I apologize for never updating this story...i lost interest. EXTREMEE writers block is more like it. Im soo soo soo sorrry. I hope you will all conitnue reviewing and reading this story. im determined to finish it.
NOne of these characters belong to me.
BPOV
The foreset was stirring with life, as i approached the Cullen house. Everyone seemed to be moving in a hurried pace. Alice was excited about something, Carlisle was on the phone, and the whole house was preparing. I wondered what was going on. I couldn't go back and check on Edward, I felt bad enough.
His face was covered in agony. Pain, i had caused. I couldn't face him again, i couldn't face his family either. Would they forgive me? Would he? This new life adn this new family was already overwhelming. Could I handle having a boyfriend, too? No. I knew what it would mean if we were together. We would have to be soulmates. I hardly knew him, I owed him more than a lie. He took my family from me, but he gave me this life. This life, which i was good at. But, I didn't know if I could love, we were trapped in the state we were changed. I never knew love, would I? It was the same for Edward, he hardly knew me. Maybe he didn't know either, I would do us both a favor if I held this off. For now, I would have to play a Cullen. I walked back through the front door of the house, trying to figure out the commotion.
"What's going on Jasper?" I asked as he passed me carrying a vaccum.
"Our cousins are comming!" He yelled over the vaccum.
Ah, the Denali Clan. I heard about them, they were the only other "vegetarian" vampires the Cullens knew. They were like a second family. The Denali Clan consisted of Tanya, Kate and Irina. They were originally Russian and pldged themselves to this life without human blood. They were later joined by Carmen and Eleazar, other vegetarian vampires. They had a permanent residence in Alaska. I was a little excited to meet this extended family I now had.
"It'll be a lot of fun!" Alice assured me. Than whispered, "It's alright, we'll dicuss this later."
"We can finally have even teams!" Emmett shouted from upstairs. It seemed like the Cullens were having spring cleaning. I decided to help tidy up Edward's room. I forgot that we shared a room, this would only be awkward. I doubt he was back, so I went upstairs.
EPOV
A mistake. It was a big mistake.
I was still wallowing in my grief, how could I have been so stupid! I had taken away her soul! Ofcourse she would have not loved me! Who would? This was a big mistake, curse Alice. But, kissing her?! Was that really my plan? Self-loathing washed over me again. This was pathetic. I was pathetic. I needed to get up, get out of here.
I slowly made my way back to the house, covered in mud from the forest. It was one of the few sunny days in Forks, that meant I could not escape Bella, and she could not escape me. I hung my head, she probably wanted nothing to do with me in the first place. Maybe if I was persistent? No, persistentcy was only more pathetic. I knew one thing for sure, I didn't want to be away from her. Was this love? I didn't know, I had never been in love. Then I decided, It was best if we acted like this never happened. Maybe if we got to know each other...
I already knew her, she was selfless, intriguing and stubborn. She was like nothing I've ever seen before. BUt did she know me? Ofcourse she didn't. Maybe that was the problem. I definitely did not build any trust like Jasper said. Maybe if I didn't take away her soul. I felt a crippling tear for what I did. I would never forgive myself for what I did, even if Bella did. I would try everything to make Bella happy, if that could repent my mistakes. The house slowly came into view, along with the thoughts. Oh! Tanya was visiting this weekend. Maybe this would distract everyone from my clear wallowing. We all missed the Denalis as well.
A/N:
Again sorry for the loooooooong time between reviews. I hope you enjoyed this chapter, hopefully I will get the next chapter out soon. I loveeeee Reviewss! Thanks so much for readinggg.
