Summary: At first it started out as a way to get rid of their building sexual tension. It was suppose to be a one night thing, but then it turned into something so much more addicting. InuxKag.
Woo! OKay Chapter Nine! Oh and thanks to everyone for reviewing, I love hearing how much you love it and I love hearing your comments on what you think should happen, it's intresting.
xKuroi No Barax: Um, thanks! Actually, you don't need the "u" when you direcetly translatd from Japanese it's spelled that way for pronunciation, and you don't have to have it for the English pronunciation of it in English; I was told this by a Japanese foreign exchange student...
beautifulyreal: My boyfriend, laughs and says that you are very welcome, but apparently he needs to keep me more occupied, because he says that he can't have me being bored... but yeah, he's says you are very welcome! :3
Chapter Nine: Harsh Words:
InuYasha smiled seeing the effect he had on her, Kagome took her legs off of InuYasha's waist and her feet touched the ground, but her legs were shaking so bad she could hardly stand. InuYasha chuckled at her and how fragile she could be sometimes; he picked her up bridal style and Kagome placed her head against his chest, her cheeks had a tinge of pink. He laid her down on the bed gently and Kagome placed her face in her hands and InuYasha just laughed. "I am so embarrassed." She said her voice had a hint of laughter in it. InuYasha just chuckled softly, giving Kagome butterflies in her stomach.
InuYasha took her hands away from her face. "You're not embarrassing yourself." He said softly. Kagome looked up at him and bit her lip. "Really?" she asked him, her eyes big and wide. "Yes, actually it's cute when you get embarrassed and blush." He said chuckling and Kagome blush deepened. InuYasha laughed out loud and laid down next to her. Kagome cuddled up next to him and placed her head on his chest. InuYasha chuckled and wrapped his arms around Kagome, pulling her closer to him and he kissed her forehead. Kagome smiled happily, just happy that he was with her; for this time and this moment; he was hers and she was his and they belonged to each other.
Kagome smiled, she was getting tired, but she wasn't that tired. Oh no, she was just getting started; this was make-up sex, not because of a fight, but because of what happened. Kagome smiled, and started to gently kiss his neck, softly. InuYasha smiled "What are you thinking of?" he asked her, a huskily. Kagome smile widened "Oh, you'll find out" she said as she moved out of his arms and stratled him. InuYasha chuckled, deep, low and sexy. Which gave Kagome butterflies and made her smile, she leaned down and kissed him slow and passionately. He smiled and held her face in his hands as they kissed, Kagome moved so that her core brushed against his hard cock. He moaned when she did, it so gentle and slow, Kagome smiled and rubbed against him again, pressing harder and InuYasha pushed his hips forward, trying to get into her wet pussy, which was sliding her sweet juices against his cock.
InuYasha growled, and flipped them over so that he was on top. Kagome smiled and bit her lip, knowing that InuYasha loved it when she did that. InuYasha grinned at her and pushed himself into her. Kagome moaned and arched her back, and InuYasha started a slow rhythm, building up the intensity all over again. Kagome moaned, bit her lip, and arched her back. InuYasha smiled and kissed her neck, gently as he keeping up with his slow steady rhythm. InuYasha kept slowly thrusting in and out of her; her legs wrapped around his waist and squeezed. He smiled and slightly sped up his slow rhythm as he tenderly bit at her neck, making Kagome moan out his name. InuYasha grinned and pushed into her harder, and Kagome gave a small cry and arched her back even more, her legs tightening around him.
Kagome felt a small explosion of heat coursing through her, as InuYasha pushed into her hard. InuYasha's slow steady rhythm started to go faster and faster, pushing harder and deeper into her every time. Kagome arched her back, when InuYasha ran his fingers over her thigh as he thrusted into her. Kagome felt the oncoming pull of an orgasm, holding onto the blissful, mind numbing pleasurable feeling that this was giving her. InuYasha, even though pumping in and out of her fast, still was going fast enough. Kagome needed to feel the hard push of him ripping through her tight walls. Kagome pushed her hips against his and moaned out "Faster!" in a pleading voice. InuYasha grinned and pumped out of her faster and faster, loving how she purposely tightened her walls around him, egging him on. He growled at her low and huskily making Kagome cry out in pleasure; as their hips collided as he went into her faster, harder and deeper.
