Shyann sat outside the house looking off into the beautiful morning sun. The stars illuminated the porch enough to see around her. She was sitting on the first step down and her sleeves were pulled over her hands with tears soaking them both. She sniffed the tears away and watched as the car passed by. She took a raged breath and smiled softly thinking about Johnathan to calm her down. She used to watch his videos when she'd cry about her father, this time how ever, she had stayed in his house and laid on his shoulder. Not to mention she had kissed him and almost did things they both would regret. She wondered if being here was a bad idea that morning but when Evan pushed her, memories that scared her brain and heart flashed before her and caused her to run away. She was always afraid of her father and being around Johnathan made her feel better. However, with Evan making a point to leave, Shyann didn't want to disappoint him. Johnathan had not been making videos and neither did Nogla or Lui. Moo and Cartoons along with Wildcat must have been missing them. She sniffed the last bit of tears and looked at the sky once again seeing an airplane and se smiled.

She jumped when she heard the door behind her shut. She did not even hear it open. Nogla sat down to her left and looked where she once was. "I see it, its a nice one." He said as she questioned him with a single expression and he chuckled. "the airplane? I went on a lot of them with my Mother (which sounded like Moder,) along with my twin brother and sister." He smiled and she smiled back. "Wow, triplets, sound hectic." She smiled and he nodded and rubbed his short beard a moment. "I guess so, but I wouldn't trade it for the world. I was always so happy to be with them, although some times were tough." He paused, "But you know one thing?" He said his Irish accent so unusual but so relaxing to hear , like Delirious's. "What is that Nogla?" She asked and he turned and sighed. "Oh, you can call me David." He said softly and she smiled nodding. "Okay, David. What's the one thing?" He took her hand and held it close to him. "It's that you make Johnathan the happiest man alive. He wants you to be by his side. That's when he is the strongest, and when your gone he's nothing. He may seem all high and mighty, but deep down he needs a stronger person to fall back on and to have and to hold." She blushed and looked at their hands. "A You tuber and a secret poet." David chuckled and let her hands gracefully fall into her lap. "You are just like'em too." She looked up in a small panic. "Like who?" She asked instantly thinking of her father. He looked at her a little odd but answered back quickly not wanting to somehow frighten her with another answer. "Delirious." She sighed and smiled. "Thank you, David, you've made me feel better. I'm sorry I ran off."

David chuckled and put his hand on her shoulder. "Nah, don't be upset. I know you watch our videos. So you know I run away a lot during stuff." She smiled and nodded. "You do. A lot." She laughed and took a breath. "I need to talk to John, I ran off and left him. My PTSD will never get better." She sighed and he shrugged. "I don't know what your going through." He said his voice she loved so much, not as much as John's, but close. "I know Johnathan is always gonna be there for you." He stood and messed her hair up as he ran his fingers across it. "Ill see if he wants to come out here. Im sorry about Evan. I dont know what his deal is. He doesnt drink a lot and when he does he tells someone..." He went in with his pondered look leaving her alone.

Johnathan sat on the couch adjacent from Evan. He stared at him awkwardly thinking of what he had told him before passing out. He jumped a little when he noticed that Nogla had came in. When did he leave? He wondered as he sighed slouching deeper into the couch. "Nogla, what do I do man?" He asked so drastic. "I cant loose them both!" He said resting his hand in his right hand that was resting on the couch arm. "I'm so lost." Nogla looked to Lui who tossed his hands up shrugging. "I don't know what to tell you." Nogla said sitting next to Johnathan on the couch. "I'm sorry Johnathan, but you know, talking to Shy would be a big help." He said as Johnathan shook his head. "No, that wont help." He said sighing and putting both hands on his face and curled into ball upset. "John, look. Evan is mad that your happy. He cant be the one to make you happy anymore. Johnathan only nodded never removing his hands.

Nogla just patted his friends shoulder and stood to join Lui who was blushing, probably thinking about Cattrenia. Nogla sighed and began to rage. "What the f*ck (Sounding like fOck) going on with us!" He said throwing his hands up in the air and He slammed them on the counter and Johnathan smiled thinking of them gaming. Now that he thought about it, since he and Shy met at the Gamer meet and greet he hasn't uploaded. Its the longest hes even not uploaded. He sighed and scratched his head. Evan snorted in his dream and Johnathan sighed. Nogla had lost it and Lui was caught up in her mom that things were unraveling... Was this the end of their YouTube careers? He remembered when they were laying GTA one night they talked about never letting a girl interfere with the bromance (A bromance is close but nonsexual relationship between two men... In case you didn't know...back to the story!) they all shared. He thought it was funny at once, but then again, Evan was the one to say it and it made Delirious shiver at the thought. Evan liked HIM. He couldn't think straight. He was scared his friendship was over and everyone would blame him. He rolled his eyes and laid back and closed his eyes.

"You're right." He finally said slapping his lap causing the two men in the kitchen to instantly look at him. "What do you mean John?" Lui said calmly as Cattrenia came into the Living room. "What's wrong?" Johnathan sighed and pointed to the door and she only nodded understanding where her daughter was. She hurried out the door and Johnathan continued. "We aren't ourselves. Evan has a point, bromance." The boys kinda shivered at the thought and Johnathan rolled his eyes. "Not that, dip shits," He said sounding disappointed and angry. "We stick together and let no one interfere. Shyann and Cattrenia are in the way." It pained him to say. Nogla looked at him and walked to him. "Dude, she means the world to you, how can you throw her out for a group of guys who are always gonna be here for you either way?" He asked defending Shy. Lui stepped in. "They didn't do nothing wrong, they won the contest and youre just scared." Johnathan looked at him. "I ain't scared!" Johnathan said standing up and getting up in Lui's face. "Oh, hell yeah you are!" He yelled back and got closer.

