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Emily went home sad and angry; her eyes are red from crying. It was about ten p.m. when she get home. She silently closed the door and stood there for a minute just to thinking about Alison, she smiled a bit at the thought of her. Then she started her steps in the living room where the light were on so she knew her mother was awake. At this point, she did not even care about and honestly, she felt she could a mother-daughter talking. She hoped very her mother would want to talk to her. She stepped in silently and stood there waiting for her mom to say something to her. She saw her mom was reading a book but soon she raised her eyes from reading and looked at Emily. She instantly put down the book and went to Emily. She looked at Emily's mouth, which did not bleed anymore, but blood was there on her chin. It does not matter for Pam to how many times she saw Emily's face filled with bruise, every time she worried about her one daughter. She knew Emily was tough and never complained about her bruises but God these surely could hurt like hell.

˝Did you get in a fight again? ˝ Pam asks worriedly.

Emily just nodded feeling not having enough power to talk about the fight. Pam soon brought some first aid to take care of Emily's cut. Emily let her mom took care of her. Pam could smell alcohol on Emily's breath.

˝I suppose you drank again. ˝ Pam says.

˝I did. I am sorry. ˝ Emily says.

Pam could tell everything was completely okay with Emily. Usually, Emily closes her out. When she gets home she goes straight to her room but now instead she stays downstairs with her mother and letting her take care of her. Pam was glad that this time Emily came to her and did not shut her out but still was very curious why Emily decided this way now. In addition, Emily never said sorry about drinking until now which was a surprised for Pam but not just the fact that they are in the same room but they are not shouting at each other.

˝Do you want to talk about how did get in fight? ˝ Pam asks.

˝No. ˝ Emily suddenly says. ˝But there is something I want to talk about. ˝

˝Let's sit down. ˝ Pam says as she leads Emily to the couch. ˝What do you want to talk about, sweetie? Pam asks as she caresses Emily's face.

˝I think I fell in love again. ˝ Emily says slowly. ˝And I am scared. Already scared about everything. ˝ Emily says.

˝Don't be. Not everybody is Hanna Marin. ˝ Pam says.

˝Please, do not talk about her. ˝ Emily says instantly.

˝As you wish. ˝ Pam says.

Pam knows it is a touchy subject so she just looks at her daughter. There are tears streaming down on Emily's face.

˝I do not want to be in love, doesn't matter who is it they will just end up hurting me. ˝ Emily says crying.

˝No, honey. Let the love in your life. It is not always have to be painful; you just need the right person to love. ˝ Pam says.

Emily's fear of love is disturbing. Pam thought this problem of hers passed away but now knowing that the fear is still there Pam understand why Emily runs for alcohol. It keeps memories and pain away.

Emily does not have the power to say anything instead, she puts her head on Pam's legs and cries there. Pam caresses Emily's hair and face and wipes her tears away. When Emily cannot cry anymore, she still stays with Pam. This is that kind of love she needs now. Feeling her mother loving and caring is worth more that gold now. Pam kisses her daughter's head and continues caress her only one hurting daughter.

In the morning, Spencer wakes up in her clothes. She cried herself in sleep so did not change to her pajamas. Spencer feels awful from the giant amount of crying. She knows crying will not help on her problem but still she has to express her disappointment in her parents somehow. Spencer is still lying on her bed when she hears a knock on her bedroom door. She does not bother answering. She thinks it can be only her parents anyway. She would shout them to go to hell but instead she stays silent. Her mom comes in the room and sits down on Spencer's bed.

˝Spence, we need to talk. ˝ Veronica says.

˝I do not want to talk. ˝ Spencer says.

˝We have to, now. ˝ Veronica says.

˝Fine. What do you want to say? ˝ Spencer asks.

˝I want to talk about what you said last night. ˝ Veronica says.

˝What do you want me to say about it, huh mom? I told everything last night and it will not ever change. This is who I am. I am a lesbian who has a girlfriend, understand a GIRLfriend, I am in love with her, and she does love me too. ˝ Spencer explains.

˝I see. There is really nothing to talk about. ˝ Veronica says as she stands up and leaves the room and locks it with a key so Spencer cannot go anywhere, no to school, not to Aria or even Emily.

Spencer hears the noise of the key so instantly she goes for the door to open but she cannot do since her mother locked it. Spencer starts hit the door and shouts to let her out but after ten minutes, she realizes it is useless. She leans to the door and sits down crying on the floor. She cannot believe her own parents are able to do this with her just because she is gay.

Veronica goes downstairs to talk to Peter.

