A/N: I am terribly sorry. i know i've been so mean. BUT i have been very busy and was away for part of the week, so... anyway, i finished the story! i've written it all out, now all i have to do is type it all out and fix up bits. so you'll be happy to know that there is a happy ending coming soon :D
This is for my best friend (i hope) jackie. Can we please stop fighting? you are not evasive, annoying or stupid and you DO NOT have a funny walk
EPOV:
I parked my car in its usual space next to Rosalie's. As soon as the car stopped I jumped out so I could open the door for Bella before she could do it herself.
"Thanks Edward" she laughed, stepping out gingerly. I took her hand and we headed towards the school building.
"Bella!" someone called from behind us. I didn't recognize the voice but Bella obviously did because she whipped around at lightening speed. When she saw the person her face immediately brightened.
"Hey Mike" she called and dropped my hand to walk over to him. My arm felt heavy and weak without hers to hold it up. I watched as Mike rapped his arms awkwardly around Bella's delicate frame. I seethed with hatred for this boy who was holding my Bella.
To my relief, she pulled away from him and I let out the breath I had been holding in. She was going to come back to me! But I watched instead in horror as, instead of walking away from the vile creature like I'd hoped, she leaned over and pecked him on his mouth. I blanched. How could she do that? I had to turn away in disgust when he deepened the kiss, it was getting way too much for me to bear. I stormed off towards homeroom, kicking a trash can in anger. I had to accept that Bella was with Mike but it just tore me up inside whenever I saw them together.
I was stopped on my journey by the last person I wanted to see; Lauren.
"Hey Eddie" she crowed and I had to hold back a shudder.
"My name's Edward not Eddie" I said.
She shrugged and pushed her body further against mine. She leaned down and tried to kiss me but I turned my head away just in time. She pulled back in surprise, searching my face questioningly
I turned away, not wanting to meet her eyes that I knew would soon be filled of hurt because of what I was about to do to her.
"I can't do this anymore Lauren. I just can't" I sad softly. I heard her gasp
"Are you dumping me?" she asked. I nodded
"You are dumping me?" she said again, not able to grasp what I was telling her. I nodded again although I wasn't sure if it would do any good.
"It's because of Bella isn't it?" she asked, her voice suddenly nasty.
"It's none of your business" I snarled. How dare she talk of Bella that way!
"I can't believe you're dumping me for her!" she screamed. I threw a withering glance at her.
"She's better than you in so many ways. I don't know why I put up with you for as long as I did." I spat. That struck a chord. Her face fell and tears came into her eyes. I was suddenly filled with pity. Who was I to do something like that to her? I was breaking her heart and then telling her how bad she was.
"Look I'm sorry, I didn't mean it." I said softly. She shook her head and turned away. I caught her arm and turned her back towards me
"It was good while it lasted" I tried but she just glared at me. I sighed
"I am truly sorry. I just can't be with you any more. I'm sure you're an amazing woman and I hop you'll be happy soon." I said and then let her arm go. I felt terrible. She shook her head and her eyes turned angry once more
"You're a jerk Edward. All you can ever think of is your precious Bella. You're not forgiven and I will get you back. You or Bella" she screamed and then turned and ran. She was right, I was a jerk. I had no right to hurt her the way I had, she was right not to forgive me. But hurting Bella? Bella hadn't done anything to her, or not purposely. I couldn't bring myself to image what would happen if Bella was hurt. I would never forgive myself. Being with Lauren was better than Bella getting hurt.
I sat down heavily in my homeroom seat. I didn't even notice as the teacher entered and gave the notices. I was too involved in my thoughts. I walked numbly to my first class but brightened when I remembered Bella was in it. Now I hurried; this was my one class with just Bella. No Mike or, shudder, Lauren.
I made sure that she noticed me this time, sitting in a seat visible from the door. I watched it, waiting for her to enter. She smiled when she saw me and came to sit beside me, dumping her books heavily on the table.
"Hey where'd you go before?" she asked, sounding somewhat sad. Why was she sad? She didn't want to be with me, she wanted to be with Mike. She did didn't she?
"I had something to do before class," I said, "Plus you seemed perfectly fine without me. You wanted to be alone with Mike, I understand" I tried to keep the hatred out of my voice at the mention of her boyfriend's name. I didn't want her to be angry at me. I don't think I'd be able to survive if that were the case.
She sighed and took me hand in hers, caressing it tenderly. She looked up at me, her eyes brimming with emotion; with love. Love for me. And it made me love her even more.
"Edward I will never not need you. I love you with all my heart and would never want to let you go." She said seriously and I believed her. Believed that she actually loved me like she said she did and it filled my whole being with happiness. She loves me! She said she loved me! Kept rolling through my head and although I knew that she didn't love me as I loved her, I couldn't shut the little voice off. I was over the moon.
"I love you too Bella" I said in a deep, meaningful voice. She had no idea how much I loved her and sadly, she would never know.
When the teacher entered she tried to pull her hand away but I wouldn't let her. Her hand felt right in mine and I wasn't going to let her take it away. It was these little things that were going to sustain me.
And so we sat, through the entire class, our hands never moving from the loving position they were in.
BPOV:
As I walked to class, I decided to get it off my chest. He would just take it that I loved him as a friend but it would make it easier for me to move on; once I saw that he couldn't love me back I would be free. I sat down and took his hand lovingly in my own.
"I love you with all my heart Edward, I would never want to let you go" I said. Ok, I had poured my heart out, now time for it to be crushed.