InuYasha moaned out as he felt that he once again, got her so wet that she was dripping, surround, his hard cock, making it slide in and out of her easier. He felt his muscles tighten and he buried his fingers into Kagome's hair, bringing her mouth closer to his as he kissed her roughly, passionately and hotly. Kagome lost her breath as when he kissed her like that; when he was ruff and aggressive it made her blood start pumping and her heart would race. She was holding on to the orgasm that feeling that made her head spin, Kagome dug her nails deeper into his back so she could hold onto something, anything because she was about to lose it. InuYasha felt her walls tighten, and stay tighten around him, making it harder to thrust in and out, even though she was so slick and wet, it made him harder. Kagome cried out as InuYasha thrusted into her again and again, her back arching in pleasure; trying to hold onto that moment right before that explosion of sexual pleasure and bliss; that high that she got every time he drove her up and over the edge.
InuYasha moaned out as he felt it coming, Kagome's legs squeezes against him tight and so did her walls and InuYasha thrusted into her all the way, Kagome screaming out as her fingers dug deep into his back and as he bit her neck again, and Kagome's back arched at what he did and InuYasha wrapped her arms around her back, bringing her right against him, as he felt the explosion between the both of them, and it made Kagome shake. InuYasha, still held on to her, still deep inside of her rolled over, so that she was on top and he was on bottom. Kagome looked at him; her eyes were wide at what had just happened. They were both out of breath and InuYasha kissed her lightly and then Kagome laid her head on his chest. InuYasha, pulled out of her slowly and Kagome gave a small whimper. InuYasha gently kissed the spot on her neck where he had bit her again.
"Kami, InuYasha I am so tired and you need to go to work tomorrow." Kagome said in between deep breathes. InuYasha chuckled "Do I tire you out, mein engel?" he asked smiling. Kagome looked him in the eyes, her eyes filled with sleepiness, love and laughter. "Yes, you do mein krieger. Unfortunately, I need sleep, unlike you I do get tired." She said softly, running her fingers down his jaw line and over his lips. InuYasha kissed her fingers as they ran over his mouth. "I know you need sleep, but I like wearing you out; it lets me know that I have done an excellent job." He said, still kissing her neck. Kagome smiled and bit her lip when he did that, sending shivers down her spine. InuYasha chuckled, low and deep sending Kagome's heart a fluttering.
"InuYasha, I really am tired. I can't believe that I am going to say this but, I need sleep. You are too strong for me sometimes." She said smiling, and giggling at the same time. InuYasha smiled and then kissed back up her neck and then kissed her lips. "Sleep." He whispered gently as he kissed her again and then moved and got up out of the bed. Kagome smiled and watched him walk away, he had a great ass. Kagome giggled to herself and closed her eyes and fell asleep, cuddling into the pillow, wrapping the sheets around her.
InuYasha chuckled and walked into the bathroom; he needed to take a shower and get to work. It was a weekend so he would take a half day and spend the rest of it with Kikyo; although he's rather spend it with Kagome. He told Kikyo that he would spend more time with her, than he had. He sighed as he turned on the water, he was still hard and he turned the water on cold. He got into the shower and shivered as the cold water hit him. He sighed loudly and growled angrily at himself and his predicament. One the one hand, there was Kikyo and on the other hand, there was Kagome. He couldn't figure it out; it irrated him to know that he didn't know how he felt. The more time he spent with Kikyo, the more he would know.
He cleaned off quickly and got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around his waist and walked out of the bathroom and into his room. He went over to the bed and saw Kagome sleeping, her mouth slightly open, and her hair in her face and he just smiled to himself. He gently put the stray strands of her hair behind her ear and kissed her on the lips, softly. InuYasha went over to the closet and got out a suit, quickly put it on and walked out of the room; looking at Kagome before he left and closing the door quietly.
InuYasha walked down the stairs and saw Rin cooking, Sesshomaru standing behind her, with his arms wrapped around her, kissing her neck. Rin was giggling as she cooked, and InuYasha just stood there frozen. Because that's what he wanted, he wanted to come home and kiss her and love her; hell he would even do it in public. By her, who did he mean by her? Kikyo or Kagome? He growled out loud, and Sesshomaru and Rin looked up from what they were doing; Rin turning red and Sesshomaru shrugging his shoulders, still holding Rin. InuYasha sighed and looked down "Sorry I wasn't growling at you guys. I'm just aggravated." He said gruffly, sitting down at the table. Rin's eyes softened at him, her caring nature showing through. Rin got out of Sesshomaru's arms and gave InuYasha a cup of coffee and placed it in front of him.
