Have you ever eaten chocolate chip pancakes? Real chocolate chip pancakes where the pancake to chocolate ratio is beyond calculation because you have now made a glob of pudding. Me either. Or at least not until that morning.

Surely you have realized I haven't ever made connections with peers. I stayed to myself and had always been content with the life I lived. I never thought I was missing out.

Yet, as I sat at the table eating I understood what I was really missing.

I cannot begin to explain how much the breakfast meant to me and you will never understand it so I suppose we should just move on?

All good things must end, I knew I would have to return back to my hell reality. He promised I could stay, promised I would be safer and all of it is true; however, I couldn't risk it. So, I left.

Each step felt heavy and each step drug on as I approached my destination. My heart faltered as I drew closer so much so I considered his offer. Maybe I could run? I could run far enough, somewhere you could never find? Somehow I knew that wasn't possible or at least not yet.

No, I would continue this purgatory for a sin I never committed.

Why I heeded to you threats and demands I am still unsure. Most assume it is fear, but honestly I do not fear you. Not in the traditional sense that is. Of course I became uneasy knowing you would hurt me, but it was not you I feared. It was the pain you could inflict without penitence of any form. There were those times where you would hold me and kiss my neck calling me your "little lamb". You would tell me of my beauty and asked if I would share it with you to which I never responded for I knew, I knew your words were nothing and yet, sometimes I felt an inkling you actually cared. It seemed as if you loved me in those rare moments. Those were the moments I feared.

I stepped into the lobby ignoring the repulsive artwork and head up the staircase to my flat. I didn't move in fear anymore. If you wanted me you would find me and there was no hiding really. You did find me of course as I unlocked my door. Pulling it closed before I could enter you crossed your arms giving me a scowl.

"Wherever was the little lamb last nochy?" You take my arm squeezing tighter than what would be considered sincere. I shrugged scooting you out of my way opening the door only to have you close it once more. "I came to check on my lovely and she was nowhere in sight. I began to worry she might have like been offended or something."

"I was out. It was nothing. Please move." I wormed my way around your arm opening the door and ducked under you slipping inside. You entered behind me closing the door. I turned to speak, but decided against it. I moved into my room not bothering closing the door, you would only open it anyways. You sit on my bed watching as I take clothes out of my dresser.

"I feel it may have been something." You stand trapping me between your arms.

"I'm sorry you find yourself in this situation." I snipped far too snarky for my own good. You smiled pushing hair out of my face.

"Sarky lamb, have you forgotten your last lesson so soon?" You yanked my body to the bed tossing me down. I struggle to sit up being forced back down. You run your fingers through my hair kissing down my neck. I struggled under your weight with no success. You moved me on my stomach tugging off my pants. I locked my knees scratching at your hands twisting. You push me face down and I freeze in terror.

"Please! No... Please, please please. I'll be good. Please don't do it again please..." I pleaded desperate to avoid the pain.

"Oh, what was that little lamb?" You yank my panties snapping the thin elastic. It popped on my thigh making me wince. I froze feeling your index finger trace down my back.

"Please..." I whispered lying motionless. Flipping me over you stared into my face as I shuddered.

"You'll be dobby? Do everything I want?"

I nodded hastily covering my skin when you freed my hands.

"What if what I want is to take your real savage like? Make you scream to holy Bog and the high heavens? Will you still be a dobby lamb?" Your nails dug into my hips gripping my skin.

I gasped, but forced myself to nod. It would be over soon. You will grow bored. I can do this.

"Kiss me." Your fingers stroke my cheek. I open my eyes and lean up placing a chaste kiss on your lips shivering at the sensation. You bit my bottom lip tugging. I winced curling my hands in the blankets feeling your hands take my own and placed them on your back. You kissed on neck sucking hard on sensitive skin. I stay motionless and you noticed.

"Sit up love and let's rid of our troublesome clothes right right?" You tugged my arms and pulled me to a sitting position. Your soft hands trailed under my shirt allowing the material to creep above my waist tickling my skin. Slipping the top off you reached behind unclasping my bra removing it from me smiling.

"So beautiful." You muttered unbuttoning your white shirt and slipping off your suspenders. You weren't muscular like he was, but you were not weak by any means. Unbuckling your pants I closed my eyes looking away.

