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Chap. 8
Bad Dreams and Cocktail Dresses
The smell of country honey suckle assaulted my senses. I opened my eyes and I was in the bed of an old truck, overgrown with honey suckle. My heart began to pound, I was home. The Kentucky sky was beautiful above me. I jumped up and ran across the field. I smelled him. He wasn't far from me. My legs couldn't carry me fast enough. The oak and sugar maple trees zoomed past me as his house came into view. "Bo!" I hollered as I got closer to his shed, where I smelt and heard him working. "Bo!" When I slowed and through the double doors open, he peeked up at me from under a car hood. "Bo! I'm home!" I said jubilant, but he did not seem at all happy to see me. His arms tightened, his jaw clenched. He only did that when he was upset.
I stood there, growing nervous and afraid. Not of him, of what he was about to say. "Home? Max this isn't your home anymore. You found someone else. You haven't called." He got quiet as tears brimmed and burned my eyes. "Bo, I'm sorry! I have been busy. Life's been weird for me lately." He laughed. "Sure, you love your new life, new friends, new boyfriend!" He gritted his teeth as he almost hissed that last word. I felt sick suddenly. I was distraught. "Bo, please don't feel like that..." He cut me off by yelling. "I LOVE YOU MAXI! God! I miss you everyday! I miss your laugh, I miss your smile! Hell I even miss you wrecking my damn car!" Now he was in front of he holding me close to him. He smelt the same. The delicious cheap cologne, hard work, car grease. He put his forehead against mine like he used to do, giving me the prep talk I needed to race after my accident.
"But, your gone now. Your different. Your not my Maxi anymore." He began to back away from me. "No. Come back Bo..." I was crying so hard I could barely speak. "I love you too, Bo...please!" He suddenly vaporized. I fell to the ground and that familiar heat spread through me as I ran on my paws. Smelling, and searching. I stopped and started to howl. His brown eyes full of sadness and anger filled my mind. I was lost in a haze, and when I jumped up from sleep, I still was. I wasn't in Kentucky. I was in Edward's bedroom. He was next to me, talking. I couldn't hear him. I was suddenly angry. I hated myself. I felt like I had abandoned my friends and family...abandoned Bo. I stood and my heart pounded heavy in my chest, it sounded like a war drum.
Now the pair of honey eyes looked panicked, then I felt cold arms around me. I growled and pushed him away. I faintly heard him hit his wall and he yelled for Emmet. But the whole family came within seconds. I can't remember what happened next, one minuet I'm growling and inching backwards, next minuet I'm running through the woods. I must have ran a very long time, cause when I slowed down the Sun was rising. My paws were not sore, neither was my body. I was just so upset I couldn't stop. I'm afraid that if I stop the pain will catch up with me. But after a few hours, I did slow down to drink from a stream. I was somewhere strange, unfamiliar. Finally I stopped and laid down. What was I thinking? I never act like that, well I never act that impulsively. And Edward, oh my god! He's going to hate me!
So after a few moments rest, I stood back up and began to follow my scent back. Withing seconds I was running. An hour into trailing myself, there was a much larger russet colored wolf following my trail too. He stopped when he saw me and rolled his eyes. I whined as I approached him. He held firm for a moment, I knew he was upset. I hung my head at his feet, apologizing. Within seconds he nudged me with his nose and let out quiet bark. I rose and followed him. When ran for hours, then everything started to smell familiar. Then shortly after that, we were in La Push. A large black wolf was waiting for us, along with a almost orange brown smaller wolf, and a average sized gray. Sam started growling at me, along with the gray. I smelled and it was Leah, and the smaller, Seth. I began to whine, trying to communicate I was sorry. He stood over me and once again I fell to the ground, surrendering. He growled, then something weird happened. I could hear him in my mind.
How dare she go wondering off like that! She worried us all! Max got the Cullen's in a panicked state, Billy and Chester are worried sick! She isn't to come here again! I mean it. I refuse to train her! She's not responsible enough to be apart of this pack.
I looked at him strangely. Then I heard Jacob's voice.
Take it easy Sam! You wouldn't allow her to be apart of this pack so she can do whatever she wants to...
Now they both looked at me accusingly. I began backing up.
Can you hear us?
I nodded my head. Sam began growling and cursing. Then Jacob barked a laugh,
Isn't that just hilarious, I guess you just made her apart of the pack without even knowing it. So I guess we'll have to keep her around now huh?
You don't sound so upset Jake! Leah thought and he turned on her.
Cause I'm not.
She growled and took off walking, Seth stuck behind.
