The twenty minute drive from the dance studio to Randy and Trish's house was spent in pure silence between John and Lita other than the sound coming from the radio. They hadn't uttered a single word to one another ever since they agreed to pretend the kiss never happened. They were both very confused by how that even happened in the first place. All they knew was that it couldn't happen again.

"Um... Uh... We're here," John announced, breaking the silence when they arrived to the house and he noticed Lita looked lost in thoughts about something.

"Oh," Lita said while looking outside the window. "I guess we are."

The former couple just sat there for a moment and glanced at one another before quickly looking away when their eyes met. John unbuckled his seat belt, opened the door, and left while Lita decided to stay put for a few more moments.

"Get over it," Lita said to herself as she watched John walk towards the house. "You both agreed it was a mistake. It meant nothing. So just suck it up and get over it. It was a stupid little kiss. You both weren't using your brains. Again. He's married. Don't do anything else. Just stay away from him as much as possible and the rest of the time here will go smoothly. You'll go back home and never have to see him again. It'll be okay." She let out a sigh when she saw John just standing by the door, looking at her like he was waiting for her. "Hopefully."

The redhead took a deep breath before she unbuckled her seatbelt, opened the car door, and got out of the vehicle. She walked towards the man and tried avoiding eye contact once again. Convincing herself in the car to just get over what happened at practice because it meant nothing didn't help at all. If it didn't meant anything, then why was it so difficult to let it go? Because it's John, Lita thought to herself. There's nothing easy about anything that concerns him. Never.

"Are you okay?" John asked after he knocked on the door and noticed how uneasy Lita looked.

"Mhm," Lita nodded even though she was screaming inside that she was not okay because he decided to do something foolish like kissing her even though he was married and she was stupid herself because she did nothing to stop him. She couldn't stop him because she knew she wanted it when she realized what was about to happen. Everything about it was so messed up.

"Look, about what ha-"

"Stop," Lita shook her head when she took a chance to look up at him. "We said we're going to pretend it didn't happen so there's no point in talking about it."

"I know, but-" John was cut off when the door opened and they saw Trish on the other side.

"Hey! You're finally back! How was it?" Trish asked as she moved out the doorway to let the two enter and led them in the house. "Is it perfect?"

"Close enough," was all John answered with as Lita simply nodded.

Trish stopped in place which made the two stop walking as well. She turned around to face them and glanced between them. Both of them looked distracted and disturbed. Wait, was that a trace of guilt Trish spotted on both of their faces?

"Is something wrong?" Trish asked glancing between the duo once again.

John shook his head. "Nope." He then walked away because he knew that was the only way to get her to leave it alone.

Lita was about to follow him, but Trish grabbed her arm and stopped her. The blonde spoke after the redhead sent her a questionable look. "What's wrong? Did something happen between you two?"

"No," Lita responded as she pulled her arm out of her friends hold. "I'm just really tired. I'm sure none of us got much sleep and I did fall asleep on the bathroom floor and then you made me go to dance rehearsal for a couple of hours, so I'm just tired."

Trish wasn't buying it but she knew Lita wasn't going to budge which was why she decided to drop the topic. "Okay. But you know if there is something bothering you, then you can talk to me about it. Judgement free zone."

Lita sent Trish a weak smile. "I know and I love you for that. But everything is okay."

"Alright."

"Did you find your ring?" Lita asked, changing the subject while the two continued to walk more inside the house again.

"You lost your ring?" Randy asked from the living room when the two arrived there.

"No, I didn't lose my ring," Trish answered too quickly as she began to lie, but then she thought it wasn't a big deal because of where she found it. "Okay, I sort of lost my ring but it was in Dawn's purse the whole time so I guess it wasn't really lost." She turned her attention to Lita before she continued. "Can you believe that? I basically tore up the suite even more than we did last night, looked at the tattoo place, the country bar, and some other places I don't even know if we went and the ring was in Dawn's purse the whole time."

"You all went to a country bar?" Randy asked, but was only ignored.

"At least the trip to the tattoo place wasn't a waste. Did Chelsea get her tongue ring removed?"

"Her what?" Randy asked. "Chelsea has a tongue ring?"

Trish rolled her eyes before she began to address her fiance. "Had is the correct word. She got rid of it."

"I knew my little sister hanging out with the four of you was a bad idea."