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Your hand cupped my chin forcing me out of my mind. Opening my eyes I see your crystal blue eyes staring back. Still watching me you took behind my neck kissing me, lowering my body to the bed. You spread my legs softly waiting for me to part them. You kissed down to my pelvis and then lower causing me to gasp and try to move away. You held me still though and kissed again prodding your tongue letting it explore its new territory. Even though you had raped me countless times I was still rather inexperienced and over sensitive to your touch. The feeling made me grip at the sheets again. You look up giving me a devilish smirk. Your tongue was hot on me as it traveled sucking hard on that one spot which caused my body to fail me.

"No." I whispered breathily feeling my hips lift to meet your mouth.

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You continued to the point where I writhed under your grasped. I dug my nails into my arms refusing to make a sound. I hated the way my body betrayed me. Hated how I wanted you to continue.

You pulled away moving above me studying my face. I look to you, body ringing from your touch. Placing a tender kiss on my forehead you straddle my torso watching me.

"You're so quiet lamb. Other pistas creech and howl, but you, you stay all quiet like and take it real horrorshow. I can watch your pretty malenky listo as I plungey plunge plunge."

I remained silent taking a deep breath looking passed you to my ceiling. If I let my eyes go out of focus I could make shapes out of the stucco plaster.

You thrust into my body causing me to let out a soundless plea. I bit my lip holding your arm hard letting my nails dig into your flesh, closing my eyes praying it wouldn't be too bad.

"Open those lovely glazzies." You barked cupping my face as you placed light kisses down my throat pushing forward far enough to make me jerk up in response.

It was awful this way. It was awful because it didn't hurt and I couldn't control how your actions caused my body to react.

Suckling my skin you hummed against my neck.

"Beautiful, beautiful devotchka."

You continued and I stayed still as you forced yourself upon me going on until I moaned.

"Alex. Please. I'm so tired." I mumbled miserably as you kept going.

It hurt, it stung, it felt like heaven at times, and I couldn't stand it.

"Now now, we aren't done fillying little sister. Not until I have you calling to your holy Bog in bliss."

It's quicker now and so much harder. Our breathing heavy, choppy as each movement is executed. I struggled to move, needing something that I did not understand. You did though, in one swish movement you switched our positions and I was looking down at you as your hands guided my hips. I paused nervously unsure. You grind my hips lifting your legs filling my body with a new sensation. I let out a quiet sigh and moved in tandem with your thrust.

It felt amazing. I was in control. I decided how fast we went and for how long you were inside. I lifted myself all the way up letting you suffer the lost. Relishing at the pained face you made. I was in control. You take my hips forcing me back down not letting go again.

Everything became

Harder.

Faster.

Wetter.

I felt the familiar feeling teasing me, wanting to break free, but I begged it not to come. Yet, every time you hit that place my body screamed in pleasure.

"No.." I whispered over and over trying to move, trying to break away and run.

You played with my body forcing me to make choked sounds of bliss.

"Cum." You demanded.

I want to say that I didn't, want to say I was better than that, but I wasn't.

I rode your body harder relishing in the sensation. You followed holding my torso pushing me closer. Animalistic groans and growls leaving your mouth as you finished. My face flushed and humiliated I moved off of you ignoring the way you grabbed at me.

"You got what you wanted now go." I hissed motioning to the door.

You sat up with a smirk stretching as you stood. Coming to me you smile before back handing my cheek with enough force to make my eyes water.

"What gives you the slightest idea you get to tell me what I can or cannot do?" You growled viciously shoving me against the door.

I shake my head chuckling at the question.

"You are nothing, but a codfish." Ducking under you arm I take my clothes and move to my bathroom slamming the door.

I heard you laughing as you moved to the door opening it and I throw on my bra and underwear. Leaning against the door frame you cross your arms watching my every move.

"I have taken quite a liking to you my little lamb."

I sighed rolling my eyes muttering something to the extent of "Oh boy!"

"You aren't like th-"

"Other girls you've raped?" I cut you off slipping on my sweater and jeans. I pushed my way around you again pulling my hair into a simple braid.

"I don't appreciate this sarky tone you've adopted." You follow wrapping your arms around my waist tugging me to you. "I've been real horrorshow darling and here you come all harsh like and it puts a bit of pain in my gulliver you see." Hot kisses hit my neck causing me to flinch.

"What do you want from me?" I demand turning in your arms to face you.

Beautiful cool eyes embrace me with hints of malice and the need for control. They mock me in a way no others could. They had seen more of me than anyone ever had. Were able to crack me open and taint every inch of my soul. They also made me stronger. The eyes which once haunted my dreams were mere voids of azure. These eyes also had a touch of passion as you stared at me. It never lasted long, but I could see it briefly flicker as you held me close. You wanted something from me.

"Everything." You smirked.

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