AN: so here is the next chapter it's long I know but Edward likes to talk, hope you all enjoy it
Once again I do not own twilight the beautifully and talented Stephenie Meyer does, if I did I would be a rich women and would not have to worry about such things as getting in an accident and ruining my hubs truck.
Hope I can get the next chapter up within the next week before I am lounging on a deck of a cruise ship in the Carribean, and I am really hoping our ship does not hit a rock and we have to jump ship, cause that might be the end of Motocrossward.
EPOV:
Emmett was relentless tonight trying to get me to open up and talk to him, he decided that a game of tennis might help relax me I gave in but told him to get ready to have his ass kicked. After his phone call with his dream girl he never laid off asking me question after question, with every serve of the ball he would say something about just dating blondes, never bringing a girl home, calling me a manwhore. And every return I would pound the ball harder, Thank god the ball hitting him in the face ended our game and he finally laid off.
So it takes a ball to the face to get him to shut up I'll have to remember that. I felt kind of bad, here he was just trying to talk to me, he was my older brother and I should be able to open up and talk to him, but for some reason I felt closer to Alice and opened up to her instead. After a nice refreshing swig of water we parted ways, he went into his room probably to jack off to images of his new girl, me to my room alone.
I closed my eyes trying to remember anything about her. Her delectable scent, she smelled like heaven all strawberries and freesia and Bella, I remember the way her eyes would light up when she laughed, or that beautiful blush that creeped up her cheeks when she got embarrassed. I clutched my chest it hurt so much she left a gaping hole one that would never be filled God knows I've tried oh how I've tried but I just cant seem to be able to open up to anyone, she ruined me.
The pain of having the life sucked out of me is mine to bear; I forced myself upon her thus ending her life. If only I would have listened to my father when he called me at that morning and told me to get on the train in Chicago, the one going to San Francisco. His final words when I showed up at his house still haunt me to this day. " I don't want you speak to anybody here is the ticket." He shoved it in my hands I tried to give it back; he just got redder in the face I knew the rage was coming. " Don't you dare try to cross me son, you saw what I'm capable of, do you want to become just like your mother." I cringed and fell back against the wall putting my hands up to defend myself. " Here is some money to get you there, trust me son there will be people looking for you, I need you to do this for me please. Our lives will be so much better after this, it will be the last time I ask you to do anything for me." Yeah of course it would have been the last time he asked me to do something for him, he sent me there to die.
The bastard new exactly what he was doing, my life was not going in the direction he wanted it to go, he wanted me to become him. I screamed in my pillow. He got exactly what he deserved when agent Swan ended his life. I hated that man for being the one to tell me that the only person I felt a connection to was dead but he saved my life, gave me Carlisle, Esme and a family. I got the chance to have a mother in my life, even though I was in my twenties when I showed up on their doorstep, she welcomed me with open arms. It's been 5 years since I have seen him; the last time was the day I buried the love of my life. He stood back as I poured my heart and soul to her closed casket begging her to forgive me. I was never raised with any kind of religion in my life but I just knew that Bella was somewhere good, she just had to be her heart was pure as gold. He stood there with his sunglasses and a smug ass grin on his face. He got what he wanted then he washed his hands of me and gave me my new family. The only words he uttered to me that day were just don't become like your father Edward and you will never have to see me again.
I must have fallen asleep at sometime, cause the next thing I knew my alarm was blaring I sat up the sheets clinging to my bare chest from the sweat. I needed caffeine pronto, my head was throbbing, but a shower would need to come first.
I closed my eyes as the hot water streamed against my sore muscles; riding today was going to be a treat. I reached for my shampoo and poured some into my hands, I was assaulted by the smell of strawberries and I dropped the shampoo bottle and hit my back on the tile wall hard. I looked down fumbling for the bottle, that was not my shampoo, I had no clue who Alberto Baslam was, nor do I want my hair smelling like a fucking fruit. Fuck I needed to get out of here it smells like her. I turned off the water. So much for a shower, I dried myself off grabbed the offending bottle of shampoo threw on my boxers and gray shorts and headed upstairs.
