Little Glimpses of Love
9; Unable to Resist.
A/N; Hello! Welcome to the 9th ficlet! This one deals with TOW The Chick and the Duck. I do not like how they end things with Ross and Rachel after all those cute little scenes and the fact that Ross gives up a change to be on TV for her. After that staring match, I was sure something was about to happen but it didn't so I took it on myself to alter the scene to my and I'm sure your liking as well. I'm starting this one with that scene so that is in bold.
Enjoy!
"What thing? What is this thing?".
"Ah I was kinda supposed to be on TV tonight for the Discovery Channel", Ross replied
Rachel gave him a look of disbelieve, "Oh my God. Ross?, Why didn't you tell me that?"
Ross just shrugged a bit, "Cuz I knew that if I told you, you'd make me go and I know you needed someone to be with you tonight.", he grabbed her hand and started walking with her again.
"Come on......Cooome on"
"I cannot believe you", Rachel said shaking her head.
"What?"
"That is the sweetest thing, I...I Just", she let out a sigh and just stared at him. Ross stared back for what seemed like minutes but was just only seconds. But in those few seconds, he could definitely feel something between them, There was a certain tension that hung between them and it wasn't the bad kind. He took a breath and broke eye contact for just a moment.
"You should get some sleep", he said.
"Okay"
"So I'll uhm", Ross started but was interrupted by Rachel.
"I'm sorry I spoiled your evening"
"No that's ...no as long as you're okay", Ross chuckled , "So I'll uh I'll see you tomorrow"
"Yeah", Rachel replied turning around to see him open the door.
He glanced back at her and just stood still in the door opening. Rachel stared back at him. She didn't know why but suddenly she just didn't want him to leave just yet.
Ross licked his lips slightly as he kept staring at her standing in the middle of the room, supporting her sore side with her hands.
He wanted to just shut the door and leave, but he found himself unable to move.
He missed her, he missed her so much . That moment they just shared, meant everything to him. He had wanted to lean in and kiss her so badly right then and there but he knew he couldn't.
But seeing her stand there just looking at him with those piercing blue eyes of hers got him paralyzed. He didn't know what to do.
Rachel couldn't break free from his gaze, she wouldn't even try. They had been so close just moments ago and just thinking about what he did for her, what he gave up just so that she wouldn't have to be alone, made her heart beat just that bit faster. That really was the sweetest thing and it reminded her of their time together, he'd been sweet and tender with her just like he had tonight as he had stood by her side in the hospital and brought her home.
Ross was having a fight with himself in his head. He was having strange thoughts of kissing her right then and there and just act upon his feelings. But he had to be rational, he couldn't do that anymore. They were over, they had been over for quite a while now and he had no right to even think of kissing her or holding her.
But it was hard not too, he still saw her practically every day, and every day his resistance crumbled more and more like a fragile glass wall that had been struck by thousands of little pebble stones creating endless scratches and cracks until the wall was not be able to stand up any longer.
He could feel his defense slipping as he let go of the doorknob, he was unable to resist the emotional turmoil that plagued him in this very moment and he didn't even think of the consequences his actions may cause. Al he knew is, that he had to feel her again, just hold her close to him again, even if it was just for the smallest amount of time.
Without thinking twice, he crossed the floor to where she was standing stil staring up at him. Without hesitation he gently took her face in his hands and pressed his mouth against hers in a soft lingering kiss, he broke away almost immediately only to wrap his arms gently around her shoulders before he brushed his lips against hers again, this time keeping them there, firmly pressed against her mouth.
Rachel's eyes widened a considerable amount as she had felt the light touch on her mouth, it was gone just as soon as she had felt it. But them his arms went around her shoulders and he kissed her again, but this time he kept his mouth on hers . She wanted to protest, she wanted to push him away but a much larger part of herself wanted to just give in and enjoy the moment. She slowly closed her eyes and hesitantly moved her mouth in reaction to him. Her arms left her sides and gripped at his sweater as they wrapped themselves around his waist.
The moment he felt her react , Ross deepened the kiss. This felt so good, so wonderful. He had missed her so much and he poured every feeing he was feeling into it, hoping that somehow she could read them.
Their mouths moved in perfect sync as they softly explored each other again. Rachel sighed into him, her knees felt weak and she didn't know if she would be able to stand without the support of his arms. She felt so many things at once that it overwhelmed her and that frightened her a little. She was afraid she might lose control.
Ross broke away slightly, his eyes were still closed as he stole a few last innocent nips before he buried his face in her neck near her ear. He kept holding her close to him, he needed this moment to last just a little longer before he would go back to reality.
Rachel rested her head against his shoulder, she didn't dare to speak. She didn't want for him to let go of her yet. She had missed his arms around her, she had missed his gentle touches and his gentle kisses but she didn't know if she would be ready to be with him just yet and that thought scared her.
Silent tears made their way down her cheeks, she bit her her lip as a soft sob escaped her, she was so confused right now.
Ross hugged her tighter to himself , careful not to hurt her broken rib. He knew how she must be feeling because he was pretty sure he felt the same way.
He placed a soft kiss behind her ear.
"I'm sorry", he whispered . He didn't know if he apologized for kissing her or for everything that had happened that caused them to break up, but he hoped that she would accept it.
He gently pushed her back so that they were not hugging anymore and lifted her chin , he smiled at her and wiped away her tears with his thumb.
Then without saying a word he let go of her and turned away. He walked towards the open door and grabbed the knob. Taking one last glance at her, he pulled the door close behind him.
Rachel blinked as she wiped at her eyes. A small smile formed around her lips. Even though she knew this didn't change anything between them just yet, she knew she'd never regret this moment.
"See ya", she whispered towards the closed door before turning around and walking into her room, closing the door softly behind her.......
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