"I love you too Bella" he said thickly. When I looked up at him, I saw that his eyes were burning with the same emotion, exactly the same. I drew back in confusion. Could it be? No. I had misread his eyes, it was easily done. Eyes could be so tricky. But still, the amount of emotion in his voice…
I had expected, even wanted, to get my heart crushed but now here it was, soaring high on hope. How was I supposed to move on when there was a possibility, even if it was tiny, that he loved me? Not loved me as a friend but as I loved him, as a lover. How could I when there was a possibility that we could finally be together, even after all we'd been through. Sure, I wanted to be with Mike, but I had known Edward my whole life and I still loved him and probably always would, no matter where my life took me. If I could choose between the two boys, I would pick Edward in a heart beat. He was my one and only true love and I would never be able to truly forget him. I would only be able to move onto Mike if I knew for certain that I couldn't be with Edward. And now I wasn't sure. What if he actually wanted me but I moved on and he never told me. No Bella, I scolded myself. I couldn't let myself get carried away. I was going to have to move on to Mike.
The teacher came in and I remembered Edward's hand in mine. Quickly, I tried to pull away, hoping no one had noticed. But Edward's hand held mine firmly, making it impossible for me to resist. Plus, why would I want to? It felt wonderful, truly amazing. His hand was caressing mine almost lovingly. Although I'm sure he didn't mean it that way.
All wonderful things come to an end though and all too soon, class ended and we were forced to pull away. But luckily, as soon as we were out of the classroom, just as my hand was starting to feel empty, he grabbed my arm and, pulling me towards him, kissed me softly on the cheek. I felt my face turned to brightest of reds as he pulled away
"See you at lunch" he laughed cheekily, obviously noticing my blush. He turned and turned towards his next class, a bounce evident in his step.
I felt my cheek where he had kissed me. It tingled almost painfully so but still it sent wave after wave of happiness through my body. It was A million times better than when Mike had kissed me. I sighed as I headed off to Spanish. I was never going to get even a little bit over Edward. Mike had no chance what so ever. I mean, if Edward kissing me on the cheek made me week at the knees, then imagine him kissing me… No! No imagining, it would only make me even more desperate to see if I was right. I was not going to give into temptation.
Mike POV:
I sat in an empty classroom, just thinking. But all my thoughts were centered around on person; Isabella Swan. Although my feeling didn't go so deep as to say I loved her, I was pretty well taken. I wanted to be with her for as long as possible, but I knew that that wasn't going to happen, because there was one person who stood in our way; Edward Cullen. One of the best looking guys in the school and also best friends with my girlfriend. Edward could have any girl in the entire school he wanted, but there was only one he was interested in and she just happened to be currently going out with me.
I saw the way he looked at her; the ever present lust and longing and something else that I couldn't pin point in his green eyes. And I saw the way she looked at him; she had a crush on him, she wanted to be with him. She would dump me for him if he only asked her. I was only an alternative. Although I do think she cared for me, it was nothing to the attraction she had for Edward and it wouldn't take them too long to realize they shared the same feelings. Then where would I be? Girl-less and lonely once more, I didn't want that to happen. I would keep Bella from realizing her true feelings for Edward for as long as I possibly could, it would buy me some time to work out a back up plan.
I was interrupted by someone entering my private sanctuary. I looked up to see Lauren Malaroy; Edward's current girlfriend, although their relationship seemed to be balancing on the point of a knife as Edward worked out who he truly cared about.
"Can I help you?" I asked, a little peeved to be interrupted, especially by someone like her. She didn't say anything, just came to sit beside me and took my hand tenderly in hers. This confused me a little although I didn't say anything
"I have some terrible news for you. And you're not going to be very happy" she said gravely, her eyes full of remorse for having to give me this 'terrible' news.
"Hit me" I said jokingly. I mean, what bad news could Lauren possibly give me? She sighed and looked down, scared to look at me.
"Bella's cheating on you" she blurted out and then looked up to gauge my reaction. I pulled back in surprise. How could Bella do that to me? Could Bella do that to me? I didn't know her kind heart was capable of something like that. I looked over at Lauren and saw she was crying
"With Edward?" I guessed. Of course! Why hadn't I realized? Bella and Edward weren't looking at each other like that subconsciously; they were actually screwing each other.
"How…how did you find out?" I stammered. Lauren wiped her eyes and I waited for her to reply
"I saw them" she cried and burst into tears. Hesitantly I moved over and wrapped my arms around her. It actually felt pretty good seeing as I had just had my heart broken as well. I didn't know what to say so I just rocked us back and forth, trying to calm her and also, to calm myself. I couldn't get over the fact that Bella had cheated on me, was still cheating on me, probably at this very moment. Eventually Lauren stopped crying and turned to me, pain so clearly etched across her tear stained face.
"Do you think I'm pretty?" she asked quietly, needing reassurance and I gladly gave it to her.
"Extremely so" I replied straight away and I spoke truthfully. Lauren was extremely hot, even more so than Bella.
"Will you…" she hesitated, biting her lip in a cute fashion, "Will you kiss me?" she asked shyly. Now it was my turn to hesitate. Lauren needed to be reassured that someone would want her after what Edward did to her. But then there was Bella. What about her? But she had cheated on me, why couldn't I do the same to her.
Before I could respond Lauren was all over me. Her tongue in my mouth and her hands knotted tightly in my hair. I could have pushed her off if I wanted to but the thought didn't even cross my mind. Instead I gave her everything I had. She was so much better than Bella, she let me do whatever I wanted to her. But if Bella was going to lie and pretend nothing was going on, so could I. Anyway, having two people to kiss had to have a plus side to it. And of course it would.
Did you like it? Finally i've gotton rid of Mike, i am so amazingly happy :D. i love every single person who reviews, you are my happiness (sad, but true) and heres my appreciation;
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