" No, shirt no service." Alice said as she pointed to the sign above the doorway I just walked through.
I walked over to the coffeepot and poured myself a cup trying to ignore the little pixie. " Get over it Sis, and may I ask what this shit is." I threw the bottle of shampoo on the counter in front of her.
" It was on sale." She just shrugged her shoulders.
" I do not want my hair smelling like some god damn fruit." I pulled out the front of my waistband took a look down at my dick and looked back up at her." Yep have a cock and balls, I'm a guy not a chic Alice."
" Eww just eww."
" Yeah well you can think about that next time you put anything fruity in my bathroom."
" What the hell is this." Emmett came storming into the kitchen; he had a bottle of some orange shampoo in his hand. Looks like he gets to smell fruity today too.
" Ask the pixie making pancakes."
" Really Alice come on."
" Stop right there, I have already been informed you have a cock and balls I don't want to hear it anymore, sorry was online doing some shopping and did not feel like going out to Target to get you guys your manly shampoo." She was waving the spatula in the air.
" You said that." He guffawed, looking at me
" He not only said that he checked to make sure it was still intact before he said anything." Alice slid the last pancake off the griddle and on to the plate on the counter. Emmett fist bumped me. Alice huffed turned on her heel and walked out of the kitchen.
We both plopped down on the stools and dug in. Damn my sis can cook. What would we do without her definitely starve that's for sure or gain 100 pounds eating take out?
"Mmm, I sure hope Rose can cook." Emmett shoved another forkful into his mouth the syrup dripping from the corner of his mouth.
" It's surprising you can pick up women eating like that." I was disgusted.
" I've already charmed them with my good looks before we even sit down to eat."
Was he serious? " Yeah keep telling yourself that."
" Whatever dude, your just jealous cause I get all the girls." He waved his fork in the air.
" Hardly." I coughed.
Emmett turned on his stool and pointed at me. " What is your problem man, I finally found someone that I might want to spend the rest of my life with and here you are giving me a hard time about it, are you not suppose to be happy for me."
" I'm your little brother aren't I suppose to give you a hard time." I smiled at him and grabbed another pancake of the plate and poured syrup on it.
He slammed his fork down on the counter. " Tell me Edward, what did this mystery girl do to you that makes it impossible for you to fall in love."
I shook my head, nope not going down this road, I was not ready to open myself up to Emmett, yeah I have told Alice but she's a girl she understands stuff like this. " Oh would you look at the time, I have training in thirty minutes don't want to be late." I picked up my plate and walked over to the sink rinsing it and putting it in the dishwasher.
" I'm going to get you to open up to me, mark my words."
" Not going to happen so just drop it."
He came up behind me a clapped my on the shoulder. " Can I come with you today, it's been a while since I rode, would love to just hit the dirt today."
I sighed; well at least the subject of Bella was over. " Sure meet me in the garage in five, you still got your gear?"
" Yeah think it's in the totes in the garage, thanks Edward this means a lot to me, you still have my bike right?"
I just nodded my head and left the kitchen, I knew we needed this. He's been away for so long we needed to bond again as much, I went to my room grabbed my bag and headed to the garage. I backed the truck out and hooked it up to the enclosed trailer. I opened the rear door and walked inside making sure the bikes were strapped down and all the gear, gas tanks and supplies were in there, Emmett came out with his gear bag and helmet and tossed them into me. I shimmied my way between the bikes and jumped out the door shutting and latching it. Emmett climbed in the truck and we were off.
Surprisingly Emmett was quiet the whole way to the track just taking in the scenery. We parked got everything unloaded, I strapped my boots grabbed my helmet placing it over my messy hair gave Emmett a thumbs up and kicked my bike to life, the engine purring underneath me, heading out of the parking lot to the track. Emmett caught up to me around the first loop. Emmett was a good rifer but not as good as I was, I kicked clutch up hitting the next gear and took off leaving Emmett in my dust. Riding was therapeutic to me. I felt alive anytime I was out here riding. Carlisle and Esme purchased this piece of ground for my training, it took a lot of work to get it where it is now, but one thing Carlisle taught me was if you put your heart and soul into something the hard work will always pay off.
