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Bella's POV
Leah hit me in the side causing me to to roll with the force of the impact. I felt a sudden, sharp pain in my hind leg and realised she was biting me. Twisting round I bit her tail causing her to growl and let go. I backed away until I felt the ground disappear from beneath my paws and realised she had forced me to the edge of the cliff. I could either attack or wait for her to pounce and force me off the edge and there was no way I'd let that happen now. Leah was about to pounce when Sam's booming command rang through my mind "Stop now!" Leah lowered her head, whining softly and, not knowing what else to do, I followed suit.
Sam had managed to phase into his wolf form during the fight but had only intervened using commands, showing me just how childish (or normal?) our fight must have been. "I brought you here to help her, Leah. Not attack her for something she had no control over" Sam chided Leah, "Now help her. I'll be waiting at the edge of the forest." With that, Same padded off and I could tell he had phased back when I could no longer sense his frustration, anger or worry.
I felt Leah's wolf eyes boring into me; glaring at me, it seemed, going by the thoughts coming from her mind. Words like bitch and other, more unsavoury things. "Leah, I thought, preparing to calm her down "I'm sorry for whatever I did that upset you...believe me, it wasn't intentional." Leah growled, "You chose Edward over Jake; you ruined his life and now you're only back because you phased. Why should I help you?" The venom and hatred in Leah's voice was surprising, even for her, making me hate myself more and more for the pain I had caused Jake. "I had to choose," I whispered, "I couldn't have both forever...I had to make a decision and I chose Edward, the man I love." Leah's glare intensified "Love? You think those bloodsucking freaks are capable of love!" I backed away from Leah's ferocity, thinking that it was going to end in another fight and Sam would now be too far away to stop it quickly.
"Listen, Bella," Leah murmured, "I'm going to help you...but that doesn't make us friends. OK?" I nodded in response. "I need you to understand, you can't just expect to be accepted into our group. You can choose to leave and no one will hold it against you...no one will even need to know; Sam and I won't tell anyone if you don't want us to." Leah padded around slowly, her eyes darting in amongst the branches and into the distance; becoming agitated. "Come Bella, we should go for a run, it helps." Leah jogged off and I followed, albeit clumsily, "You need to feel calm and imagine letting go of the wolf" Leah's pace increased as I struggled to keep up. "Picture yourself as a wolf and then imagine that wolf becoming you, let yourself back in and let the wolf rest."
I followed Leah's instructions, imagining myself as a wolf and changing back to normal; allowing a calmness to enter my mind. Leah's thoughts of her first experience of phasing helped me a lot; her emotions and worries were the same as mine. I imagined running through a forest and seeing Edward in the distance, I needed to change back before he saw me; he couldn't know what I had become. I imagined nearing the forest border and suddenly phasing back and Edward finding and taking me to his house...to make me a vampire.
I suddenly collapsed as a shudder ran through my body. My arms and legs stretched out, pain racing through them. A howl ripped out of my lips as another pain shook my body. I dug my claws into the ground waiting for the pain to stop, struggling to stay conscious. As suddenly as it had begun, it had finished. I was lying on the floor, shaking, as someone put a blanket over me. "I keep these here for when it gets cold," Leah explained as I sat up and looked around. My sight, hearing and smell had returned to a little higher than normal, which seemed weird. Strange what a short time as a werewolf could do to me"It won't be as painful next time," Leah muttered, "you'll be able to change more quickly as well. It takes a while to get used to though." A sad smile crept on to Leah's face making me wonder how much her being a werewolf had changed her life and how it had forced her to remember her time with Sam and cope with his imprinting all over again. Leah suddenly looked uncomfortable and annoyed as if she remembered that she didn't like me. She said a quiet "bye" and ran off, leaving me alone in the increasing dark of the evening. I looked around to see how far she had taken me and realised we were at the boundary. I had to make my choice. Again.
Leah's POV
I walked off thinking about what I'd just done. I'd left Bella at the boundary to make her choice, stay with us and join the pack or try and continue life with Edward; loving someone she is meant to kill. I understand her desire to keep trying to be with Edward, to make it work, but I can't forgive her for the pain she's caused Jake and the torment she put him through. She led him on, making him believe that she loved him just to go and break his heart by going to Edward after he had left her. I don't understand how she could do that to him, he was supposed to have been her best friend...you don't do that to friends. And you don't become friends with a werewolf and a vampire...it just doesn't work; they'd want to kill each other. She made it worse for both of them.
