Muahahahaha this was like my first ever super fast update!!!! :3
Lol I guess it's a present for all my reviewers! Yay!!! Everyone lets do the cha cha cuz i updated in less than a week lol * sigh* ok i'm done lol
Hmm what do i have to say about this chappie, well i guess it's sad lol. It's from personal experience, the cat thing *sigh*
Anyway there is some Roxiri in this chappie!! HALLELUJAH!! FINALLY lol jk, but yes *nods head* there is some brief Roxas Kairi action, And this chapter proves that Figaro brings them together!!!HAHAHA I TOLD YOU GUYS LIKE FIVE BAJILLION CHAPTERS AGO!!! lol jk, well yep, thats' all i really have to say about that. So I hope you guys enjoy it! Please review!! I mean please O_O'
Ugh ok u know the drill I DON'T OWN KINGDOM HEARTS BLAH BLAH BLAH WHATEVER ON WITH THE STORY!!!!
Kairi: Yeah! Read about me being all emo!!!
Namine: You're spoiling it!!!!!
Kairi: oh right hehe U didn't hear (in this case read) anything O_o'
Roxas: u guys are babbling...annoying girls .
Me: ok back to the story
Namine didn't follow me out the door. I didn't expect her to either. After a few minutes the guilt started to drown over. I really did snap at her. I even considered running back and apologizing but my mom was home. I'll just apologize tomorrow, I thought.
It was weird seeing my mom's car parked crooked in the drive way, she's always one of those people who have a major case of OCD. Anyway, I slowly made my way to the front porch, feeling incredibly suspicious. Something was up, I could feel it.
Before I could even put my hand on the doorknob, the door burst open revealing my frantic looking mom. She was running both of her hands through her hair, only something she did when she was nervous. Her eyes landed on me.
"Where on earth have you been?!" She nearly screamed in my face. I cringed.
"I was at Nami-"
"-Never mind that!" she interrupted, grabbing my arm and pulling me inside. "Why didn't you answer your phone? I was here calling and waiting for you to call back like an idiot!!!"
My fingers twitched instinctively to the broken pieces of my phone in my pocket. I couldn't tell her it was broken now, when she was already fired up.
"Um, it died," I said quickly avoiding her eyes. She ignored my last comment, throwing her self on the couch. She rubbed the temples of her head, and I just watched. What the crap!? I'd never seen my mother this angry; I don't even think that's the right word for it.
"Mom?" I called out cautiously. She sighed, looking up at me. Her eyes were all watery. Ok something was seriously wrong. "Mom! What- what is it?"
"Kairi," she whispered, her voice quivering with every syllable. "Figaro… "
I swear at that moment my whole body froze, I was as still as a statue, my eyes transfixed on my trembling mother.
"What… what's wrong with him?" I asked quietly, my whole mind was running through all the possibilities that could have happened to my cat. I knew what she was going to say, but I dreaded hearing it. Heck, I feared hearing it.
"I-I didn't mean to-"she stuttered. "I came home and the cat was just in the driveway! The stupid cat was supposed to be inside!" She put her face in her hands and sobbed. I didn't speak; I didn't know what to say to that. My mind, all my thoughts, was completely blank. Roxas and everything that happened before just didn't matter to me.
My mom continued. "Before I knew it, he… he got in the way- I tried to swerve in the other direction but-"She didn't finish. Even if she did, I didn't hear I was out of the living room in a matter of seconds. I ran to my bedroom, my face still in complete and utter shock. My cat, my Figaro is dead. I was waiting for the tears to come pouring out. But they never did.
Even after the thought of never seeing my cat attack my feet as I walked across the room, or waking up every morning to have him up in my face meowing to feed him, sunk inside my head, I didn't cry.
I lay down against my bed and tried to tell myself that it was just a cat. Big deal. But even thinking that sent shock waves in my chest. He was more than 'just a cat'. He was my cat, and he's gone.
I wish I could have cried myself to sleep, anything would have felt better than this empty feeling.
"Happy Birthday Kairi!" Namine squealed jumping up to give me a quick hug with one arm, while the other was behind her back.
