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(Embry POV)
Everything was a quiet storm.
Fear and anxiety ate away at me.
Demetri had left me in this room for who knows how long; it felt like forever, as if I would never get out. Every time I felt the need to pass out, I couldn't. Something was keeping me strong. I had remained on the bed, not wanting to move from the spot, for the fear that I would give them a reminder of my presence by my movements, telling them that they indeed held me as their prisoner. I pulled my knees tightly to my chest; folding my body into itself, stilling myself motionless as a statue. I didn't want to give them any sort of a reminder. Silence was my best friend.
Every little sound they made had me paranoid. Afraid that he was going to come bursting through the door and make me submit. Fuckers delusional if he thinks for one second I am weak enough to submit to such a monster. I'd rather die than submit to anyone but my Sam.
He was my kiss of life, the one whom breathed love into my soul, gave me his being; he inhaled so he could live for me, his eyes stayed open to show me the wonders of purity that I have never known, his lips stayed as a velvet warmth so he could kiss the cold pain away, his slick tongue danced over my skin to show and demand pleasure from me, his hands stayed strong; calloused and a silky smooth at the same time to hold, cradle, and guide me when I was lost or feeling lonely; I was never in doubt that I was cherished when he touched my whimpering and yearning skin that called and glowed for him.
His firm, steady thrust showed me who I belonged to, his thick yet watery essence permeated my glands as a strong whiff of his claim on me. His heart beat because he knew I needed it to beat so I could survive, as mine did the same for him. Sam, my Sammy was my kiss of life.
Only then when I would think of his name did my chest burn like the pits of hell. God, how I wanted to go home, and by home I meant in his arms. I whimpered. I wanted to be away from here and wrapped tightly in his arms like he'd done so many times before; my own personal cocoon.
My thoughts then wandered to Cullen. I felt a pang of sympathy for him. He had been betrayed in the worse way possible. I couldn't even imagine being hurt by my love the way he had been hurt. The bitch that had once been his supposed mate had some fucking nerve.
I noticed he didn't put up much of a fight, I'm sure it was to protect his family especially his little girl.
Why that fucking cow didn't take the advice of the curly haired vamp about having Seth, the mother vamp, and the little girl run away I would never fucking understand. Even the darn pixie said if the time came to it, it would have worked.
But it didn't matter if he was a vampire. It didn't matter that he had once killed humans. None of that mattered now because he didn't deserve this.
He did his suffering for his sins against humanity, he had already paid for that with years of isolation, losing and trying to rebuild his soul, having the gift of hearing and seeing the sufferings of others, and his years of loneliness. When I think about how I heard he used to be, the monster he had become; how could anyone blame him? How would one really react to know that they are made into something that is seen as a curse or feeling the risk of losing oneself to something so dark and dangerous you aren't even sure how to fight to it to keep the person you are.
He would have been better off dying with his family, but he was given the dark gift. Edward was confused, young and less than sane. I could relate to him; being given something you did not asked for, seeing the worlds evils played out before your young eyes. Though he seemed not to believe it, Edward, indeed did have a soul, the fact that he spent every waking day trying to better himself, turn his life around and help others from his heart was a testament to the real person he was in the inside.
Only now do I realize what kind of person Edward is and how self-less he is when I think back to the days when we were training...
We had been training and working hard for weeks and some of us were getting behind on school since we were missing whole days with 10 hour fighting sections. The more seasoned fighter vamps with marred shape scars were training with the older pack members Sam, Jacob, Jared, Leah, Quil, and Collin which left Seth, Brady and myself out so we could focus on school work.
Out of the corner of my eye I saw I head bowed Edward approaching with 4 full baskets of food in each hand, I swear with his poster and if he was a wolf he would be a damn submissive. But Edward carrying food like this was not out of the ordinary. He had once told us he made it himself with gloves on so the vamp smell we couldn't stand could get on the food. And every time he brought us the food he was true to his word; we didn't smell anything but the aroma of freshly made sandwiches, cookies, pasta salad, and other goodies.
