A/N: Sorry for not updating on Friday like I said but I went to my friend Kylie's so I didn't have a way to update. But I also started school Friday so I won't be updating again until Friday or Saturday. I'm not sure really.
Disclaimer: I am not J.K. Rowling so I don't own Harry Potter.
Finished: Sunday, August 9, 2015 1:00 A.M (EST)


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Sunday, December 20, 1998
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Dear Fred,

How are you? I've been...well if you wanted to know. I've seen my better days for my mood but lately I've been a little...away from others as you would say. I don't know why but my moods have been changing constantly. I could be laughing with Percy then sobbing to Angelina. I don't know if it's the weather that's making me upset or the fact that Christmas is coming up in exactly five days.

I think it would be the second option.

It's just so unbelievable that it will be our first Christmas without you. Mum was going insane today talking about how she was already wanting to prepare for Christmas Dinner but Bill and Ginny had to talk her out. She said it was an important dinner this year and it had to be perfect. But it made us all wonder why because she never said each dinner she prepared was important. Until we heard her crying to Dad about how it had to be perfect because it would be the first one she made that she wouldn't have you complement like you did with every other meal she made.

It was horrible.

We still don't know if Great-Aunt Muriel will make it. I haven't seen her since the last visit I went to back November but Dad said she's not doing well. If I could have a favor from you it would be for you to welcome Muriel nicely, even if she wasn't nice to us. But she is over one hundred years old so I could understand why she didn't like us "snotty-nose, loud children"

Just seeing Mum cry is the worst thing ever.

Angelina came over today, actually she just left. It's nearing ten o'clock but she was just now leaving my flat. I told her about Muriel and she wished us the best. She also made me decorate my flat with shiny decorations to get in the Christmas room. It was very thoughtful of her and I appreciate it but now my small sitting room had a Christmas tree decorated with all types of sparkly orniments and it just makes me upset.

We should've been the ones decorating the tree. Adding some of our joke toys into it where when Percy walked by that it would scream at him about how much of a prat he was. Mum would scream at us and wack us with a spoon for doing so only for the tree to spray the silly string at her. Merlin, that would've been amazing.

But it's not and I have to deal with that. It's just one of the many Christmas's I'll be spending without you so I might as well get used to it. Even though it will be so painful to realize that it's true, I've got to face the fact that it is. It's just a way of life, I've been telling myself. I'm not the only one going through this pain am I? Maybe Colin's parents, along with Andromeda, and Remus's father.

As Angelina was here earlier and we were discussing things, along with how this would be her first Christmas without her mother. But we brought up our favorite Christmas memories with you when we stayed at Hogwarts for the holiday. She brought up about how we bewitched snowballs to hit Quirell in the back of his turban. I still can't believe it was Voldemort that we were hitting in the face.

It just made me upset because they were such good memories and now we can't continue with them.

Angelina is really a help though. We comfort each other while we either cry or we laugh. She's just a blessing for me to have. But I do still get that feeling you are judging me because she's your ex-girlfriend. But I like her Fred, I really like her. Especially when we got caught under the mistletoe at the Burrow today because Mum invited her to Dinner.

Since Ginny and Hermione are on Holiday break they were here and so was Luna. Luna tried to inform us that the mistletoe was full of nargles? But it didn't stop me and Angelina...it was rather nice, to be honest. But I still got a little shiver because it felt as if I was kissing my deceased brother.

I actually laughed about it after.

Ginny says she misses you a lot and told me that when she was walking the corridors around the area that you know what happened to you and it felt as if you were still there. But I know you're not because you chose to carry on with the spirits and not become a ghost...but it would've been nice if you were a ghost. Then I could still see you.

A young lady came into the shop the other day and was crying when she saw me. She exclaimed that it was because I looked like her savior. I was obviously confused until she told me that she was a Slytherin that was underage that snuck out of the dungeons to fight and ended up getting hurt but you helped her.

That was extremely brave of you Fred.

I wish I could say the same for you. That I was the one there to save you at the time the wall exploded. Where you would be here right now laughing at how pathetic I am and call me a git. But it will never happen because you are gone.

Merlin, how can you deal with these speeches and letters? They must be so bloody depressing! But I can't help it! I'm the worst person to try and move on in life. I can be happy one day and a bloody mess the next! I just want to know if you're able to hear these or am I wasting my time?

I miss you.


A/N: Well this may've been horrible but yeah. I'm going to scream because I kind of ran out of ideas and I wrote this on writers block so that's why it may not be intresting. But I will be looking forward into writing the next chapter because it will be the Christmas one! So be prepared for Friday or Saturday when I publish it.

P.S: You should read "The Malfoy Case" by natida. It is a Draco Malfoy and Astoria Greengrass story and it's absolutely perfect.

P.S.S: Read "The Escapades of Teddy Lupin" by nymphxdora and the sequel "The Skeletons in Teddy Lupin's Closet" because they're amazing.

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