˝She still talks nonsense. She does not go to school today. She could meet that girl who infected her mind with these things. ˝ Veronica says.

˝She will not go to that school anymore. ˝ Peter says planning to send Spencer in a boarding school where there will be no Aria and Spencer's mind can clear out.

Emily woke up in the living room on the couch with a blanket on her. Her eyes were hurting from the crying from last night and her mouth also had an ache but her headache was the worst. She slowly sat up on the couch and tried to think over what happened. She knows she was drunk again but there was no fucking and hard partying. She touched her lip. Obviously, there was a fight. She slightly remembers it. It was in a bar and then they throw her out. Late she got home and found comfort in the caring arms of her mom. She wanted to stand up when her mother stepped in the room.

˝Good morning, Emily! ˝ Pam says. ˝Don 't stand up. I brought you some water and an Advil. ˝ Pam says as she hands it over to Emily.

Emily stays on the couch and takes the glass of water and Advil. She wonders why her mom is so nice to her. Emily knows her mom loves her, no matter how she behaves but usually they her mom is yelling at her after she came home drunk.

˝Thanks, mom! ˝ Emily says. ˝I should go to shower before school. ˝ Emily says.

˝You do not have to go to school today. I phoned in; I told them you are sick. ˝ Pam says.

˝Why did you do that? I am fine. ˝ Emily says.

˝You are not. I want you at home. Go to your room and sleep. ˝ Pam says.

˝As you wish, mom. ˝ Emily says as she stands up and starts her way to upstairs.

It is weird that her mom does not want her to got school but she will not be against, if her mom wants her to be at home she will be at home and honestly she is tired and feeling awful so sleeping and resting for the whole day will be good for her.

Spencer is still in her room sitting on the floor. She still cannot believe her own parents are able to do this with her. The best thing she can do now is to phone Aria. At least they parents forgot to take away her cell phone. She calls Aria and waits for her respond.

˝Good morning, love! ˝ Aria says.

˝Hi Aria. There is some bad news, my parents did not react too well about me being gay and with you so they locked me in my room so, I cannot go to school or anywhere. ˝ Spencer says.

˝They cannot do that to you. They are not jailers they are your parents. ˝ Aria says in surprise. She never really thought someone's parents are able to do that with their own child.

˝But they did. ˝ Spencer says.

˝I try to talk to them. ˝ Aria says hoping that it can help on the situation.

˝Don't! ˝ Spencer says ˝It would make everything worse. ˝ Spencer adds.

˝Worse than this, you locked up in your own room by your parents? ˝ Aria asks.

˝Believe me, it can be worse. ˝ Spencer says.

˝Okay but what should I do? ˝ Aria asks.

˝Well, I thought about it too but the best thing is that you go to school for later I will figure out something, I promise. ˝ Spencer says.

˝How could I sitting at school when you need me? ˝ Aria asks Spencer.

˝Just do it for me, please! ˝ Spencer says.

˝Fine but what did your parents thinking for locking you in? Do they want to keep you locked in for the rest of your life? ˝ Aria asks in disbelief.

˝I believe they do not. They planning something for me, I can feel it. ˝ Spencer says.

˝Promise me that you will not let me down. You will fight for us. ˝ Aria says with tears in her eyes.

˝I promise I will fight for us. I already do and I always will and I love you. ˝ Spencer says.

˝I love you too. ˝ Aria says.

˝Now go to school. I call you later. ˝ Spencer says and ends the call.

Aria feels terribly about because she was the one who insisted Spencer to tell about their secret about their parents. Everything which happens with Spencer is because of her. The only right thing she can do is to help her. She does not know how but she will but now she will just go to the school just like Spencer told her. However, she does not have a clue how will she make it in school when she knows the love of her life is locked in her own house.

Alison meets Aria at the school. All Aria can think about is Spencer but she tries to give attention to Alison who is telling how her date went.

˝Janet is a really cool girl. She took me to a fancy restaurant. We had a really great time then we went for a walk and we get know each other well and she even kissed me. It was good but that good. ˝ Alison tells the date to Aria.

Aria is looking at Alison but her thoughts are somewhere else.

˝The only thing that bothers me while I was with Janet I kept thinking about Emily. I just thought about what she would plan for us if we had a date but thinking about it is stupid because the only thing she wants is getting into my pants and I will not let her but I have to admit I like her. ˝ Alison says and realizes Aria did not even say anything. ˝Aria, is everything okay? ˝ Alison asks. ˝I just ask because you seem you are not even care what I say to you. ˝ Alison says.

