A/N...still own nothing twilight except my Edward poster on the kitchen door...that my hubby says "Morning..." to...Thanks to Butterfly Betty who is a fantastic friend who checks my spelling! xx
Hearts Collide ~ Chapter 9
"No."
I shook my head, got up and asked everyone to follow me through to the living room.
Edward sat down beside me wrapping his arm around my shoulder making me feel better instantly.
"She has not acted like a mother to me for a very long time, she never even replied to any emails I have sent her in months, so…no." I shrugged my shoulders before snuggling closer into Edwards embrace.
"Are you going to tell her about the wedding?" Charlie asked.
I shook my head, "If she can't be bothered to reply when I told her how miserable I was and that I was planning to leave here… then no."
"You were going to leave here?" Sue asked me gently, while Esme gasped, "You were miserable Sweetie?"
I nodded, unable to look at either of these caring women, who obviously loved me.
"I didn't want to. But I couldn't sit by and watch Edward fall in love with someone else." I replied quietly.
"Who were you in love with?" Charlie asked roughly.
"Bella…" Edward replied sheepishly. "We didn't realised how we both felt about each other, and Bella was going to leave, but we sorted it all out." He pulled me carefully so I was sitting on his lap.
Everyone in the room quickly relaxed.
"What if she finds out about it afterwards? I don't want you regretting not having your Mom there with you later on?" Sue asked.
"You and Esme have always been a Mom to me, you will be there for me again like have been before, you are both my Mothers." I smiled at them.
They had tears in their eyes.
"I am serious about only having the people that we love there. She would only cause a fuss if she even bothered to show up."
After our parents left, Edward and I sat and discussed what we wanted our wedding to include. I had a new dress to wear, it was a beautiful ice blue that I knew Edward would love, and he was going to wear my favourite shirt and casual trousers. I wanted to wear a flower in my hair and carry a few roses, but apart from that I didn't want much else that looked anything like a wedding.
"I can imagine you wearing nothing but a rose behind your ear baby…" Edward kissed my neck, his mouth open as and he gently lavished my skin with licks and nips before he took my ear lobe in his mouth.
I shivered as his kisses aroused me within moments. Wedding discussions quickly forgotten, as we practiced for our wedding night instead!
It was only 4am, but I was wide awake. Would I regret not asking Renee to the wedding? Should I try again to make contact with her? Maybe she had a new email address? I got up and made myself some tea while I waited on my laptop warming up. I opened my emails to see if she had replied, but there was still nothing.
"This is your last chance Renee." I muttered.
I wrote the email, telling her I was staying here, how Edward and I had sorted everything out, how we were getting married…and how I hoped she would come to the wedding.
I included my address…again, and my cell phone number. I wasn't sure if I did that after my number had changed. I sat reading it over a few times, and with a long, deep sigh, I hit send.
I finished my tea and returned back to bed. This time I felt quite calm about everything, I would be upset if she rejected me again, but I felt stronger knowing this time Edward was beside me, he was going to stand beside me as my Husband soon enough.
The warmth from his body comforted me; he sighed and pulled me in closer to him. "You ok Baby?" He whispered.
"I am now." I replied before his lips found mine. Any fears I had before about making love with Edward, were now long gone, this man filled me in so many ways, and I loved nothing more than knowing he wanted me…in every way.
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked, his lips moving down my neck before settling between my breasts. The thin straps on my soft silky nightdress started to slowly slip down off my shoulders with a little encouragement from his fingers. All I could do was moan and shake my head.
"No? No you don't want to talk about it?" He muttered. "Or no…you don't want me to carry on?"
I could feel his lips smirk against my skin.
"No I…don't want…to…talk about it…just now…don't stop…please…"
I was going to beg if I had to. This man could read me like a book and play my like an instrument. He slipped my clothing from me without removing his lips from being in continual contact with my skin. His boxers, at some point pushed away from his body.
We rolled in the bed as our fingers touched and explored each other's bodies; it was almost as if we had never touched one and other before.
I wanted Edward on top of me, I needed to feel the weight of him surrounding me, protecting me, claiming me…loving me.
"I will always protect and love you Baby."
I didn't realise that I had been talking out loud.
"You claimed me." I whispered into his mouth.
