Description: this is my first Zoey/Logan story So DON'T flame, this is really Zoey/chase. but in the beginning its not. But it will change...eventually. R&R and let me know if you like it.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything,so if you sue you won't get nothing but a few stories.
Authors note: this is my second zoey101 story, but I have written a lot of that 70's show stories. Feel free to check them out. Hope you enjoy this, and R&R it please.
Chapter #9
(Logan's pov)
" so you told Zoey that she had to choose?" asks Michael in a skeptical manner. I can tell exactly what he's thinking by the look on his face. He's thinking that I'm a moron. And right now, I'm going to have to agree. That was a stupid move on my part. I should have never gave Zoey a choice in the first place.
" yeah, basically." i mutter in response. And here it comes. The inevitable 'what the hell were you thinking' that I'm undoubtedly about to receive. Not only from Michael, no I'm so glad that I'll get to hear it from Lola, Nicole and Quinn as well. Like i already don't know how much of an idiot i am. The last thing i need is to hear it from everyone else.
Laughing to himself at my admittance, Michael grabs himself a blitz," your an idiot man. Giving Zoey a choice? How could you possibly think that was a good idea?
Nodding her own agreement, Lola snacks on her plate of fries," yeah, seriously. That was a bad move Logan."
" yeah, thanks for your sympathy." i growl bitterly at the both of them. You know, i wish Quinn could make a time machine. That way i could just go back in time and undo this entire dreadful day. And while I'm at it make things right with Zoey. Maybe if that were possible, i would have never lost her. But it looks i have.
" so, who did Zoey pick anyway?" inquires Nicole as she makes her entrance into the conversation. Well, if I'm here sulking who the heck do you think she chose? The man on the moon? Obviously it wasn't me, or i wouldn't be here having this conversation with you. Now would i? Do i have to spell it out?
With an irritated roll of my eyes, i toss some darts into the dart board earning myself two bulls eyes," why don't you go ahead and take a wild guess Nicole, I'll give you a hint to help you out, it wasn't me."
sitting up with interest, Michael takes a long swig of his drink," wait, are you telling me that Zoey actually chose chase? Really?"
" oh my god! Thats great! I am SO happy for chase right now!" exclaims Quinn in an excited tone as she jumps out of her seat in realization. Gee, some friend you really turned out to be. You couldn't have at least pretended to sympathize with me? Thanks for making me feel even more like a jack ass. I didn't even know it was possible.
" Quinn! Thats so rude, Logan is right there you know." points out Lola as if i weren't even here. Unbelievable, i thought that all of these people were my friends? And yet, when I'm here and hurting...here they are happy about it? Whats that about? I really should look into finding another group of friends.
Blushing at the reminder, Quinn lets out a nervous chuckle," right, sorry Logan."
grumbling under my breath, i turn on the television," whatever."
" well, hey. Maybe Zoey is supposed to be with chase. You know? Maybe its better that things happened this way Logan." offers Nicole in one of her twisted attempts to comfort me. How exactly are those words of comfort again? Oh, thats right they're not. In fact...yeah, they're doing the complete opposite.
" umm, Nicole? How was that supposed to give him any comfort?" questions Michael coming to my rescue. Wow, what do you know? Maybe i do have one good friend left. Here i thought they had all abandoned me. I always knew Michael was a good friend. Sure we have our differences, but the mans a good friend none the less.
Finishing the last of her dinner, Lola helpfully points out," i think what Nicole means, is that if Zoey had stayed with Logan...she probably would have left him eventually. You know, for chase. So, isn't it just easier this way? Would you really want that?"
snapping her fingers in recognition, Nicole quickly pipes in," exactly, i meant what Lola just said."
" wow, you guys are horrible at this. Don't ever comfort me, if Mark and i ever break up." remarks Quinn at Lola and Nicole's impeccable comforting skills. Of course you'll notice the sarcasm in my words. And she's right, they are incredibly bad at this. But miss ' I'm so happy for chase!' isn't much better either.
