Hi guys it's me and I didn't want to keep you waiting for the next chapter like I did for chapter 8 but now that Jane isn't mad at Maura anymore I just really want to focus on their relationship and Jane's pregnancy. So here is chapter 9 for CAN I TAKE IT BACK?
Maura couldn't believe she had gotten Jane to forgive her, she knew she had messed up and she was intent on fixing it and helping Jane with the baby or whatever else she needed. After making breakfast Jane had decided she would go and have lunch with her mother seeing as how she was pregnant by someone she didn't know and she had to find the nicest way possible to tell her mother without upsetting her, but how do you tell your mother that your pregnant when you don't even know who the father is.
"Hey Maura I think I'm gonna go have lunch with ma, and talk to her about some of the stuff that is going on" Jane said as she walked out of the washroom and into Maura's room, they had spent the rest of the moring laying in Maura's bed after eating breakfast.
"Well do you want me to come with you, you know for emotional support. I will if that's what you need." Maura told her
"Maura I would love for you to be there but I think I need to do this alone, what I need to tell her needs to come from her daughter and her daughter only, there are so many things that I have kept from her and I think it will be better if it came from just me and besides I wouldn't want you to see her reaction anyway, she can be pretty scary when she wants to be.
"Jane I'm not scared of your mother but if you think that it is best that I don't come then I will stay right here and be offering emotional support when you get back if need be." Maura told her but Jane could hear the hurt in her words and she couldn't help but explain herself to make the blond feel better.
"Look Maura this is just something I need to do on my own" Jane said softly trying to make the love of her life understand but not trying to hurt hr in the process.
"No really Jane I underdstand" she said this time really trying hard to keep the hurt out of her voice knowing that Jane wasn't trying to hurt her and she really had no reason to be hurt.
"ok well I have to get up and get dressed, it's time to face the music" Jane said as she pushed the covers off her and got out of the bed.
Maura watched as Jane walked out of the room to get dressed. Jane walked back into the room showered and fully dressed and Maura watched as Jane stood at her vanity in her room and tried to apply make-up to herself and Maura couldn't help but think about how beautiful Jane looked when she was frustrated, in fact she was always beautiful.
"Jane I love you" Maura told her out of nowhere. Jane looked at Maura with a confused look, she didn't know where that had come from but she just wasn't ready for this, the terms of enderment, sleeping in the same bed, the not so friendly touching.
"uh, uh, I know Maura" Jane told her in a soft voice. Jane could see the hurt look that crossed Maura face but as fast as it came, it went away twice as fast
Maura tried to ignore that hurt that came with Jane's words because she knew that it was her fault that Jane wasn't willing to love her again but she swore to herself that she would make this better.
"Jane what are you doing? She asked in a soft voice as she watch the frustrated detective.
"I'm trying to put this stuff on, I don't know how you do it everyday" She told Maura as she blew out a big breath
"But Jane you don't wear makeup"
"But I feel like the nicer I look then the nicer ma will be about all of this. Maura laughed lightly knowing that possibility was unrealistic. "Jane it dosen't matter how you look, your mother loves you and she will support you no matter what you tell he". All of a sudden Jane froze, she had this weird look on her face.
"Jane what's wrong" Jane just looked at her for a couple of minutes before answering her question.
"I just realized that I don't know where we stand" Jane told her and Maura got this confused look on her face.
"Jane I don't understand what you mean"
"you broke my heart Maura then you apologized, it took me awhile but I finally forgave you so where does that leave us" Jane asked with the same confused look that Maura had just sported a few seconds ago.
"I Don't really know Jane, I don't want to push you into something that you're not ready for but I don't think that I can go back to being just friends" She told Jane.
"So where does that leave us" Jane said in a low voice.
"Where do you want that to leave us Jane" She asked her.
" I want you but I don't want to get hurt" Jane told her as she started to feel the tears come. " Damn hormones" She muttered under her breath.
Maura laughed a little but then got back serious "Jane as sure as I am standing here right now, I will never do anything to purposely hurt you ever again."
Jane nodded with tears in her eyes "I believe you, and you don't have to keep apologizing to me because lord knows that I have done things that i'm not proud of."
"Jane I will spend the rest of my life apologizing to you if that's what it takes" Maura told her.
Really sorry for the long wait but I am in school and I just celebrated my birthday so for my birthday I thought that I would update this story. Again really really sorry but I didn't know where I wanted to go with this story but now that I do I'm going to update as often as possible...PLEASE READ AND REVIEW...I always like to hear what you guys have to say...(unless you're being a jerk)