Well I'm not either, I like you too Max. I heard Seth add and I nodded towards him
Well, I will leave and won't come back if thats what you truly want Sam, but I don't know what happened to me. I'd had a bad dream and then woke up in a furious fit. I think I even attacked Edward. I guess I blacked out cause next thing I knew I was running.
Sam sat on his haunched and a memory went briefly through my mind of a black wolf attacking some woman. As quickly as it came it was gone. It wasn't one of mine. Sam sighed.
No, you can stay in the pack. I'm sorry Max for going off. I guess I forgot about somethings.
It's okay, Sam. I'm sorry I worried you guys.
The large black wolf nodded and took off, Seth in tow. It was quiet in my mind before Jacob sauntered over towards me.
Well, that went better. You okay?
I let my dream go through my mind and he listened carefully.
Ah, I see. You went ape-shit on him didn't you? Ha ha.
It's not funny Jacob! I could have hurt him!
Psst! He's a vampire, you aren't going to hurt him.
You know what I mean.
After awhile, he took me back to the boarder, we were still in wolf form. He had explained to me how they were asked to stay where they were and the pack would find me. So I ran back. I avoided the roads and cut through the woods. I kept thinking about if they never wanted to see me again I wouldn't blame them. Before I reached the lawn, the fur around my eyes and face was wet from me crying. I heard Carlisle tell everyone to be quiet, he thought he'd heard something, then Edward spoke up, She's back. Rosalie hissed. "Make her go back to her pack! She doesn't belong here. I think that or she should go back to her house." I stopped in my tracks. She's right. I don't belong here. I'm too dangerous around Edward. "No!" He yelled as my ears perked and the front door burst open and he came striding outside, looking for me.
I heard Esme arguing with Rosalie but my attention adverted to Edward who was quickly advancing..."Max!" He sighed with relief as I stepped out onto the cut grass and he wrapped his arms around my neck and buried his face in my fur. "Are you okay?" Yes. He held me tightly and finally looked me in the eyes. "I was so worried. You just jumped up and took off." I'm sorry Edward. I had a bad dream. Jacob told me sometimes people new to the werewolf thing sometimes let their emotions get the best of em. His face shown no sadness or anger, he just hugged me again. "I don't care. Don't listen to Rose, she's just looking for excuses." I nodded my head and laid my head against between his chest, But she's right. I need to go home. I miss my Dad, and its not right staying here. He huffed up. "I want you here, though."
I barked at him. I know, I want to be here too, but I need to go home. I strained the words want and need. He looked sad, but he understood. "Okay, I'll take you to your Dad's tonight. But leave the stuff here Alice got you, for when you come over on the weekends okay?" I laughed in my head. You sound like your talking about having part time custody of me or something. He smiled and patted my head. "Now don't get me wrong, your adorable like this. Enchanting even, with your white fur and puppy softness, but I can't kiss a snout!" I whined and barked at him. I licked his face, and he rolled his eyes and stood. Just for jokes, he patted the side of his leg and whistled. "Come on girl." I growled at him and nipped his hand. Ha ha. He escorted me inside and everyone stopped.
Emmet's eyes grew huge and Rose hissed, and left the room. They all looked at me like they couldn't believe it. Alice chirped. "Max?" I pranced over towards her and Jasper and licked her hand, before they began scratching my ears. "Wow, your so pretty. Can I hire you to be my lap dog? Or maybe drive around with me?" I laughed and told Edward to tell her I'll think about it. Alice beamed and I sauntered over to Emmet, Carlisle and Esme. Emmet eyes me suspiciously and crouched down to look me in the eyes. "Aww you's a puppy." I growled at him but then licked him on the cheek. He laughed an d stood, then Carlisle and Esme too turns petting my head. "My dear, you are just as beautiful as a wolf as you are human." Edward laughed.
"She would be blushing if she could Esme." After short conversation I went upstairs to phase back and shower. When I was back human, and clean, I dressed and met them back downstairs. They all looked relieved in a way to see me normal. "Hey guys." I said and they all smiled, except for Rosalie. "Well, as much as I love it here, I need to be with my dad." Carlisle and Esme nodded. "Of course. We all understand. Edward had informed us your going home tonight.?" I shrugged and took Edward's hand. "Yeah. I'll give yall a break." Carlisle hugged me and kissed my forehead. "Remember, you are part of this family now. Come back anytime, any hour. Just walk in." I nodded and he handed me a key. "Thanks Carlisle." Esme kissed my cheeks and Alice waved to me.