This time it was Lita's turn to roll her eyes. "Chill Randy. She's in her twenty's. She can make her own decisions. It's just a tongue piercing. There's nothing wrong with that. And she doesn't even have it anymore so relax. Plus, she's one of us now so deal with it."

Trish nodded in agreement. "Li's right. Chelsea is one of us now. We're like the fab five."

"That's a scary thought."

"Shut up."

Lita took a chance to go to her room in the guest house when the engaged couple continued their little playful argument. She wanted- scratch that- needed a moment to herself. She didn't want to be around people right now. Well, she did need to see her son.

"Wait," Lita said as she turned around to face the couple again who focused their full attention on her. "Where's Anthony?"

"I sent Edge and Dave on an errand and Anthony went with them," Trish answered before Randy could. "Well, he went with Edge because I think he's still afraid of Dave," she chuckled.

"Okay. As you were." With that said, Lita left.

Lita closed the door behind her, took a deep breath, and slowly slid down on the floor as she leaned against the door when she finally arrived to the room. She closed her eyes when she felt her eyes getting watery. Why was this happening? Why was she finding herself enjoying every moment she spent with her ex? Why did he kiss her? Why did she have to kiss him back? This wasn't supposed to be happening. Her and John were only supposed to deal with one another for the sake of their respective best-friends. They ended any relationship they had years ago. They weren't supposed to start getting close again and spending a lot of time together. And they sure as hell weren't supposed to kiss. But then why was any of it happening?

Her thoughts were interrupted when she heard a knock on the door. She got up from the ground, wiped away her tears, and tried to compose herself before opening the door.

"Hey Li!" Dawn smiled which was replaced by a frown when she noticed how upset her friend looked. "What's wrong?" Lita merely shook her head in response. Unfortunately for her, the brunette wasn't about to drop it as quickly as her blonde friend. "Bull shit. Have you been crying?"

Lita said nothing, instead opting to look at the ground when she felt her eyes starting to well up with tears again. It didn't take long for Dawn to realize the other woman was crying with how her shoulders began to shake uncontrollably.

"Oh sweetie."

Dawn stepped inside the room and closed the door before taking Lita to the bed and sitting her down there. Dawn sat down next to her and hugged her as she continued to cry. She knew whatever was going on with Lita had to be something big because her friend was usually always strong. Well, unless it was something that dealt with John. That always broke down the redhead. The brunette was hoping and praying it had nothing to do with John. It was hard repairing Lita after what happened over three years ago and Dawn knew Lita was never fully repaired. She didn't think that was possible, but she, along with Trish and Victoria, still tried.

"What's wrong?" Dawn asked once again after Lita's crying calmed down a little. "What happened?"

Dawn felt Lita's head shake against her which made her think her friend wasn't going to say anything anytime soon. She decided she would give Lita some more time before she pressed the issue again, but the other woman didn't seem to need more time.

"I did something bad," Lita said after she removed herself from Dawns embrace. She wiped the last of the tears away and attempted to gather herself before continuing. "I'm such a terrible person. I don't know how I could do that again."

"What are you talking about?" Dawn asked hesitantly as she observed the look of guilt on Lita's face. "What did you do?"

Lita looked away from Dawn in shame. She closed her eyes and shook her head before answering the question. "John... John... He... Oh God," she shook her head once again. She opened her eyes and looked up at Dawn once again who was patiently waiting for her to reveal her situation. Lita looked away once again before she finally told Dawn the truth. "He kissed me and I kissed him back."

Dawn gasped in shock once those words left Lita's mouth. That was not something she was expecting at all. She knew it dealt with John even though she was hoping it didn't, but that didn't mean she was expecting for Lita to tell her that they kissed.

"He kissed you and you kissed him back," Dawn repeated after she registered what Lita just told her. "How could you do that?!" She yelled and got up from the bed. which earned her Lita's attention. "He's married! How could he kiss you?! He's stupid! Why didn't you stop him?! Why didn't you just end it?!"

"I couldn't. I'm weak. I didn't want to. I told you I'm horrible."

"You didn't want to stop him?! You wanted to kiss him?! He's married!" Dawn repeated once again. She was about to say more, but Lita cut her off.

"You think I don't know that?!" Lita began to say as she stood up and faced her friend. "Why else do you think I feel like shit?! I hate Mickie! I can't stand her, but I don't want to do this to her again!"