Emmett and I rode for hours, we broke for lunch both grabbing a chair out of the trailer and a coke we plopped down and dug into the sandwiches Alice made for us. I bit into mine and closed my eyes, it's the same damn sandwich that my Bella ate that night, why is everything a constant reminder of her.
" So you ready to talk to me yet." He said with a mouthful of sandwich.
" Emmett why can't you let it go." I took a sip of my coke
" Why can't you tell me, what are you afraid of, I'm not going to judge you."
" Its just something I want to keep to myself."
" Bullshit you told Alice, don't you think that hurt's a little bit I mean come on, we are guys we should be able to talk about stuff like girls."
" I agree, but this is different."
" How, how is this any different, I know that whatever happened she must really did a number on you."
" Shut up, shut the fuck up she did not hurt me." I stood up and grabbed my helmet and took off on my bike, I rounded the first corner, I was pissed how dare he accuse Bella, if anyone did the hurting it was me. I came up over the hill, my bike left the ground and landed on the backside of the hill I laughed from the pure adrenaline rushing through my body. I pushed my bike faster and hit the second jump, I knew the minute the bike left the ground I was in trouble, and something felt off. The bike and I came down with a loud thump, I felt the slow trickle of blood seep down from the bottom of my chin and the world went black.
She was there standing in-front of me, her beautiful brown eyes searching my eyes, her scent washed over me and I knew I was in heaven I reached out for her, she did the same our finger barley grazing each other and then she turned around and ran. I finally moved running after her, her beautiful laugh was music to my ears, then she spoke and I melted " Come on Edward you have to catch me." She looked over her shoulder. I grabbed her and we fell to the ground a pile of limbs and giggling, I went to touch her face and she disappeared into thin air, I yelled out for her.
" Edward." I heard her and looked around the clearing we were in but nothing.
" Bella. Where are you love I cant see you." I yelled out to nothing but thin air.
" Edward come find me." I search again to no prevail.
" Bella." I yelled again, it was no use.
" Edward." The voice was more forceful this time and deep, not the same beautiful voice of my love.
" Edward." I opened my eyes Emmett was kneeling by me with his phone by his ear. " Carlisle he's opened his eyes looks like the handlebars got him under his chin he's going to need stitches, yeah I hear the ambulance coming, yeah I'll let you know when we are on our way." He hung up.
" Emmett, what happened." I groaned out, my bodies hurt like hell, I reached up to try and take my helmet off.
" Don't take that off, you could have a neck injury you have to lay still Edward, the EMT's are on their way, you are going to need some stitches, cut your chin right open, what were you thinking man, does anything else hurt."
" No just my pride, although I think I'm going to be soar for awhile."
" Well that's a good sign are you actually admitting that you suck at racing." He laughed.
" Shut up." I groaned it hurt to laugh. I heard the ambulance pull up the EMT's hopped out and brought the board out to put me on, they loaded me in the ambulance Emmett said he would meet us there.
Carlisle was waiting at the emergency room doors and followed the EMT's into the room. He asked what injuries I had sustained and told them he could take it from there, he got to work stitching me up then said I would need a CT scan to make sure there were no internal or head injuries and an x-ray to check for broken bones.
I was in and out of it, my head throbbed, my body felt like I was run over by a semi truck, when they wheeled me back from the CT scan and put me in the room Carlisle was there waiting for me
He held up the x-rays. " Well looks like there are no broken bones but looks like you bruised your ribs. We just need those CT scan results back now."
I closed my eyes thank you lord, my first race was coming up I did not want to miss it, I missed three last season due to injury and I was not about to have that happen this year.