It'll be easier if she goes off on her own or tries to be with Edward. That way she won't come back; she chose them before so she doesn't belong with the pack. She's a bloodsucker at heart so belongs with them, not with us.
I ran to the place where Sam was waiting "She's making her choice," I told him, "It'll be best if we don't mention anything to the others; It'll only upset them and stir things up." Sam glared at me and growled "you don't make the choices here, Leah. I do. I will decide if they need to know or not." With that he stormed off. "Wait, Sam," I shouted, running to catch up, "if you tell anyone it'll make it worse...think about what it would do to Jake. I can't watch him go through that again; it's sad and also annoying when I can hear all his depressing thoughts." Sam sighed, "Don't you think about anyone else Leah? I know his thoughts are overbearing but we just need to deal with them and help him cope. But...I guess you're right, we should keep all this secret for now. At least until we know what choice she makes."
Bella's POV
I sat at the boundary wondering what to do, whether to go to the pack or return to Edward. The pack would help me through this and would, hopefully, accept me as one of them. They would keep me safe and I would help them chase down vampires who kill people; I'd do what I was meant to do as a werewolf. But...would they actually welcome me? After what I did to Jake? Probably not. I need to be with people who want me and don't care about any of the choices I've made recently and won't hate me for being a werewolf.
I want to go back to Edward, he loves me and I love him; we were made for each other. He will understand and help me. The Cullens are already like a family to me, they accept me for who I am and will accept me for what I have become. I can't live without them, I can't live without Edward.
Having made my choice, I stood up and crossed the boundary onto the Cullens' side. I ran down the road towards their house and called a taxi which arrived five minutes later. As the car drove towards the Cullen house, it began to rain heavily. Through the downpour, I glimpsed a flash of red in the trees and turned around to get a better view but the taxi had already passed it.
I got out of the taxi, about a five minute walk from the Cullen house, and paid the driver. I walked the rest of the way to house and tried to calm my beating heart before I went to meet Edward. My feet crunched on the path as I made my way to the front door making me feel more nervous with every step. I slowly ascended the steps to the front door and was about to ring the bell when the door opened. Edward stood there in all his magnificence and it was all I could do not jump into his arms and melt in the gaze of his butterscotch eyes. I smiled slowly and stepped towards him but he quickly stepped back and shook his head. "Bella, I can smell it on you. I saw it happen. Everything has changed." My lip trembled but I would not let myself cry, I had to be strong. "I love you, Edward," I whispered, "please, I didn't want this to happen. I want to be with you...forever." Edward started shaking his head, "we're natural enemies...it just won't work." He stepped outside and gestured for me to follow, we walked into the forest and sat down on a fallen tree trunk.
Edward looked up at the sky and sighed, "I wish it could work, Bella. I really do. It would take so much work from both of us, we'd have to both be so dedicated." I stood up in front of Edward and held his hands "I'm dedicated to us, Edward, I want it to work. I love you more than you can think. You still love me...don't you?" Edward nodded but still looked troubled, "I'm a vampire, you're a werewolf; it just doesn't work. We could try but I don't know how long we could last. You smell wonderful to me, even though you are a werewolf, but I don't know how you will smell to my family. We can't risk a confrontation between all of us, it would lead to bloodshed." Edward started to walk away as my breath whooshed out in a hiss of frustration. I ran to stand in front of him, "Yes, Edward, I'm a werewolf now. But I'm still Bella, the woman you fell in love with. We can make it wo-" Edward shook his head and tried to walk past me but I stood in his way, "Bel-" before he could finish my name I stood up on my tiptoes and kissed him. At first, his cold, hard lips were unyielding, but then he accepted the kiss and returned it with his own. His lips became loving and his arms slipped around my waist as he trailed soft kisses down my neck. I gasped and held on to him; if we could kiss, we could make all this work. Edward softly nipped at my neck and a moan escaped my lips before I could stop it. Edward suddenly backed away and looked anywhere but at me, embarrassed. I stepped forward and hugged him, wrapping my arms around him and waiting for his chin to rest on my head. "I love you, Bella" he whispered as I snuggled into the love of his embrace. We could make It work and we would, "I love you too, Edward." I smiled and leant up to kiss him again.
Summary:
Oh my god, been such a long time +.+. I don't know if anyone is actually still into this story :P but I got a sudden urge to write again. I've made this chapter longer as all my other chapters were incredibly short. Hope you all like It :) please R + R.