"Then don't!"

"We both agreed it was just one stupid mistake," Lita started to say much calm then before as she sat back down on the bed, "and it can't happen again. It won't."

"It better not," Dawn said just as calm as Lita as she took a seat next to her. "Look, I don't give a damn about Mickie, but no woman deserves her husband fooling around with another woman. And you don't deserve any of this either. I don't want you to get caught back into that. I love you and I don't want to see you get hurt again."

"Me neither. It sucked."

"I know you don't want to hear any of this, but it needs to be said. You and John are a thing of the past. It's about time you moved on. You're always going to be getting the short end of the stick on this one. You already asked him once to leave her before they got married and he didn't because she was pregnant. She's pregnant again so he's not going to leave her and their child to be with you."

Lita nodded. "I know. But I can't help how I feel."

"You still love him," that was more of a statement than a question that left Dawn's mouth.

"You know I always will."

"But are you still in love with him?"

Lita let out a sigh as she thought about what her friend just asked her. "I don't know," she shrugged. "Maybe. I don't know."

"This is why you won't give Jess a chance?"

Lita rolled her eyes. Dawn was never going to let that go, was she? "Shut up."

"Serious question. Is that why you won't tell him about Anthony?"

Lita shook her head. "Absolutely not. I have been so conflicted these last few days about telling John the truth. Sometimes I think that I should tell him because they both deserve to know the truth and have a relationship with one another. Other times I think it's too late and Anthony is fine without him so why change things for him now. But what am I going to do when he starts questioning who his father is? It was easier coming up with something before he knew who John was but now I don't know how I can tell him anything about his father without actually telling him who he is."

"Believe it or not, but Mickie made the decision easier for me."

"What?" Dawn asked just as confused as she was. She had no clue what Lita could have meant by that.

"She's so horrible to Anthony because she thinks he's Johns son," Lita continued after the brief interruption. "If I tell John, then he's gonna want a relationship with his son and I know I won't be able to stop that from happening. And if that does happen, then Mickie is going to be around Anthony and I don't want that. I don't want her anywhere near my son where she can continue to say things to him like I don't care about him and I'm leaving him. I don't want her to say horrible things to my son that can have a negative effect on him."

"You know John won't let that happen," Dawn said after she took in everything Lita just said. "He won't let Mickie say whatever she wants about or to his son. You can tell how much he cares about Anthony. I really think you should tell him."

Lita shook her head. "I can't. It's better that way." Dawn was about to say something, but Lita beat her to it. "It's my decision so don't try to convince me to do something I don't want to. I don't want to talk about this anymore. Was there a reason why you came?"

"Fine," Dawn reluctantly agreed. "I just wanted to say that we should probably head up to get things for the rehearsal dinner situated."

"Alright. Let me shower first."

Dawn simply nodded before she stood up and left. Lita let out a tired sigh and shook her head at the conversation she just had with Dawn as she got a fresh pair of clothes out. Why was life so hard? It was one big test she felt like she was failing.


Mickie had to get out of that room. Ever since John came back, he had been non stop hovering around her. It was like he wouldn't leave her alone and she just needed a break from his constant questions of how she was feeling. All she said was she was really tired and her feet hurt and he wouldn't leave her alone about it. It was sweet to see him concerned, but it was annoying at the same time. She was pregnant so obviously she was going to be feeling this way sometimes.

The former diva was about to go outside for a walk and some fresh air, but that's when she walked by the room Lita was staying in. She stopped in front of it and knocked when she saw no one else around, thinking this was the best time to talk to her.

"Dawn, give me five more minutes," Lita called from inside. Her voice was getting closer and closer with every word she said and within a minute, the door opened. "You're not Dawn."

"Nope."

"What do you want?"

"Stay away from my husband," Mickie was about to say more, but was interrupted by the other woman.

"Done. Stay away from my son." The redhead was about to close the door, but unfortunately for her, Mickie wasn't done.

"Wait," Mickie said as she wedged her foot between the door so it wouldn't shut. "I want to talk to you about something else. That bastard of yours actually."

Lita glared. "You know you're not going to be pregnant forever, right? Just remember I owe you a punch or two."