After Edward had dropped me off, my father greeted me with a huge hug. We caught up, then Papaw came over to celebrate my 'well being'. When Dad had left for the bathroom, I looked at Papaw and whispered. "Are we ever going to tell Dad?" He shrugged. "Eventually, he's better off not knowing. But I heard your a white wolf! So rare! Its said to be a gift from our ancestors to be white." I smiled and he nudged my shoulder. "I also heard you were involved with one of Carlisle's sons." I gulped, wondering what to say. Was Papaw prejudice like the rest of the Quileute people? But honesty was what he wanted. I nodded and dug my fork into my mac n cheese. "Yeah, I'm with Edward. He's really a nice guy." Papaw nodded, still serious. "Yes he is, he's called me every other day to update me on your progress." I was shocked. "R-really?"
He nodded. "He never spoke of your relationship, but I figured there was something there, the way he said your name and would say how proud he was of you." I blushed, then Dad came back. He was oblivious! Thats how the next few weeks went by. Papaw and me talking secretly about my adventures with the pack, Edward sneaking into my room almost every night to see me. School was two days from being over and somehow I had strait A's. I figured Edward had something to do with that. Sunday's the pack rested and I got the chance to hang with Dad and work on some cars. We were okay, life was okay. I couldn't get the guts to call Bo though. I wanted to so bad, but I was with Edward. I loved Edward already. I haven't told him, but I was sure he knew.
Right now I was burning up under a car rack while Dad was showing me how to change out a wheel barring. I wiped the sweat off my forehead and then wiped my hands on my old torn up and greasy work pants. I groaned as he asked me to remove it, but like an angel out of heaven, I heard the engine of a familiar Volvo. I smiled and Dad rolled his eyes. "Go on, sweetie." I kissed his cheek, then ran my hand through my hair. I flinched when I felt the black car grease smear into my hair. Damn it! I looked at myself quickly. I was covered in the black stuff. I looked horrid! My steel toed boots, work pants ripped and almost black, my wife-beater smeared and clinging to me, my arms glistening with oil and sweat...and I'm sure my face looked about the same. When I stopped to get a drink of my water, Edward came around the corner and smiled.
"Hey you." He said as he gave me a quick peck on the lips. "Hey Edward. Out and about?" He winked. "Yes, I had to leave so I could see this wild beast thats been stalking the woods. Vicious from what I've heard." He winked at me and I rolled my eyes, giggling. Thats horrible Edward! I stuck my toung out at him and he smiled. "Well, actually I stopped by to tell you that We're all going to Seattle tonight for a ballet. This small company is going to be at one of the local theaters and Esme wants to go as a family. And you know, its not a family affair unless your with us." He touched my face and gently cupped my chin and kissed my forehead. "Well...But Dad.." I motioned back towards Dad, but he answered for me. "She'll go, what time?" I smiled. "Well, Mr. Brogan I was hoping she could come back to the house with me. My sister Alice is dieing to dress her for tonights events." I flinched. Oh great, I get to be the Dress Up Barbie. Edward chuckled at my thoughts and hugged me.
Dad came over and looked at us speculatively. He hasn't discussed with me about his opinions on mine and Edward's relationship, but I didn't think it bothered him. Edward went a little rigid, but continued to seem okay. "Go ahead. But be back before too late." I nodded. "Thanks Daddy. I'm gonna leave Trans here so..." He nodded and took a gulp of water. "Have fun sweetie." We waved back at Dad as we piled into his Volvo and took off. Edward held my hand, but was quiet. It worried me. "Whats wrong?" He shrugged. "Nothing important. Just something your Dad was thinking about." Which was?
He glanced over at me. "It was about Bo." My body locked up. My eyes were glued to his face. "What? What about him?" He shrugged. "He was just thinking about how me and him are so opposite. He always thought you would end up with someone like him. Well, with him honestly."
I was too afraid to say anything, thousands of thoughts and emotions were flying through my head. But they all settled back to the most important thought and feeling. I had Edward and I was happy. With this I relaxed, and so did he. "Are you sure your happy with me?" I squeezed his hand and nodded. "Happiest I have ever been. Sure I miss my old life. But I'm not normal. I could never go back to my life before. So, then here you are. Not normal too, so we kind of just go together I think. Yin and yang." He looked over at me and kissed my hand that he held. "I agree." So after that we sat in comfortable silence until we pulled into the Cullen's. We were walking up the steps, when I sighed. My second home, but then again I was home wherever Edward was. Out of no where he pulls me to him and kisses me. It wasn't like the other kisses. It was as if he was trying to tell me something. I smiled into his lips and he pulled away, looking me dead in the eyes. "I love you Maxi."