When he would return back to his side of the field I could see and faintly hear Bella bitching him out because of what he was doing for us when she had pulled him into the wood while the others were distracted with training.
I was the only one paying attention to them when I overheard their conversation as I moved a little closer to the woods.
"But Bella, it's the least I ...we…can do since they are helping us to protect our family. This is our child we are talking about them helping us protect. Nothing I do can really repay them or show my gratitude for what they are doing."
"Edward," she hissed at him. "are you slow are just plain stupid, they are just here to protect their own furry asses. You don't have to feed those savages."
"Bella how can you say that. If it wasn't for them we might not even have a chance. Our daughter wouldn't have a chance. What they are doing is most kind and not to forget rescuing their own lives to help out their natural enemies. The packs hearts are in the right place; trying to protect not only their people, but the whole town. " He tried to reason with her.
"Does it look like I care, they are mocking us. They don't care about us; remember they can turn on us. We don't need them. Stop trying to make friends like you are a desperate retarded kid with candy trying to fit in. That money can be spent on much more worthy things."
She was one selfish bitch. I knew for a fact it wasn't about money. The Cullen's had money coming out of their asses.
"But…" Edward tried to speak before she cut him off.
"Edward, just shut up, I don't want to hear it. You listen to me, I don't want you giving them food anymore, they can fend for themselves. Do I make myself clear?" She growled out to him.
"Yes, I understand." He whispered out.
No one ever noticed how Bella talked to Edward because everyone else was in their own little world, not to mention she was very slay and clever about it around everyone. I think I started to pay more attention to their relationship because I understood the signs of abuse from him for I had gone through it myself. Though at the time I didn't feel sorry for him at all nor did I really see the real darkness behind it at the time.
Even after she had told him that the first time and continued to do so during our training he still brought us food and afterwards had to hear the mouth of the bitch.
I swear one time after she dragged him into the deep woods I heard a loud collision, but no one really paid it any mind since there were vamps fighting each other; the sound of their bodies hitting crackled like thundering lighting, so no one even noticed. When Edward and Bella reemerged, I swear I saw his eyes glistening.
How could his family not fucking notice this shit. Everyone and I mean everyone seemed to think Bella was just precious and their relationship was a great one.
That bitch played her game well.
Some would call Edward weak; less than a man, but love really does make you put up with hell, literally especially when you think the person you love is your life mate and you have a child with them. He wasn't weak ….he was just….confused, manipulated, played, young like me, and so very naïve even with his years walking this earth.
The chance of not being lonely for eternity makes a person hold onto and handle some fucked up shit. No, Edward wasn't weak; he was foolishly in love with a sick monster.
Anyways, Edward was once again at the mark that separated the wolves' side from the vamps, setting our food down. When I heard Seth beside me let out a groan, I looked over to ask him what was wrong and he stated he was having problems with his math.
"Hey, Seth, if it's ok I can help you with that. I know a few ways that could make it easier to understand." Edward said with a smile on his face, he really did look eager to help.
"Thanks Edward that would be great!" Seth stated gratefully, he was always one to see good in people and not judge so quickly.
Edward quickly made his way over to us, setting close by Seth till their shoulders were touching. During that time I didn't see anything wrong with the way they were sitting until I heard a low warning growl. I looked up to see Jared pulling a death glare at Edward. Really the way they were setting was nonthreatening to a normal person, I could tell that Edward only saw Seth as a friend and didn't mean any harm.
The only problem was that Seth like me was a submissive who had unknowingly been imprinted on by Jared who didn't want Seth to know yet, he wanted him to live his life some since he was so young at 15.
Jared saw the interaction especially since they were sitting close as Edward trying to make a move on his mate.
Seth and Edward were absolutely oblivious to Jared's warning, their only focus was the math homework. In a blink of an eye, Jared was in front of Edward about to attack him, I was so shocked I couldn't warn Edward to move when Jared's huge paw knocked Edward sideways from Seth, sending him flying into a tree.
