Entry 9
I recommend listening to "One Line" by PJ Harvey. It is AMAZING.
I am outside in the beautiful rose garden—as opposed to the other 5 gardens around the house. It smells mouth watering. It is located in a court yard at the center of the Manor and archways ordain the entryways to its beauty. They have also put up twinkling lights every where so at night it looks magical. Sirius said yesterday that if he was ever hoodwinked into marriage he would want it to be in this garden. I asked if he was talking about the ceremony or the reception and he said he was insulted I would ask that since he was clearly talking about the mind blowing sex that would force him to get married for repeats.
Typical Sirius.
Anyway, Charlotte and I went shopping yesterday and it was the most boring shopping experience of my life. The entire 3 hours was spent with Charlotte insulting Sirius, and then she turned rather ugly and started insulting me because I was still talking to him. That is when I drew the line and came back home.
I'm just really glad that Mel and Remus will be arriving later today. Maybe Mel can knock some sense into Charlotte.
Since she is no longer talking me.
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Wow. I officially feel like an outcast.
James is off doing god knows what with Sirius and Remus, and Charlotte and Mel are having a full, day long 'I hate men' ranting session.
So, I'm all alone in the kitchen. It's almost midnight so I thought I could just write in here and then go to bed. SINCE NO ONE CARES!
I think I just heard someone in the living room.
Ok, I definitely heard something in the living room.
I'm going to investigate. What the hell was that? It was like a large thud…
I'm going to investigate…with a frying pan for protection.
FLASHBACK!
So here I am standing in the doorway, frying pan held high, ready to jump on the intruder when he screams "Lily!"
I looked down and it was Sirius. I helped him up and we sat down on the couch.
"What are you doing?" I asked him.
"I came back early, James and Remus are um—elsewhere and I came back because they wanted me to come back and check on you guys and I tried to apparate in the house but I forgot about the weird protection around the house and it did something weird to my tongue and I started choking then—is that a frying pan?"
I laughed, "Yeah…I was going to hit you with it."
"Lily. You're a wizard."
I burst out laughing. "My wand is upstairs."
He nodded and then turned to me, suddenly very serious. No pun intended.
"Lily—about Charlotte—"
"I don't want to hear it."
"No, damn it, listen. I need you to convince her to let me talk to her."
"She won't even talk to me!"
"What? Why?"
"Because I talk to you."
"Shit. I really fucked up didn't I?"
"Understatement of the year."
We were quiet for a moment and I realized he was genuinely upset. "Sirius?"
"Lily, I-I think I love her."
Dead. Silence.
Was I hallucinating?
I had to be dreaming right?
Sirius Black saying he LOVED a girl?
I choked on my spit and starting coughing. "You what?"
"I think I really do, Lily. I mean, I have no idea what it feels like or anything, but I think about her all the time. That's why I started dating, so I could forget about her. That always used to work, but it didn't. I feel horrible all the time and want to talk to her and make her laugh but all I do is fuck up!" He did look miserable.
"Why don't you tell her this?"
"She wont even look at me!"
"Did you break up with whats-her-name?"
"We only went on 2 dates and I'm not talking to her anymore."
"Come on."
"Where?"
I grabbed his arm and dragged him to the stairs that lead to the west wing bedrooms.
We got to Charlotte's room and I knocked. And knocked. And knocked again.
"I know you're not asleep in there!" I yelled at the door.
Melanie answered, in a bright ass pink nightie. She leaned against the doorframe and yawned.
"We need to talk to Charlotte."
"She's not here. And I was asleep thank you every much."
"Then where is she?"
"Hell if I know. She just left."
Melanie gets cranky if you wake her up.
Sirius looked like he was freaking out. "She just left?"
"Yes, try again later." Then she promptly shut the door in our faces.
"I have an idea." I said to Sirius.
I ran down the stairs, Sirius at my heels, all the way to the center of the Manor.
And there, in the middle of the Rose Garden sat Charlotte. The lights made her hair look like it was glistening. Sobs echoed into our ears.
"Go to her." I whispered. "Tell her, Sirius. This could be your only chance. I know Charlotte. When she has cried for a boy, let him in and he hurt her, she'll never let him again. So you better get a move on."
He looked terrified.
I shoved him to her and he walked slowly toward her. I leaned against one of the stone arches to watch them (and make sure she didn't kill him).
"Charlotte?" I heard Sirius say as it echoed along the stone walls. "Sweetheart? I am so sorry. I fucked up everything. I don't know how to do the whole relationship thing, and I know you deserve someone who does but I'll really try to learn how if you give me another chance."
"What about Sheryl?" Charlotte said tauntingly, though the affect was ruined because she let another sob rip through her.
"I only went on two dates with her, she's completely insane. I was trying to get over you, but nothing I was doing was helping. So I tried dating someone and it just made it worse. I kept on thinking about you, and how much I fucked up with you, and how happy I was with you." He was silent, the he said in a low hoarse voice, nearly breaking with emotions. "Charlotte, please."
Woah. Go Charlotte. She got Sirius Black to beg for her.
She got up and for a moment I thought she was going to smack him—I think it crossed her mind—but instead she hugged him and wrapped her arms around him, sobbing into his chest. He held her head against him. He seemed to be just as emotional.
I jumped as I felt two arms wrap around me. I looked back and it was James. Of course.
"Crazy kids, thought they'd never get back together."
"Oh they're not back together." I turned to face him, wrapping my arms around his neck.
"They're not?"
"Definitely not." I kissed his jaw, then slowly kissed his mouth. I pulled back and whispered to him, "Charlotte will milk him for all he's got after that monster of a letter. Then, maybe."
He shook his head at me, "Girls are cruel."
"And guys are dumb asses."
"Touché." I laughed and kissed him again.
"So where were you tonight?" I asked him.
"Oh, Uh, just around."
"Uh, huh, because I would obliviously believe that."
He rolled his eyes at me. "Where's Remus?" I asked.
"He's uh—"
"Wait, let me guess, he's just around too?" He chuckled and nodded.
I turned back around to face to Rose Garden. Sirius and Charlotte were still locked and a tight embrace. I looked up to clear sky, twinkling with thousands of stars. I smiled and shook my head.
It was full moon.
Happy Sunday!
Thank you for reading!
Lots of Love,
Jenna