InuYasha looked up and saw Rin smiling, and he nodded back at her. Rin walked away and went back to cooking, Sesshomaru going back to wrapping his arms around her, protectively. InuYasha drank the entire cup of coffee in one gulp. He got up and put the cup in the sink, "Thanks Rin. I'm going to head out; tell Kagome, tell her that I'll be home late again tonight." He said with a sigh and then left the house, slamming the door shut as he did so. Rin and Sesshomaru could hear the squealing of tires as he left the driveway. Rin sighed and leaned against him and Sesshomaru kissed her head. "I worry about him sometimes. I worry about the both of them. Do you think everything will turn out okay?" she asked, looking up at him. Sesshomaru kissed her lips gently "I think that everything will turn out fine." He said as Sora's cry could be heard from the nursery. Rin sighed "I'll go get her." She said softly, not wanting to leave Sesshomaru's arms. Sesshomaru shook his head "No it's okay I'll get her, you just keep cooking." He said as he left and Rin just smiled; at how sweet the cold demon lord could be sometimes.
InuYasha pulled into the parking lot at work and turned off his car, but he didn't get out. He just sat there and ran his fingers through his hair. He couldn't think, all he wanted to do was be with Kagome. He growled at himself, he didn't love Kagome, he loved Kikyo. So if he loved Kikyo so much, why was Kagome invading his thoughts, his mind, his emotions, his dreams? He suddenly thought of her all the time, saw her face in everything and it was grating on his nerves.
He got out of the car, mumbling to himself, under his breath slamming the car door shut as he walked into the building. He walked past Yoko angrily, not even stopping when she told him hello. He ran up the stairs of the building instead of taking the elevator, he needed to run; it helped him blow off steam. He walked aggregately through the hallway leading to his office; he didn't even stop to say hi to Mirkou. Mirkou saw InuYasha walk past his office, pure anger and aggression radiating off him. "Hey Sango, let me call you back okay babe. Okay. Bye." Mirkou said into the phone and hung it up. He sighed and got out of his chair, and walked to InuYasha's office.
Yani looked at Miroku as he walked past "Do you know why Mr. Tashio is in a mood again today?" she asked quietly. Miroku shrugged his shoulders "I have a hunch, but I can't be too sure. I'm afraid he will bite my head off if I ask him." Miroku said with a hint of humor in his voice. But neither Yani nor Miroku laughed, knowing that when InuYasha was angry, he was dangerous. Miroku sighed, and started to walk forward "Wish me luck." He said as he left and Yani nodded and said in a whisper "Good luck." Miroku hesitated before opening the door "Holy fuck." He said as he entered closing the door behind him.
There were papers, manila folders, pens, stuff everywhere. "Kami, InuYasha, what the hell happened?" Miroku asked, picking up thing as he went along. InuYasha was sitting in his desk, head in his hands. He looked up at Miroku "I don't know I walked into this." He said angrily. Miroku looked at him, eye brow raised. "Who do you think would do this?" he asked him. InuYasha shrugged "Other companies, angry clients anyone. There was a lot of important papers and documents in this office. It could be anyone; it might have even been Naraku. He could finally be getting back at me because of Kagome. But I swear if he goes anywhere near Kagome or touches her or anything I will rip him limb from limb so there is nothing left." He said the last sentence darkly. "Well, until we know who did it or why they did it, let's find out what they took if they took anything." Miroku said as he picked up more papers. InuYasha nodded his head and got up and started to pick up papers too. "After this I need to see Kagome, I want to make sure she's okay." InuYasha said stacking the papers on his desk and Miroku nodded. "I understand." Miroku said as they silently picked up the misconstrued papers.
Kagome smiled and sighed happily, when she woke up again. The smell of InuYasha on the pillow and she buried her face into it, taking the smell of him in. She loved the way he smelled and they way he talked and laughed and smiled and the way he loved her. Well, the way he made love to her, not actually love, love her.
She got up and out of bed, walking into the bathroom to take a shower; she turned the water up high on the heat. She stepped into the shower and simply sat there and let the water run over her skin and down her body. Kagome loved the feel of the water running over her skin, it was soothing. Kagome just stayed there and took a deep breath in and out, relaxing her body and her mind. She opened her eyes, when she felt the water turning from warm to luke warm and she turned the knob to the left to make the water warmer, realizing that she needed to get clean before she ran out of warm water.
After she washed her hair and her body, shaving everything making sure that she was smooth for InuYasha. She stood there for a couple more minutes, remembering when she and InuYasha had fucked in the shower, it brought a smile to her face and she bit her lip at the memory. She growled lightly as the water turned cold, and she shut the water off and got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around her. Kagome's black hair, curled when it was wet and dried straight, which irked Kagome to no end. She walked into the bedroom, keeping the bathroom door open, to let all the steam escape.
She sighed, and went over to the closet, looking for something to wear. She needed to get out, she wanted to get out; sitting in a house all day long writing was fun, but she got bored easily. She sighed and shifted through her and InuYasha's clothes. She smiled when she found a pair of shorts and a cute t-shirt. She went over to the dresser and pulled out a pair of bikini underwear with lace and a lace bra, all black, smiling at how InuYasha loved the color black.
