Cat's POV
"So she's still alive…" He says softly.
"Yea Kyle… She is…" I explain.
"I knew it. I thought I saw her… A couple weeks ago… I thought I was going insane. That's why I agreed to come down. Just to get me away from everything. Get a little family time in with the only family I have left. I didn't think it was real… that why I didn't say anything…"
"I know… it's ok… I just can't believe Robbie didn't tell us… I loved him."
"You still do, Cat. Those feelings are never going to change. I saw you kiss him the other day. You were right in front of me. I've never seen something so passionate. I've never see someone so in love…"
"I've never loved someone so much. With all of my other boyfriends, I never had what I did with Robbie. That spark. Those butterflies. The passion. He was my prince charming and I was Cinderella. For once in my life I felt perfect. I know it sound stupid but when I was with him I was the princess. I felt loved, I felt perfect. More than I had with family and friends. No offence but I've never been that happy."
"Does he really mean the much to you?" Kyle asks looking at me.
"He's the love of my life… He's my best friend… Why did I let him go? Why did I let him walk away? Why did I just let him stand there in the rain? He obviously was waiting for me to come running back. I wanted to. So badly but I kept telling myself NO! Why am I so stupid!?" I ask Kyle.
"You're not stupid! He hurt you. He kept something important from you. Honestly I understand why he did it but I also do understand why you did what you did. Sometimes it takes a little bit of time to understand, to realize, what they REALLY did. He was protecting you. He was risking probably the best thing in his life, you and him, to make sure you were safe. If lying was the only option he saw, then I guess he had to do it."
"He was my best friend…" I start to break down again but Kyle stops me. He wipes the tear falling down my cheek with a tissue.
"What's your definition of a 'best friend'?" he asks me.
"They are your shoulder to cry on. They watch your back and protect you. They make you smile even when you're mad at them. They'd do anything for you. It's someone who would answer your call at 3 in the morning because you needed them, or because you just wanted to talk. The person you can have crazy conversations with… you know texting back and forth random animal sounds… Someone you can trust and always rely on…" The entire time I'm explaining it, he's smiling. I get quiet when I understand what he's saying.
"Notice how the entire time you were explaining that, you were smiling… Who were you thinking about Cat? Even after all of this, you can't help but smile at the thought of him. Honestly I don't think anything can separate you two. You mean too much to him and he means too much to you… You shouldn't let this get between you. Stupid things have ruined too many of my relationships with people. I'm not going to let that happen to you. Go get you're man back…" He says.
"One problem… I don't have a license or a car…" Kyle smiles knowing I've perked up a bit because my sense of humor is back. He gets up off the couch with me and we both run out in the rain to his car.
I get in and turn on the radio. Gravity by Sara Bareilles comes on. I turn it up because both me and Kyle lover her. We used to listen to this song with my mom. She said that this song and the necklace my dad gave her reminded her of him. The whole moon and gravity thing. I start to sing the line before the chorus.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
"I miss mom…" I say quietly while the last verse is playing. The memories of us were playing out like a movie in my eyes. I can see the time me, Kyle and mom went down to San Francisco. And the time we went to New Jersey to visit my Aunt Carey. We went to the Sea Side boardwalk and got ice cream and pizza. Whenever we were with mom, there wasn't a time we were having fun or laughing.
"I do too." Kyle says back. That was all that was said until we pulled up to Robbie's house. The car was silent, everything but the radio. Kyle looks over at me and gives me a hug. "Remember what I said Cat. You can't help but smile when you think about him."
With that I get out of the car and run up to his front door. I knock continuously until he comes and opens the door.
I'm sitting there soaking wet at his front door. He stares at me and I stare back. I didn't even think of what I was going to say. I guess this is the moment were you just have to come up with something on the spot.
"I take it back… I'm not sorry Cat. I'm not sorry that I love you more than anything else in this world. I'm not sorry that I would lie to you to protect you. I'm not sorry that I had to lie rather than worrying that you may die tomorrow. That I may have to sit here knowing it's my fault. I'm not sorry that I am that selfish. There is no apology in this world that encompasses all the reasons I'm not right for you. I am not willing and I will never be willing to watch you slip away from me. It's not going to happen. So if lying is the only this that keeps you safe… then I am not sorry that I have to lose you." He says loudly making his point.
"Fine. I'm not sorry either…I'm not sorry that I met you… I'm not sorry that knowing you has made me question myself and everything else… I'm not sorry that I've yelled at you… I'm not sorry that I've been completely honest with you… I'm not sorry that I come crawling back to you every single time… I'm not sorry that I can't help but smile when I think about you… You have made some really bad choices and of all the choices I have this is probably be the worst one but I'm not sorry that I have fallen head over heels in love with you…" I say strongly back making my point too.
I breathe out slightly and walk up to him. I plant a hard kiss on his lips. I open my mouth slightly letting in his tough. My hands run through his hair and my arms snake around his neck. He pulls me close to him and deepens the kiss. Finally we pull apart and out foreheads rest on each others.
I pull back and turn around. I walk towards Kyle's car when Robbie shouts out, "We'll go and find her in the morning." I turn back to him and smile. Then I get back in the car and give Kyle a big hug.
"Thank you…" I say to him.
I kind of took the Damon and Elena scene from The Vampire Diaries and changed it around for that Cabbie scene in the beginning.
The "texting back and forth random animal sounds" should be familiar to someone reading this. I want some replies in your reviews, what's your definition of a true friend?
