Okay id like to start off by saying that i'm sorry it took me awhile longer to update than usual.
as i said in a previous update, my dog ate my charger! its been way to cold to stay on the main computer at night,
(damn i hate winter) so i haven't been able to update, but i hope you enjoy this, and sorry if it has spelling mistakes
i'm on my crappy old laptop and word isn't working so i'm doing it without spell check
XOX enjoy!
~RPOV~
I slipped effortlessly into Lissa's mind, i needed something to distract me and i had already counted the number of wood
panels on each wall. My guess was that i'd already been here roughly three days, most of the first day i 'luckily' spent
unconscious, but i was growing so restless, sitting here doing nothing.
Lissa was sitting on her bed, i could tell she was still wearing her favorite furry rabbit covered pajamas even though it was the middle of the Moroi
day, Christian was sitting beside her stroking her back lovingly and whispering soothing words, most of it was nonsense
but every now and then something like:
"Rose will be fine."or "Dimitri wont stop until he finds her, he will bring her home." Lissa brought her head to Christian's chest and let out a faint sob, he wrapped his arms tightly around her. Nuzzling her face in his chest surrounded in his love and warmth. At that moment i never felt more grateful that Lissa had Christian, even though we had a rough start Christian was more to me then my best friends boyfriend, he was almost like my brother. We shared a bond nobody else understood. We both had loved Strigoi at one time or another.
Me in the form of the love of my life Dimitri Belikov, who was turned unwilling into a strigoi after an attack on the academy and a rescue mission spear-headed
by yours truly. Christian in the form of his parents who unlike Dimitri turned themselves for the power and immortality. When i told Christain about my time with Strigoi Dimitri i was the most honest i had ever been, even with Lissa i left a little out i knew she wouldn't understand like Christian did.
I talked to him about how i knew that Dimitri wasn't really Dimitri anymore. That the strigoi in him had taken away the things i loved most about him. But i couldn't shake my love for him, he was still my Dimitri. The key to my heart. Christian understood this perfectly, he loved his parents even after they turned strigoi, he was only little so they seemed normal to him, but the hardest thing for him is that he still loved him parents to this day, and that understanding we had with each other is what made me miserable to see them both suffering because of me, they had been though enough.
All of us were lost in our inner-musing when the door to Lissa's Royal apartment flung open, the guardian standing by the door spun round faster then lighting to grab the intruder, his hands were gripping someone. The person, a man from what i could hear he was yelling calmly.
'Get your hands off, i'm allowed here, i practically used to own the place.' the guardian turned to his Queen, allowing her, Christian and subsequently me to see who had entered. It was Adrian. My heart squeezed tightly in my chest. His appearance not doing much for my aching heart. Adrian's usually artfully tussled hair was a complete mess, like he had continually ran his hands though his hair haphazardly, which is what he does when his upset or angry. His beautiful cheeky green eyes were now grim and red rimmed, he had puffy black bags under his eyes, his forehead was lined with worry, his shirt was crumpled and messy and his lips were set in a harsh line. Drinking him in through Lissa's eyes made my heart break, i felt to guilty. Lissa was feeling something similar but not anywhere near the extent to what i felt, she looked at Christian quickly and i could see the pain in his eyes too as he took in Adrian.
"Let him in Guardian Paraben, Adrian here is to be always granted access to me or my apartment without hesitation." Lissa had attempted to use her Queenly voice but she was too heartbroken, she felt she sounded weak and unworthy of her title, but that was nothing new. Since being voted Queen Lissa felt she wasn't old enough or wise enough to rule a whole race. She hadn't even finished collage yet. But she was giving it her all and was truly amazing at it even if she couldn't see it.
"The guardian nodded politely ignoring the pain in her voice and took a step back, once back on his mark he withdrew a notepad from his pocket and scribbled down something quickly. Adrian made his way towards them, his eyes trained on Lissa's, but the way he was looking at her made me think he was seeing straight through her and into me. i gasped lightly and shivered, he knew i was watching.
