Chapter 9 WOW

"Surprise"

I couldn't even speak, I had lost my voice. What? How? All these questions entered my mind. I just wanted to runaway and crawl under a bed. But finally after a few moments of silence I found my voice and said the name of the person behind the door.

"Jonathan" I said softly

" Marisol" he said softly

" What are you doing here?"

" I came to see you."

As we stood at the door way, I began to observe what 5 years had done to Jonathan, his hair got lighter and he grew a bit more. He now stood around 6ft 1. He was well built, and was still as handsome as ever. He was wearing a black polo shirt, with khaki cargo pants. As I continued to observe him, all of a sudden the feelings that i had tried so hard to keep away re-surface. I felt like i was 17 again and all those feelings of love for this man came rushing back. But before I could think any further in to those feelings, Theresa's voice interrupted my thoughts.

" Hey whose at the door"

"Um, its um Jonathan"

"Jonathan, as in Jonathan a business associate?"

"No"

"Jonathan as in…"

"17 again, yeah that one" I couldn't muster anything else to say I was still in the initial shock of seeing him. I would have never have thought in all my dreams I would see the blue-eyed guy again.

" Can I come in?"

" Ah, yeah"

He walked in to the house and gave it a look. I could sense Theresa looking at me, but I wasn't ready to look at her quite yet.

" I guess your wondering why I am here"

" Yeah I would have come to the same conclusion"

"well marisol I haven't seen you nor talked to you in more than five years, and I guess I have some questions for you, such as why?"

" Why?" I asked quietly

" Yes why?! Why did you go without even saying a goodbye, you just disappeared from the face of the earth!"

"umm"

"Oh hi my name is Theresa, nice to meet you"

Jonathan and I both turned to Theresa. I guess I had forgotten that she was still in the room. But God bless her heart, trying to get all the attention off of me. But I knew one day I would have to face the music. And confront Jonathan, but I always imagined it in my death bed or his, but never both of us alive and well. Just as I was about to speak Jonathan replied back.

" uh nice to meet you too Theresa, I haven't seen you in a long time either, but if don't mind I would like to speak to marisol alone"

I wanted to yell out no! Don't leave me alone I can't face him.

" Um marisol are you ok with that?"

"yeah" I said. I just didn't have the heart to say no.

" well than I will just go for a walk then"

After Theresa had left I signaled Jonathan to the patio.

" So um where were we?"

" I believe I asked a question"

" Right, um why. Okay this is a long story, and in some parts you may not believe me. But I will tell it to you anyway, but I do not want you to interrupt me."

" Fine, and I have all day"

" where should I start?"

" How about the beginning"

" Right stupid question"

I stood silent for a slight second trying to gather all the thoughts that I had once again locked up deep inside of me after telling both Dylan and Theresa. It felt like deja vu I realized as the story of my fucked up past again re surfaced. Telling the story, my story to the same man who had managed to steal my heart those many years ago felt fresh. It still hurt thinking about the fact that maybe just maybe he had purposely meant to hurt me those years ago. It was then I realized that Jonathan came on his own to find out what happened between us so he couldn't of set out to hurt me. That wasn't possible. Hours after the whole truth left my lips I stood there shaken and a little bit out of whack. I turned to face him and looked him deeply in his eyes He stood silently as if he were trying to absorb it all. The thing is it was taking too freakin long!

After I finished I guess he was beginning to process all I had said. Finally after a couple minutes, he replied.

"wow"

" wow, that's all you have to say. IS WOW! I just told you all the BS I went through and you say wow, like I went to the World series and won it"

" Well marisol what do you expect me to say, let me guess you want sympathy, well guess what you lost sympathy when you left, at least you could have called err something but no you left and never even bothered to give me a good bye or even later a phone call, a letter, any means of communication, nothing. You dropped me like I was a fly"

" What you expected me to say all of that over the phone or in a letter! I can't believe this, I am not asking for fucken sympathy I am asking for more than a wow. God you don't know anything I went through at all. I sacrificed leaving all my family and everything that I had known since my parents died."

" I don't know anything you went through, how about what I went through. God marisol have you become selfish or what. I loved you so much, I tried to commit suicide twice because I couldn't figure out why you left, everyone would try to cheer me up, but it never worked. I couldn't sleep or eat, all I thought about was you. Until one day I decide that I was going to look for you I cleaned myself up went of to college, after that I decide to look to hire a private investigator. He would cook up leads and I could follow them. But every lead I would get would be a dead-end. So last spring I decide to give up once and for all. But something told me take on one more lead. And let me say this lead has led me all over the country. But I didn't know for certain it was you until you went to harmony, that's when I knew I had found you. I sacrificed a lot for you too, and now that I found you and finally know what happened it all makes sense"

" What makes sense"

" why that night my mother called. I left you and went quickly to the hospital, but when I arrived my mother wasn't there, I asked the nurses if she had come at all. And they said no. So that's when I began to wonder, how she knew of Fathers accident. Then about a couple hours later I received a phone call from your aunt saying that you hadn't come home, I went in hysterics, so I asked the nurses if my father was going to be fine, they said he would and I left. I went looking around for you. For 3 days your cousins, me, the police searched for you. But we all came up empty handed. And at the forth day Alistar came and told us that maybe you were fine and that you just wanted to disappear. After a few weeks passed you wrote a letter to your aunt saying you were ok. And that gave me hope that you would write to me too, but you didn't. That crushed me"

" I am sorry I couldn't face you, I loved you so much that it killed me. Once I tried to write but Alistar warned me not too, he said that you probably moved on. I hate to admit this but I believe him, and didn't write. I am sorry Jonathan, I am. But you need to understand I couldn't stay in Harmony, the memories would have destroyed me."

" I couldn't move on marisol. Girls tried to get me to go out with them but I couldn't, I felt that I was cheating on you. To this day I haven't had a serious relationship, my parents have begged me already to settle down but I couldn't. I still can't believe what my mother did to you and Whitney! They will pay for this, mark my words."

" Don't worry, I have that taken care of"

" Uh, marisol there is another reason why, I wanted to look for you"

" really what?"

"To tell you I still loved you"

"You love me…"

" I always have and always will"

In that moment he leaned in and kissed me, first it was just a kiss, but then it became full of passion and need. I hadn't kissed him since I was 17. And god did it feel so good. But as we continued to kiss Dylan instantly popped in to my head, and I stopped kissing.

" what's wrong?"

" I, we, can't do this, I am an a relationship"

" a relationship, with who?"

"Me"

We both turned around and I saw Dylan. I could see the hurt in his eyes. I did that hurt. I jumped from my seat and immediately went up to him.

"I can explain"

"You sure will, because no way in hell am I going to let you go. I have fought way to hard for you to open up to me I won't let this who ever this ass is take you away from me"

" This ass your talking about is me. I am Jonathan"

"Jonathan, as in Jonathan…when she was 17"

" Yes the one and only"

" Well look here Jonathan, I don't care what you had with her, I have her now"

" Well see about that, you see this reminds me of the song of Usher " My boo" You may have her now but I have her heart"

"You weren't kids"

"I guess not, but we were young and in-love."

And with that Jonathan left. How could my life get so fuck up in just a matter of hours. I am falling for Dylan, but I still love Jonathan and that kiss proves that.

A/N: Thanks you all who have reviewed i appreiciated it, and thanks to my beta sandy4eva she is the best. i hope you all read her stories as well. Oh and thanks who have reviewed and voted for a new life i will be updating like tommorrow or the next day so look out for that. Thanks

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