"Thanks," I said happily. Confetti was thrown around all over the place, and every where I turned there were faces smiling at me.
Namine moved her arm from her back to reveal a fairly large box. She held it in front of me.
"Here you go!" She laughed thrusting into my arms. I took the gift hesitantly, glaring at her.
"You didn't have to get me anything," I muttered, feeling my face heat up.
"Oh of course I did," she scolded. I shook the box slightly placing my ear near the edge of it. "Ah! I wouldn't shake it if I were you he'll get- I mean you might break it."
"What?" I asked wide eyed.
"Just open it already."
I obeyed without anymore hesitation. When I finally lifted the top off I almost dropped the box. Inside was tiny black fur ball staring up at me.
"W-what is it?"
Namine's eyes narrowed. "It's a cat duh!" Sure enough its small ears popped out. I laughed.
"Aww, cute little kitty," I cooed, scratching the top of its head. It purred affectionately, closing it's bright green eyes.
"So you like it right?"
"I love it, thanks Namine."
I woke up the next morning feeling my eyes sting. You know that feeling when you're really sleepy and all of a sudden your eyes start to hurt? Well that's what my eyes felt like. And yet, still no tears.
I got dressed as usual except this time it felt dreadfully monotonous. After getting my things ready, I walked out the door, ignoring my mom. I didn't think I could bear talking to her. I know I wasn't being fair, but I couldn't help it. I was miserable.
I didn't even wait for Namine in front of the school as usual; I just walked straight to my locker, ignoring all the curious stares in my direction. I probably looked like the walking dead, I felt like one. But she ended up catching up to me in the end.
"Kairi," she panted, stopping to catch her breath. She looked me up and down worriedly. "Are you um… doing ok?" Her voice held obvious uncertainty. I could tell she probably tried practicing how best to approach me all morning.
"Of course why wouldn't I be," I tried to act cool, and pretend there was nothing wrong. But knowing my mother, she probably already let Namine know. Typical maternal instinct.
"Your mom told me what happened to… "She trailed off, watching my reaction. I blinked, still no damn tears. Instead a horrible feeling clogged my throat, like a large piece of food that gets stuck when you try to swallow except it won't go down.
"Oh," I muttered, looking away from her clear blue eyes.
"I'm so sorry Kairi," She cried, putting her arms around me. I didn't really know how to react besides returning the hug. Did I look that bad that I needed a hug? Or was she just trying to be sympathetic? Whatever the reason was, I was still glad.
"Thank you, Namine" I murmured.
"If there's anything you need- do you want me to get you another-"she didn't finish her sentence because I think she felt my body tense up. The thought of replacing Figaro made me sick to my stomach. I pulled away.
"No, it's ok." I said stiffly.
The whole day well the first two periods went by so fast that it felt like I was here at school only for a few minutes. I guess that's how it is when you're completely zoned out. Everyone knew I was upset, from the way they would whisper behind my back and whenever I came around they stopped and pretended nothing happened. Sora couldn't even cheer up my mood. His smile didn't brighten my day at all. It just made me feel more alienated. I didn't even want to be near Namine. She was just too comforting to the point where I felt like she was smothering me.
I think all in all I wanted to be alone. Maybe so I could cry? No, still I wouldn't cry. I felt even more horrible at that thought.
So during lunch, I walked straight towards the football field and rested on the bleachers. Not very many people occupy them, maybe it's just an illusion because it's so big, I don't know. The only people I saw were the couples making out underneath them, before I climbed to sit down. I wish they'd get a room.
I sat there and just let my mind dump out all the thoughts that were troubling me. All my feelings and worries.
I felt really ashamed that I hadn't cried at all for my cat. I wasn't even crying now but I wasn't all joy either. I felt stuck, like feeling I should be crying, but instead I'm sitting there, staring blankly at my shoes. I'm so unappreciative of one of the best pets I'd ever have. I should be crying, I should be in hysterics reminiscing all the good times I'd spent with Figaro. I felt empty, this wasn't right!