"Rosie." he whispered in a haunting voice, as he stood at the edge of the bed his eyes burning into Lissa's. She flinched as he spoke, both the intense look in his eyes and the way he spoke scared her a little. Christian wrapped his arm protectively around her waist as Adrian knelt on the bed getting closer to Lissa. "You have to stay strong, for Lissa, for Christian and for me. promise me?" his eyes looked so pleading i found myself nodding. I would do what ever it takes to get back home to them. "I need you to go to sleep in 30 minutes, i don't know if you have anyway to keep time but try Rosie, i will come to you and i will help you. You just need to stay level headed." the way he said 'level headed' made me confused at first but i realized that he was telling me i needed to keep myself from being bitten, because like when Dimitri had bitten me as a strigoi, i had lost all need to be home with my friends. I Had Dimitri and his bites. I gagged i couldn't let myself get like that with Rolan. i needed to do what Adrian said and stay level headed. "I love you Rosemarie. no dying on me you hear?" he meant for that to be light and playful, but his words came out all chocked up and filled with raw pain. i cringed, my poor Adrian, what i wouldn't give right now to hold him in my arms and comfort him. I decided to pull back then from Lissa's head, i had to keep alert now. I had a small ray of hope of getting out of this.
"I sat on the very end of the bed, my bare legs dangling over the bed end, i wished Rolan would give me something else to wear, i was still only in Dimitris T-shirt, not that i didn't love it. It still smelt like him. i closed my eyes tightly, i was roughly scouting out my location by listening to sounds around me, i was sure i was in the same hotel as my parents and Dimitri. Every now and then my eyes would flicker over to the alarm clock, time was going so slow, i wanted to throw the fucking thing against a wall, I swear 1 minute felt like 30. Just after my eyes had fluttered shut and i was listening out again i heard something that made my stomach flip, i knew it wasn't a strigoi, Rolan was gone until tomorrow night and it wasn't the same nauseating feeling. I strained out my ears and concentrated, i held my breath and tried to quiet my heart, and i heard it again. My eyes shot open and my stomach was now doing somersaults
"Dimitri..." i whispered, i could hear him. He was yelling something in Russian to somebody, i scurried off the bed and got as far as i could on the chain, i laid on the floor and stretched out my body, so grateful Rolan had untied my hand and that my ears were so far from my feet. Here i was laying on my stomach chained to a bed straining my neck and ears to get as close to the wall as i could. I tried again, closing my eyes, holding my breath and quieting my heart. I could hear him now, i could tell he was pacing, his voice was constantly changing in volume as he walked the length of the room. i layed my forehead on the cool floor and listened to the voice that could keep me fighting even in my last breath.
"You need to help me find my Roza." i heard him say, he was calmer now, he liked whoever it was he was talking to, he was calm but i could hear the pleading tone treading in and out of his words. He was also louder now, meaning he was closer to me "Please, Sonya. She is my world. i can't loose her." i let out a soft sigh, my Dimitri he was so smart, he must have been the one to contact Adrian, how very selfless of him, he was such a proud man, but he wouldn't hesitate to ask for help if it would help me. Now he must be asking Sonya as well to find me in my dreams. i guess two spirit users together might be stronger "I understand Sonya, Yes, no. Its really fine. i asked Adrian yesterday to do it for me. i just thought if you both did it we would have more chance." i could hear the sadness now in his voice, he had completely ditched his attempt at a disinterested tone. "Goodbye Sonya. thank you for your kind words." then i heard silence followed by the squeak of the mattress springs as he flopped himself onto the bed. "Roza..." i heard him sigh out before we both drifted to sleep.
"When i opened my eyes i was standing in the beautiful courtyard Adrian and i had been sitting in when we first kissed. But this version was blooming in overdrive with flowers in every color of the rainbow. A beautiful vine of red roses wrapped itself tightly around a arch that sat against a wall covered in the every one of the worlds most beautiful flowers. It was a living wall of beauty, ivy and other vines were creeping there way across the brick wall that separated us from the rest of the court. The grass was the greenest grass id ever seen and Under the archway was a beautiful wrought iron bench, it too was beginning to be entwined by the vine of stunning red roses. It was so much more beautiful then i remembered, there weren't half as many flowers here when we where here, and it certainly didn't look like this now in the middle of winter. 'Only in my dreams with him' thought fondly.
