Of Tonks.

Disclaimer: I wish I could be more creative with these...

So, this one was written but not edited. I just did, but was NOT in the right mood for such stories. So I'm sorry if this one seems a little scattered. I know, this get's said a lot, but this one REALLY isn't my best work. Also, my goal is one every two days from now on. Help me keep to it! I don't mind messages saying, "Hey, what happened here? It's been a while!"


A little taste of Tonks

CossetteLune

Grains of Sand

Tonks was sitting alone on the beach. This was a place where she used to come all the time with Charlie Weasley. The waves were gently caressing her feet before rolling back down the shore. It was nearly midnight now, and Tonks had been sitting there since nine, gazing into the distance. It never seized to amaze her, just how wide the ocean was. All she could see was the deep blue of the ocean and the black of the sky, now littered with millions of stars. For the first time in what must have been hours, she moved. Laying down on the cold sand, her hands stretched out by her sides. Absent-mindedly her fingers drew circles in the sand, sometimes picking up handfuls at a time and letting it slip through her fingers, just like everything seemed to be lately. Ever since she started talking to Charlie again, she sensed Remus growing jealous. It seemed ridiculous, her heart only yearned for Remus now. Or so she thought. Suddenly she stomped her feet and yelled out loud. Tears filled her eyes which only made her scream louder. How could she had been so stupid? She had let him kiss her, and kissing led to some snogging and... She was a terrible person. A married woman, with a small child to take care of. What was she thinking? And of course, she couldn't just put it all behind her. In a way, she was glad that Remus had came in at that moment. A lie would have hurt them even more. But now where was she? She had no Charlie, no Remus, and she couldn't stand being around her own son. Not that she didn't love him, she was just too easily frustrated as of late.

Taking in a deep breath, she wiped away her tears. The waves splashed up to her waist now. The sudden shock of cold felt nice. Tonks lay there for a while longer, completely loosing track of time. Her eyes closed and she reflected on all the mistakes she made. Too upset to even cry anymore. What woke her was the cold water reaching her face. Immediately her eyes jolted open and she sat up. Now that her body began to shiver, Tonks at last got up and walked away from the ocean. She would have to figure out what to do, on her own. She always had someone, but this time... Not a soul. Her father was always her first choice, she had always been a Daddy's girl, but he was gone now. And her mother loved her, she would always have her, but ever since she lost her husband, she wasn't really the same. Then Charlie and Remus... Tonks felt her heart burn. She just wanted someone to hold her and tell her everything would be okay, but for the first time in her life, everything wasn't going to be okay. She knew that she could never reconcile her relationship with Charlie, it had been too long. As for Remus, well he would take her back, but they would never be as happy again. He knew that she was still in love with Charlie, and it killed him. Tonks walked around aimlessly until the sun began to rise. She found herself in front of her house, in the window, Remus was looking out at her, a look of hurt and mistrust in his eyes. She took another deep breath and approached the house. Walking in, they didn't exchange even a glance to each other. Tonks went to the spare bedroom, lay down and fell into a deep sleep the second her head hit the pillow. Everything was not going to be okay, not this time. And there was nothing she could do about it. Sleeping, and dreaming about the way things should be was the only thing she could do anymore.


Oh, by the way, this prompt was by, can you guess it? Anya! She has the best prompts, I don't know where they come from.

Love always,

CossetteLune