Starless Night 星のない夜- Chapter 9

縋るように引きずり込んだら

背徳と快楽の世界へと

目を閉じて 夢に溶けて

君の前に少しでも 一つでも

目を開いて 今飛べるなら

信じられる景色は見えますか

If you drag them along clingy and reliant

You'll enter into a world of depravity and pleasure

Close your eyes dissolve into a dream

In front of you even if just a little just once

Open your eyes if you can fly now

Can you see a landscape you can believe in?

Sujk and Juri just kept silence. Since they entered Leda's room, Juri was actually worried about Kei's condition but at the same time he cannot obviously went off. Sujk was there with them. He will be suspicious. He wondered if Kei was alright. Was he sleeping already? Was he searching for him? Was his fever recovered?

Juri sighed. He tried to hide his anxiety by peeling and slicing an apple for Leda to eat. Once done he handover it to Leda. The guitarist took it with a sad face. He ate it slowly.

"What was actually happened to you Leda? Your face looks really horrible. Like my lumonde when it melt." Juri mumbled with his silly words.

Leda quickly touched his face. "Is it really shown? I fell on the floor and went down two level of staircases." Leda answered. He did not knew what reason he should give.

"Holy shit?! Was it really happened?! But you look like being beaten up! Were you fighting with someone?" Juri exclaimed again with his curious eyes.

"Really. It was nothing. I just not being careful and I fell down the staircases." Leda tried to convince Juri. Sujk stared at him with disbelief. "Leda." He called trying to get Leda's attention. "Stop lying. That was not what really happened right?"

Leda shook his head. "I am telling the truth. Ahh... Juri.. I miss my Cygnus.." Leda sighed. He hugged his knees. Juri patted his shoulder. "You just being admitted and yet you miss your precious ESP? So get well soon so that the doctor could discharge you and you could strum your guitar again, okay? We could continue with the songs that we are working on."

Leda just nodded weakly while suddenly someone opened the door and entered the room with a loud thud-ing-knocking-heel sound. There was a woman. The one whom Leda and Sujk saw at Aggy's place that morning was now luring a huge smile to them. She was a way too sexy. Her skirt was way too short up above her knees. She wore a very bright shade of lipstick. Juri whistled a bit as a flirting sign as the girl was really hot.

Sujk felt annoyed with that sudden appearance. He came forward. "I recognize you. Aimi, right? What is your intention to come here?"

"Awww.. don't bite me.." Sujk felt really irritated with that girl. Who wanted to bite her anyway? He hissed. "So annoying."

Aimi blinked her eyes hearing that but she then chuckled. "I come here just wanting to meet Aggy. I am looking for him everywhere. Aggy promised me to marry me." She chuckled again.

Leda quite surprise with her explanation but he still held strong. He clenched his teeth, trying to get down from the bed but Juri spontaneously held his arms to prevent him from doing that.

"Is it true? Aggy was not telling us anything..." Leda tried to calm down and he admitted to himself that he was starting to feel jealousy arise from within.

Aimi giggled happily. "Oh? Aww.. you didn't remember what happened this morning?" That made Juri raised his eyebrows, throwing glances at Sujk with a face asking 'what happened?'. Leda felt his face getting redder. He could feel adrenaline started to rush through his body when he tried to remember back what he saw this morning.

"Why you keep saying 'awww awww awww'? Your pussy was hurt?" Sujk asked with an annoying tone.

"Awww.. yes.. it is so.. throbbing by Aggy's manhood." She stroked her long hair.

Leda's hands already shaking. He held his fist, trying to be calm and hid his disappointment. Aggy did crushed his heart into pieces. So.. this girl was not just a one night stand. Aggy was serious with her.

The door was slightly opened again and this time Aggy and Syu came in with red face. Aggy was shocked when he just noticed the attendance of the girl he slept with last night. "What are you doing here?!" Aggy asked pressing his fierce tone.

"Awww.. I'm happy to see you." Aimi hugged Aggy and that made Leda more hurt. He tried to move, intended to leave that stuffed suffocating place but unfortunately he missed his grabs on the bed railings thus he fell on the floor. His IV line got pulled too, almost falling on floor when Juri quickly catches it. "Leda! Be careful! Where are you going?"

With Sujk's help, Leda tried to stand up. But his legs was not giving way when he fell again. Leda tried to hold his tears. He cannot cry like a crybaby in front of them all. He never felt this weak. Even to stand up he couldn't.

Aggy pulled himself from Aimi's hug. He tried to step to Leda but Syu suddenly grabbed his collar and punched his face. A wound and bruise quickly appeared on Aggy's mouth.

"You hurt Leda! I will barely freaking smash you into pieces!"

"Stop!" Sujk raised his voice sternly.

Syu stopped his action. He glared to Aggy who was now holding his swollen cheek in shock. "I am not done yet with you."

