Nightmares

I shot out of bed. The nightmares are back. I will never be able to forget this. I can't stand it. My throat burns. I want to say something. The words bubble up to my throat, but that's about it. It will never come out. My words. I want say them. I want to tell someone. But, as I said before, they come up and never come out.

I hate this. This pathetic feeling. The feeling of fear that rests in the pit of my stomach. The tightening feeling in my chest when a man is too close to me. The rolling feeling in my stomach, when I feel I'm letting out to much information. I refuse to let anyone to close to me, the fear of my secret getting out is worse than it has ever been before. Sango knows. The whole school will know by the end of today. My life is ruined. I don't think I'm going to school tomorrow.

"Kagome?" whispered a baritone voice.

I freeze.

It's a man.

I tense up.

I'm terrified.

Will he do the things Hojo did? Will he rape me, beat me, and leave me with a threat? I feel a warm chest beside me. A hand slithers around my waist, and pulls me very close. I feel the heat from the back of my eyes, but feel the cold as the tears roll down my cheeks. He's going to hurt me. I know it.

"Kagome, why are you crying?" I couldn't speak. My lips were paralyzed. I locked my jaw together, refusing to speak.

I felt him shift around on the bed. He had turn the light on. My eyes focus. I see…Leven? Leven's my younger brother, but he's very protective. Ever since what happened to me, he won't let me go out alone, even though he loses every battle with me on where I'm going and who I'm going with, he still tries.

"What's with the water works Kagome?" he ask concernedly. I looked at him. His dark, caring brown eyes, almost black. Black Onyx hair, with one small whit patch in the front. He's strong, well built. The girls at his school fawn over him. I look at him some more. He's one of the lucky people I tell personally, myself, about my secret.

I reach out and hug him tight. He's startled at first, but when he feels my tears on his shoulder, then he hugs me back, just as tight. I scream into his shoulder. I let out all of the pain I had felt a few hours earlier. It felt so good. To let out all of the pain, in one loud scream.

I felt so much better after words.

All Leven did was let me cry, scream, do whatever.

That's the wonderful thing about Leven.

He'll let you do what you need to do, until he thinks you're going over board.

Then he will stop you.

That's the biggest reason I love Leven.