My head snapped up when i heard him clear his throat, he was leaning against the ivy covered brick wall. Looking up at him i was stunned at how it brought out the amazing green in his eyes, i practically sprinted to him.
"Little dhampir.." the end was said with a slight 'whooshing' as i crashed my body into his knocking the air out of him. He stumbled back slightly but steadied himself before wrapping me in an embrace so tight if i was human he would have broken a few ribs. It was the first time i had touched Adrian after he found out about Dimitri and i. It felt amazing, i was so happy with Dimitri but breaking Adrian's heart was the biggest guilt in my life. He had loved me so freely and sweetly and i shoved it back in his face. There was no doubt in my mind that i loved him, and maybe if i had never met Dimitri. Adrian and i could have been happy together, but i couldn't be with him when i was completed so wholly by Dimitri, and without him i felt empty. I buried my face in Adrian's neck and sobbed. He just held me close for awhile, stroking my hair and cooing gently in my ear. Suddenly i pulled back and shook my head, how dare i do that to him, i knew he still loved me and it must pain him for me to do things like that, but i felt such comfort in his arms and it was what i really needed right now, I looked up at him my heart torn.
I mustn't have been hiding my emotions well because when Adrian looked down into my eyes i saw such pain in them as he took him my expression and what my eyes were telling him.
"What is it Rose?" he asked his voice thick with real concern.
"I'm sorry, i shouldn't have done that. come running into your arms like that, like...like old times. I know i'm selfish, but i take such comfort in your arms." i was whispering by the end, if he were any regular human he wouldn't have been able to hear me, but i knew he did because his eyes filled with such sadness the tears that had been in my eyes the whole time started to fall silently down my cheeks.
"No little dhampir, Rose. no." he crooned as he pulled my back into the circle of his arms and kissed my forehead. "i came here to see if you were okay and to find you?" he looked deep into my eyes serious now "do you know where you are Rose?" i nodded, i coudnt answer him, my throat was thick with un-shead tears i was afraid if i spoke i would start crying and never stop. "Are you close to were Dimitri, Abe and Janine are?" i looked up at him, i laughed bitterly and gave a quick nod. He gave me a puzzled look, "Where are you Rose, please?" i gripped his hands so tightly in mine i could see his fingers turning white, but he didn't even flinch or look at them, he just kept his eyes on mine.
"I'm still in the same hotel, even the same floor. i could hear Dimitri on the phone to Sonya before i fell asleep, it hurts so much because he is so close." my eyes welled up with tears again, and i hiccuped softly. Adrian cupped my face in his smooth cold hands.
"Are you hurt Rose?" i nodded, my eyes grim. "How bad?" he whispered like he was afraid of the answer, i dropped Adrian's hand and took a deep breath, i knew i was meeting Adrian here and i didn't want to scare him so i had hidden my damaged state from him, just like i could magically change my clothes. I closed my eyes and I let my 'illusion' drop, i didn't open my eyes but i heard Adrian's sharp intake of breath.
"Fuck...Rose,just..fuck" his voice was so shaky i opened my eyes, he had his hand reached out to me like he wanted to touch me but was afraid i would break. I knew i was a mess, i probably didn't even look like me, i had received another injury yesterday in the form of a slap across the face that sent me back into the bed post, it had bruised up my face and broken my already fractured cheek bone and probably a rib or two.
Adrian placed a soft kiss on the middle of my forehead, he had found a spot free from injury and we both smiled weakly at our small sad triumph. "Dimitri and Janine will be there in no time, don't worry little dhampir,you can run into my real arms the next time we see each other...' with that my dream with Adrian disappeared and i was slipped back into dreamless sleep. All i could do was hope that the love of my life could come and save me, like i saved him.
Well? Worth the wait? its a little shorter but its 4:51am
i hope there aren't to many spelling or grammatical errors! i proofed myself without spell check this time
love the feedback i'm getting i love you guys and girls!
ps. my computer decided to be very difficult when writing this so there are like codes for bold letters and stuff in this, hopefully i got them all but there may be a few i missed so sorry)
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