Carlisle sighed. " Edward how many more crashes are you going to be able to bounce back from, how many more times are you going to come into my ER needing to be bandaged up. As much as I like seeing you during my workday I prefer to see you healthy and upright not being wheeled in on a gurney. I'm afraid one of these times we won't have this kind of outcome and it scars me."
I grumbled. He was always going off on how dangerous the sport was. The nurse knocked on the door and handed Carlisle the results. He came over and sat on my bed reading over the notes from the tech.
" Well it looks like you got lucky once again." He patted my knee. " No concussion, no internal bleeding, once Emmett gets here I'll release you but no driving I'm going to give you a strong pain killer ok, that cut on your chin was pretty bad and its going to be really sore, took twelve stitches this time."
I groaned great another scar I thought to myself. Luckily that's all it was. " Thanks dad."
" Your welcome." He got up off the bed and signed the papers releasing me. He went to open the door and stopped. " You know son have you ever thought about retiring, maybe finding that special girl and settling down."
" Dad." I warned
" Its time you let her go." I starred at him. How did he know?
" I know your hurting and you feel like its you fault, but she would want you to be happy, let her go, your mother and I want you to be happy son that's all we want for our children." He walked out the room without another word.
Emmett came barreling into the room. " Sorry man took me awhile to get everything back in the trailer, then the traffic was horrific. You Okay man."
I nodded, and sat up on the bed " Yeah let's get out of here, escaped with just the stitches and some bruised ribs."
" Lucky bastard, that was a major crash Edward scared the bejeebus out of me. You ready to tell me what you were thinking jumping on your bike like that."
" Don't Emmett I was pissed okay drop it."
He held up his hands " Okay."
The nurse knocked on the door; she had two little white pills, a cup of water and my discharged papers. She handed me the pills and water " Your dad asked me to tell you he will drop by tonight to check on you, he wants you to go home and rest, he got called into a surgery." She turned on her heel and walked out of the room leaving me to get dressed. Emmett had brought in my bag with my street shoes and my clothes in it. I slipped into the bathroom and changed careful not to bump the stitches I ran my hand through my hair and walked out.
" Let's go." I walked to the truck feeling a little dizzy from the meds. I walked to driver side automatically.
" Give up the keys you can't drive with those meds in you."
" You know it really sucks having two doctors in the family." I tossed the keys to Emmett and walked around to the passenger side.
" Get use to it Bro. Hey you want to stop for some ice cream since you were a good patient."
" Shut up asshole."
He just laughed. " No really I feel like some."
" Sure Emmett." I leaned my head against the door and closed my eyes. The next thing I knew we were parking at the grocery store, Emmett told me to just wait in the truck and headed into the store, I closed my eyes again.
I only had my eyes closed for five minuets before Emmett's phone began ringing, I decided to ignore it and try to go back to sleep. Whoever it was could leave a voice message, I needed sleep and if I was being honest with myself the dream I was having before I came too on the track was nice. I needed the torture again; in fact I was craving it.
" Edward." She whispered my name. " Make love to me please." She was the most beautiful creature I had ever laid eyes on, her long mahogany hair cascading over her shoulders, her beautiful doe like eyes begging and pleading me to take her to places she had never been before.
I reached out my hand grazing her cheeks, her beautiful blush lit up her face and then she smiled that glorious smile of hers letting me know that she wanted this as much as I did, and god did it feel so good seeing her smile. I sank into her breaking her barrier and taking her higher with me in the process till we both fell over wall, and came gliding back slowly to the ground. I tried to look into her beautiful eyes to gauge if she was feeling the same things I was feeling but her eyes were closed.
" Bella love, wake up." I shook her, she did not respond.
" Come on baby wake up for me please." I whispered in her ear. No response.
I shook her harder and felt for her pulse, nothing, no pulse. " Come back to me Bella please come back to me." I cried for her, I needed her to come back.
I killed her, she was gone, and she will never come back to me. I curled up into a ball on the bed and sobbed I felt the tremors racking my body. " No not her, don't take her from me, Bella, Bella I love you, you can't leave me." I cried for her.
