~A FEW DAYS LATER~

"This one should be Montey! Oh...and this one should be Carl." Alois pointed to the two kittens in the box.

"Why Carl?" Claude held her hand tightly.

"Because...he looks like a Carl. Need I say anymore?"

I laughed through a fake smile. To be honest, I wasn't happy at all. I couldn't stand this. The last few days at school had been atrocious. I absolutely hated myself for not doing something about the shit, but I just couldn't. Silently cursing myself, I stood up and walked to the staircase. Right when I was outside my bedroom door, someone touched my waist. I swiveled my head to see Sebastian staring at me, worry all over his face. "You're awfully quiet today..."

"I'm fine...I'm just tired."

"A girl's biggest lie. Tell me, what happened?" He hugged me tightly.

"N-Nothing that you have to worry about. I just want to sleep...go...feed the cats or something." I stammered, opening my bedroom door.

"If you insist..." He turned around and hesitantly walked down to the living area.

I plopped on my bed and thought about my embarrassment that I call 'Life.' Before all of this happened, I had cut sometimes and had slight suicidal thoughts. But, they'd gone away until now. Maybe I should just die...no one needs me anyway. Alois doesn't need me anymore, she had Claude. Claude probably hadn't liked me in the first place...and Sebastian. Well, I don't know about him. I just needa die. Die, die, die. Go into death's arms and have an eternal sleep. Yes...sleep would be nice. I thought, sitting up a little. I opened my bed-side drawer and took out a razor blade. I hadn't cut in nearly two years, but I just had to now. I slit my arm once and little blood bubbles formed over the cut. Then scraped the razor over the cut to make it bleed more. Tears silently trickled down my cheeks as I began to cry. I couldn't stand myself. I guessed my inner demons were finally getting to me. I needed someone to save me.

Just then, I heard a knock on my door. I threw my blade into the drawer and slammed it shut. Then, I lay under my blankets to hide my arm. "C-Come in." I said, hoping the knocker hadn't heard my studder.

"Ciel, what's going on in here?! I smell blood." Sebastian entered my room. Dammit.

"Everything's okay...maybe the cat is bleeding? Internally?" I tried to fail.

"It's human blood."

More tears managed to escape my eyes, and, being the dumb shit that I am, I tried to wipe it...with the same arm as the cut. How freaking stupid could I get?! "Ciel! What's on your arm?! Why are you bleeding?!" Sebastian stammered, coming quickly to my bed. He held my arm out to examine the cut and sighed. "I would expect that much. I've been getting that vibe from you...ya know...the one that says 'I-hate-everything-about-myself,' and, 'I-just-want-to-die.'"

I stared at the patterned bed spread and tried to gather the courage to say something in response. "I-I don't want to live. I do hate m-myself. I'm not needed anymore."

"I need you." He wiped the blood away with a tissue and I winced.

"You'll get over it. You're cute...you'll find someone else."

Sebastian leaned down and kissed my cut, catching me off guard. Then, he leaned up and kissed me lightly. I could feel the pain that he was feeling. As if he really did need me and he would be really upset if I died. It was a bittersweet feeling. Good to know that someone needed me, bad to think of the pain he was feeling. I wrapped my arms around his neck and smirked in the kiss. He took this as a sign that I felt better, so he took the honor of tackling me to the bed. I giggled and slapped his cheek playfully.

"Let's get your dinner made, shall we?" Sebastian sat up.

"Okay." I said, getting off the bed myself.

RI-I-I-I-I-ING! RI-I-I-I-I-ING! The phone rang and I went over to pick it up. I ended up putting it on speaker. "Hello?"

"Ciel Phantomhive...nice to hear your pretty young voice. I'm coming, you better have your demon ready to fight your battles. You'll die soon...heh-heh." The phone was hung up by the caller. I couldn't move, frozen in fear. I've never had a death threat like that before. Who the hell wanted to hurt me now?

"C'mon. I won't let him hurt you. Let's enjoy a peaceful night." Sebastian took my hand and led me to the kitchen.

"Cie-e-e-e-e-e-el! We needa go to the ma-a-a-a-a-a-all! I need some new sho-o-o-o-o-oes!" Alois came whining in the kitchen.

"I can't leave the house..." I said softly.

"Wha-a-a-a-a-a-a-at?!"

"Just got a death threat. Can't leave the house."

"But...we're free to do whatever we like around the manor, though." Claude said entering the room.

I turned and walked into the living area, my nerves about to explode. Every little thing that made me wonder about something made my head spin. Maybe I just needed some sleep. Eventually, I fell asleep, leaving the world behind to deal with its own demons. Unfortunately, my dream wasn't as pleasant as I had hoped.

I ran, my feet slapping on the ground loudly. My breaths came in puffs and my adrenaline levels were rising to the sky. Sebastian was nowhere to be found and I hadn't even thought of Alois or Claude. Suddenly, I was falling. I didn't know when the scene changed or how I was just magically falling. Darkness covered every inch of my sight and I silently prayed for death. I needed a silent reverie, but this isn't what I meant by it.

"Sebastian! Sebastia-a-a-a-an..." I cried out for him only to be granted with silence. "Sebastian...save me..."

"Ciel?" His voice...oh, his voice...so pleasant.

"Sebastian! Please...save me from the darkness!" I screamed. "Sebastian!"

"I can't save you from something that is not there. There is no darkness in the world...it's in your mind. Ciel, quit falling into your inner demons." He sounded straight-faced. After hearing his words, I fainted.