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No Curtain Call : Maroon 5

Boulevard of Broken Dreams : Green Day

Numb : Linkin Park

In The End : Linkin Park

Alec POV

"I need someone Alec." Was all the Magnus could say to defend himself. Maybe it was because he didn't really want to. The low self-esteemed Alec was coming out again. He'd always known there must have been more with Magnus. How many girl, or guys!, had Magnus told he loved? How many? "Why choose now to get angry at me with other people. I'm not with them now."

"I didn't realize there were so many." Alec paced the apartment. He thought to himself all the secrets he held. Clary and Isabelle knew his sexual preference, he made a face at the title of his affections. But his parents, his young brother and Jace, they didn't know. Magnus took a step toward him, but Alec already had his hand on the door knob, twisting it so it opened. "I should go." He shut the door behind him and looked out into the coming on night. The sun had started its descent a couple of minutes ago and it was already almost gone. How quickly things could go black.

He stepped onto the sidewalk and began to take the journey home. Of course nothing was ever dark in Brooklyn, with all the lights, and of course he did not want to go home. He stopped in the middle and a few passerby's cursed at him for upsetting the flow, but he didn't care.

He looked to his right and saw a dark alley, he didn't know where it headed, but he turned down it anyway.

"You say you need someone
But everybody does
I'm no different than you
I just believe what I do
You point your finger at
Everyone but yourself
And blame the ones that you love
Who're only tryin' to help

As it's winding down to zero
I am yours like a hero
I'll see this through
There's so much me and you
Take this enemy together
Fight these demons off forever
Forever forever forever

5, 4, 3, 2, 1
I won't stop until it's done
No curtain call, I will not fall
This may be the one we've been waiting for
No curtain call, just take it all

I have no time for fear
Or people in my ear
Head down and running so fast
Try not to dwell on the past
I'm fighting through this pain
And things I cannot change
Running right into the flame
Rather than running away

As it's winding down to zero
I am yours like a hero
I'll see this through
There's so much me and you
Take this enemy together
Fight these demons off forever
Forever forever forever

5, 4, 3, 2, 1
I won't stop until it's done
No curtain call, I will not fall
This may be the one we've been waiting for
No curtain call, just take it all

Sweat drips down from every angle
Love your body as it gathers in a pool by your feet
You turn up the heat
Tossin' and turnin', you cannot sleep
Quietly weep, your in too deep

5, 4, 3, 2, 1
I won't stop until it's done
No curtain call, I will not fall
This may be the one we've been waiting for
No curtain call, just take it all"

Alec stopped dead center in the alley. A girl with a mess of brown hair leaned back against a door that must have led into a back room of one of the stores along the strip. She had one leg bent back with her foot resting on the door, her other one keeping her steady, it was placed strategically on the ground. She was dressed all in black leather, like the Shadowhunters, but Alec didn't recognize her. It was too dark to see anything about her. He knew her hair was brown because the single dim light in the alley rested just above her head. She was just standing there like she was waiting for something.

"Miss Gray?" The girl looked at him sharply, but he hadn't been the one to speak. He looked over his shoulder and saw Magnus, his hands in his pockets a grave look on his face, like he was going to be sick. When he looked back at the girl, she was gone.

Simon POV

Simon had been standing solo on the deck for a couple hours now. Just watching, watching and waiting. He'd woken up in a cold sweat, who knew vampires could sweat, and felt like something big was about to happen. Something that would change everything. Something... wrong.

He'd come to the dock because this was where his feet had taken him, but he didn't know. For the better part of the first hour that he'd stood here, he thought of Clary and how he'd hurt her, and how it had hurt him.

Then he thought of Jace, and how he hated him. Jace, the guy who had taken Clary from him. But had he really, taken Clary from him. Could Simon really blame the both of them, was it right? No, and he knew it wasn't right. He knew it wasn't right when he told her to leave while she cried and he knew it wasn't right to call and tell her he wanted space. Simon knew you couldn't help who you fell in love with. There's was a tricky situation. From the moment Simon had met Jace he'd noticed him, him and his way with Clary. Jace had begun to think of Clary, that way, before he knew his real relation to her.

Thinking of Jace made him think of Isabelle, and her long black hair. Those blue eyes that wanted to break you into glass pieces so that she could stomp on you and cut you down some more. Simon couldn't explain his attraction to her, she turned him into a rat for f's sake. It wasn't like how he felt about Clary, but it was there.

Maia. The name came to is brain with no evident source, he looked around and then down into the murky water. She was a werewolf, he knew that. And she knew what he was.

The water was otherwise UN-occupied, save for a dark ship to the right. He wondered who owned the ship and why they chose tonight of all times to go out on a trip. He put his hands in his pockets and turned to walk himself home.

"I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up when everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone..."

Simon looked around him again, he felt like someone was watching him. He walked silently until he reached his apartment. His mother said something but he muttered an excuse and shut his bedroom door behind him. He dropped his heavy weighted body onto the bed and held his cell phone in his hand. He looked at it for a moment then chucked it across the room and shut his eyes.

Jace POV

Valentine Morgenstern was a regal looking man. He'd been strong and independent when Jace had lived with him, and he very much doubted much had changed. His father stood across from him.

"You know what it is that I want Jonathan. It's simply a matter of you giving it to me." Jace held the Morgenstern ring in his palm and he moved it around. Valentine had a set way of living, and he'd nearly succeeded in making Jace the same way. "Well, say something Jonathan. I do not have time to waste."

"I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)"

Jace shoved the ring into his pocket and closed his eyes tight. Maybe if he shut them hard enough, the mirage of his father would leave. When he opened them again he was alone. In the park where he'd been before he'd fallen asleep on the ground.

Without thinking he pulled himself up quickly and looked around him. His Shadowhunter senses kicked in and placed a hand over the hilt of his blade that stuck out from its sheath at his side. Jace was being watched. Valentine? It was possible, he had just been dreaming about him. While it was a regular occurrence to have nightmares of his father, this one had seemed more real. Something big was about to happen.

"If you're going to kill me I suggest you do it now. There isn't much time I'm going to waste on you before I come to find you. And I will." A black crown hopped out of the brush. He dropped his hand and chuckled quietly to himself. Chill Wayland.

Jace thought about his father and laughed for a second time to himself.

"(It starts with one)
One thing I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter"

In the end, nothing that happened in this time period will ever matter again.