˝What? ˝ Aria asks back to Alison ˝Well, I just have a lot of thing going on my mind now. I go to class. ˝ Aria says.

She decided not to tell Alison about hers and Spencer's situation. It is their problem to be solved them.

After school, Alison and Aria meet in front of the building.

˝Have you seen Emily? Did she come to school? ˝ Alison asks.

˝I did not see her. ˝ Aria answers.

˝And what is up Spencer? I did not see her either. ˝ Alison says.

˝She is at home. ˝ Aria answers.

˝I think I will visit Emily. I am somewhat worried about her. Bye!˝ Alison says.

Aria is happy that Alison leaves her alone because she is all-nervous about Spencer and it is so hard to not talk about it and even thinking about something else impossible when she knows her loved one is hurting and that makes her hurting as well. She impatiently waits for Spencer's phone call. She said she would call her.

At the Hastings house, Spencer is still locked in her room but she decided not to cry anymore. It will not help instead she took a shower and tried to make herself busy with something until her parents come home. They need another talk. They cannot keep her forever here. Spencer tried to learn but she was not really into it. She just worries about what her parents plan for her. However, the time passed and her parents came home. Her mom unlocked the door and both of her parents came in the room.

˝Why did you lock me? How could you? ˝ Spencer asks her parents as soon as she realized they stepped into the room.

˝Spence, we did it for you. ˝ Peter says.

˝For me? You do not even know what the best is for me! ˝ Spencer yells.

˝Don't raise your voice! ˝ Veronica says.

˝I know that Aria makes you think you are a devious homosexual. ˝ Peter says. ˝And I am not going to let her to make this effect on you. Therefore, I do not want you to meet her. ˝ Peter adds.

˝Do not think you can separate us. We love each other! ˝ Spencer says.

˝Spencer, you are not going in the Rosewood High anymore and so you will not live in Rosewood anymore. ˝ Peter says.

˝What do you mean by this, dad? ˝ Spencer asks in desperation.

˝I am saying that you will move to Philadelphia in a boarding school which has strict rules so you will not be able to meet Aria at any circumstance. ˝Peter explains.

˝You cannot do that to me! ˝ Spencer says angrily.

˝I already did. You are going there tomorrow. I am going to take you. ˝ Peter says.

˝And what about my life? What about Emily? Are you going to forbid me to meet her as well? ˝ Spencer asks.

˝Spencer, you know we like Emily… ˝ Veronica says but Spencer interrupts.

˝But she is a lesbian too. ˝ Spencer says.

˝It is her parents' problem but she never tried anything with you. She never wanted to make you gay that is why we let her to be friends with her. ˝ Peter continues.

˝But you are forbidden to meet her too until you realize you are not lesbian. ˝ Veronica says.

˝Realize that I am not lesbian? Are you serious? I know I am lesbian since my early teenager years and I know that nothing will change it. Not even that stupid school where you want to send me! ˝ Spencer says.

˝I strongly suggest you to do not talk to me like that. I am your my mother and he is your father, we both know what is the best for you and we do everything just to protect you. ˝ Veronica says.

Spencer suddenly does not even know what to say. They want to protect her? From what? From being in love? It sounds so stupid.

˝Clearly, we will not let you out for the rest of the day. I suggest you to start packing! Tomorrow we will take you in Philadelphia and you will not need you cell phone so give it to me˝ Veronica adds.

˝It is my cell phone! ˝ Spencer says.

˝Of course it is yours but you will not need it so give it to me, now! ˝ Veronica demands.

Spencer realizes there is nothing she can do anymore so she gives her cell phone to her mother but feels very bad about because that means she cannot call Aria despite she promised her. Hopefully, she will understand.

Spencer's parents leave the room and they are locking the door so Spencer cannot meet anyone. Spencer is still in shock. Will they really send her to a boarding school into Philadelphia? Are they really, her parents are able to do this with her? Just because she is being herself which means gay. But do not they realize she is not just gay, she their daughter who need love and support from her parents. They took her cell phone and her laptop is in the kitchen so they completely cut her from everybody. Is there something she could do or the best thing she can do is to start pack leave? Spencer is out of ideas. She thought about running away through the window but it is too high for her. She would die before she could run away. However, at this moment dying does not sounds so bad but while Aria is alive, Spencer wants to be alive as well.

Spencer is starting to pack but it does not mean she give up on Aria. She never will, she will find a way to meet her and to be with her forever, she will.

