More Than A Memory
Elena was left in the destuction of her room, pictures knocked off of her dresser and lamps on the floor. She laughed to herself, "Kol" She called "Can you help me clean up this mess?" She grabbed her short navy blue robe, thinking to herself that he must have gotten hungry. "Kol, where are you?" Elena felt the back of her head, I couldn't have hit my head that hard against the wall last night... She saw a nicely folded up note on the bar. "He must have stepped out" But who was she kidding? Vampires did not just step out after a night like that...They stayed with the person they loved, didn't they?
Dear Elena,
You probably just realized that I am not next to you in bed, and maybe you are hoping I am taking a swim or catching a bite. We both know that is not true. Come on, you should have seen it coming. Did you honestly think that I would believe a woman that tried to kill me, and if I am not mistaken you at one point? You should have known better. As for our relationship, it was to get back at Klaus for putting a dagger in my chest. I saw the way he looked at you last night, and how he knew that he could not have you. Our time is over. It was fun while it lasted, but you were nothing more but a toy for my amusement. The girl that I brought with me is the girl that I want to be with for the rest of my life, I was not ashamed to bring her in front of my family like I am of last night. Last night was one of the biggest mistakes of my life, and I am sorry for the mess I made of your room.
If I can say it as simple as the people on television say it "We. Are. Over." and let's not drone on the details of a lie. It was never real.
- Kol Mikaelson
Elena collapsed to her knees, pressing her back against the counter. Her sobs were loud intakes of breaths that did not save her from the heart break. The tears kept coming, and coming as her body shook, she did not even feel like hurting somebody the way he just hurt her.
"Elena?" Stevie-Rae came down the stairs wearing one of her over-sized T-shirts "Elena are you okay?" she hurried over by Elena's side falling to her knees. She picked up the note, and even it gave her tears. She hugged her best friend, and let Elena cry onto her shoulder. "Let it out, let it out"
"What's going on down here?" Hayley said, her feet hitting the stairs in aggravation. "Is everyone alright?"
"No" Elena croaked "I'm an idiot"
"No" Stevie-Rae said, "No you are not an idiot and do not say that ever again. He's the idiot!" spoken like a true best friend after her friends horrifying break up.
"Awh, Elena" Hayley joined the group in the cry-fest, "We will make it through this"
"You guys might, but what about me?" Elena cried, "I put so much into something I never had, I feel so stupid..." Each tear that fell reminded her that he would not be there to catch them.
And for once her head was silent, not a single word from her so called "Mother" Elena felt abandoned by the people she needed to hear the truth from. At least she had Hayley and Stevie-Rae to catch most of her tears. They sat like that for what seemed like hours, listening to Elena tell them how stupid and embarassed she was and in return Elena hearing from Hayley and Stevie-Rae what an moron Kol was.
But with the bright sun coming in through the windows, Elena stood up "I'll be fine, he's not the first and I'm guessing he won't be the last. Now, we have a wedding to get ready for"
"It's in two days, how are we going to find the perfect dress for that?" Stevie-Rae snorted "Two days, it took me a week to find a dress for Sammantha Stewart's 21st birthday and by the end of the night I knew that thing was coming off"
"She's right, I have not seen that dress since" Hayley nodded "But two days is a little crazy" Elena rolled her eyes at them.
"As your cheer captain and your first place winner of the Best Bikini Blast I think we can find the perfect dress to add some fucking awesome effects to that night" Elena stood up, "And because I am tired of not being me in front of my family and friends it has to be my style."
"Alright, alright...but where do we start? We do not have our normal shops to go to" Hayley pointed out, "And we haven't even installed wireless here!"
"I'll call Rebekah" Elena said, "I remember her having some of the nicest dresses in town. She has to have those people on speed dial!" The girls were suddenly on a different topic completely, Elena could pretend that she was happy that easily. She could change the mood in a room to pure happiness when she felt helpless, and hurt.
The girls invited Hannah, but she ignored them. James finally popped the question in the mix of drunken slurs and what Stevie-Rae described as "furniture breaking" upstairs. Hannah was not going anywhere.
Nightfall had come faster that expected, Elena was alone in her clean bedroom. It smelt like him. Everything smelt like him when she breathed. To be honest with herself, she had partly dialed his number a couple hundred times without pressing call. It was like she wanted to call him and yell it out, but she wanted to act like it did not bother her. And if she started yelling like she wanted to, she would start crying and growing weaker. She would beg him to come home to her, and she would sink lower and lower to her knees when he said no.