Shyann opened the door at the worst time. When she cracked the door to come in to talk to Johnathan abut her staying and working it out, she felt her heart crushed by his words. "I don't need ANYONE Lui, I don't need you guys bossing me around. I don't need anyone here and I don't need to depend on a woman. I don't NEED Shy!" Lui looked at her in the eyes. Pain filling not only her but the two guys. Shy rushed past them bumping against Johnathans shoulder roughly and Nogla looked at him. Now ya done it John, remember who else said HE didn't NEED her?" Johnathans eyes widened. "Oh God, I didn't mean-" "Shut up man you said it. You don't need anyone. You can stay with Evan and we are leaving." Lui walked back to get his bags leaving Nogla standing there as he walked into the kitchen with Delirious. His heart crushed too. "Ya know, I was the happiest here with you guys. I felt like I was living with my mother and brother and sister again. A family." He picked up his sunglasses off the floor and slid them on top of his head. "But, now I feel like my family is just moving away. Like yours did, leaving you alone and scared." He said hurting Johnathan again. "Shut up man." He whispered already feeling like complete shit. Nogla sighed angrily. "I will, and I'm sorry," Johnathan looked at him confused and Nogla continued. "Sorry for being your friend." He said in his Irish slang and he went after Lui to get his things.

Johnathan paced back and forth. "Shy!" He said running through the house to his room where they kept their things. Johnathan opened the door to find it empty. He looked at lui who was standing there zipping his bag. "Lui-" Lui held his middle finger up and slugged on the backpack and turned on his heels following Nogla out the door. "Guys!" He said but they ignored him. "I need to find her, and tell her I'm sorry!" He said and Nogla stopped walking. "Dude, you lost her once, you'd thank you woldnt want to loose something so precious. I know I woulnt want to loose a girl like her." He said almost sympathetically as he shrugged. We'll be posting soon" He shut went to the door and stopped again. "I hope it was worth it, to loose Lui, Cattrenia, me and" He smiled a bit and looked at Evan. "Shy for Evan and an empty house." He slammed the door leaving Evan and Johnathan alone.

Johnathan began to tear up and he took his left hand and smashed the wall, although this time around, he made a hole. His hand still in the wall, he began to cry his eyes out. He dropped to the ground and cried. He ruined everything with a damned temper and defending what he was so scared of loosing. He loved Shyann and his friends. But by trying to protecting himself from pain, ended with causing more. He wiped his eyes and cried more thinking of the hurt n her chest. First Evan scared her, then he had to shoved the 'daddy' stake further into her chest. He was an idiot. He remembered them talking on the beach and she was fully opened with him like he was, minus some things. He remembered the way her hair blew in the breeze and how she'd brush it back and he ached to do it for her...

-FLASHBACK-

WARNING...This may be very bad. It's about her father and it may catch a few heart strings. I don't know if its a crying type, In my eyes its very painful, but to others it may not be at all. Depends on the reader. But I'm just letting you know its a pretty sad. And I'm sorry that it is but it is what it is as they say. This is set before the 'almost' kiss on the doc. Sorry I'm interrupting! Onto the story!]

Shyann walked barefoot in the sand beside Delirious as he listened to her story about her father. "See, my dad was sexist." She said looking down as if ashamed. "When he found out I was a girl when I was born, he left the hospital and disappeared for a while telling my mom he didn't want me. I grew up about three when he decided. If I can't have a boy, I'll make her into one somehow. So I was taught how to fish and like NASCAR and watch Dragon Ball Z." She giggled tears in her eyes a the memories. "That was the funniest times with him you know," She smiled and he nodded. "We'd watch the episodes over and over, and then we'd play with the dolls. Not action figures... He had dolls." She giggled and it made Delirious smile. "I see." He said listening closely. "Yeah. Then he started falling asleep and not playing with me. He was tired from all the girls he'd stay with." She said and suddenly she changed.

Anger took over her as the memories all flooded back. "He stopped playing with me and stopped acting like I was his kid. He dissed me and told me all I did was wrong. He hated me, I know he did. I wasn't his precious baby boy and my mom was there to pick me up when I fell." A tears went down her cheek as she continued. "But I still kept my chin up, my heart open to him. He always torn it up, but she kept gluing me back and I kept going again and again. But my hair short, like a boy. Stayed a tomboy for him., video games and all, cause he said that's what my son would do." She stopped walking and her chest hurt and Johnathan knew. "I'm sorry. She shook her head. That's not even the sad thing." She sighed and he looked at her painfully as if he was fearful to hear more. "When I was 15, he borderline abused me. I was finally done. He married a girl who could've been my older sister, got her pregnant had a son and he hasn't talked to me since. That was years ago." She crossed her arms over her chest and tears rolled down and Johnathan held her in his arms. "Don't worry about him any more. I'll be your Dragon Ball Z loving, video gaming friend." She smiled and he looked into her eyes. "And Ill never say anything like he did to ever hurt you."

Delirious cried thinking about his words and what he had yelled at Lui. He wished hed taken them back. He couldn't live without Her. Nogla was right, he was scared. Now he was all alone again and he was scared again. he didn't know how to find her again. He knew now she lived in TN but her had no clue where. he was long gone and he screwed up. "I'm sorry Shy." He said crying again. "I hurt you. I'm no better than your father." He looked up to see Evan sitting up rubbing his head.