" Edward." I tried to curl up further away from the gravely voice yelling my name.
" Edward." The voice yelled again, this time shaking me. I fought with everything to get away from whoever it was.
" Edward stop trying to fight me." I opened my eyes Emmett was standing by the side of the truck the passenger side door was open and I noticed we were in our driveway.
" Sorry I must have dosed off there." I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes.
" That must have been some dream. You were yelling for someone named Bella, then you started to hit me when I tried to wake you up, those must have been some pretty strong drugs dad gave you, so is this Bella the one that screwed you up."
" Emmett." I growled. " Drop it please I just want to lie down in my bed and sleep the rest of the day away, what time is it anyway?" I stepped out of the truck, grabbing my sides damn my ribs hurt like a bitch.
" Hey, let me help you." Emmett helped me into the house, and down the stairs to my room, he turned down the bed and help me get comfortable.
Alice came in with a glass. " Oh my Edward are you okay." She came over and ran her hand over my forehead.
" Nothing that a little sleep will cure." I smirked and closed my eyes.
I felt her press her lips to my forehead and tell Emmett to let me sleep, and to meet her in the kitchen, sleep consumed me the next thing I know I was opening my eyes to a very dark and empty room. I gingerly got out of my king-sized bed, and went to take a piss. My body ached badly; I climbed the stairs slowly and walked into the kitchen.
Emmett and Alice were over at the bar giggling like schoolgirls in front of a laptop. " What are you two giggling at." I asked as I grabbed the pitcher of orange juice out of the fridge.
They both snapped their head s up. " Oh you're finally up. Here let me pour that for you." Alice began to get up.
" Sit down pixie I've got it." I set the pitcher down on the counter and grabbed a glass out of the cabinet
Alice plopped back down in her barstool and pouted. I rolled my eyes. " So you two going to tell me what your looking at that is making you laugh like 2 school girls.
" Oh shut it." Alice stuck her tongue out at me.
" Oh Rose just emailed me some pictures of her and her family in Aspen today, they were up at Snowmass, her niece was taking snowboarding lessons."
" And so explain why that would be amusing, what did she fall on her ass?"
" No, dear brother of mine." Emmett looked up at me. " We were laughing cause are dear little pixie of a sister sent Rose a picture of us taking a break from our tennis game last night."
" And." I don't know if it was the drugs or what but I was not keeping up.
" Well we were both shirtless, if you remember."
" Would you get to the point please, the drugs are making me kind of slow." They both started laughing.
" Um don't think that's the drugs talking Bro, but anyway Rose showed her friend Bella the picture, she thinks your hot man."
I choked on my orange juice; did he just say what I think he said? " What come again." I must have heard wrong.
" I said that Rose showed her friend Bella the picture of us and she thinks your are hot, Rose said she called her out for drooling over the picture." I must be in a daze or something.
I shook my head to get out of the daze. " Well did you tell her that I don't date so don't even try and set me up."
" You might change your mind if you saw the picture's Rose just sent me."
He turned the laptop towards me and there on the screen was my angel. No it could not be her I looked closer, it was her, her lovely mahogany hair still cascaded over her shoulders, her big beautiful brown eyes engrossed in a book, her legs were draped haphazardly over the arms of the couch she was sitting on. She had a colorful scarf wrapped around her neck, on her right hand was a pink cast, she looked older, wiser, and god she was beautiful. I gasped and took steps backwards until I fell into the fridge sliding down to the floor and sobbed.
How, why, Oh my god she was alive all this time I thought she was dead, but how this is not real I'm dreaming right, what kind of drugs did Carlisle give me.
" Edward." Alice was sitting by me on the floor wiping the tears from my eyes.
I threw my arms around her a sobbed harder. " Shhhhh, it's going to be okay."
" It's her Alice, she's alive my Bell is alive." I cried.
" I know Edward, when Emmett showed me the picture I knew it had to be her, she's just as you described to me, she's beautiful."
