Hey so thank you so much to everyone who reviewed the last chapter it means soo much!! That song was 'Running Up That Hill' by Placebo. Sorry it took so long to get another chapter up…this one is for my twin Nicole!!
I pulled out the picture of Brooke and me at 7 years old. She was in her blue dress that by that time had grass stains on it and the flower was still in her hair where she put it and we were hugging. Also in the envelope was a little red rose that matched the one in her hair that I have given her. I smiled a real smile. The first one in the longest time. She remembered it too.
If I only could, be running up that hill
I put the picture and the flower back into the envelope and set it on the table where it was. I still couldn't believe that she remembered that one weekend so long ago, and I had dreamed about it too. 'Weird.' I thought and closed my eyes hoping to get some more sleep. They had me on so much pain medication that I wasn't in any pain, but the memories were still there. And those were more painful than any physical beating I have survived.
Why do I have to fly
over every town up and down the line?
I took a deep breath and exhaled trying to relax. The door opened and I groaned inwardly. 'Why won't they just leave me alone?' I thought frustrated. I opened my eyes too see who disturbed me and I was surprised to see Peyton there.
I'll die in the clouds above
and you that I defend, I do not love.
"Hey." She said unsure.
"Hey." I said confused. I shouldn't be though she is my girlfriend after all. I wonder how she knew I was here.
"Lucas called me after Tim called him after his mom called him,one of the nurses whoworks here called her and you know." She explained looking down. She looked very uncomfortable.
"Oh well thanks for coming, but according to my dad I should be leaving soon." I said hoping that she would leave.
"Your welcome." She said and tried to smile, but couldn't. I realized that this wasn't going anywhere and she wasn't ever going to do it so I will.
"Umm Peyton I think we should break up." I said honestly.
Her eyes went to mine to the floor faster than a light. She knew that was coming, but I think she was surprised I did it now.
She looked up at me again. "Okay if that's what you want." She said quietly.
"It is, but I don't want to do the awkward lets be friends thing I think that we should just see what happens and not force anything." I said hoping she knew what I meant. I hate when people break up and give the 'lets try to be friends' bullshit because that never works, but I think if we gave it time it wouldn't be awkward and we might actually be able to be friends.
She nodded like she understood. I figured she would. "That's fine Nathan we'll just see what happens." She said as she got up and walked slowly out of the room.
It was for the best. She didn't love me and I didn't love her all we did was fight and have sex and it was getting old. Besides its not like it wasn't completely obvious about how she and Lucas feel about each other. I just did them both a favor and I couldn't even be mad once they do start going out.
I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.
I thought of Brooke for a second after Peyton left. I'm single now, but why would I automatically think of Brooke? 'It's the pills.' I thought they're making me think crazy.
Where will I meet my fate?
Baby I'm a man, I was born to hate.
There was another knock at the door and I opened my eyes and awaited my next visitor. To my relief it was just Lucas.
"Hey man." He said as he walked in closer.
"Hey Luke." I said as I held out my fist for him to hit with his. Once he did my arm fell back on the bed and Lucas sat in the chair next to the bed.
And when will I meet my end?
In a better time you could be my friend.
"So how are you feeling?" He asked not knowing what else to say.
"I'm fine." I replied immediately. I looked straight ahead.
"Wow you look like you took one hell of a beating. Do you know who did this?" He asked worriedly.
I froze for about a second before I recovered and said, "No I didn't see it coming and before I knew it this guy was stabbing me with shards of glass and kicking my ass all over the place." I said only partially lying. I looked back over to him. He was leaning forward and nodding.
I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.
"I wish I would have been there I bet between the two of us we would have beat his ass instead." He said smirking arrogantly. He so picked that up from me. I smirked too and nodded. "You bet your ass we would have." I said in the same tone he did. Lucas laughed and looked at all of the cards and flowers all over.
"Jesus someone is popular." He said sarcastically. I rolled my eyes.
"Yeah just what I need flowers and get well cards to decorate my room with." I said sarcastically as well. He laughed.
"People obviously want you to get better. We were all really shocked when Tim called. This doesn't typically happen a lot and especially not to someone like you." He said while looking at some of the cards the nurse left sitting out.
"It's nice I guess." I said with a shrug. He looked at me and nodded.
"Just so you know I didn't get you a card or flowers or anything." He said grinning.
