Back to December
DISCLAIMER: I don't own them just borrow them from time to time. The song is back to December by Taylor Swift
Brittany practiced in her head what she wanted to tell the other girl as she made her way to Santana's house. The night was chilly and she was thankful she had thought to grab her letterman jacket before leaving the house.
As Santana's house grew closer Brittany could feel her heart speed up , and her mouth went dry. The other girl was waiting on the front steps for her.
Knowing that it was her place Brittany started, " Im so glad you made time to see me, How's life, tell mw how's your family?" She gestured towards the house, " I haven't seen them In a while"
Santana wouldn't meet her look, Brittany tried again, " you've been good, busier then ever"
Santana made a ' yeah right' face but still didn't look at her, " we small talk, work and the weather, your guard is up and I know why"
Brittany moved a little closer, and she took it as a good sign when Santana didn't move away from her, " because the last time you saw me is still burned in tha back of your mind, you gave me roses and I left them there to die"
Brittany sighed, wringing her hands in front of her, and with all the sincerity she could muster she sang, " so this is me swallowing my pride saying I'm sorry for that night"
" and I go back to December all the time"
Santana lifted her eyes briefly, and in that moment Brittany told her,. " It turns out freedom aint nothing but missing you.. wishing I realized what I had when you were mine" she tried to hold Santana's gaze as long as she could" I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright"
" I go back to December all the time"
Santana walked down the steps of her porch, crossing her arms, she hugged herself. Brittany followed her.
" these days I haven't been sleeping, staying up, playing back myself leaving, when your birthday passed and I didn't call"
When Santana stopped Brittany took the moment to drape her jacket over the other girls shoulders. Santana watched her from the corner of her eye.
" And I think about summer, all the beautiful times" She smiled at Santana hoping that she remembered all those memories too, " I watched you laughing from the passenger side.. and I realized I loved you in the fall"
Santana looked down and Brittany closed her eyes looking ashamed, " and then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind, you gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye"
Brittany turned Santana so that the other girl was facing her, and she used her fingertips against Santana's chin to make the other girl look at her, her voice was soft in the night, " so this is me swallowing my pride, standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night, and I go back to December all the time"
Santana tried to turn away but Brittany wouldn't let her, " it turns out freedom aint nothing but missing you, wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine, I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind..I go back to December all the time"
Brittany pulled Santana closer, wrapping her arms around her back, and touched her forehead to hers, " I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me so right" she sang, and now she had Santana's full attention, " and how you held me that September night the first time you ever saw me cry"
" maybe this is wishful thinking, probably mindless dreaming" she said bringing one hand up to move strands of Santana's hair behind her ear, " but if we loved again I swear I'd love you right"
" id go back in time and change it but I can't, so if the chain is on your door I understand"
And then Santana was breaking down, burying her face in the crook of brittanys neck, Brittany held her tight and sang, " so this is me swallowing my pride, standing in front of you saying Im sorry for that night, and I go back to December"
She rubbed Santana's back trying to soothe the other girl, " It turns out freedom aint nothing but missing you, wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine"
She pulled Santana back a little so that there eyes could meet, " id go back to December ,turn around and make it all right, I'd go back to December and change my own mind"
She cupped Santana's chin with her hands, "I go back to December all the time"
Brittany kissed Santana then, and Santana hooked her arms behind her neck pulling her closer. They stayed that way for awhile.
TBC