' I don't understand. Why were you two laughing then, this is not funny at all, I fact I'm pissed, she's been alive this whole time." I wanted to punch something unfortunately my arms were still wrapped around Alice.
" Hey Edward look at me." She lifted my chin up to look into her blue eyes. " We weren't laughing at that, Rose sent a video of her niece snowboarding, she was doing a little fist punch when she made it down the hill without falling, it was cute we were just giggling how cute she was."
I looked up into her eyes; fresh tears were flowing down her cheeks. " Oh my god she's alive." I whispered and raised my head to the ceiling thanking the gods up above.
I sat there in a daze. " Where's Emmett?" I looked around the kitchen. He was no longer sitting on the barstool in fact he was nowhere in the kitchen.
" Um." Alice started but stopped. I raised my eyebrows for her to continue.
" He's talking to Rose on the phone he left the room so she could not hear what was going on."
" He's talking to Rose right now?" she nodded.
" Bella is with Rose?" she nodded again.
" I need to talk to her." I started to get up and grimaced my ribs hurt worse than before my nap.
" Edward, here let me help you up." Alice wrapped her arms around me and helped me to a standing position. My sides hurt like hell. Don't know if it really was my ribs or that fact that I was just blown away with the news that the person that I fell madly and deeply in love with overnight was really alive and well and not buried eight feet in the cold earth like I was made to believe.
And that made me furious, I wanted to ring Charles Swan's neck for lying to me, for ruining me. I balled my hands into a fist. I needed to take this anger out on the bag but I know that would be a stupid move considering I took a nasty fall today.
Alice helped me over to the couch and I slumped back against the cushions and closed my eyes. Alice placed the laptop in my lap and I took another glance at the picture, I looks she was unaware she was being photographed, she had a small smile on her lips, I wanted to just reach out and trace them. She looked amazing, beautiful, magnificent I wanted to just wrap her up in my arms and never let her go again.
But before I could do that I needed to know why, why after five years am I now learning she is alive. " Is this some sick joke, why now?"
" I don't know Edward, hopefully Emmett is getting some answers." Alice sat down next to me on the couch.
" She really is beautiful." Alice starred at the picture with me.
" She is and not just physically her heart is just as beautiful." I shook my head. "That night on the train she told me she loved me and she never wanted to be apart, she said we were soul mates or some shit like that and I totally felt the same way that's why I'm so damn confused right now."
Emmett plopped down on the coffee table in front of me and handed me his phone. He looked pissed off.
" Did you find anything out?" I asked he just shook his head no.
" No, I even yelled at her, I made her cry and now I feel like a total asshole. She just said that its Bella's story to tell and that she was so sorry that she did not tell me sooner. I guess they saw the picture of you in the magazine Rose was looking at when I walked in the room to check out Bella. Bella freaked and passed out I thought it was from the pain or the fact she needed an ex-ray at least that what I was lead to believe. That's all she would tell me, but now it all makes sense she was so on edge after I came back in the room."
Bella was on edge, was she hiding from me and was afraid that I would find her? That last thought crushed me." So why do I have your phone?" I picked up out of my lap. And tossed it onto the table beside Emmett.
" Because Rose said that Bella would like you to call her, she nervous Edward, well according to Rose she's nervous."
Emmett picked up the phone and dialed what I assume was Bella's number. He set the phone down on the tabletop; he must have hit speaker. I heard the first ring and my palms started sweating.
" Do you want us to leave." Alice whispered.
The phone rang again. " No stay I'm going to need you two to get through this." I pleaded with them both. Alice squeezed me hand in reassurance.
They just nodded. The phone rang again and just when I thought she would not pick up I heard it. Her beautiful musical voice.
" Hello." Her voice cracked.
" Bella." And fresh tears rolled down my face. I wanted to crawl through the phone and sweep her up and never let her go.
" Edward." She whispered.
" I'm here." She gasped.
" Hi." She sounded so nervous, what was she afraid of, that I might yell at her?
