is all I have left. I held her closely and tightly to my chest. She held onto my neck so tightly it began to hurt but I didn't care.

"Shh…my love, it's okay, Daddy's here. I am so sorry, baby. I promise I will make this better. I swear."

~End Flashback~

"We stayed at a homeless shelter for about two weeks and then I met Al and he gave me a job and helped me get back on my feet. And then three months after Jack died, and me and Harper just moved into my apartment, a social worker was at my door telling me that Heidi was pregnant with my child. The only reason a social worker was there instead of Heidi was because Heidi was found in an alley passed out by drugs. They brought her to the hospital and found out she was pregnant. She was forced to stay in a rehab facility and she told them I was the father.

"They told me I had a choice to either keep the baby to take care of it, or they were going to take her into state's custody. There was no way I could just abandon my child so I agreed to take her. They told me I needed to prepare for the worst though, because since Heidi was doing so much drugs there was a possibility there would be complications.

"I went to the hospital when Avery was born but I was not allowed to be in the room. Heidi said she didn't want to see me. And then they brought her out and she was perfect…she was so perfect Bella." I started sobbing at that point thinking about my baby girl and how scared I was for her health. Bella let go of my hands, sat on my lap, and put her arms around my neck. She had her chest against mine and had he legs locked behind my back.

I wrapped my arms around her and continued crying and sobbing into her shoulder. She just held me tighter and she was shaking with her own tears. After I calmed down a little but, Bella spoke.

"So that is why you told me it was the worst and best night of you life? Because you lost your brother and your parents but you also got Avery?"

I nodded my head and pulled away so I could look at Bella. "No matter how many mistakes I made that night, and how much it was my fault that my brother is dead, I also got my Avery that night. And how can I look at my beautiful daughter and see how amazing, alive, and vibrant she is and think of it as a mistake? I love both of my girls with every fiber of my being. And I always will.

"But now I think you can understand why it is such a hard thing for me to talk about, because I miss Jack all the time. He was my rock, he helped me whenever I needed him, right to the end. But I can't stop feeling guilty for what happened because it was my fault."

"It wasn't your fault, Edward. You weren't the one who rode him off the road."

"Maybe not, but I was the reason he was there in the first place. When Avery was still a newborn, I had a hard time dealing with the pain and guilt I felt when it came to Jack. But then I realized that Jack wouldn't want me to not be there for my girls and he would want me to be happy."

"He is probably so proud of you right now, Edward." I felt myself sob again at just hearing her words because she was right, Jack was proud of me wherever he is. He was always proud of me no matter what I did. I held onto Bella tighter.

"But I feel like I am getting better. I feel like now I can get better, now that you are with me, Bella and I hope that doesn't scare you."

"That doesn't scare me at all, Edward. I love you." She said while looking into my eyes.

"I love you, too." I whispered and I meant it. I loved Bella. She made me feel better all the time, she made me feel whole. I brought her face to mine and kissed her to show her just how much I loved her.

I felt much better now that I got all of that off of my chest. I am happy Bella was here and was willing to listen about my life, and actually care about it.

And now with a cleared up mind and the woman I love in my arms kissing me, I was finally able to see the good I have done instead of all of the bad. I have a job that I work hard at. I make just enough money to keep a roof over my family's head and food for them to eat. I have an amazing girlfriend that I love deeply. And I have two beautiful daughters who were both turning out to be smart, caring and strong individuals.

I hope you are proud of me, big brother because I am proud of myself.

And he says reach for the girl,

Reach for the girl and hold her close.

Believe you can shine when you're silver,

And I promise you gold; I promise you gold.

And whenever you're dark inside

Don't let go; no, don't let go.

Remember there's rain and there's candy and Christmasy winter snow

And remember I love you the same

And I'll strangle your pain

And he tells me to sing

So I sing, and I sing

For my brother who keeps me safe

And tells me everything will be OK.

For My Brother, by Blue October


So there you have it! So what do you guys think? Is it anything you expected? Was it predictable? What do you think of Jack? Edward's parents? Heidi?

Now I am sorry to say this but I will not be able to get another chapter out today like I have been doing because my hands hurt. This chapter is freaking long. My hands are cramping and I think I need a little break. Tomorrow I have something in the morning, but later in the day, the next chapter will be up.

I really hoped you all liked it, but don't think I am done yet! There is a lot more coming to you in the future!

Please leave some feedback because I worked damn hard on this chapter and I have a pain in my wrists and hands to prove it!

Oh and you should definitely check out the song in this chapter. It is really beautiful.

Review Please!