Twilight: Channy Edition
Chapter 9
I honestly don't have a clue why I was so suprised when I saw Portlyn's name on the credit. I should have figured it would be her, she hates me. I've never done anything to her, yet she acts like I killed her dog or something.
"Portlyn." I hissed through gritted teeth. Chad ripped the magazine away from me and threw it somewhere.
"Why did you just throw it in to oblivion?"
"Because, we really don't need to worry about that right now, do we? You're not a slut, so don't get all upset over a lie." He replied, standing up and walking to the bathroom. I wasn't sure if he really had to go, or if he just wanted to escape me. It didn't matter though, because I wasn't going to let him leave.
"Wait," He turned around and waited for me to speak, but I didn't want to sound desperate for compliments, "i'm really not a slut?" He stared at me blankly, then shook his head like it was a stupid question. He turned to go to the bathroom again, but stopped in his tracks and faced me again.
"Do I have to answer that?" My jaw dropped. He did think I was a slut! But why? What did I do that made me one?
"You do think i'm a slut!" I gasped, making it sound more like a question than an accusition. He winced.
"Sonny, will you look at what you're wearing?" I looked down at my pajamas. It was a habit, especially when people complimented my clothing.
"Chad, these are for sleeping! I didn't know I would be actually leaving my room in these clothes!"
"Sonny, still. Who are you trying to impress in your sleep? Huh?" He interrogated, stepping towards me and grabbing my hand, pulling me towards him. I struggled to pull away; he called me a slut!
"I see the way you look at a 'hot' guy that passes by, Sonny. I'm not blind." He mumbled, holding both of my wrists so I couldn't run away. Why would I run away, anyways? I have nothing to run from.
"I do not look at any other guys, Chad! Why would you accuse me like that?" I pulled away from him finally, or at least he just let go of me.
"Stop talking. If you don't like me anymore, just say it. Don't lie."
"What happened, Chad? Portlyn told you something, didn't she? Why wouldn't I like you anymore?!" I shouted, watching him collapse on the couch, staring up at me.
"I don't know Sonny. Yesterday, you didn't seem that into it. I thought maybe you didn't like me anymore, I thought maybe you were just using me." I stared at him with my mouth agape, flabbergasted. Portlyn told him that. She got in his head.
"Chad, don't even listen to Portlyn! You always say she doesn't know what she's talking about, and that she's annoying! What made you listen to her?" He shook his head and sighed loudly, trying to avoid the question.
"Chad,"
"Alright, already! I believed her because...because you're so beautiful and I don't deserve you! She said that you would probably find someone better, and it seemed realistic. Would you Sonny, really? I have to know." He pleaded, grabbing my hand and holding it in between both of his. The moment was uncomfortable, and awkward. I'd rather be somewhere else.
"Never. How could you even think I would? Why would you believe Portlyn?" I don't know why, but tears began to well up in my eyes, making everything blurry, like I was in a cloud. I felt betrayed. Although he just complimented me, he insulted me, too. He thought I was using him. How could he not trust me?
"Stop," he moaned, seeing me crying, "please don't cry. What did I say?"
"You don't trust me, Chad! That's what!" I sobbed, collapsing to the floor. The magazine was at my feet, and I looked at the cover for a split second, then cringed and looked away. It wasn't right.
"What isn't right?" I hadn't realized I said it outloud. I wish I hadn't.
"This." I sighed, standing up and brushing off my shirt, even though it had nothing on it.
"You mean,"
"Us." I finished for him, because he might not have even said it.
"Sonny, don't." Chad begged, as if he could see the future. I started to cry again. I was a whimp like that.
"Chad, this isn't working. Us being together has only caused more drama. That's definitly not what I need, or want. Maybe we should just be-"
"God dammit! Don't say 'let's just be friends'! Because in the end, we won't even be friends! We probably won't even mutter a single word to each other! We'll fix this. I promise." Promises, promises. I've been promised before, but I haven't yet been rewarded.
"I'm sorry." I mumbled. I couldn't take it anymore. I walked to the door, which seemed like miles away, when it was only feet. The lamp in the corner was so blurry to me now, it was just a yellow blob. I fumbled for the handle, not even able to open the door. Weakling. That's what I was. That's all I would ever be.
"Don't walk out on me." Too late.
I was gone. Long gone.
Seconds passed by like minutes. Days passed by like weeks. Weeks passed by like months. And months passed by like years. Nothing was right. Time had slowed down, and almost completely stopped. Oh, the irony of it all. When I was with Chad, I had always wished time would slow down, so we could enjoy every minute. Now my wish was granted, and I realized I didn't quite want it anymore.
It had only been three weeks since we broke up. Seemed like yesterday. I tried to forget it as best as I could, but I never availed. How could I, when I'd see him every day in the cafeteria?
I had regrets. Of course, everybody does. But I had regrets about everything. I'd say "hello" to someone passing by, and I'd regret that. I don't know why. I changed.
I hated being wrong. How was I wrong? Well, Chad was right about us not being friends. If I could tell he was looking at me, i'd make a point of not looking in his direction, even if someone else called my name. We'd meet each other's gaze for a second, then look away immediatly.
"-and that's when Grady slipped on the meatballs and fell on his butt!" Tawni laughed uncontrollably, while I stayed idle. I stared at her blankly, boredly. How was that funny? How was anything in the world funny?
"God Sonny, you don't laugh at anything anymore. Heck, you don't smile either! Sorry to call you out on it, but it's really pissing me off." She stood up from the table at the cafeteria and left me, though I was happy about it.
"Chad, you're so funny!" Portlyn giggled, valley girl-like. They were sitting at the MacKenzie Falls table. How cliche, I thought. It's like in every movie. When a girl and guy break up, and then the guy hooks up with another girl, the girl always over-acts. I bet Chad didn't even say anything funny.
"Chad, doesn't Sonny look sad?" She whispered, but loud enough for me to hear the fakeness in her voice. Kill me, please.
"I think she's fine, Portlyn." Chad growled, looking at me for a split second, then looking away. I rolled my eyes and returned to looking at my yogurt. It was gone. How did that happen?
"Chaddy," Portlyn began. That's when I stood up.
"SHUT UP!" I yelled at her, then sat down in my seat, everyone looking at me.
Or at least that's what I imagined.
"Chaddy," Portlyn began. Should I? Nah. "i'm going to go talk to Sonny. I'll try to cheer her up." Chad made a face, that meant "whatever", and Portlyn stood up and advanced to the So Random table. I watched her sit down next to me and smile fakely.
"Shut up." I said, before she even uttered a single syllable. I wasn't going to waste a second of my life hearing her fake little "Are you okay?" 's, and what not.
"I just came to see if you're okay." She explained slowly, as if I was stupid. Do I look stupid? I broke up with Chad so I could stay away from you. You're the stupid one. Can't you leave me alone?
"Tell you the truth, Portlyn, i'm not okay. Want to know why?" She nodded her head, smiling. She wanted me to admit I missed Chad. I did, but I wasn't going to admit it. "Because you're still sitting here, pretending like you care when you don't give a damn. Save your breath for someone who's stupid. Because i'm not." I stood up then and left the cafeteria, leaving a very angry Portlyn behind.
Leaving everything behind.
A/N I think this chap was short. Aaaah, I love saying "chap". It's fun! Try it! Haha, review please. &Thank you for all the reviews you have already given me. =)