" Hi." Why was this so awkward? " Can you please tell me how your alive, your suppose to be eight feet underground right now?"
" Um well I'm hoping we can talk about this in person, I would rather not do it over the phone."
" So does that mean you are coming back to LA sometime soon."
" Define soon." She asked.
" Like within the next few days." I clarified.
" Um no sorry." She sounded deflated.
" What do you mean no." I was getting irritated, she said she wanted to talk in person, but she's not coming back.
" I can't come back yet."
" What's that suppose to mean, for Christ's sake would you fucking tell me what's going on." Alice smacked me upside the head.
"Ouch what was that for." I turned to Alice; she just shrugged her shoulders.
" Sorry Bella, my brothers being an ass, proceed." My mouth gaped open. Great like she's going to say anything now.
I heard her mumbling something but could not make out what she said.
" What was that." I asked her, I really wish I could read minds, maybe I could get a insight into what was going on since we was being as vague as they come.
" Nothing sorry was talking to my friend, It's just I cant come back to LA right now because I promised someone that we would be where they could see snow on Christmas morning."
" Someone significant." I closed my eyes; I was not ready for her answer.
Her response did not come, If I was a betting man I would bet that she was biting her bottom lip as we speak. I hear rustling and mumbling voices. I heard someone in the background tell her to grow a pair of balls and just answer the man, which had Emmett chuckling beside me. I leaned over to him and whispered.
" That must be Rose." He just nodded.
" Okay fine." Bella was back on the line. " Shut up I'll do it." I heard her sweet voice.
" Yes Edward someone significant." And my heart dropped to my stomach.
I found my voice finally after she dropped that piece of info into my lap. " Yet you still want to meet and talk."
" Yeah I kind of promised that I would do this for them."
" That's nice what about your promise you made to me about forever, did you forget about that little one." It was hard to keep the venom out of my voice.
I could hear her crying, Alice was crying and Emmett just starred at me, yeah I knew that was hitting below the belt after all I threw what we had away on some of the sleaziest girls in town, but in my defense I thought she was dead.
She sniffed. " Edward?" she said my name like it was a question.
" What Bella."
" Can I have your e-mail, I need to show you something, you will probably hate me more than you already do after this but it's the only way I can shed a little bit of light into what's going on until we speak face to face."
" If only it sheds some light, wouldn't want your significant other to be mad your e-mailing a ex boyfriend."
" Its not like that, can I have it please?" she sighed.
I pondered that question for a minute; I'll just let her stew. She was not giving me anything to answer my question of how she's alive. Alice nudged me and mouthed give it to her.
" Fine it's ec_ foxracing at ."
" Thank you, just give me a few seconds when you get the email click on the link. Okay I sent it."
Once again her voice cracked. I grabbed the laptop that I set on the table when I dialed her number; I clicked on gmail and opened my account sure enough there was an email from a bms_volturimag at in my inbox, so she worked with Rose. Wonder what the s stood for last time we talked her last name was Dwyer. I bet she's married my subconscious yelled. I shook that thought off and clicked on the email.
" I got it, just about ready to click on the link."
" I'll just hold on the line till you view it okay."
" Whatever you say." I clicked on the link and it went to a video. The arrow hovered over the play button and I was suddenly hit with nerves do I really want to do this. Alice and Emmett both nudged my sides shooting pains all over I winced they both mouthed sorry. Bella's side of the line was silent.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I opened them and hit the play button, there starring at me was the most beautiful little girl on the face of the earth sitting on Santa's lap. Alice gasped; Emmett's eyes were huge as saucers.
" Oh my god." Alice hands covered her mouth. Fresh tears streaming down her face.
I could not take my eyes off of her she was dressed in a cream and black dress, she had on black tights and some black shoes, her hair was curly and copper, just like mine that's when it sank in. Just like mine, she was mine.
I wanted to laugh, I wanted to cry, I wanted scream, yell, and hit something. But the little girl started talking and my eyes trained onto the screen. She was looking up at Santa as he asked her what she wanted for Christmas, she opened her mouth to speak, and she looked over to the camera then back at Santa and said.