Then in an instant Jared was grabbed by the tail, flung in the air like a rag doll, landing on his back hard, an loud cracking sound rang throughout the meadow; Jared's broken ribs . Before he could gather himself, Jared was gripped by the throat and thrown down on the ground once again by, who I noticed as the Major.
I looked over to where Edward was and he was still against the tree Jared had knocked him into. Everyone just stayed still and watched whatever was playing out. For some odd reason no one interfered, Sam didn't even say anything as he sat in his wolf form beside me.
"Before you attack flea bag, understand the situation before hand." The curly haired vamp growled, venom flowing from his mouth.
"Edward was simply helping young Clearwater with his studies, nothing more. If you EVER touch him again, you will die a slow fucking death. Am I understood, SPEAK!" The Major demanded.
Jared relented and barked his understanding. The blonde vamp turned around letting go of Jared's neck to look at his audience.
"Everyone back in formation NOW." He snarled his command totally in military mode. No one bated an eye and did as they were told.
"Mr. Uley, make sure your pack member works out his problem soon. This can cause problems we do not need. Have him finalize what needs to be done." The Major spoke with his black eyes trained on Sam. I guess the vamp knew what was going on with Jared and Seth. Smart man and he couldn't even read minds.
He then went over to the tree where Edward was, helping him up and I could see his eyes scanning over Edward. A growl continued to rumble from his chest as he directed Edward over to their side.
"Edward, if you ever let your guard down again I will fucking punish you myself."
"Jasper I didn't hear his..." Edward tried to explain.
"Silence! You let your guard down; you were attacked for that very reason. I don't care if you are taking a break, you never break mode or make yourself vulnerable. You need your gift open at all times. Do I make myself clear?"
"I understand. I'm sorry." Edward stated, with his head down, looking even more defeated. At this action I could see the Majors eyes soften.
"You never have to apologize to me, I understand you made a mistake and I am sorry for raising my voice at you. It won't happen again. But you must understand that your family especially your wife and daughter also depend on your gift. Come you need to feed, I never want you weak. We can feed together."
With that said the blonde vamp throws his arm around Edward's shoulder.
"Peter." The Major called in authority. Whomever this Peter was said one simple 'Yes, Major'. Edward and the other vamp disappeared into the woods.
I'll never understand how they didn't know they were mates, hell I don't think Edward even knows still.
That night after Jared told Seth that he him printed on him, and come to find out the little bugger already knew and had imprinted on Jared too. The next training section Edward came up to Jared to ask if it was ok that he helps his mate with his school work, Jared accepted.
Even after being attacked Edward never batted an eye to help us out, from brining us food, clothing, to even doing our homework for us when we were too tired to do it. He had even supplied Jacob's father, Billy, with free insulin shots much to Billy's reluctance, but honestly how could he turn something like that down.
Just hearing the conversations he had with Seth who seemed like to be his only friend did I get a glimpse of the real Edward.
I also understand he was bestowed the kiss of darkness, death, and unfortunate happenings; Bella.
A real mate would never do what she did, he didn't deserve that, but when it comes to me maybe I did, I took someone's mate away from them. I didn't intentionally do it, I would never think to do such I thing, it just happened, I tried with all my might to stay away from him, but fate just wouldn't let us live without each other, it's as if we gravitated towards who we really belonged to.
I jumped as the door slammed open bringing me out of my inner thoughts. Demetri slowly stalked towards me. As he moved forward, I moved backwards on the bed. Then at a speed only an immortal could achieve, He grabbed me off the bed and pulled me close to him. I shuddered in disgust as his cold body pressed against mine. He hands locked around my wrists, ensuring I wasn't going anywhere, even if I struggled. I felt tears pool in my eyes again as I felt his breath on my neck. I had been petrified that he going to bite. But he didn't, I wouldn't dare question the reason as to why not.