"Well damn Lucas that hurts my feelings to know that my own brother doesn't care enough about me to get me flowers while I'm in the hospital." I said with sarcasm dripping out of my mouth. He just laughed and stood up.
"Sorry I ran out money, but I did get you this." And he walked over toward the door and grabbed a basketball and brought it over.
"I know its kind of cliché, but we were actually worried when they said you were in bad shape so everyone on the team signed it. Its our way of saying get well in a non girly card or flower giving way." He said sincerely.
I just smiled a little. I was touched. He handed it to me and I looked at all of the signatures. There was an empty space next to his name.
"Hey can I get a sharpie?" I asked him. He looked around and found one in the drawer of the table next to me. He handed it to me and I signed my name right next to his. He looked at me expectedly to explain myself.
"When I get famous this could be worth a lot of money one day so I thought I should sign it now so I won't have to later." I said in a 'duh' voice. Lucas just smirked the trademark Scott smirk and shook his head.
"I guess its good I already signed it then so you don't have to come beg me to sign it when I'm rich and famous and your not." He said messing with me.
I smirked in response, but I was too tired to keep playing this game with him and I could tell he sensed it. He took the ball out of my hands and placed it on the floor.
"So uhh get better man we'll need you back on the court." He said sincerely. That reminded me what I was going to say earlier.
"Oh yeah by the way while I'm out which don't count on being too long your going to have to take over and lead everyone, which means picking up everyone's slack and winning the game." I said seriously. Just because I might not be contributing for one or two games doesn't mean I'm going not going to keep the undefeated record.
He grinned again, "What do you think I've been doing since I joined the team?" He said jokingly.
I flipped him off while rolling my eyes for dramatic effect. He just laughed and held out his fist like I had earlier. I bumped mine with his and shook my head laughing lightly.
"All right man take care and I promise to make sure we win while your gone." He said backing up toward the door. I nodded and he nodded back and just before he walked out I said something that even surprised me, "Umm Lucas…take care of Peyton." He didn't know what to say to that so he nodded yes and walked out. 'At least someone gets to be happy.' I thought. It might as well be Lucas and Peyton. I wasn't sure what was happening to me. All of a sudden I'm hanging out with my brother. Yeah I actually called him my brother earlier and Peyton and me have broken up a hundred times before, but always get back together.
Wouldn't mind it
if you were by my side
But you're long gone,
yeah you're long gone now.
This time I knew we wouldn't. We were both tired of doing the same old thing everyday. I sighed and closed my eyes again, but once again there was another knock. I sighed loudly and looked up and I was once again very surprised to see Brooke standing there.
"Umm hi?" I said unsurely.
She just stood there with her hands in her pockets of her jeans. She was wearing a Ravens t-shirt and jeans but to me she still looked beautiful.
Where do we go?
I don't even know,
"Hey." She said in a raspy voice that I loved.
We stood there in silence for a minute just staring at each other. We were probably both thinking when we were going to start fighting, but I really wasn't in the mood to fight right now.
"I'm sorry." I said out of the blue.
She looked surprised so I continued.
"About yesterday at school I'm sorry about what I said to you…I didn't mean it." I said the last part quietly. I'm not even sure if she heard me.
My strange old face,
And I'm thinking about those days,
And I'm thinking about those days.
She nodded and walked a little closer. I noticed that she was biting her lip. I wondered if that was her nervous habit because I got the strong urge to rake my fingers through my hair right now, but I'm all bandaged up and my arms were sore.
"So are you okay?" She asked quietly looking at all of my cuts and stitches. I nodded and said in my rehearsed attitude, "I'm fine and I can't wait to get out of here." There was nothing but emptiness as I spoke and I wondered if she noticed it. I think she did by the way she was looking at me. Just like she was yesterday trying to figure out why I was the way I was. I couldn't let her do that so I had to make her leave.
I wake up; it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
"So they are going to come in pretty soon and get me because I have to get x-rays taken to make sure nothing is broken…" I trailed off hoping she would get the hint. She did and she just nodded again.
"That's fine I'll leave you alone." She said as she walked a little bit closer to me and bent down low enough to kiss me on the cheek. As soon as her soft lips left my cheek it was cold. She pulled away and I turned my head so we were only a few inches apart. I know I looked horrible right then but it didn't matter. Once again I was stuck like yesterday. Our eyes locked and I could feel the heat.