I want to wake up on Christmas morning and see snow, I want to take snowboarding lessons and I would like a snowboard but above all of that the thing I want the most is my daddy, I don't know who he is and I would like to meet him.
Santa looked back at my little girl, and smiled. He told her he would try everything in his power to get her what she wanted. She climbed off his lap and ran over to the camera saying mommy mommy did you hear him. The video ended and I sat there stunned, I don't know what to say.
I don't know how long I was sitting there but I finally found my voice. " Bella."
The line was silent for seconds could have been minutes. " Yes Edward she's yours." Bella was crying.
" I, I don't understand Bella, all this time, five god damn years, you knew and yet you kept her from me." I sobbed.
" I know please can we just talk in person so I can explain, see I have made good on the first two thing she asked for but I cant give her the most important one. My private plane is waiting for you at Long Beach airport, and I can have my driver meet you and bring you here, your family is even welcome to come too, they deserve to meet her as well."
I don't know what to say. " You just expect me to drop everything and come up there."
" She wants to see snow on Christmas morning Edward, that's not going to happen in LA, and I don't want you missing out on another Christmas, its wouldn't be fair." She whispered the last part.
" Fair." I yelled. " Why now, why after five years did you just all of a sudden decide now would be a good time."
" Please Edward I need to do this face to face, are you coming up or not."
" I don't know Bella, right now I want to punch something I would hate for you to be in the way of my fist." She gasped.
" Edward." She whispered my name " Please just come."
Emmett and Alice were both pacing the room, Alice had her phone to her ear, probably calling mom and dad, great if mom finds out she will drag me by my ear up there and throw me on Bella's doorstep. I took a cleansing breath and gritted my teeth.
" Fine but I want an explanation the minute we get through the door, no skirting around the issue you got that."
" I understand. And Edward."
" Yes Bella."
" Just so you know her name is Harper and her Birthday is July 11th."
" Thank you Bella, will you know when I get there?" I questioned.
" Yes I'll have my pilot call me when you land, I'll have a car waiting for you when you land, they can bring you straight here if you want."
" That will be fine, call them to expect us in a few hours."
" Okay have a safe flight." The line went dead, and just like that with a twenty min conversation my life had gone from feeling like I was on top of the world to feeling like I was just thrown into a pit of alligators. I shut the laptop and left the room, walking outside to the back porch I lifted my head to the sky and let the scream that had wanted to escape during my conversation with Bella. I screamed until I was hoarse and I felt the tender touch of my mother's hands around my neck. We both sank to the stone patio and sobbed.
I don't know how long we sat there on the cold ground but eventually, she encouraged me to stand up. I looked into the soft loving eyes of my mother and saw a genuine smile on her face, my mother was happy.
" Oh Edward, I'm sorry, but if it's worth anything I'm excited to meet your beautiful daughter, my granddaughter."
" I am too, this whole situation is just fucked up."
" Language Edward."
" Sorry mom, but it is, five years I missed out on everything."
" Yes you did and that's not fair to you or her, but you cant undo what is done all you can do is move forward."
" Yah but what if she hates me for not being in her life."
" Edward kids are resilient, I don't think she will hate you. What I think you need to do is go get packed, your father called Bella's pilot and told him we would be there by six we need to get a move on if we are going to make that time frame."
My mother let go of our embrace and walked over to the French doors holding it open for me. " Mom, thanks." I kissed her on the cheek.
" For what."
"For knowing that I'm not ready to talk, for just holding me and letting me break down, for just being you."
" Edward. I love you that's what mom's are suppose to do son."
The drive to the airport in Long Beach was filled with silence we boarded the plane and before I knew it we were in the air flying towards Aspen.
AN: hope you liked this chapter please review it would help me as a writer
So how do you think this meeting is going to go down, is Edward going to play nice or do you think he's going to put up a fight, scream yell maybe punch a wall.
And how do you think Bella is going to react to seeing Edward?
