Chapter Nine

Jake POV

I followed Adam into the canteen and towards the food isle, where I picked up a tray and started piling food on a plate. Adam turned to me as he grabbed a bottle of water and some fruit, this dude eats healthy and I'll freely admit my lunch wasn't anywhere in comparison (but I could work it off in the gym, no worries).

"Do you want to come round mine to work on our English assignment after school sometime this week?" Adam asked and I suppressed a groan, simply because I knew how much his Dad disliked me (scratch that: how much his Dad HATED me!).

"Actually, I was thinking you could come round my place" I offered and mentally crossed my fingers, prying Adam would say yes.

"Yeah, alright then," Adam said with an easy smile and I grinned like an idiot as we went to pay for our lunches, but Adam pulled out his wallet and gestured towards me as he told the cash register "I'm paying for him as well"

Looks like it was officially "next time" and seeing the smug look on Adam's face made me chuckle. I fell into step as we wondered around the canteen, looking for somewhere to sit.

That new girl in Glee (the red haired one… Becca or Becky) was sitting by herself at a table reading a book and Adam headed to her table, I smiled at the way he was always caring about others as I followed him.

"Hey, Bella," Adam said cheerfully as he sat next to her (Oh, her name's Bella… well I was close anyway) "do you mind if we join you?"

Bella looked at Adam in slight surprise, but her face fell into shock when she saw me with him and she seemed lost for words. I gave a small smile, hoping that she wasn't scared shitless of me because I was a Puckerman.

"No, of course not" Bella mumbled and I took the seat next to Adam, already munching on my French fries and partly listening to Adam and Bella's conversation.

"So what are you reading?" Adam asked with interest and I looked up to see Bella's face beam up with excitement, she was clearly a bit of a bookworm like Adam and I could tell where this conversation was heading.

"Hidden from the House of Night series." Bella explained and Adam had a wide grin on his face that was seriously cute, which made me stop eating and I started to pay attention. Anything to see that boy smile was worth paying attention to.

"I love those books!" Adam said excitedly "I've read them all, including the novellas."

"I know, they're so awesome." Bella beamed, all signs of shyness gone now "I can't believe there's only two left in the series."

"What book is that then?" I asked, a little intrigued now as I looked at the book cover.

"Ten." Adam and Bella said in unison, making me look from one to the other in shock. Ten books in a series with two more on the way, shit these books must be seriously good.

"Aren't they similar to Twilight?" I asked and Adam shook his head, looking at me in disbelief.

"Hell no, they're so much more complicated and darker," Adam explained and I chuckled, loving the way he looked so serious when he was taking about something that he was passionate about.

"So what are they about?" I asked, casually slinging my arm over the back of his chair and grinning as he went into full blown book mode.

I was half listening to Adam's explanation about vampyres, raven mockers and some goddess chick called Nyx, but the other half of me was taking a great interest in every small detail of Adam's face: those beautiful green eyes, the way his nose crinkled when he was serious and how sexy that was, the way his mouth moved and looked so kissable… shit, I would give anything to kiss him right now and I didn't even care I was in a room filled with all my classmates. I only saw Adam.

"Aww, don't you guys look cute!" cooed an annoyingly gay voice and I gritted my teeth, trying to stay calm as I turned and saw Blaine standing by our table with a super asshole smirk.

I looked coolly back at him and didn't bother to move my arm away from Adam, it was a completely friendly and innocent gesture and moving would give him more ammo to take the piss.

"Piss off, Anderson" I said shortly, glaring at that face I was dying to punch and I ignore the frown Adam gave me for being rude "we're having lunch."

He smirked at me with a sly grin before turning to smile sweetly at Adam and I had to fight the urge to move my arm from the chair and wrap it around Adam's shoulders.

Fix up, man! I told myself firmly, you don't own Adam! But Anderson sure as hell doesn't either.

"Hey, so do you want to go practice a few duets in the choir room before Glee Club this afternoon?" Blaine asked Adam causally and I wanted to vomit, subtlety wasn't his strong point at all.

"Nah, I'm good here thanks." Adam said and it was my turn to smirk at Blaine, feeling completely smug now "I'll see you in Glee though."

Blaine looked irritated, but shrugged it off and gave his false charming smile.

"I'll see you later," Blaine said and he walked out of the canteen.

I looked back to Adam and saw he looked irritated and I secretly hoped it was because of Anderson.

"You okay?" I asked softly and Adam nodded, giving a small smile.

"Yeah, I'm cool," Adam assured me, but I knew that wasn't the case "he's just seriously starting to get on my nerves now, his just… never mind."

I was about to ask him what he was about to say, but I suddenly realised I needed the bathroom (I'd drunk way too much water during our dance class and now it was starting to show).

"I'll be right back, I gotta take a piss." I told them, before getting up and heading towards the bathroom.

On my way into the bathroom, I thought back to my dance lesson with Adam and how feelings that I'd never felt stirred somewhere deep in my gut. Holding Adam close to my chest was amazing (emotionally as well as physically) and I loved the way he smelled, loved the way I was slightly taller than him and the way he absolutely trusted me to lead him in a dance that was quite intimate for two guys topped it all off. Was this how it felt to fall in love with someone? You noticed every little thing while you was with them and the little things were just as big as the big things?

Was I falling for Adam? A guy?

That question opened up a whole lot of other questions and I was starting to realise that I might not be so certain of my sexuality at all… I was in deep shit.

But I knew what would happen if I admitted I was gay and had feelings for Adam (especially if he felt the same way), my friends and family's opinions of me will completely change and they won't see me as the same person. I couldn't handle that. I especially couldn't handle that if I put myself out there for Adam and he didn't feel the same way, what the fuck would I do then?