"You will submit. And believe me, Emily and I intend to do everything to make sure you submit like the slut you are." He whispered coldly in my ear.
This made me struggle even more, but this only made his grip on my wrists tighten even more. He dragged me out of the room and into the dark corridors. After taking a few turns down the halls, we reached two huge doors, but not as big as the throne room, though.
He unlocked the doors and pushed me inside. It was dark; the only light coming in was from the stained windows above. My heart started beating even faster. I looked around and saw Cullen and Felix. Felix had a death grip on Edward. He looked disgusted at whatever was in Felix's mind. Emily was near them, smirking at me. I looked away from her cold blooded eyes. Demetri dragged me in the middle of the room. There were iron shackles chained to the ground, on the far wall was a plat form of different whips with what looks like wolf claws stick out from the leather.
My heart rate spiked even more as he forced me on my knees and chained down my wrists. I pulled on them, but they refused to break. They were not normal shackles; if they were I would have been able to break them. I maybe a submissive and weaker than dominates, but I'm not that weak to break normal shackles if I was born to kill vampires. They were defiantly made of something not natural.
My breath became ragged as I looked around. All 32 members of the leech family where in the large room until someone announced it was time for dinner, they all left leaving only Cullen and I, who had just been set free to roam the room since nothing could really hold him down expect for another vampire.
And I know there were about 20 I smelt surround us outside of the room.
Sighing in defeat, I let my body slump against the cold marble wall, pulling my legs up to my chest, ducking my head under my folded arms that lay across my knees. Salty drops of liquid prickled my eyes, but not falling. I didn't want to cry to show I was losing my battle.
I didn't even want to cry silently to myself for I didn't want any sort of realization to dawn on me. I prayed Sam was doing better than me, I prayed that Sam would keep his promise to me; that he'd always would come for me.
I yearned for some sort of kiss of life.
I stayed in that position I don't know how long until I felt cold hands touch on the either side of my arms, rubbing circles in them.
I looked up to see a sadden shell of the once bright looking Cullen staring back at me. His skin looked even paler if it was at all possible. He looked so weak, his once vibrant golden eyes were dull and lifeless, and he even looked as if he had lost weight, though I know that wasn't possible. But everything about him was…..fragile.
His body mirrored how I was feeling; weak and on the verge of defeat. I just want my kiss of life back.
" E-Embry…I..I'm s-so...I never meant…I just wanted to protect my family my daughter, but…I." He sobbed out, falling on his backside in front of me.
I didn't know how to react towards this. I'm not going to lie, if it wasn't for them I would still be in the arms of my mate, if it wasn't for their very existence none of this would have happened. A part of me did blame him and his fucking wife for everything, but the other part of me understood you couldn't change fate or what was meant to happen for whatever reason.
I couldn't fault or blame Edward for loving and protecting his family. I would have done the very same thing. I also couldn't feel hate towards him because he and I were alike and had more in common then we both knew.
"I'll I wanted to do was love her, I fought for her because I thought she loved me too, but that is beside the point." He said as he continued to hang his head low.
"For all the pain I have caused you, your pack, and your mate, I am sorry. I know it doesn't mean much but…I just…I have been listening to your thoughts over the past week or so…um…about Paul and Emily…I've damned you to experience that pain again." Edward cried to me with wild eyes.
"Edward it's…"
"No, please Embry…if I had known then…then...I would have tried to find another way. I swear to you I didn't know Bella was going to do that."
"There is nothing to apologize for Ed..." before I could finish Edward crashed himself to me, hugging me with all his might. Even his strength was weak, I could tell.
"Please forgive me, please forgive me." He repeated over and over again. I just hugged him to me as we both shook with our grief.
Pushing him back, I looked into his eyes.
"Edward, there is nothing to forgive. I don't blame you or your family, I blame Bella. What she has done to all of us, especially to you is wrong." When I spoke her name, I saw him cringe. I saw her betrayal written all over his body.