"I did Bella… you are mine…and I am…Yours." Edward promised as he moved inside me…slowly…inch, by perfect luscious inch.
Our movements were gentle and sensual, making unspoken promises to each other.
My arm wrapped around him holding him closer, while my other hand entwined with Edwards, rose up above my head, my cheek resting against his arm. I wanted… no… I needed to be as close to him as I could.
"I love you Bella, more than ever."
He knew I needed this comfort, he knew I needed him. "I Love you…Edward…" I could feel him almost there, I was close but unable to let go. I could feel the coil building inside my very being, but was unable to give into my climax.
"Let go Baby."
I closed my eyes tight in frustration. "Look at me… Please." I looked up and melted into his amazing emeralds. I could see into his heart and soul.
"Always…will love you…always…"
With that, I shuddered and arched up as I came undone below my beloved Edward.
Emotions were racing through me, fear of being rejected by my mother again, compared to overwhelming devotion of this man who loved me. Why was I even looking for that woman to be part of my life? I knew she was going to hurt me.
"Bella Baby?"
"I know I don't need her Edward, I know she doesn't love me, but I need to know why."
"There is a big chance you will never know, you may never get the answers to your questions, or the love you deserve from her Baby."
His words were soft, like the kisses he placed on my face as he kissed away the tears slowly falling down my cheeks.
"When I told her how unhappy I was, how I needed to leave here, she did nothing."
Edwards chest heaved as he realised I was talking about almost leaving because I thought he didn't love me.
"I will always be sorry about that Baby."
"No, I don't want you to be sorry, that is our past Honey. I am upset with her not you. I had never looked her for to do anything since she left me, but the one time I asked her for help, for some support, she does nothing."
"Did she get your email?" Edward's arms wrapping around me, pulling me into his comfort.
I shrugged, "I want to think she didn't and that's why she has not responded."
He nodded before kissing me gently.
We talked for a short while, before my eyes became heavy and my breathing slowed. "Try and sleep my Beautiful Girl."
"You make me feel beautiful Edward" I mumbled before giving into sleep.
A few days passed, I had been checking my emails frequently, with no response from Renee.
We were meeting up this evening with Rev Webber and our parents to talk about the wedding. I was making some cupcakes to take with us, baking helped distract me and pass some time.
The girls were arriving later on with Emmett and Jasper; we planned to tell them about us getting engaged. I still wanted to keep the wedding a secret from the girls, knowing Alice would get over excited and our wedding would quickly and easily become a big hoopla, something neither Edward nor I wanted at all. As much as I felt bad about the secret keeping, my desire for control here was even stronger.
Edward helped show me that I was in control of my life and that I could say no to them. I loved them, but they could all be a bit much at times.
"Honey, I'm home!" Edward laughed as he entered the kitchen.
I giggled as he wrapped his arms around me, before swiping a huge dollop of frosting with his finger and moaning with delight as he tasted his favourite flavours in the vanilla and cream cheese combination. "Mmmmmmmmmm…this tastes almost as good as you Baby."
His voice alone was enough to arouse me with no effort at all.
"There is one thing better than this frosting." He spun me round and placed the small amount left on his finger onto my lips before claiming them with his.
"I have something for you…" He mumbled, I felt his arousal pressing against my body.
"So I see." I giggled as my hand moved up to cup him. "OH…no…that's…not…" He stuttered. I raised my eyebrow and looked at him, smirking at his flushed faced and flustered mutterings. "No?"
"Well…I have something else for you Honey." He laughed until I pulled my hand slowly away, trailing my fingertips across his erection.
"Belllllla…" Edward moaned falling to the ground as I turned round giggling before picking up the frosting and putting it into the piping bag. Edward pulled himself up onto a chair and watched as I began swirling the frosting on to each cupcake.
"Would you like one?" I smiled, offering him the first finished cake. "Thank you Baby." I was rewarded with a wink and a kiss.
"I do have something for you too Honey." Edward reminded me. But I was completely focused on the way his tongue swirled around gathering up the icing from the cake.
"Bella…?"
"Huh?"
"I have something for you."
I tore my gaze away from his mouth and looked up into his twinkling eyes.
His smile always made everything better, every single time.