" yeah, I'm with Quinn. In fact, you guys suck at it. ...no offense or anything. But how was that really suppose to be seen as helpful? Because it kind of wasn't. We're trying to cheer Logan up. Not depress the guy more then he already is." comments Michael as he snatches the remote from me and turns off the television. I frown as he looks at me expectantly. What does he want from me? I just lost my girlfriend, give me a break.
" ok, I've had enough of this sympathy crap for one day. I just want to be left alone right now. So if you guys don't mind, I'm going to go back to the dorm. I'm not really in the mood to hangout right now." i state with a frown. Standing up from my seat, i leave the lounge without another word. I know that they mean well, but I'm just not in any kind of mood deal with them or Zoey right now. I just want to forget about this and everything else. ...
(Zoey's pov)
" hey Logan..is chase here?" i ask as i lower my eyes toward the ground. I wasn't really expecting Logan to answer the door. But i shouldn't be so surprised, this is his dorm also. Maybe i should have just waited to meet up with chase somewhere. The last thing i want is another awkward moment with Logan. I have enough of those to last me a life time.
" he's in the shower Zoe." says Logan in a gruff tone. I can tell that I'm the last person that he wants to see. Mostly by the way that he completely tensed up when he answered the door and saw that it was me. I don't really blame him though, if i thought he were with someone else. I wouldn't exactly want to see him either. The only difference is, he's the one who broke up with me. Logan ended things between us, and I'm the one paying for it with a shattered heart. So then why do i feel bad for Logan?
Glancing down at my feet, i bite at my bottom lip cautiously," would you mind if i waited for him then?"
opening the door to the dorm, Logan reluctantly lets me inside," whatever."
" thanks Logan." i acknowledge in a tone. Walking inside the dorm quietly, i sit on the edge of Chase's bed. I really don't want to be here right now. This is the last place that i want to be actually. To be honest, i can name several places that i would much rather be at right now then here. But I've got to talk with chase, so i don't really have any other options but to be here.
" so, you and chase are a thing now?" asks Logan in what I'm assuming was his best attempts to make small talk. And if thats his idea of small talk? Then he isn't very good at it. The last time i checked, you don't really talk relationships with an ex. Thats a topic that has the word awkward stamped all over it.
Picking up a magazine that was lying on Chase's bed, i flip through it as i try to appear nonchalant about everything," not exactly, no."
more then a little surprised by my answer, i notice Logan staring at me from the corner of my eye," not exactly? What the heck is that supposed to mean?"...
(Logan's pov)
" well, i needed some time to think. And it just so happens that i have. I've thought about a lot actually. And i need chase to know that. Which is why I'm here to see him." confides Zoey with a calm exterior. What could she possibly have to think about? Whether or not she made the right choice? If thats the case, then no. she didn't. But I'm the jerk who gave her one in the first place.
" what about?" i question as i try to appear bored and disinterested. In all honesty though, I'm neither of those. I'm about to jump out of my seat from anxiety. Could Zoey really be second guessing herself? Maybe she still wants to be with me as much as i still want to be with her? I really hope thats the case, i screwed up big time. And i just want Zoey back now.
Glancing up at me with a look of reluctance, Zoey lets out a long sigh," about whether or not i should be with chase right now. Or if i should just stay single for a while, and not jump into things right away."
giving a short nod of my head, i fold my arms across my chest," why is that even a question Zoe? You either want to be with chase or you don't."
" yeah, i know. But, i didn't want to go out with chase...if it would bother you." confesses Zoey with hesitance written all over her face. I look up at her in disbelief and pain. So she really does want to be with chase, and not me. Wow, i didn't know it would hurt that much to hear her actually say it. But it does, like hell.
" of course its going to bother me Zoe. My ex is here, and she's telling me to my face...that she wants to be with another guy. And its not just any other guy, it just so happens to be my 'supposedly best friend' and roommate. What would you think if you were in my shoes right now Zoey?" i ask her in a defeated manner. What was she expecting to get from me? My ok to just go ahead and date chase?