"Please.. I just want to rest. Leave me alone.." Leda looked down trying to hid his red face. He cannot face anybody right now. He also cannot face Aggy. He will burst out into tears if he did so. Juri sighed with the sudden incident. He pulled up Leda's body and helped him to be on his bed back.

Aimi took this advantage by stroking Aggy's cheek. "Let me help you?"

Aggy shocked and he slapped Aimi's hand away. She suddenly felt her cheek burn with shame. "I don't know who you are freak! And I don't make any promise with a whore like you! Get the fuck off from here!"

"But.. but.." Aimi tried to appeal.

Syu could sense something was not right with this girl. He was standing very near to Aimi and he could see from that girl's handbag, an envelope and a sum of money which were exposed a bit in it. The girl did not pulled the zip. Was she being paid by someone? Syu pulled Aimi's hand and dragged her out of the room. His sudden action making the rest shocked. Did Syu also interested on that girl?

"Awww! Auch! Let me go!" Aimi whimpered when Syu pulled hard her arm. Syu released his tight grip when they were far enough from Leda's room. He slammed the girl on the wall.

"Auchhh... it was hurt!"

"Look..' Syu tried to tolerate. "I know you were being paid by someone to do this dirty work. Don't you?" Syu glared looking at her. He moved closer to Aimi, almost closing the gap between them.

"Aww.. you are such a clever boy. Yes. A handsome tall guy paid me." Aimi tried to stroke Syu's cheek but Syu catched her hand. "Who is it? How much that guy paid you?"

Aimi chuckled. She pressed her finger on Syu's lips. "It's a secret."

"Listen. I will pay you double if.." Syu raised his brows. He was trying to make a deal with that slut. Aimi seemed interested as she purred her lips slightly. "..you tell me who paid you and plus, you will get a one night sleep with Yama-B. Interesting offer, right?" Syu lured a huge smirk.

Aimi widen her eyes. One night sleep with Yama-B was what she interested for. "Awww.. Can it be arranged?" She asked oddly.

"Sure. Why can't? So.. it's a deal?" Syu shoved his hand inside his pocket and took out his wallet. "I got some money here. More if you tell me everything."

"I am not that cheap." Aimi giggled with seducing voice. "I could only tell that the name is Kihiro. He really craze over Leda. Now give me what you owe."

Syu ceased his brows. Kihiro? He tried to remember. Back then the guy was Leda's ex when they were still with Galneryus. Kihiro was obsessed with Leda. When did he came back from the States? Syu took out some notes from his wallet and gave them all to Aimi. He must find the answer. He could not let Leda being hurt again this time.

~ooooo~

Kihiro glanced on his phone. He still kept some of Leda's pictures with him. Up until now he cannot accept the truth. His relationship with Leda was over. After the huge argument following Galneryus' live few years ago, he tried to convince his Yuto that he would change. But Yuto refused to come back to him. Finally he lost contact with Yuto after several attempts of Yuto trying to run from him. All that he knew was Yuto had left Galneryus and went missing.

That made him fly to America. He took it as a sign that they cannot become together again. All this while he tried to forget him but can't. Yuto's bright smile and his innocence kept haunting him, even in his very dreams.

Until one day, he received an offer via email from one of well-known recording company in the country - Brave Man Records. They offered him to be in their recording company under several projects as vocal. He took it as a good opportunity to come home to Japan and made his debut after a long break.

One day.. when he surfing through the net to find some inspiration and details, he surfed on Brave Man Records official site. His eyes catched a new metal Visual Kei band named Deluhi. It was a trend back then, when new Indies and metal bands trying to try their chances in Visual Kei. It was a great music scene and people would easily recognized those groups with certain image.

He looked at the members' profile one by one.

Starting from Juri.

Juri : Vocal - ex. Grave Seed - Deluhi

"He's handsome." He mumbled alone.

Then he moved to another person named Leda. He looked at Leda's photo. "Wow.. so sexy and cute! Bet fans will go wild on him." He clicked the photo and read the profile.

Leda : Guitar - ex. Galneryus, - ex. Grave Seed - Deluhi

"Ex Galneryus?" That name made him hitched. Kihiro wondered who Leda really was. He started to browse one by one and lastly he found out that Leda was his Yuto. That was a plus for him to be very happy and excited to go back to Japan again. He looked all Leda's new photo and that made him smiled. He found his Yuto after several years.

But the happiness was not lasted longer when he knew Leda was close with someone named Aggy, Deluhi's bassist. That made Kihiro hurt for seeing his Yuto with someone else. Even he realized that he had no right anymore against Yuto yet he cannot resist his own feeling. It grew like wanting to break his chest all over.

He still remembered how Leda was very surprised when they met. His Yuto was trying so hard to avoid meeting him in any chances. He tried to forget his little Yuto but that feeling slowly changed into lust and obsession again. He cannot stand seeing Aggy and Leda sharing their passion with each other. Leda also had convinced Aggy that both himself and Kihiro were nothing anymore. Start from that day Kihiro made some plans to take Yuto back to his warm hug no matter what will happen even it will make his Yuto hurt.