Mickie rolled her eyes at the threat. She was not afraid of Lita. "And I owe you more than that for sleeping with my husband. Let me in unless you want everyone else to hear our conversation. I'm sure you wouldn't want John to hear any of this."

Lita wanted to say they weren't about to talk about anything so Mickie could just leave, but for some reason she opened the door and moved out the way to let the other woman enter. She closed the door and turned around to see the brunette had made herself comfortable on the bed. She walked over to where Mickie was seated and stopped a couple of feet away from her before speaking.

"What do you want?" Lita asked impatiently as she folded her arms across her chest.

"The truth."

Lita arched a brow. "About?"

"That little brat you like to call your son." Mickie saw Lita was fuming and her hands were now clenching at her sides, but she could care less and continued. "That little brat you named after my husband. That little brat who shares a lot of physical characteristics with my husband." Lita noticed Mickie was putting an emphasis on the word 'my'. "The little brat whose birthday you're lying about. The little brat who was a result of your one night with my husband years ago when me and him were engaged." Lita looked like she was about to reject those accusations, but Mickie wasn't having any of it. "Don't even try to lie to me. It all adds up. He-"

"It's none of your business," Lita interrupted only to be interrupted back.

"It's none of my business that my husband has a child with someone else? I think it is."

"No it's not because he doesn't know anything and I'm going to make sure it stays that way."

"Wow," Mickie was still surprised although she had a huge feeling Anthony was John and Lita's son. Hearing Lita confirm it didn't shock her any less. "So I was right? John got you knocked up. What a huge mistake you have to see the rest of your life."

"Don't," Lita shook her head. "Do not call my son a mistake. I know me and John slipped up big time and I really am sorry for that. But you do not get to call my son a mistake. He is not a mistake even though how he got here was. You do not get to say whatever you want about him." She took a brief pause before continuing. "Please don't tell John because I don't want him to know. Everything will just get screwed up. If you tell him, I will just decline it."

"You don't have to worry about me saying anything to him. Your secret is safe with me."

Lita was confused. Why would Mickie keep that a secret for her? She would have thought that Mickie would go running to John with the truth as a way to cause problems for her. "Why would you do that for me?"

Mickie scoffed. "Don't think for a second I'm doing anything for you because I don't owe you anything. I'm doing this for me and my daughter. He'll leave us the second he finds out about that brat."

"Stop calling him that. He has a name," Lita said as calmly as possible. Mickie was really testing her patience. "You don't have to be so insecure because he won't leave you for us. If he wanted to leave you for me, then he would have done it when I asked him not to marry you-"

"You bitch," Mickie cut her off with a glare present on her face. "You told him not to marry me? You actually told him not to marry me so he would come to you?"

"I was pregnant. I wanted my sons father in his life. I didn't think I could do any of it by myself. But I didn't get to tell him I was pregnant because he said he wouldn't leave you because you were pregnant yourself. He didn't let me tell him anything and said he wanted to move on with you and your child. He didn't leave you then, he's not going to leave you now."

"Why didn't you tell him?"

"I didn't get a chance. Plus, he he was really worried you would keep his child away from him if he did leave you for me. I didn't want that for him. I didn't want to cause any more problems for him. I didn't know what to do so I just left it alone especially when he said he had to move on and just hung up."

I guess pretending I was pregnant played out perfectly for me, Mickie thought to herself but said something else aloud. "Maybe you should have just kept your legs closed and you wouldn't be in this mess."

"And maybe you should have kept your man happy and he wouldn't have come running to me that night telling me that he missed me," Lita shot back. "Maybe you should tell him to keep it in his pants." She had enough and couldn't keep it in any longer. She knew Mickie had every right to be upset with her, but that didn't mean she was about to let the other woman say whatever she pleased.

Mickie scowled at her defiantly as she got up from where she was seated and walked towards the door. She turned around to address the redhead once more. "I always knew you were a whore. This only confirms it."

"Just stay the hell away from my son and leave me alone too while you're at it."

"Stay away from my husband. I know how hard that might be because you're still hung up, but move on. I'm sure there are a lot of desperate guys out there who are willing to throw themselves at you." Mickie didn't wait for Lita to reply and left with Lita slamming the door shut. Both of the women couldn't wait to go back to their homes where they wouldn't have to deal with the other and so that Anthony and John's true relationship wouldn't have a risk of being revealed.


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