Lowering her gaze downward once more, Zoey plays with the hem of her shirt," i thought that you might say that Logan. Forget i even asked. I'm sorry."
pacing the length of the dorm, Logan runs a hand through his hair," look, Zoey..we didn't work out. So, if you want to...give chase his chance then go ahead. He at least deserves one shot with you...i guess."
" do you really mean that Logan? You would do that?" inquired Zoey with a stunned look on her face. As much as i hate that i just did that, i guess i really do mean it. Its not like i can just forbid Zoey from seeing chase or anything. I'm not happy about it, I'd rather have Zoey as mine still. But things don't always work the way you want them to.
" yeah. I just wish that we could have worked out Zoe." i confide as i quickly avert my eyes from meeting with hers. I don't want Zoey to see the regret that lays in my eyes. The last thing i want is for her to take me back out of pity. I'd want her to be with me by choice. But apparently the universe doesn't agree with me all that much.
Smiling her own agreement, Zoey gives me a playful shove," maybe we could have Logan. If you weren't such a controlling jerk, that is. It would have helped things a lot, you know?"
rolling my eyes now at Zoey, i toss a pillow at her," i just wanted to be as close to you, as you were to chase. But, you and i...we were never that way Zoe."
" i know what you mean Logan" admits Zoey with a shy nod. Taking a step towards her, i lift her chin. I want our eyes to meet. And more importantly, i want to know why it is that her and i never had that kind of a closeness. So, i stare into Zoey's eyes with curiosity as i try my best to figure out what she's thinking. Its a harder thing to do then i thought though.
" so, then why weren't we ever like that then Zoe? Why were you closer to chase then with me?" i finally ask as i continue to hold her gaze. She glances away from me now, but i bring her eyes back to mine quickly. She's not getting away that easy. Zoey at least owes me this much of an explanation if anything else.
With a simple shrug of her shoulders, Zoey looks over at me sadly," because Logan, you couldn't trust me. I thought that maybe after a while you would. But you didn't, you just became more jealous. And over nothing...and then you broke up with me because you couldn't get over your insecurities and what was going on with chase and i. Which until now, was nothing at all. But you just refused to see that."
sitting down near Zoey finally, i take hold of her hands in mine," look, I'm sorry about how things ended with us. I was insecure, but who wouldn't be?"
" well, i was too. But here's the thing, i still trusted you. ...I was really happy with you Logan and you blew it. And i mean big time." points out Zoey bluntly. Yeah, thanks for that reminder Zoe. I already knew, i heard it from almost everyone already. I kind of didn't need you to throw anymore salt on an already open wound.
" i know that i did Zoey.. Especially since i was happy with you also." i admit in a gruff tone. I feel like an idiot admitting this to her. Why even bother? There's no chance of her taking me back. But its something i thought that she should at least know. Touching my hand to her face gently, i caress Zoey's cheek with my thump. As the uneasiness of the moment hits us both, i sigh as we turn our eyes toward the ground. I smile at the close proximity thats between Zoey and i. She hasn't once made a move to distance it. And I'm secretly glad. ...
( mean while; listening in. Chase's thoughts)
what the hell? Zoey took Logan back? I thought that she wanted to be with me? Why is she taking that jerk back? I don't get it. She told me that all she needed was some time to think! I guess now i know why. Zoey never wanted to be with me. If she did, then she wouldn't have taken Logan back. Whatever, I'm done with them both. And i mean for good. Zoey knew how i felt. And she even gave me hope. But i guess it was only a false hope. She kicked me to the curb for him? Not to mention that she just broke my heart! Well, i have had enough. I am not going to let Zoey toy around with my emotions anymore, as if I'm some kind of puppet. Well I'm not. In fact, I'm not speaking to either of them. Our friendship is through, and i mean over. And Logan had better hope that i don't pound the living pulp out of him. Because, god help me...i just may do that. And he would deserve every bit of it too. He treats Zoey like crap and she just up and takes him back? Well, whatever. I'm done with them both. Zoey can cry to someone else when he messes up. Because it won't be me, not anymore at least. ... (end Chase's thoughts)