She dried off with the towel and put on her bra and underwear and towel dried her hair, there was no need to fix it, it would dry anyways. Kagome smiled and picked up the shorts when her cell phone rang. She sighed and walked over to it and picked it up and answered it "Moshi, moshi." She said into the phone. "Hey Kags, its Kogua." He said in a nervous voice. "Oh hey, Kogua. How's everything going with you?" She said happily. "Pretty good, can't complain about anything. So, I have the day off today and I was wondering if I could take you up on the idea of us hanging out today?" he said in a mild tone. Kagome thought about it, she didn't have anyone else to hang out with and she was bored and she had fun with Kogua. "Sure, why the hell not. Um, do you know where Inu lives?" she said, putting on her shorts, balancing her phone on her shoulder. "Um, yeah if not, I'll just look it up. I guess I'll pick you up later then, say about 10 ish?" he asked her and Kagome smiled and nodded. "Yep, sounds good to me. See you later Kogua." Kagome said. "See ya later Kags." He said, in a happy tone and he hung up. Kagome smiled and shook her head and put her shirt over her head. She went into the bathroom, but on some base make-up, mascara, fluffed her hair up a bit and left the bathroom; she closed to the door, grabbed her phone and ran out of InuYasha's bedroom closing the door.
Kagome ran down the stairs and saw Rin, Sesshomaru and Sora all at the door, leaving. "Where are ya'll going?" Kagome asked curiously. Rin smiled "We are going to the park again, having a picnic lunch, just the three of us. Where are you going?" Rin said and asked her in a happy voice. Kagome shrugged her shoulders "I'm going to spend the day with an old friend. Did InuYasha say when he's going to be home?" she asked, biting her lip nervously. Rin sighed "He told me to tell you that he was going to be with Kikyo, again." She said in a low voice. Kagome looked down, apparently hurt "Oh, I understand; he's been spending so much time with me… that makes sense." She said quietly, hurt evident in her voice. "Well at least you won't be spending the day alone. You're spending time with your friend right?" Rin asked her, trying to cheer her up. Kagome looked up and have a small, sad smile "Yeah at least that will distract me enough. You guys go ahead and have fun, but not too much fun. I don't think the park managers would like it, if you messed up the park like you messed up the living room." Kagome said chuckling at Rin's blush and Sesshomaru's small half grin that the Tashio's were famous for.
"Alright, we will be going. Have fun Kagome! Ja Ne!" Rin said as she waved and left the house, Sesshomaru and Sora following behind. Kagome let out a sigh of sadness when the door shut. Kagome walked over to the couch and sat on it, picked up the remote and started to flip through the channels. There was nothing on, so she flipped between a cartoon channel and the news channel. About half way through a cartoon she was watching, the doorbell rang. Kagome grunted and got off the couch and walked to the door and opened it. Kogua was standing there looking very sexy in lose jeans and a tight black shirt. Kagome smiled "Hey Kogua, come on. It will only be a second." Kagome said as she opened the door wide open for Kogua to walk through. As he walked through he looked around the room and whistled "Wow, nice place InuYasha's got." He said waiting for Kagome to shut the door.
Kagome smiled "Yeah it's a nice place, but it's not InuYasha's though its Sesshomaru's, but Sesshomaru lets InuYasha stay here, because InuYasha runs the branch of the business here sometimes when Sesshomaru goes on business. Hold on a second; I'll be right back" she said to him , as she ran off and turned off the TV and went to the kitchen, she stood there for a minute debating on whether or not she should leave a not for InuYasha. She decided against it, he was going to be with Kikyo and probably wouldn't be home until late and she would be back before then, so there would be no reason to write a note.
Kagome walked back to Kogua, who was looking at pictures on the wall. Kagome came up behind him; he was intensely looking at a picture of Kagome, InuYasha, Miroku, and Sango at graduation. "Seems like a long time ago doesn't? Being in high school." Kagome said and Kogua turned his head to the sound of her voice. He had a smile on his face "Yeah it does, surprisingly enough; there are still something's I learned that I still use today. Well enough reminiscing about the past, let's get going." He said turning away from the picture. Kagome nodded her head and followed him down the hall to the door. Kogua opened the door and waited for Kagome, who was stopped in front of a photo of her and InuYasha, taken their junior year. InuYasha was holding Kagome in a bridal style, and they were both looking at each other smiling. Kagome's eyes softened and she ran her fingers gently over the picture.