Why drive the stake in deeper when there was no one to pull it out?
She grabbed her car keys and walked slowly to her car, wiping her eyes. She slammed the door, starting up the engine hearing some high-beat song come on the radio about broken hearts- her luck. She just tapped her foot a little on the gas, and kept speeding until she could not remember where she was going.
She saw the red and blue lights before she heard it over the music. The sheriff knocked on Elena's window without looking in it. "Do you know how fast you were going?"
"Oh Sheriff Forbes, you look better than I remember!" Elena said, trying to charm her way out of a ticket.
"Oh my god, Elena is that you? I heard you were back in town!" The sheriff ripped up whatever she was writing "I guess you were in a hurry to talk to your brother or something. I know how you guys work now, it's always an emergency"
"Sort of, do you know where the Mikaelson's moved?" Elena felt like a Grade A stalker, but she did not care at the moment. Ms. Forbes wrote down Klaus's address with a smile. "Thank you, I was in a rush to get his wedding gift. I had no idea, and I do not want to get on his badside"
"Oh, we would not want that would we" She waved goodbye to Elena, and drove around her. Elena laughed to herself, only Sheriff Forbes would rip up a ticket because Elena was her daughter's friend.
She drove by the house, what am I doing? Seeing if he's home with his tramp? Damn, I am so pathetic. She made a U-Turn and started heading back home. She opened her glove- compartment, pulling out a bright red blood bag. She bit into it, draining it of it's contents. Parker liked to brag about what type of blood it was, but Elena had the idea that blood was blood as long as she was satisfied everything was okay. She threw the empty bag out the window, "I'm just breaking all kinds of laws tonight!"
When she got home, she was in a different mood. It was the de-Kol everything mood. She walked up the stairs into her room, throwing her jacket on her end-table. She opened the draws taking out a box of pictures, and all those stupid hand written letters. "Goodbye Kol" She sung as she dropped one of his favorite pictures of the two in the water. She watched the ink fade into the water, rolling her eyes. She sat on the edge of the pool putting her feet in the water.
"Dear Elena, blah blah blah I love you with all my heart... Ha!" She threw the letter into the water, splashing water with her feet. "Dear Elena, Tonight was the first time we kissed. Did you feel it to? Because I was on the edge of falling for you for the rest of my life." Oh, that one sort of stung but it hit the water just as quickly as the other one. "Dear Elena, I am such a dick and all I care about is myself" Then she noticed the ring still on her finger, his apology ring that she kept on for some reason... She took it off and threw it on the deep side of the pool. "Dear Elena, My time with Ivan is almost up and I think I can keep the promise I made to you. I made the first payment on our-" She started laughing "On our future together, good one Kol...good one!" Then she reached an un-opened letter. She opened it, hoping it said something cheesy that she could laugh about.
Dear Elena,
I have lived over a thousand years waiting to meet someone as beautiful and charming as you, and I have been given the chance to be with you over these last few months. If you are reading this, our time is up and I have joined the spirits. Do not cry my love, because if anything I am in a better place because of you. Our time together made me believe that there is not only sarrow in this world. You reminded me that dancing beneath a corny old prom set is fun, and that some of the best people come from Texas. You reminded me that love cannot be bought, and trust has to be earned. I don't know which door slam taught me those lessons.
But I am not the only one that has changed, you have too. I think you finally let go of the Elena that was trapped on the bridge. You embraced your situation and became a good friend, someone that I read bakes some of the best cakes on Earth at 1 a.m. and someone that swam with the dolphins during Spring Break. You became a really good dancer, in trashy bars or prestigious night clubs and then you became one of the best lovers, and friends I have ever had. You held me that night after I found out about the deal I mistakenly made. You kissed my bare shoulders the night I told you I wanted to marry you, and begged for you to tell me to stay. You have shown me so much in our short time together, and I want you to now that if it were me or you that I had to choose from it would always be you.
Elena, you are the girl I will always think of even if I am thousands of miles below sea with a dagger in my heart- my heart will always beat for you.
With all the love I have,
Kol
"Oh Hell, What am I supposed to do now?" Elena put the note back in the box, and then saw the sparkle of the ring. "Apology accepted?"