I was so distracted by my criticizing thoughts that I didn't notice someone sit next to me. Actually I did, but it wasn't the person I was expecting.
"Hey," He said softly. I looked up and almost gasped when I saw Roxas sitting there his hands intertwined with each other, looking absolutely nervous. I didn't know what to say, I just whimpered at him in my defense. "Relax, Namine told me what happened."
"Yeah," was all that came out of my mouth. I didn't even have my voice to speak out.
"I'm- I'm sorry." He said finally, looking down at his own shoes.
"Yeah," I repeated, feeling at a loss for words. He stayed quiet for a long time, out of corner of my eye, I felt him stare at me worriedly. He never did that, it was the first time I saw that look on his face.
"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked nervously. It took me a while to respond.
"I don't know," I said hearing the detached tone in my voice. I know that only made him more worried.
"H-how are you feeling?" He encouraged more speech out of me. I smiled bitterly, no trace of happiness in it.
"Like an ungrateful brat." I said.
"What?" Roxas said, absolutely puzzled. I lifted my eyes to stare at his. His sapphire eyes that were icy hard were unusually soft. They softened more when mine met his. "Kairi, you're not a brat."
"Well I feel like one," I mumbled.
"I don't understand." He admitted, furrowing his eyebrows in frustration. I sighed.
"I feel like I'm not feeling sad enough," I said simply. "My-my cat just died, everyone is sad- and I feel like I should be crying or something. I feel like my actions aren't reflecting how much he meant to me. I'm such a bad person, I should be crying." I finished the last sentence fiercely. This time Roxas sighed.
"Kairi," He said gently, putting one of his hands on mine. I stared briefly at our hands and then looked back at him. This was definitely not Roxas. He never acted like this. He was never sweet or sensitive, or freakin' soft spoken, like he was acting right now. "You're not a bad person. Everyone expresses themselves differently. It doesn't matter if you cry or not, as long as you know how much that person or in this case animal meant to you. That's all that counts. Everyone handles deaths and tragedies in different ways. While someone cries for him, you'll act… emo, but the feelings remain the same." He grinned uneasily waiting for some kind of reaction. I laughed softly, making him smile wider.
"Wow, nice speech." I muttered. "Who are you and what have you done with Roxas?" At this he scowled, returning to his silent moody attitude.
"Whatever," he snapped, removing his hand, and getting up from his seat. I sat there looking up at him. Sora was right; he was a real nice guy. I instantly felt a pang of guilt for being so prejudice.
"Hey," I whispered, he turned around, showing his obvious eagerness for my response. "Thanks Roxy" I giggled inside my head, waiting for his what-the-hell signature face for dubbing him with that new nickname.
"What the hell?! Honestly, Roxy?" He grimaced. I smiled involuntarily, feeling my insides squirm as I watched his eyes soften again. We were both frozen staring at each other, not awkwardly for once, but understanding. The school bell that rang both made us jump suddenly; I awoke from my trance and quickly walked ahead. Roxas tailed closely too.
"Come on Roxas, we'll be late," I exclaimed happily which surprised me. That boy completely cheered me up, with just a few words. Whoa, there must be something wrong with me.
It wasn't long before we were reunited with the gang. Namine rushed to my side, with a worried face. Sora told me he was also worried, which surprised me, but I still thanked my lucky stars for that.
"Don't worry guys, I'm fine," I reassured, glancing hastily at Roxas, who was smirking smugly the whole time. "But thanks, I feel loved now." I joked releasing the tension. Everyone was feeling better as was I, when we walked to our next class. I felt a hand pull me back, making me lag at the back of the bunch. I spun around to face Roxas.
"You're welcome, Kai." He whispered in my ear once he made sure no one was looking. It took me a few moments to realize he gave me a nickname. What the crap is with Kai? It made me sound like something from Dragon Ball Z, ugh. But I still smiled warmly and from now on, I hope things will be different between us. No more awkward silences for us! … Hopefully...
dun dun duh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UNTIL NEXT TIME!!!!!!!! xD XD PLEASE PLEASE REVEIEW *BEG BEG*
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