At the Fields house, Emily is still in her bed. She just woke up. Her head, lips aching are so much better but her heart is still in pain because she just realize she is in love, in love with Alison Dilaurentis aka Killer legs. Emily smiles to herself. Killer legs is a cool name for Alison because goddamn she has those legs which are worth to die for. But this smile does not change the way Emily feels about love. Love is pain, hurting and disappointment. She will not let to anybody to hurt her. It was painful for the first time when she fell in love. Why would it change now?

Pam stepped into the room with a tray in her hands, which had some food on it.

˝Honey, I brought you lunch. You can eat here just watch out for the sheets, please. I come back soon; I want to have a talk with you. ˝ Pam says and leaves the room.

Emily is eating but she does not have appetite so cannot eat much. She is just waiting for her mom to come back so they can talk. But she does not have a clue what she wants to talk about.

Somebody open her door. Emily thinks it will be her mom but for her surprise, it is Alison Dilaurentis.

˝Ali? What are you doing here? ˝ Emily asks in surprise.

˝Can't I visit a friend? Your mom let me in. I was worried about you, you were not in school. Are you sick? ˝ Alison asks.

˝Not really, I just needed a day off. ˝ Emily answers.

˝What happened to your lip? ˝ Alison asks.

˝Sit down. I tell you. ˝ Emily says.

Alison sits down on Emily's bed waiting for her answer.

˝I had a drunken fight; I think, at least that is what I remember. I felt awful yesterday. ˝ Emily says.

˝Why? ˝ Alison asks.

Could Emily tell Alison her feelings? That she is completely in love with her? That she felt awful because Alison had a date with someone else? She would not even believe her. It is no use to tell her, she would might laugh at her face. Nevertheless, Emily likes that Alison is caring for her? Would they ever have a chance to be together? No. Never think about it. Emily is too hurt but it was not the love what hurt her it was a girl, Hanna Marin but the effect of that still so strong it makes Emily fear. The feelings, especially love scares her.

˝I just had a bad day. Not worth to talk about it. ˝ Emily answers. ˝How was your date with Janet?

˝It was awesome; she took me in an extravagant restaurant. She impressed me. ˝ Alison answers but leaves out that part when she could not think anybody but Emily.

˝That is great. So, are you together now? ˝ Emily asks.

˝We did not make it official by saying it out loud to each other but I think yes. My mom will be happy when she hears it.˝ Alison answers.

˝Do you love her or are just doing it because your mom wants you? ˝ Emily asks.

˝I like Janet a lot and part of me doing it because of my mom but the other part really likes Janet. ˝ Alison answers. ˝By the way, Spencer was not at school today too. Aria said she had to stay home. What do you know? ˝ Alison asks.

˝Spencer absent from school? Are we talking about the same Spencer? She would never miss any classes ever even if she is sick. ˝ Emily answers.

˝Then it is probably something very serious. ˝ Alison says.

˝I might call her to ask what is up with her. ˝ Emily says.

˝It was good to talk to you but I have to go now. ˝ Alison says and before she leaves the room, gives a kiss on Emily's cheek.

Emily is surprised by this but part of her is happy that Alison did that but the other part of her tells her to avoid Alison because if she sees her it will only hurt. It is hard to even know that she had a great date with a girl who is not her.

Aria sat in her room by all herself impatiently waiting for Spencer's call. She promised she would call. Spencer would never lie to her. There is something very wrong about it. Aria has to know exactly what happening with Spencer. Aria thinks Emily has to know what is going on with Spencer, they are best friends. She has to know, so Aria decides to give a visit to Emily.

Back in Emily's room, Emily is still in her bed. She enjoys her lazy day but feels she would need some alcohol to stop her thoughts, to not think about anything, especially about love and Alison Dilaurentis.

Her mom is in her room, probably to talk with Emily.

˝I do not know if you remember or not but you told some things last night. ˝ Pam says.

˝What did I tell you? ˝ Emily asks fearing she might sad something about drugs.

˝You told you are falling in love and it scares you, you even cried about it. ˝ Pam answers.

˝Well, it is true but it is not your business. ˝ Emily says.

˝Yesterday it was. Is it Alison, the girl who you love? ˝ Pam asks.

˝Maybe but the point is that I do not want love her and mostly I do not want get involved in a romantic relationship with her or any other girl. Never. ˝ Emily says.

˝Yesterday I told you but I tell you again love is not something you should be afraid of. I repeat not everybody is Hanna Marin. Give that girl a chance. ˝ Pam says.

˝No. Do not talk about Hanna and I do not want to be in love, ever. And if I wanted to I could not be with Alison since she has a girlfriend. ˝ Emily says in an angry tone.

˝I am sorry Emily but eventually you have to realize you cannot deny your feelings forever. ˝ Pam says.

