Hey, guys, Gairi here. I guess you've all noticed that I haven't updated this story in a while. I have a lot of writer's block, school is coming up soon (and scaring me), and my Mass Effect fanfiction, Shooting Stars, takes up most of my inspiration. It's not like I don't like this story, because that isn't true at all. I absolutely love it. I was reading it over this morning and I said to myself, "I really miss writing this." I do miss it. I miss the characters. But more importantly, I miss the inspiration to write it. The truth is that I wrote this story when I had a lesser knowledge of grammar, formatting, and fanfiction writing in general. You can't just copy the in-game dialogue and then say "perfect! Just a couple original lines and we're good to go!" I learned that halfway through writing Shooting Stars. Writing is a huge trial by fire, because you can't learn unless you practice. A lot. And I try to practice a lot. So much that I've started to dislike my past work.
I'm not going to continue this story, or "Code of the Honorless." But, I have good news for you guys. The characters of Camille and Sidri aren't going away. As a matter of fact, I'm adding a new character and I want to write a new story. How do you feel about modern Alternate Universe fics? I, personally, love them. I was reading "Message Sent," a Dragon Age fanfiction by Aicosu over on Archive of Our Own, and I fell in love with it. I've been writing a modern AU for Oblivion with my friend for a while now, almost a year, and I love modern Tamriel... I love it a little more than normal Tamriel, actually. So I'm taking the "normal" atmosphere of the modern world and combining it with the stories of Camille and Sidri (and a bonus character!) and I'm going to write a modern Skyrim AU for these girls.
I haven't decided on a name yet, but I have the first chapter in the works and I'm going to give myself a word goal of somewhere around a thousand words per chapter. With a goal or a limit, it's so much easier for me to write consistently. It's so much better than staring at a blank page and feeling overwhelmed because I have a whole chapter to write and no idea where to go with it. I can tell myself I only have 1000 words to write, and along the way, I'll find my inspiration if I didn't have it already.
I am really, really sorry to cancel this story. I know a lot of people really liked it and I know the feeling of having a good story get called off. But the truth is that I don't think I can write this anymore, no matter how much I want to. I want it all to be finished and perfect for you guys, but I think I'd just do it halfheartedly and I always want to put my whole heart into what I post. I'm taking a break from Shooting Stars after Part Two of that story is finished, which is going to be very soon. When I do take that break, I'll do my best to work on the modern AU. I do have an original story in the works, though, so uploading may be slow. But I promise: I'm not going to give up on this AU. I love Camille and Sidri far too much to do that. I wouldn't even have written this note to you guys unless I was sure that I had a backup plan for the characters, so trust me when I say I'm not giving up.
Thank you all so much for reading these stories as much as you did, putting up with my two-year-old writing, and leaving me such kind reviews. I'll post a notice here once the new story is up and then I'll decide whether or not to delete the old ones. I know you don't owe me anything, but when that new story goes up I would really appreciate it if you could give it a shot. Maybe you'll like it, even if you don't like modern AUs. All I ask is that you try it out and see if you want to continue reading it. I copied this note onto "Code of the Honorless" as well so everyone can see it. Again, I'm really sorry. But I think it's for the best and I hope you all like the AU.
With warmest regards,
-Gairi