She didn't move either and I could feel her breaths on my cheek. I got the strongest urge to just kiss her right then, which is so unusual since I have never had that urge before. The past didn't matter now though only the present and in this present Brooke Davis and I were just moments away from maybe kissing. I didn't know what to think. My heart started beating faster. But it doing that also made the cold emptiness ache. I ignored it though she was more important.
I was fighting
but I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
The tension was building and I hadn't let out a single breath since she kissed my cheek. I hadn't felt like that since that day at her house so long ago. I wanted to feel her lips against mine again I wanted to run my fingers through her hair and I wanted to-.
My thoughts were interrupted when the nurse walked into the room, but she stopped when she saw Brooke and me.
"Oh I'm sorry Mr. Scott I was coming to see if you were awake for your x-ray I can just come back later." She said a little embarrassed. She had nothing to be embarrassed about nothing had happened yet.
"No it's fine I was just leaving." Brooke said looking away from me to her and walking toward the door. I was still too shocked to even comprehend what was going on.
Before she walked out past the nurse she said, "Get well soon Nathan." And then she walked out.
I looked at the nurse and she was smirking at me like she caught us making out or something.
"You have a very pretty girlfriend there did you see what she told me to give you?" She asked pointing to the envelope I had opened earlier.
"Yeah I got it." I said still in awe. I didn't even pick up on the girlfriend comment at first, but then I did and I smiled again. So far this day had been all right.
"Are you ready for your x-rays Mr. Scott they're ready when you are." She said kindly.
Guess I'm not the fighting kind.
"I'm ready and call me Nathan." I said to her. I didn't like all the formal names.
"Okay Nathan do you need help?" She asked. I shook my head no.
I slowly got out of bed and I was silently thanking god that this pain medication was so strong right now and I couldn't feel my injuries. I started walked towards the door when she walked in front of me and pulled into the room a wheel chair.
I looked at her like she was crazy. "I'm sorry Nathan it's hospital policy." She said sympathetically.
I sighed. "Fine just don't let anyone see me." I said dejectedly and eased myself down into the chair.
Wouldn't mind it
if you were by my side
The x-rays weren't bad. I couldn't even concentrate on what he was saying to me. I couldn't stop thinking about Brooke. What was that? I think we almost kissed, but neither one of us moved so we might not have. I was so confused. I had just broken up with my girlfriend who was in love with my brother who I just became friends with and now I almost kiss my ex girl friends best friend all in the same day? I had to figure some stuff out.
I was wheeled back into my room and my blood froze for a second when I saw my dad was in there waiting for me. I quickly got out of the wheelchair and stood up. The nurse looked at me worried and confused but didn't say anything. The doctor came in a second later.
"Hello Mr. Scott how are we feeling today?" He asked me.
My eyes caught my dad's and he had the same evil glare that he had yesterday. I looked back at the doctor and said, "I'm fine today." My dad didn't look happy soI continued. "I'm feeling great." I said exactly howI practiced.
He looked unsure and pushed, "Are you sure because you can stay a few more nights so we can make sure that everything is okay." I could tell he didn't like Dan and he wanted me to stay since I obviously wasn't in any condition to leave, but what Dan wants Dan gets.
But you're long gone;
yeah you're long gone now.
"I want to go home and I feel 100 percent. I'm perfectly fine." I said lying through my teeth. My voice of course void of any and all emotion. Just the cold emptiness that never went away.
"Alright if your sure." He said looking at my dad and back to me.
"I'm sure." I said convincingly.
"Okay well your father already signed the release papers so you can get dressed and get out of here." He said a little uneasy but he walked out with the nurse behind him.
I turned toward Dan. "Good job Nathan now hurry up and get dressed so we can go home. We missed practice last night and I think that I need to teach you a few things before the game tonight." He said so slick I wanted to strangle him.
"Okay dad I'll be right out." I said monotone. He just walked past me and out the door glaring the whole way. I quickly got dressed and the nurse gave me all of my medicines that I would need for the next few weeks during my 'recovery'. Basically it will be as if nothing ever happened. All of my friends left to go to school and I was excused today and went home with Dan.
The doctors prediction were right I had 3 broken ribs and I had to keep my stitches in for 2 weeks before going back to the hospital and getting them removed. As for my bruises and not as serious cuts those would just scar and this would just turn into another bad memory or another bad dream. Just like all the rest.
I wake up; it's a bad dream.
Okay so I really hope that you liked it!! The song is 'A Bad Dream' by Keane. Please review it helps more than you know thanks so much!!