˝Leave me alone! ˝ Emily says.

˝Fine but think about what I said to you, please. ˝ Pam says and leaves Emily alone in her room.

Emily cannot take it anymore. She does not want to think about it or thinking about anything else. She wants to go out to forget everything and have a great night with Melissa or with an unknown girl.

She starts to dress and wants to leave the house but Aria makes appearance at her doorstep.

˝Aria! What are you doing here? ˝ Emily asks surprised. She thought Aria is at Spencer's that is why she does not answer her calls.

˝We have some problems. ˝ Aria says and pulls Emily with her into the streets.

˝What problems? And where are we going? ˝ Emily asks.

˝To Spencer's and the problem is Spencer told her parents about us and they did not react very well. They locked Spencer in her room and does not let out so she can meet me and she promised me to call me and she did not so I am worried. You have to help me. ˝ Aria explains.

Emily was surprised by all of this. She never thought Spencer's parents are capable of doing something like this with their own daughter.

˝You can count on me, Aria. ˝ Emily says.

˝Thank you. ˝ Aria says.

Soon they are in front of the Hastings house.

˝I do not think they would be happy to see me. It is better if you go alone. ˝ Aria says as she stays behind so Spencer's cannot see she is here.

Emily is at the Hastings doorstep knocking impatiently until Veronica opens the door.

˝Hi Emily. ˝ Veronica says

˝Hi Mrs. Hastings! Can I talk to Spencer? ˝ Emily asks.

˝I do not think so. She is in a very bad state now but I do everything to make her feel better that is why she leaves the town in the morning. ˝ Veronica says.

˝What? ˝ Emily cannot believe what she hears. ˝Where does she will go? ˝ Emily asks.

˝In Philadelphia to a boarding school where Aria cannot infect her mind with those stupid things. To be honest, I always thought you will the one who will confuse her mind with things like being homosexual but you never did. You always were a good friend for her and I am very thankful for this but I am afraid you will not see her until she realizes what Aria said to her was all lie, so bye Emily. ˝ Veronica says and closes the door.

Emily still stands on the doorstep and she feels she is the one who is confused by all these things what Veronica said. She never knew they think about homosexuality like this. They were always okay with her. Never made her feel like they did not. Will they really Spencer away? They are really having some giant problems.

Emily started to walk back to Aria and she told her everything about what Spencer's parents planning.

˝Emily, we cannot let this happen. Do something! ˝ Aria says crying.

Emily hugged the crying Aria to comfort but really she would want cry about this as well. They want to tear her away from her best friend. She wishes she would know what could stop Spencer's parents doing this when an idea clicks in her mind. She could talk about Melissa about this. She may be able to help.

˝Aria, I think I should talk to Melissa. She may be able to help us. ˝ Emily says to the still crying Aria.

˝Do you think she will help? ˝ Aria asks.

˝I hope so. ˝ Emily says. ˝It is better if I go now. ˝ Emily says.

˝I will go with you. ˝ Aria says.

˝No. You do not have to. Go home and try to calm down, drink a tea and sleep. You need this. ˝ Emily says.

˝How could I when Spencer is suffering and so do I? ˝ Aria says.

˝There is not much we can do at this point. I try to talk to Melissa but I can do it alone you do not have to be there. I will call you. ˝ Emily says and starts her way to Melissa's house.

Aria goes home but cannot sleep instead she cries out all of her tears.

Emily knocks at Melissa's door. She opens it for her, lets her in, and attacks Emily's lips with hers.

˝You are lucky. Ian just left. ˝ Melissa says and kisses Emily again.

Emily likes the kisses of Melissa very much but now she did not come for this so she gently pulls away.

˝Melissa, do you know about what your parents are doing with Spencer? ˝ Emily asks.

˝No. ˝ Melissa says.

Emily tells her everything and even Melissa barely can believe it.

˝Look Emily, I talk to parents and I see what I can do but I do not promise anything. ˝ Melissa says.

˝Thanks. ˝ Emily says and Melissa kisses her neck.

˝No. Melissa, I am a way too worried about Spencer. ˝ Emily says.

˝That is why you need relax. Just lie down on the couch let me make you feel good. ˝ Melissa says as she gently pushes Emily on the couch and starts to kiss every inch of her body.

˝It is urgent to talk to your parents. ˝ Emily says.

˝Shhh! I said relax now! ˝ Melissa says.

Emily does not mind but it would be better if she would drunk then she would not think about Alison while having sex with Melissa because she wishes Alison would the one who she is having sex now.


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