A/N: Sorry it took me SO long to get this chapter out. I've been too depressed to do anything of late. Anyways… I hope you like this chapter.
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'thought'
"Spoken"
Jutsu
Scene Change
Last Time:
With her eyes still closed and her grip still on the unknown object, she felt Kiba's grip on her slowly loosen… until she finally heard a thud.
She hesitantly opened her eyes and looked down.
Below her, by her feet lay Kiba.
She slowly put her hand over her mouth in disbelief. 'D-Did I do this?' She removed her hand from over her mouth and held it up next to the other. Her eyes widened when she saw crimson blood covering her hands. 'N-No! This…this can't be…' She looked at the hand that was holding an object. The object was a pairing knife that was supposed to be used for peeling fruits or vegetables – but in Hinata's case it was used as a weapon.
Seeing blood on both her hands and the knife was enough for Hinata to realize that something had gone horribly wrong.
She dropped the knife on the floor as she fell to her knees beside Kiba. 'I-Is he…' her heart was beating faster and faster each second she stared at the body lying below her. 'No, surely not… Kiba wouldn't die that easily.' She thought trying her best to reassure herself.
She lowered her head to where his heart was. She desperately hoped that she would hear his heart beat.
Her eyes widened… She heard nothing… absolutely nothing… not even a faint beat of his heart.
She quickly jolted her head up from his chest. She began to let silent tears flow from her eyes. 'No! No! He can't be dead!'
In a desperate attempt to reassure herself that he was not dead she lifted his head up and placed it on her lap. Hoping for a reply she said with tear filled eyes, "Kiba…" She got no reply. "Kiba!" she said louder. "Kiba please wake up… please,"
She began to sob uncontrollably "No, Kiba! You can't die!" Her tears began to fall onto the lifeless body before her "Kiba… please, please don't die!"
She removed his head from her lap and moved him into a sitting position against her chest as she wrapped her arms around him. "Kiba…" she began quieter barely above a whisper "Kiba please you can't die…" Her tears began to slow down. "Kiyoshi will miss you… please… please don't go."
She stayed in the same position for what seemed like an eternity. She tried on last time to convince herself that he was somehow – someway still alive "Kiba please… please… don't go…"
When she got no reply her sobs began to fill the room. She held Kiba close to her in an attempt to make her feel like somehow he was still alive. She felt a little better when she did this, she didn't know why but nevertheless it did.
She would've stayed like that longer if her stomach wasn't upsetting her. She felt a strange and upsetting feeling the longer held onto Kiba. She bore with the uncomfortable feeling as long as she could. Finally she couldn't take upset butterflies in her stomach. She quickly but gently placed Kiba back on the floor before she ran as fast as she could to the bathroom. She kneeled in front of the toilet as she began to throw up. 'Why is this happening to me again?' she thought as she continued to throw up. She shakily stood up and flushed the toilet when she was finally done. 'That's the 3rd time this week…' She thought.
She walked back into the kitchen and saw Kiba lying in the same position Hinata had last left him in. At the sight of his lifeless body she once again began to cry. She closed her eyes and looked away. She didn't want to admit it – but she knew that he was dead and he was never coming back. The pain of just being in the same house as him made Hinata's heart feel as if she herself had been stabbed with the knife instead of Kiba. She couldn't stand the pain – she couldn't stand the throbbing pain within her heart any longer. She had to get out now, before the pain completely destroyed her.
She dashed to the as fast as her unsteady legs would allow her. As her hand was nearing the door she stopped. 'I… I have to see him… just one more time…' She slowly walked back into the kitchen where her dead husband lay. She stood over his body with crystal tears still rolling down her cheeks and falling onto Kiba. "I… I'm sorry Kiba," she whispered "I didn't mean for this to happen… Gomen nasai… Kiba" Her gaze averted from Kiba to the bloody pairing knife lying on the floor beside him. Bent down and picked up the knife. She stared at the knife in her hand with tear filled eyes 'How could I do this? I didn't mean for this to happen.'
With the knife still in her hand she made her way out of the house.
Once she stepped out of the house she noticed that it was no longer sunny like it had been when she first entered the house, now it was dark with the only light source being the streetlights and the stars above her.
She looked at the knife in her hand and gripped the handle tight. The tears from her eyes began to fall again. She still couldn't believe that she of all people would do something like this. She needed to get rid of the knife that reminded her of so much pain and misery. She began to run as fast as her shaky and unsteady legs would allow her to until she reached a bridge over a river. Stepping onto the bridge she looked at the knife one last time before she threw it into the river to be carried off somewhere unknown.
Upon throwing the knife in the river she let silent tears begin to escape her broken eyes. It was true; throwing to knife into the river made her feel like some of the pain within her heart had left along with the knife. But the pain of guilt was still filled a large amount of her heart.
She ran off the bridge before jumping onto a tree. As she jumped from one tree to the next she felt a throbbing pain in her side making it more and more difficult to keep her mind focused on the path ahead of her. She stood the pain as long as she could before she couldn't handle it anymore. She stopped on a tree branch holding her side. 'Kiba must've hit me there.' She thought 'I should probably walk the rest of the way.'
She jumped down from the tree and began to walk to Naruto's house.
She to a great extent wished that there was something to keep her mind off of the events that had just occurred. The silence of no one else's voice kept her brain locked on the vision of Kiba's cold body lying motion less on the kitchen floor. With every second passing that she saw flashing images of Kiba more and more tears began to fall down her swollen and bruised cheeks.
When she was only a block or so away from Naruto's house she felt tiny drops of water fall on her. The tiny drops of rain quickly turned into huge drops of rain. The drops of water stung where her cuts and bruises were but she was thankful of the rain drops falling fore no one would be able to see her own drops of water falling from her eyes.
Her tears grew more when she reached the front door of Naruto's house. 'Should I tell him? He'll ask anyway I should just tell him what happened. Will he hate me for what I've done?' She wondered. The tears from her eyes fell faster and faster with every question she asked herself. There were too many questions to be asked and too many consequences to be thought of in Inuzuka Hinata's mind. She wished all her haunting memories would leave her mind to never return… but she knew they would never go away… they would be there locked in her mind forever and there was no denying that.
Word Guide
Nani- What
Ano- Um
Kuso- Damn it
Hai- Yes
Dobe- Blockhead
Baka- Idiot
Gomen- Sorry
Gomen nasai- I'm sorry
Nande- Why
Kami- God
A/N: Once again I'm sorry this chapter got up late. Please forgive me. I spent most of my days crying since the last time I updated… Anyway please tell me what you thought of this chapter. REVIEW! I'll be updating more often since my last day of school is tomorrow! YAY! NO MORE MATH TILL AUGUST!
