This is the worst event in the history of human events. What Mr. Watari said is still ringing in my ears.
"You've really out done yourself this time improving like that and then helping Mail improve. Even if it was only on a couple of tests." Mr. Watari nodded.
"Wait what?" my eyes widened.
"Your roommate, Mail he is doing very well this year too."
"You- you mean Matt, right?" I asked. He is just having an old person moment-- I hope.
"Oh right he likes to go by his middle name." he nodded.
"S-so Matt h-he is the third student?"
"Why yes of course, that's one of the reasons I chose him to be your roommate. He never told you this?"
"I- Yes- I need to go!" I ran off.
Now here I am waiting for Matt to get out of class. "Hey, Mello!" Speak of the devil. I looked at him feeling that my face was hard as stone, his face slowly melted "Whats wrong?"
"You and I need a to have a serious talk, Matt." I snapped. I got up from my spot against the wall and walked inside our room, Matt fidgeted but followed behind me. I turned on my heel once we were inside I slammed the door shut. "You'll never guess what I found out today."
"What?" he squeaked.
"It turns out that you are the third student." I growled.
His is eyes widened and his mouth opened but he didn't say anything for a minute "How did-Who told you?"
"Mr. Watari. When I was asking him about my grades he said that he was glad to see Mail improving and thanked me for it. When I asked him what he meant he told me you are Mail Jeevas." I closed my eyes trying to calm down "Now what I want to ask you is," I opened my eyes again and growled "have you been messing up your grades on purpose?!" I meant for it to be a simple and calm question but it came out angry, probably subconsciously trying to mask how hurt I felt he didn't trust me to tell.
"What, no! I did my best on those test!" he answered quickly.
"Bull shit! You can't improve like that and then just go back to normal!"
"I don't know what you're talking about." he tried brushing me off.
"I thought you were my friend!"
"I-I am your"
"Then why didn't you tell me that you are the third student?!" I interrupted knowing what he was gonna say.
"Because I knew you would act like this." he averted his eyes.
"Like what? Like I've been betrayed by my best friend!" he took a step back from me his face going a little red "You know what, I just can't even comprehend this. Just leave me alone for awhile." I turned for my leave.
"Wait Mello I-" I glared at his protest before exiting.
I stood out the door for a few minutes hoping Matt would run out to catch me, but after several minutes I decided to leave.
Fight Day 2
I decided to spend the night in the nurses office saying I had an awful stomach cramp. I thought about going in our room for lunch but couldn't work up the nerve. I knew I had completely over reacted, but it--- hurt me to think he might be going "easy" on me. All I wanted now was to say that I was sorry but I couldn't even face him.
Fight Day 3
I worked up the courage to go back in our room but not to actually say anything; although, I did say "Bye." to him a few times. Maybe its because I think he might be trying to switch roommates with someone; if he did I wouldn't blame him. I'm pretty awful. I suspect the whole switching roommates thing because he hasn't been able to give me eye contact and in his sleep he muttered "I'm sorry. Ngh I'll leave you alo-ugh." I don't know what that means exactly, but its gotta be something like that.
Fight Day 5
I don't think I've been able to think about anything but Matt. He has me really worried. The past two days when I woke up in the morning his eyes were wide open and he was staring at the ceiling and how he moves is like he is in slow motion. It reminds me of that song "I Won't Ever Be Happy Again" by Bright Eyes.
Well morning came and it dressed the sky
in a lovely, yellow gown.
Now the shops they are all opening
in that narrow hallway of downtown.
Filled with people who are shopping for
their lovers and their friends,
so they won't ever be lonely again.
Well a forest fenced
becomes backyards where songs are born from sound.
And an Apple fell
and it taught us all we are chained here to the ground.
So, here we go, but there ain't no escape.
These streets are just dead ends.
So I won't ever be happy again.
Now it seems that you too see a
painful blue when you stare into the sky.
You could never understand
the motions of a hand waving goodbye.
But as the story goes, or it is often told,
a new day will arise and
all the dance halls will be full
of skeletons that are coming back to life.
And on a grassy hill the
Lion will lay down with the Lamb
and I won't ever be lonely again.
But until that time I think I
had better find some disbelief to suspend,
because I don't want to feel like this again.
I hope he won't be lonely or isn't now. I looked over at him laying on his bed with some head phones. Suddenly he reached his hand in his dresser for a bag of candy. This bag of candy had me worried. It was all I'd seen him eat since we fought. Matt never ate much before but I'd still see him eat junk from time-to-time through out out the day. He wouldn't even suck on it he would just crack through the whole thing a few bites. It worried me every time I saw him he looked about ready to puke and/or collapse.
Fight Day 6
Okay okay! Today I am going to apologize no matter what! I have to, I feel awful. I turned the corner to our room. Hey there he is! I saw Matt standing perfectly still. I was just about to tap him on the shoulder when he collapsed to the ground with a groan. "I'm sorry Mello, I let you down." but as he said that he wasn't looking at me; he seemed to be a thousand miles away. He closed his eyes whispering "I'm a fake."
My eyes widened "Matt!" I bent down, shaking him as hard as I could. Oh shit don't die! I picked him up in my arms and carried him to our room. Luckily he fell just a few feet away from our room. I placed him very gently on his bed. "Matt!" I leaned over him to see a very slow rhythm of breathing. "I'm sorry." I leaned into his cool lips; very gently kissing him.
A/N: Oh I wonder whats gonna happen. XD Review thank you please!?
Disclaimer: Idon't own Death Note, The Used or Bright Eyes.