"I thought she was my forever, I tried to make her so happy; giving her everything she asked for. I gave everything I had in me to her, giving her myself on a platter, but it wasn't enough, I wasn't enough. I knew I didn't deserve any happiness." He sighed before continuing.
"What you and Sam have is such a beautiful, pure, and all consuming thing. It's what I wanted for Bella and I, but I wasn't enough. She thought she hide it from me though I know she laid in others bed. The only time her and I engaged in intimacy was our honey moon and that was only one time. After that me laying a hand on her was forbidden. I was just so lonely and I couldn't read her thoughts. I believed that meant she saw more in me then my appearance and material things."
"Its clique but love is truly blind. Edward if you and I stick together, I think we'll be able to make it, to go back to our families."
"Really, you really think we'll be able to see them again?" He asked me completely serious, and a bit of excitement.
"Yes I do. I think we both need a good friend." I stated as I held out my hand to him. He looked at it before grabbing my hand with a smile.
"Yes. Friends indeed." Edward said.
Minutes passed us before Edward spoke breaking the silence.
"Out of everything the only thing I don't regret is my little girl." This time I saw this biggest smile on his face ever.
"Yes she is a little beauty that one. You're going to have one hell of a time when she gets older." I told him while we both let out a laugh.
"Have you ever wanted children?" Edward asked me.
"Yes and no. I fear if Sam and I bring a child into this world that it will understand what it is like to suffer and see what real evil is." At this I saw him nod his head before he turned to me looking me in my eyes.
"Do you... d-do you think I'll ever see my little girl again?"
"With the mate you have I'm sure you will." At this he frowned as though he didn't understand what I was talking about, he probably thought I was talking about Bella and why she would be involved in saving him. I saw his mouth open, but before he could say anything the large doors opened. Demetri, Felix, Emily, and a few others came through the doors.
In an instant Felix came and pulled Edward to him, rubbing himself against Edward. I could see and smell his sick arousal as his hands descended down the back of Edward's jeans. Cullen was visibly shaking; trying to hold himself together.
"Oh, how I missed your beautiful face and those plump lips." He said before he crashed his lips to Edwards, I could hear him making a gagging sound.
I heard a sound that pulled my eyes away from them.
I frowned and looked around to see Emily stepping forward. I looked up at her as she pulled something out of her black robe.
A whip.
My eyes went wide and I struggled on my restraints even harder.
"No, no, no, no, no, please, no..." I pleaded lowly, as I found it hard breath.
"You see this whip here slut, its homemade by yours truly. I added my own little twist to it. You see a normal whip wouldn't hurt a wolf like yourself, but a whip that consists of sharpened vampire skin, werewolf claws, and dripped in vampire venom would hurt you much worse than a normal whip. As a matter of fact it can even hurt a vampire like Cullen over there." She said while leaching it out for good measure.
I had been holding back my tears from them, but they were now streaming down my face. I was crying and the damn bitch didn't even do anything yet. I felt all their red eyes on me. I looked around one more time. I could see one of the leaders, Marcus I think was his name, look at me. I met his stare. He wasn't glaring, or smirking. He looked at me with... sympathy? No, no. He was one of the leaders, why would he feel bad for me?
I saw Emily walk behind me, letting the whip unroll as she went. It slithered across the marble floor like a cobra, waiting to strike. I felt Emily come close behind my back, draping the whip around me. I felt the sting of the venom. The sound it made as it slithered across my skin was identical to the hiss of a viper. I shivered at the feel of it. Then the feel of the leather snaked left and I could no longer hear the slither of it either.
All there was was an eerie silence. So silent you could hear a grain of sand drop on the floor. The silence was quickly broken.
Lash!
I screamed at the pain of the whip lashing my bare back. Feeling the vampire skin and wolf claws claw into my back, embedding its sharpness in my skin. I looked up, seeing Edward staring at me, mouth slightly open. I whimpered as the pain seeped in. But before the pain could even spread….