I tried miserably to force these thoughts and fears out of my head as I entered the guys' toilets and took a piss in an empty cubical.

As I flushed the toilet, I heard the door to the bathroom open and someone walk in but I didn't take much notice. I zipped my jeans up and unlocked the cubical and walked out, but I stopped dead when I saw Blaine leaning against the door with his arms crossed and smirking at me.

"I think we should have a little chat, little Puckerman" Blaine chuckled darkly, no friendliness in his eyes.

Fuck.

"What do you want?" I asked angrily, clenching my hands into fists as I glared at Blaine "if you're here to try and look at my junk, I suggest you piss off before I knock your lights out!"

Blaine chuckled again, shaking his head and pushing himself off the door.

"You're definitely not my type, Jacob… Adam, however," Blaine sighed and wolf whistled at the thought of Adam "now that's a piece of ass I wouldn't mind tapping."

Fury burned inside me as the mental image of Blaine touching and kissing Adam burst into my mind, the thought made me sick and I wanted to kill Anderson for putting it there in the first place. Adam was worth more than a million of any Blaine and he didn't deserve him, I wouldn't let him have Adam just to end up hurting him!

"There it is!" Blaine hissed triumphantly, pointing an accusing finger at my face "that look."

"What look?" I demanded through gritted teeth as I tried to control my breathing, but this made Blaine more smug and he glared at me as if seeing me for the first time.

"The look of anger, jealousy and protectiveness" Blaine explained, walking closer to me with a sly grin "every time I look at Adam you glare daggers at me, every time I speak to him you cut in and I see the way you look at him. You… like… Adam."

Blaine was now right in front of me, his face looking calmly back at mine and I was now shaking with uncontrollable anger. How did he know?

"You don't know what you're talking about!" I snapped, fighting the urge to punch him in the face and keep my cool.

"Have you seriously gone through every girl at this school, now you're starting on the guys?" Blaine asked coyly "or is it something about Adam? I get it, dude. White British guy, sweet, smart, good-looking and athletic… hard for any guy to resist."

I shoved Blaine forcefully away from me, causing him to stagger backwards and nearly fall but he didn't and the look of satisfaction on his face was making me fucking mad!

"Don't talk about Adam like that!" I shouted furiously and I stormed towards the door, knowing if I didn't leave now I would do something I might regret.

But Blaine's voice made me stop at the door, his words slicing me like a knife.

"Oh, I get it now… you've always been gay and you've tried to hide it by sleeping with any girl you can get your hands on, but now Adam's in the picture and you're starting to have feelings for him," Blaine's voice was a hateful and hurtful hiss, each word hitting a raw nerve "but you're afraid to act on these feelings, because you don't think he'll feel the same and why should he? You're nothing but a half black little thug whose mother shags married men and lives off financial aid."

My vision turned red as I charged at Blaine, knocking him to the floor and throwing punch after punch into his face. He said exactly what most people thought I was, but insinuating that Adam thought them too had sent me over the edge and I wanted to beat him until those hateful words stopped playing themselves on repeat in my head. I ignored Blaine's cries and pleas for me to stop, I ignored the blood and bruises that were starting to appear on his face, I even ignored my hand throbbing in pain as it continuously hit Blaine's face with deadly force.

"Jake…Please…STOP!" Blaine begged as I continued to punch his face, but I was past caring. I wanted to inflict a small portion of the pain people give me all my life!

The door burst open and two people rushed in, but I barely noticed there presence and continued to beat the already bloody and bruised face of Blaine Anderson.

"Jake, stop!" a familiar voice yelled and Adam's strong hands pulled me off the cowering Blaine, pulling me to my feet and gripped my forearms from behind to restrain me from attacking him again as Mr Shue crouched next to Blaine with a look of terrified concern. Blaine was slightly crying, but I didn't care… that bastard deserved to be in pain!

"He… attacked me…" Blaine whimpered tearfully, winning first class act for Fake Drama Queen. Amazing how he goes from disrespectful racist asshole, to innocent and unaware victim in minutes.

"He provoked me!" I snapped angrily, but Mr Shue turned and glared at me with look of such anger and disappointment it hurt to look at.

"If I were you, I'd keep very quiet!" Mr Shue told me firmly, forcing his voice to remain calm.

I pulled out of Adam's hands and turned to him to explain what really happened, but the look of fear and hurt in Adam's eyes made the words die on my lips.

I could deal with the racist insults and cussing from a stuck up rich boy, but knowing that Adam was afraid of me was unbearable. Here I was, my knuckles bruised and covered in someone else's blood, looking at someone I really cared for and seeing them look at me like I was a completely different person. This was too much!

My eyes burned with tears as I felt the walls closing in on me, I needed to get out and I needed to be away from those hurt and confused green eyes.

"Jake…" Adam began, reaching for me and I instinctively moved away from him looking anywhere but at him as the tears escaped my eyes "Jake, talk to me… it's okay."

It's not okay! How is any of this okay?!

I couldn't stay here, I needed to be anywhere but here!

I rushed past Adam and into the corridor, sprinting for the main exit and ignoring Adam's yells for me to come back. I could hear his feet running after me, but I pushed myself to run faster and out of the school building and into the parking lot.

I ran out into the street, not knowing where I was going and following the pavement without really noticing where I was going and was left with my own painful thoughts for company.

Somewhere I had lost Adam, but I had no idea when and just kept on running… I needed to keep running.

The tears fell down my face as Blaine's words tore at my insides and I kept seeing Adam's hurt and fearful face, but that one question kept torturing me.

What if I was the good for nothing thug everyone thought I was? What if that's all I'll ever be?


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