I wasn't sure if I was making things harder, or more awkward. I couldn't figure out whether running off into nowhere or walking slowly, still holding onto what I could never have was the right thing to do, and as thoughts filled my mind, my slow paces became much slower and smaller.
"Wait," I heard a small voice utter, a voice that sounded so distant that I let it fade into the cold darkness. "Wait!" There it was again, but less distant and much louder. I stopped, could the voice had been for me? I froze into my spot, fists still firmly clenched at my sides – partly because of the cold and partly to keep myself from running back.
Silence. I couldn't hear anything but the silent whisper of breeze, hearts beating so fast and loud, and tears falling on the ground. I slowly turned around to face everything, all that time I had been walking and we were only about 4 paces away from each other. I saw Ellie beside Santana, but her body was turned to face Santana completely, all focus was now on Santana. Ellie was frozen, and from what I could see, she was also crying. What was this? The crying club?
Santana's face was soaked with tears, yet she still managed to look so perfect. I saw her lips move but I couldn't hear anything. Had she been whispering? Fear then took over her features, I watched as tear after tear fell from her eyes, and from the corner of my eyes I saw Ellie flinch, as if someone had nearly hit her. But it was worse, I turned away to completely look at her, and she had completely broken down into tears and ugly wailing. I looked back at Santana, hoping she would repeat the words she had said to make Ellie such a blundering mess.
"I said, t-take me with you." Santana finally said with such fear and sadness. My heart thumped, once, twice, thrice, one hundred times in a minute. "You said - you told me you'd fight for me, well, fight for me harder because I'm slipping away Britt. I... I need you."
I was stunned; I had not expected Santana to say anything and especially not this. I felt so bad, I felt terrible, and I'm pretty sure Santana did too. I stood still, staring at Santana, waiting for Ellie to say something.
She took shaky steps toward me, I nearly ran away. Ellie took my hand, and she looked me in the eye, "Good luck, and look after her." She told me, just as I had told her. My heart broke to see Ellie's heart break because of the love I and Santana had always had.
"Will you be okay?" I asked feebly, I could hardly form words. I squeezed her hands for assurance.
She looked at me in the eyes briefly, she tried to tug the corners of her mouth into a smile, but she couldn't. She let my hands go and turned around to face Santana.
"Goodbye," She squeaked out.
She walked off slowly, silently sobbing. And then she took off into her car.
It was just me and her then, just like it always had been and just how it should be. I offered her my hand to take, it was hesitant but she took a few steps toward me and took it.
"Come on then, you. Here we come England. By the way, you're still calling that number; it's your parents'." I said assuringly.
"I love you, I'm sorr-" She started to say, but I spun her around and kissed her lips.
"Shhh," I said, "we have forever for that, and I love you too."
We walked off into nowhere, much happier to know that we finally found each other again.
Many thanks for everyone who read this and stuck with it. Sorry about the long hiatus but it's finally finished now, crappy ending or? Thoughts would be appreciated.
