A/N: So I know I said that this chapter would be the same as last but in James' point of view but as I was writing it I realized that it was kind of pointless. I men, I think, or at least I hope, that I made what James was feeling pretty clear in the last chapter. I am going to over lap this on with the last a bit, but I am not going to do the entire scene again, just the kiss. Sorry if you wanted the entire chapter, but I know some people did agree with me on this topic! Any ways, as usual thanks SO much to all of those who reviewed, favorited, or alerted my story. It means a lot! Those who reviewed are: x0xoTheRosesx0xo, ScarlettInkHeart94, ixamxsqee, hermioneraven, nightwing27, MkGrays, FarmQueen, Gin M. Weasley, ohhhsnappps, drummerxbaby, and fattoad. THANKS!!
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Lily had been gazing at James for a few minutes when he finally decided that something must be wrong. Never before had see looked at him like that, as though she was truly looking at him, not at what she wanted to see. He was about to open his mouth to ask her what she was looking at when she did something that surprised him more then he could have imagined.
She kissed him.
The moment he felt her warm lips graze him, a euphoric blanket engulfed his entire body. He felt as though he was floating, never before had a kiss made him feel that good, had one given him that many emotions. Lily ran her small fingers through his hair and James had to suppress a shudder of complete delight.
But then it was over, he and Lily were stumbling apart, and she was looking as though she had just made the biggest mistake of her life.
"Wh-what was that? Not that I didn't want it to happen but…" James managed to ask.
"Nothing. Nothing just happened. It was a mistake."
With those few words James felt as though his life had just been ripped apart. Lily Evans had just kissed him, making him the happiest man alive, and with in the same minute she had broken his heart.
"What? NO! No that was not nothing Lily! That was something. A big something at that. I mean…you kissed me." James was desperate for Lily to admit that she had felt something, for him to know that he was not the only one that had felt the wonderful sensations run through out his body as they had kissed.
"No I didn't. You kissed me. It was nothing and it will not be discussed again. Come on we have to finish our patrol." Lily's voice was cruelly detached. James' heart was breaking even more.
"I…Lily I did not kiss you. Don't tell me that you didn't feel anything in that kiss."
"No I felt nothing what so ever. Just leave it."
"No I will not just leave it Lily! This is not something that can just be left!!!"
"Yes it is. And stop calling me Lily! It's Evans to you. Let's go. I want to get this over with."
James wanted to yell at her, to make her admit that she HAD felt something, that she DID have feelings for him. He opened his mouth to continue arguing, but she turned her back and started walking away.
There was nothing he could do to make her admit it, nothing he could do to make Lily love him before she was ready.
But maybe, James thought as the two started walking up their separate stair cases, headed for bed, maybe she will never be ready. Maybe it will take to long. Maybe…maybe I should just give up.
With that last thought James climbed in to bed and fell in to a restless sleep, full of dreams of a red headed girl laughing as she tour his heart out and left him to bleed to death on the floor.
"OHH PRONGSIE!!!! WAKEY WAKEY TIME!" Sirius jumped on James' bed, causing the boy to flop out of it and land on the cold wooden floor.
"PADFOOT!" James yelled before quickly grabbing a pillow and throwing it at Sirius.
"Prongs you have to get up…breakfast is almost over. If you sleep in much more you're going to be late to Potions. Old Sluggly won't be happy about that!" Sirius said simply before leaving the room. James quickly jumped off the ground and changed in to his school robes before sprinting down to the Great Hall to grab breakfast.
"Thanks so much for getting me up earlier guys." James muttered as he sank in to his seat next to Sirius in the Potions classroom seconds before being late.
"Hey mate, we tried!" Remus said "But I swear you sleep like a log!"
"Hello class!" Came an overly cheery voice from the front of the class room.
The Marauders attention turned to the rather fat man with a giant mustache from which the voice was coming. "Welcome back! I do hope that you all had a wonderful summer! Now! How about we just jump right on in to potions. No need for a silly lecture about how important N.E.W.T.s are. I am quite sure that you have gotten many of those already!" The jolly man gave a slight chuckle "Today's assignment is to make a sleeping potion. I know, this may seem elementary but you will find that the instructions I have given you call for entirely different ingredients. This potion is much stronger then the one you have made in previous years and if brewed wrong to could cause the drinker to sleep and never wake up! Now, begin!"
"Nice to see Slughorn hasn't been changed much by the war." Sirius said to James as the two collected their ingredients.