Edward took the piping bag from my hand and sat it down on the counter before he got down on his knee before me.
He took a deep breath and smiled at me. My heart almost stopped, I know I had agreed to marry him, but suddenly we were both nervous.
"I love you, you know I do. I want to love you forever Bella, this ring, was worn by my Grandma; she never took it off after my Grandfather asked her to marry him. They had a long happy life together and I want that with you. You said yes to me the other day, but…" He removed the blue plastic ring from my finger and handed to me to hold in my right hand.
"This time I will ask you properly. Isabella Marie Swan, love of life, will you do me the honour of waking up with me every day, and facing each challenge together…will you marry me?"
"YES! Yes, and again yes! I love you more than I ever thought possible."
Edward kissed my hand before pushing the ring with two diamonds twisted on the gold band onto my finger.
"If you don't like it, we can get you something modern."
"No…I love it, it is perfect."
"My Dad brought it round the other evening, I had it cleaned and hope it is the right size, I measured it against a ring I have seen you wear before." Edward explained.
He was still kneeling before me when I dropped so I was on the floor before him. "It is perfect. Thank you Edward."
Suddenly we were kissing again, Edward scooped me up in his arms and we kissed some more.
All too soon the door bell rang as our parents arrived.
We jumped up, Edward gathered me up in his arms and carried me to the door, both of us laughing and trying to steal a few kisses before we opened the door.
"What are you doing carrying Bella?" Esme asked before giving us both a kiss on the cheek.
"Are you hurt Bells?" Carlisle asked stepping forward. "No, we were just goofing around!" I giggled.
Just then Sue noticed my ring, "Oh Bella Honey that is just beautiful!" Esme grinned as she realised it was Edward's Grandmas' ring. Carlisle nodded and smiled giving me a wink, then a kiss before turning to give his son a one armed hug.
Charlie kissed my cheek and told Edward "Very nice Son." giving his arm a pat on the way past.
"Now are we eating when the others get here?" Esme asked putting down what looked like her amazing cheesecake.
"Yes, after Rev Webber has been." Edward replied while trying to sample some of the dessert.
Esme gave his hand a gentle slap and Edward chuckled before grabbing another cupcake, and stealing a kiss from me.
Rev Webber arrived a little while later and we sorted out paperwork and what we hoped for the day while we enjoyed coffee and cakes while discussing wedding plans
"So what do you guys want to happen for your ceremony?" Rev Webber asked.
We had given this a lot of thought.
"Carlisle can I ask you to walk both Mom's down to the gazebo before I walk to Edward please?" Carlisle nodded and smiled as Esme and Sue both shrieked and came over to hug and kiss both Edward and me again. "And then you will stand with me as my best man?" Edward asked as Carlisle nodded.
"I would like you to walk with me towards Edward." I asked Charlie. "It will be my honour," my father grinned.
"Alice, Rose & Leah I want them to walk down together, and Emmett, Jasper, Seth, Carlisle and Edward will be waiting there already…" I continued.
"And we will be playing some music that I will sort out and practice with the boys telling them it is for the party as my gift to you." Edward explained.
"Oh that's a lovely idea!" I sighed. "Thank you, Love."
"Do you want your own vows or traditional vows?" Rev Webber asked while writing himself some notes.
"Our own?" We both asked each other at the same time before laughing.
"And this is happening up on the gazebo?" We both nodded.
"Good well I think I have all I need to know, Thank you for sharing this day with me."
"I am just glad you will be able to do this for us."
We had grown up with his daughter Angela and had been each other's non date when he conducted her wedding last summer to her childhood sweetheart Ben. I offered Rev Webber a cupcake, watching Edwards face glaze over as Rev Webber devoured the cupcake calling the frosting sinful, and moaning as he finished the whole thing off in three bites.
"Now Alice and Rose still don't know about the wedding?" Sue asked and I nodded. "I know they will be a bit…"
"Pissed" Edward laughed. "Sorry Reverent Webber…"
He blushed at swearing in front of him.
"Well I hope not too much, but yes. I am telling them tonight it is an engagement party."
"They will get excited about helping you plan that." Esme laughed.
We were all set, now I just had to face Alice and stand firm on the whole reason why I wanted this to be a secret!