Lash!
I cried out again. But it wasn't the end.
Lash!
Lash!
Lash!
Lash after lash, the leather snake struck my back. Strike, after painful strike, I could feel the venom leaking into my blood stream slowly. When she stopped, I laid on the ground unmoving. I was sobbing at the immense pain. I could feel the warm blood drip down my back. I thank god they found my scent repulsive. I wanted to pass out; to dive into the blackness. But as I breathed, like before, air was breathed in for me.
The only sound in the room was my pathetic whimpering. Emily and Demetri walked up, bending down in front of me.
"So bitch, are you going to submit?" She smirked. I glared at her through my tears. Even though I was in a shitload of pain, there was still an ounce of fight in this wolf. I built up enough strength to let out a low growl.
Her smirk faded into a cold glare.
"Fine." She snapped. "Guess we'll keep going." She smirked.
"Wait." A smooth voice piped up. I looked up, seeing the voice belonged to Edward. I looked at him, confused. Emily looked at him.
"I... I'll take the punishment for him." He said. Felix smirked. I looked at him, shaking my head, telling him in my mind he didn't have to do this.
"I think that would is a wonderful idea." Felix said.
Emily relented and roughly undid the shackles that had pinned me on the ground. Demetri grabbed me, purposely brushing the wounds on my back, making me hiss. I was forced to watch as Edward unbuttoned his shirt. He shuddered at whatever must have been going on in Felix's mind. He forced Cullen on his knees and locked the shackles around his wrists.
We stared at each other as Felix retrieved the whip from Emily, but before he went over to Edward, he made his way to the wall of tools on the far side of the room.
I saw him grab what was another whip, but it had a huge ball at the end with what seemed to be wolf claws dripping in more venom.
He held both whips in his hand walking back behind Edward who's eyes went wide as he knew without seeing what the tools where.
I closed my eyes as I heard the first lash of both whips against his stone back. It sounded like breaking granite. It was a horrible sound and I cringed. I opened my eyes and saw his back arched, and his eyes screwed shut.
Each strike to his back was like nails on a chalk board to me. He opened his eyes, looking deep into mine. I could see venomous tears building up that would never fall.
Felix draw his hand back and I just knew he was going in for the final blow before some vampire came next to Felix dripping more venom on the spike ball before pulling out a lighter, setting the ball on fire.
My breath hitched and I looked at Edward who was heaving. I knew what fire could do to vampires.
"If I don't make it please help my family watch over my daughter, tell them I love them and know I am truly sorry Embry for…for …everything." He frantically whispered out.
"Edward…ple." Before I could get the words out, Felix let go of the first whip harder than before as it wrapped around Edwards throat, the sharp object digging into his skin making Edward grasp for unneeded air with a sick gurgling sound coming from his mouth, and just as instantly Felix let go of the second whip so hard that when the fiery ball connected with Edwards skin it broke into his back. I smelled his skin burning.
Edward roared so loud in pain that concrete walls cracked in deep depth and the few windows in the room shattered. He passes out before he could finish his roar of inferno hell.
In this moment we both needed the kiss of life.
(Sam POV)
I growled quietly as I arched my back.
I could feel his pain. I helped him through it. I could feel his blood being drawn.
My blood.
What belonged to me. They were hurting his body.
My body.
The body I had claimed and had worshiped many times.
He. Was. Mine!
I could the pain of what had happened to him. I made sure he had some fight left. I forced air out and into him. He will live. He will survive. And I'd make sure of it. My chest burned and felt a god awful pain in my back.
Embry. My wolf answered. I whimpered as the tattoo of his name burned on my back.
Embry.
Embry!
Embry!
My heart chanted over and over again. I felt and heard it all.
His pain.
His tears.
His screams.
His fear.
His anxiety.
His need.
His violation.
His howls.
His wounds.
His scars.
His cries for help. They fell unheard...
His blood.
My blood.
Where is my kiss of life, where is his kiss of life.
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