The hour passed in record time, and by the end of class all three of the Marauders (Peter had not gotten a high enough O.W.L to continue on with potions and therefore had a free period while the other three had potions) had concocted almost perfect potions. Only James' was slightly off, being more of a pale green with only a bit of blue color, then a pale turquoise.
The three friends met up with Peter, who was talking to what looked to be a Slytherin, although the three could not be sure, the boys approached but as soon as they neared the student walked briskly away, not showing his face or his robes for them to identify which house he belonged to.
"'Lo!" Peter said, a little too causally "Let's go to Care of Magical Creatures then shall we?" And he walked off toward the grounds, his little legs carrying him quickly.
The three other boys just shrugged and followed their odd friend down toward the grounds.
"Right-o!" Said Professor Kettleborn as the final group of people, a group of seventh year Hufflepuff's, arrived. "Today we will be looking at the Augurey. Can anyone type of animal this is? Pedin?"
Alice lowered her hand as she answered "an Augurey is a type of bird, sir. It has a low cry that people used to think foretold death, but in reality the bird cries when it is about to rain. It also only flies when it is raining, the rest of the time it remains in its nest."
"Very good Ms. Pedin. Now because of the fact that the Augurey is shy, I was not able to obtain one for you to look at directly, but I do have quite a few pictures. During this class I would like you to work on drawing a detailed diagram of this bird, and by next class I like it to be turned in along with a foot long essay about the habits of this bird." With a collective groan, the class set to work.
"This is rubbish. Who cares about a little bird?" James muttered as he began to draw the large wing span of the bird.
"An Augurey is a very important bird Potter! It is used for all sorts of things, like telling the weather. But of course you wouldn't care about that sort of thing would you? All that matters to you is your little world." Lily sneered, before turning back to her friends.
"So Sirius," James started turning to his friend, not even bothering to answer Lily "would you mind greatly passing me that picture over there? I need a more close up view of the wings."
Sirius passed James the picture, a bit shocked. James had never ignored Lily before; usually he would have some witty remark to throw back at her. But as he looked in his mates eyes, he saw that they were cold, blocked off.
The first half of the day passed quickly and when lunch rolled around James asked the other three Marauders to grab something to eat and meet him in the Room of Requirement, a room they had discovered by accident in their second year.
"So mate, what's so important that you are having us skip lunch to hear? And it had better be good...the chicken looked extra good today and I was only able to grab one leg." Sirius stated.
"I am giving up on Lily."
The three boys stared at James.
"What?" Peter squeaked out.
"I. Am. Giving. Up. On. Lily."
Sirius, Remus, and Peter would have thought he was kidding, but the look in his eye told them that he was serious.
"Um. Why mate? I mean, not that I object, it'll be nice to not hear you go on about her for once, but why the sudden change in heart?" Sirius asked, staring at his best friend, all food forgotten.
"I realized that she is a lost cause. I can tell that she likes me, don't give me that look Moony" Remus had been giving him a look that clearly said "no, she doesn't mate"
"I know she does. But she is not ready to admit it. And what if I keep waiting for her to be ready to face the fact that she likes me and I miss the one I am truly meant to be with? What if I spend all my time waiting on her and nothing ever comes of it? No, I need to just let it go. Move on. If she ever decides to admit she has feelings for me then maybe we can try something. But from now on I am not going to ask her out any more. I am not going to show off for her. I am going to go on dates with other girls. I have already missed some of the best dating years of my life waiting on one girl; I think it's time I should start putting my self out there for other girls."
"Prongs. What happened last night?" Remus asked, and as the question left his mouth he saw his friend wince, as though the words had caused him pain.
"Nothing. At least that is what Lily says. Nothing happened."
"Clearly something did happen. Something big and it clearly got to you because of this decision you are making. But I agree. I think that I will be good for you to put your self out there more. Maybe when Lily sees that you have options other then her, she will realize this liking of you, if it really exists." Remus said.
A hopeful look rose in James' eyes but was quickly cut off by his new, not caring look "Sure, maybe. But I don't care. I am forgetting about trying to get her admit it."
"Well then mate" Sirius said, clapping James on the back "I know just the perfect girl for you. A certain brown haired beauty from Ravenclaw named Rachel. Smart and pretty. I am sure that she would be willing to go out with you! Oh yes, my Prongsy is on the market, watch out ladies!" Sirius laughed, and the four best friends headed out of the room.
A/N: Another chapter done! An Augurey is actually a bird in "Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them." So I take no credit for that bird either. Review to tell me how you like the chapter!