He stood up to leave. He intended to visit Leda again tomorrow so he wanted to buy something for him. He knew a good gift for him. He smiled alone. "Wait for me.. Leda."

~ooooo~

After making sure Leda was fine, Juri excused himself to the washroom for a while. He was actually intended to meet Kei. He felt terribly worried about Kei. Sujk did not asked much as he was busy helping nursing Aggy's swollen face.

"Who did this to you my bishie-man?" Aggy asked stroking Leda's arm but Leda turned his face away. "I just tripped and fell down the staircases. Don't worry about me. You can go to Aimi. She needs you anyway."

"Leda.. she just-" Aggy's words being cut off by Leda.

"She just-what?! You not ever trust me! You.. you easily threw me away.. I feel disappointed with you. I am alone.. and you are not care.." Leda felt his eyes stung. He sobbed softly. Aggy started to feel guilty.

"I am sorry.. I didn't know that you was raped.." Leda hissed in annoyance upon hearing that word. He hated that word very much. He covered his ears. 'Raped'? It did not happened..

It was a humiliation for him being raped by a man. By his ex. Suddenly Leda could feel those dirty hands on his body. He pulled his blanket and started to scratch his arms with it, trying so hard to erase something invincible from his skin. "I'm dirty.. I am used.. Fuck! I cannot wipe them away!"

"Leda, what are you doing?" Aggy stunned with his sudden act. Sujk quickly stood up. "Hey, Leda? What's wrong?"

"I cannot wipe those dirt away! Why?! Ergh!" He harshly tried to scrub his skin with the coarse blanket. "Go away! Go away!" He screamed in sudden.

Aggy quickly held Leda's hands and hugged him tight. "Leda! Baby! Syyuhhhh! Leda please! Calm down!"

"Let me go! I hate you! Please let me go! Don't touch me! Don't touch me!" Leda started to struggle against Aggy's hold and screaming hard. He also started to rave as his mind blurred out with some traumatized images. "Stop! Don't touch me!"

"Sujk! Quickly call the doctor!"

Sujk rushed out to find the doctor and nurses while Aggy tried to make Leda calm but it seemed like he failed to do that.

Leda was able to reach the IV line injected onto his hand. He cannot differentiated between reality or nightmare anymore. He saw it as the rope which would hold him onto the bed again. He cannot let himself being tied up again. He pulled it from his skin with his might. Due to the sudden pull, the blood trickled from his hand where the edge of the tube was injected to supply him water and medicine into his body. His eyes too seeing Kihiro was trying to hug his body. He cannot differentiate anymore. It was actually Aggy who tried to calm him down now.

As he could feel Aggy's hands wrapped around his waist, Leda getting more scared. He shut his eyes and cried in sudden and his struggle became more aggressive. "Don't hurt me! Please! I beg you.. don't hurt me! It's hurt! Stop! Please stop!"

Aggy's eyes started to stung with warm tears. Leda was really hurt. He never expected it. What had happened actually? Who did this to him? He could feel it was Kihiro. He was the one who sent the picture. So.. the picture was actually taken after his precious was raped? He failed to hold his tears as he then realized how bad he was towards Leda. He should accompany Leda, trust him and protect him. But by right he slapped him, hurt him, beat him, and tried to rape him too.. He felt he was the worst person in the world. How could he did that?

He gently stroked Leda's hair. He kissed his ear and whispered with full of love. "Leda.. I am Aggy.. it is okay.. you are safe now.. Nobody will hurt you. Nobody." Aggy kissed his forehead. "My bishie man.. Open your eyes. Look.. it is me here."

Leda stopped struggling as he opened his eyes. He did not saying anything but he started to calm down when he felt Aggy's tears dropped on his neck. Aggy rubbed Leda's back, a soothing gesture to comfort his lover. He really did not knew.. Leda faced a hard time alone in his disappearance, while at the same time he was too blind to see the truth.

"Now you need a sleep. A rest. Lay down. Nobody will hurt you. Okay?" Aggy persuaded with soft tone. Leda stared at him. He looked confuse but he listened to Aggy. He lay down and hugged himself. His hand bleeding a bit. His blood drops stained the bed sheet.

Sujk came back with a doctor and two nurses. They quite surprised with the hassle yet quickly attended to Leda. The nurses changed his blanket and bed sheet while the doctor decided to give him sedative. He injected a very small amount of liquid-form Benzodiazepine into the IV.

Leda slowly felt his eyes getting heavier. His muscles soothing down. He then fell asleep while holding Aggy's hand. Aggy rubbed his head and caressed his hair. "Get well Leda.. Sleep at ease.."

The doctor sighed hard. "He still in shock and trauma. Don't let anything stresses him up. Let him rest for a while." The doctor patted his shoulder. Aggy nodded weakly. Deep inside his heart he promised to himself he won't let Leda felt insecure anymore.

~Natsuko-chan~