His low whisper hit me, then something happened. I felt like I had just been hit by a Mack truck. My heart sped up. My being thrived around him. I felt like I was tied to him in every way possible. He was my life. Edward Cullen had my heart, even though his didn't beat. I felt connected to him, as if millions of invisible threads bound us. I felt tears well up in my eyes as I stared into his. I knew he knew what was happening to me. He looked as if he could, he would cry..too. We just stood there. It took minuets before I could move or speak. Whatever was happening to me, it felt like the strongest type of magic. If magic was real. It had to be though, if I was able to feel like this. I tried to speak, but it came out in a hush. "I love you too." He hugged me close and kissed me again. Just like before. But this felt new. Like the first time he smiled at me. My stomach fluttered. Deep down, I knew it would always feel like this.
We walked into the house, hand in hand. Everyone was busy doing there own thing, but I knew they were pretending they didn't hear the quiet exchange outside. I didn't care though. I wanted everyone to know how much I loved the man holding my hand. He squeezed it and said. "Me too." Eventually I had to let him go cause Alice snatched me up and rushed me off to the bathroom. After an hour and a half, she had me standing in the mirror...shocked. Alice had put me in this black cocktail dress that came down to right above my knee. It had a silver band that came around under my bust. It was gorgeous with my paler skin. The black material was ruffled...and just perfect. My dark hair was put back partially and curled. She donned my lips with rouge and lined my eyes. Mascara was simple. I looked amazing.
She helped me into a pair of black stilettos and took one last glance at me. "You look gorgeous. Edward isn't going to know what to say. I smiled and was happy that he'd get to see me like this. Alice hurried and got herself ready, slipping into this long light blue/green dress that had glittery straps that criss crossed around the mid section. Her short pixie hair looked adorable. She looked perfect. Her flawless pale skin suddenly made me self conscience about my ugly scars on my left arm. She noticed my uneasiness and pouted. "Do you think this looks bad on me?" "Oh no! You look stunning, its just I'm worried about my scars." I gestured to my scar and she snorted. "Don't worry about it, you look gorgeous. Rose will be jealous. She's usually the only one in this house who looks that amazing!"
I blushed and waited for her to finish her makeup, then we both exited the huge bathroom. She wrapped her arm around mine and I had to take a calming breath before we ascended the steps. Edward and the rest of the family was waiting. The moment our heels hit the top stair, everyone turned. My heart was going so fast I'm sure they all heard it. Alice squeezed my hand. I couldn't help but smile. They all looked at me, not Alice. Carlisle grinned and Esme squeezed him and excitedly bounced up n down slightly. Rose narrowed her eyes for a second, but couldn't help the small smile that crossed her red lips. Emmet's mouth was wide open, shocked. Jasper smiled proudly at Alice then at me. Then there was Edward. He was stock still. Hey you, do I look okay? I thought out to him and the only thing he could do was nodded and stare. Jasper gently nudged him with his elbow and whispered something I couldn't understand.
With a few more steps to go, Jasper took Alice's hand, and Edward took mine. "You look..." Emmet interrupted him. "Absolutely edible." I looked up and his eyes were glued to me. Rose smacked him behind the head and he looked apologetic. "I'm sorry but, hun are you blind?" Rose rolled her eyes and did something I wasn't expecting. She smiled at me and agreed. "Yes, you do look divine Maxi." I smiled back and returned the favor. She did look stunning in her red floor length gown. But Edwards hands brought me back to him. He was behind me rubbing his hands up and down my arms and shoulders. He leaned down to speak into my ear. "Your the prettiest woman I have ever seen. I can't believe how lucky I am." He kissed the spot below my ear and it sent tingles all over my body. Jasper cleared his throat and Edward laughed. Then we all left. Every couple took a different car. We took the Lotus Exige. It was gorgeous, and fast! Carlise and Esme took the Guardian. Emmet and Rose took the Ferrari Enzo, and Alice and Jasper took the 911 Porsche.
But the night was magical. We all sat together in the rafters and watched the love story unfold on stage. At one point I had cried, and Edward held me close to his side. I felt like a movie star which is kind of funny. They were so good to me. We got stares galore. People pointed and asked one another if we were famous or something. I checked the clock in the car after the ballet. It was only 9:30. Hmm. "What are you thinking in that interesting head of yours Max?" Edward asked and I smiled. "Well, it's only 9:30..." He caught on and smiled. "Still early." I nodded. He smirked and turned the opposite way for everyone else. "I agree." He drove us to a club, called Secret. I thought it was ironic. He opened the door and people were gawking at us. He put his arm around my waist. We had to be an eyesight. Him in his tux, then me in my dress. I could hear the music pumping from the outside. Bring it on!
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