[ VII ] Seventh Blood / Setting Sun


This...

This is...

This is…confusion?

I…I do not know… I seem to not understand… this is unfamiliar and so very strange…

…Oh…

I see now. That…confirms my fears, then.

This is…fear.

What I am feeling is fear. Then is this the fear of failure? No. That cannot be, for I have already failed. That is something to be meaninglessly afraid of in that case. Then if failure is not to fear because it has already come to pass, then–

–Death. This is the fear of death; the most base of all feelings that a person can know.

...This is what it means to know how what a human feels like.

Is this what you meant, Gawain? Is this what you wanted me to know, to experience firsthand? Was this the reason? To become king, I had to learn what it means to be human? In order for that to happen, in order for me to be complete, I had to lose something?

This is…sadness.

But…yet…

This is…acceptance.

Even though I am dissolving away into component data to be assimilated into the Moon Cell's operating system, I feel this way that I do. Even though I lost when I was so close to finally receiving what should be mine, I harbor neither disgust nor denial nor even do I direct anger towards you. Now of all times is when I finally accept what it was that I was missing all along.

…So this is what it means to embrace humanity.

I…I suppose I have to thank you for this, Gawain. But, I really should be thanking you, if anything. Because I never could have become a king like this. I would have been unfit to rule humanity. I would have been so unsuitable to take on the mantle of king because a prince like me has so much that he still needs to learn.

It flies in the face of my birthright as a Harway, but I surely would have been the wrong choice.

Oh, how I wish I knew all that before this happened.

This is…regret.


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