Title Of Story: To Good To Be True
Chapter Number: 8
Chapter Name: Next Step
Felicity
For the past three weeks I know have been acting really strange, not myself and Oliver has noticed. I have been really distant with everyone and not 100% focused on the job at hand, the guys were becoming more worried about me. They have asked me multiple times to tell them what's wrong with me but I keeps telling them I'm fine. Oliver has tried his best to try and find out what I am hiding but I was keeping my secret to well hidden. Oliver even took to asking Ray if I was ok but Ray told them that I was fine when I was with him… which is a lie.
Me and Ray had a huge fight five nights ago and he completely lost it on me. He hurt me more then he has ever hurt me before, he didn't just slap me or something he actually beat me up like he was in a bar fight. I was covered in bruises and cuts so I came up with some cover story and told Oliver I was ill and couldn't come in for Arrow duty. He said he hoped I got better soon and he would try and come see me so he could see for himself that I was ok.
He had come to my home to try and see me two nights ago but I didn't want him to see me so Ray opened the door. I heard Oliver say he was worried about me and he wanted me to call him so he knew I was ok but I didn't call him back, I knew if I started talking to him I would break down and end up telling him all of my dirty secrets that I would rather keep hidden. I didn't want him or anyone knowing that I was in a violent and destructive relationship.
My bruises and cuts had cleared up enough for me to cover it with make up and I could go back to Arrow duty. Ray was away on business for the next three days so I was free to go and see Oliver and my other friends. I was free to be apart or Arrow for a couple days before Ray comes back and I have to come up with another excuse. I knew that if I keep coming up with excuses then Oliver and the other were going to start suspecting things and answering questions I would rather not answer.
I walked into the Arrow lair and saw Oliver working out, I smiled slightly. He must have heard me because he stopped and turned around to see me "Hey! You feeling better?" He asked me.
"Much better thanks" I replied.
He walked towards me putting his shirt on and I took my seat at the computers, Oliver came and leaned against the table and took a drink of water "I was getting worried about you… I came to see you the other night and Ray was supposed to tell you to call me" He told me.
"Yeah he did but I forgot" I replied hoping he would drop the subject.
"Look I know that there is something else going on with you but I just can't figure out what it is. When you keep secrets from me I worry and when I'm worrying about you I can't be focused on being the Arrow… I know you must have your reasons for keeping whatever it is a secret, but you must know by now that keeping secrets never ends well" He explained to me.
I didn't know how to respond to that so I just kept quiet, Oliver placed a hand on my shoulder before walking back over to the salmon ladder to continue his workout. I thought I had been keeping my emotions in well enough to hide the fact that there was a problem, obviously not. If Oliver could notice it then so can a lot of people and that had me worried. Would they start asking me questions? Would Oliver bring the heat on more? Will he guess it has something to do with Ray?
My phone started ringing but as I was so deep in thought it made me jump. I looked at the caller ID and saw it was Ray, I couldn't ignore it as much as I wanted to "Hey" I said as I answered.
"Why are you at Verdant?" He asked angrily.
"You're tracking me?" I asked quietly so Oliver wouldn't hear.
"Sneaking out to see Oliver whilst I'm away… classy girl" He said sarcastically.
I looked over at Oliver to make sure he wasn't listening "Don't speak to me like that. I'm not doing anything with Oliver. I am allowed to leave my house and socialise with people" I told him.
"Just get home right now" He ordered and hung up.
A tear slipped down my cheek and before I could wipe it Oliver saw "What's the matter?" He asked me as he rushed over to me but I just shook my head "C'mon Felicity it's not like you to be keeping secrets from me, just tell me what is going on and I can help you" He told me.
"I need to go" I stated and picked my bag up.
"Why?" He asked as I raised up from my chair.
"I don't need to give you a reason, it's my life!" I snapped before storming out.
I didn't mean to snap at Oliver but I was so frustrated with everything going on right now. Ray was treating me bad and I didn't know how to end it without it going wrong. Oliver had done nothing but be my friend and he was trying his hardest to help me without even knowing what the problem was. I knew if I told him what was going on then there is that chance that he or Digg or Roy will end up killing Ray or really hurting him. I didn't want that. I wanted to try and end things fast and without any backlash, which I knew was impossible.
When I got home I unlocked the door and slammed it shut behind me, I stood there in shock when I saw Ray standing there in my living room. He wasn't even supposed to be in the state and yet here he is in my living room. I knew it was going to be a bad night after the phone conversation we had when I was in the lair "So you finally managed to drag yourself away from your bit on the side?" He questioned.
"Ray I promise it isn't like that at all… me and Oliver are just friends. There was feelings between us in the past but I'm with you now and I think you need to get over the fact that me and Oliver are still friends" I explained to him.
"Don't give me your petty little excuses. Seems like you're putting out for everyone except me and that is about to change" He told me and grabbed my arm, he started dragging me towards the bedroom and then he threw me onto my bed "You are mine and I don't want you to ever forget it" He said before getting on top of me and kissing me harshly.
When it was over Ray got dressed and told me he had to leave for a meeting. He had to fly to Boston, I was thankful he was leaving but he told me he would be keeping track of my phone so if I left the house he would know about it. Once he had left I brought my knees up to my chest, hugging them, and then I started crying. Once I started I couldn't stop and I was finally letting everything out… all of the hurt, pain, confusion, loneliness and sadness out but it didn't seem to help. In fact it just drained me.
I woke up the next morning and decided to call in sick to work. There were some things I wanted to do today but I was gonna be smart and leave my phone here when I went out so he couldn't trace it. He will probably call and wonder where I am as I'm not at work but I will just tell him I was sleeping or something… I'll think of something.
The first thing I wanted to do was have a shower. I needed to cleanse myself of what had happened last night. I scrubbed my body so hard I was starting to go red, I decided to stop before I started peeling skin off. I got out of the shower once I felt satisfied I was clean and then brushed my teeth before getting dressed.
After I was ready for the day ahead I stripped the bed sheets and put them in the wash to clean off any evidence of last night. As if washing the sheets would make it seem like it never happened, we all know it won't work but I was gonna do it anyway. It didn't take me long to strip the bed clothes and put them in the wash so I decided to do chore number three.
I went to the local pharmacy and got the morning after pill. I wasn't on any contraception because I wasn't sleeping with anyone and I'm sure Ray didn't use a condom last night, the last thing I need is to end up pregnant with his baby. I could sense the judgmental-ness coming from the woman behind me but I didn't care, the mood I was in today she could suck it.
When I got home I called the doctors and made an appointment to go on some form of birth control in case I ever find myself in that position again. I wasn't sure what type of contraception to go on but hopefully after an appointment with the doctor I will know more about the different types and find one that suits me.
I hated this.