"Kagome, are you ready?" Kogua asked from the door. Kagome bite her lip and nodded her head and walked away from the photo. She went up to Kogua and smiled "So where are we going?" she asked as they walked out the door. Kogua shrugged "I don't know I was just going to play it by ear." He said as she locked the door. Kagome smiled up at him "Sounds like a plan to me!" she said happily, and then he stomach growled. Kagome giggled and so did Kogua. "Okay first thing, we get you something to eat and then we will go from there." He said laughing as they started to walk towards his car. Kagome smiled and nodded her head vigorously. "Sweet, so where do you want to eat?" she asked as Kogua opened the door for her. Kagome smiled at this action, at his gentlemen like actions. "Thanks you." She said as she slid in the seat and Kogua shut the door for her, jogged to the other side of the car and hoped in the driver's seat. "I don't know, I was just going to drive around until we found something good and then stop and eat." He said casual, starting up the car. Kagome couldn't help but smile, he was being so sweet. "Sounds good to me." She said as they pulled out of the driveway and sped away.
InuYasha put the last of the papers and folders on his desk and sighed. "I think that's all of the papers." Miroku said with a heavy sigh. "Yeah, it is. Alright I'm out of here; I need to make sure Kagome is okay. I'm going to go to the house; I'll call you if anything comes up." InuYasha said as he grabbed his jacket and left. Miroku nodded as InuYasha left in a hurry, running down the stairs again, rushing out the building, and running to his car. He got in and slammed his foot down on the breaks, making the tires squeal.
InuYasha was restless, running through all the scenarios in his mind, about what could have happened to her. He was over-reacting and he knew it, but he didn't want anything, happening to his Kagome. He growled out as the light turned red, making him stop. The light turned green and he sped off, making it to the house in record time. He pulled into the driveway and slammed down on the breaks. He turned off the car and jumped out of the driver's seat, running up to the house. The door was locked, so that was a good sign, which mean that Naraku didn't break into the house.
InuYasha, unlocked the door quickly, and burst through the door. "Kagome?" he called out, running up the stairs. He burst through his bedroom door, to find that Kagome wasn't there. Her smell lingered, her sweet intoxicating smell, of roses, lavender, and the tinge of something he couldn't quite guess. He took a deep breath in and let the smell of her sink into his skin. He was looking for something different in the smells around him. Nothing smelt different; everything smelt the same so he took a breath out that he didn't know that he was holding in.
He looked and saw the closet door was open, and he saw that Kagome had taken out some of her clothes. He growled low, and ran down the stairs, her scent was there, fresh and there was another scent, one that he didn't know, but he didn't like it and he growled deeper. He pulled out his cell phone and called Kagome, but it went to her voice mail. InuYasha swore and hung up the phone and then called Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru answered after the first ring.
"What do you want little brother?" Sesshomaru asked coldly into the phone. InuYasha growled "Where's Kagome? She isn't here." InuYasha seethed into the phone. "She left apparently; she said that she was going to go hang out with an old friend." Sesshomaru said casually. InuYasha glared "Did she said, who?" he asked trying to regain control over his temper. "No, she just said an old friend. Don't worry she was calm and relaxed, even happy about it, but when she found out that you were going to be with Kikyo, her demeanor changed and she got upset." Sesshomaru said dangerously low. InuYasha growled at him "When did you start caring about what goes on in my life?" he seethed out. Sesshomaru sighed "I don't care what you do in your life, but I do care when your actions cause someone else to get hurt. Now I must go I am with Rin and Sora, good bye InuYasha." He said and hung up.
InuYasha clenched his claws and hung up the phone and swore under his breath. All of the sudden his phone ringed and he answered "What?" in a harsh voice. "I'm sorry." Said the voice, it was Kikyo. InuYasha sighed "Didn't mean for it to sound like that, so what's up?" he asked as he walked over to the couch and sat down. "Nothing, I just wanted to hang out with you today, like you said we would last night before you left." Kikyo said her voice, sounding upset from InuYasha's harshness and surprisingly enough, he didn't feel sorry for being that way.
"Yeah, you want me to come pick you up?" he asked, in a tired voice. "Yes, please. I'll be waiting." She said and she hung up the phone. InuYasha sighed and hung up the phone too. He could tell by Kikyo's voice that she was peeved that he was being that way towards her. He sighed and got off the couch, he walked to the door and stopped and looked at the picture of Kagome and him from junior year. He was holding Kagome bridal style and they were both looking at each other, smiling. InuYasha's eyes softened a little bit as he remembered that night. It was hot and he could barely stand to be near her without wanting to rip her clothes off. He was constantly running his fingers over her thigh; it was smooth to the touch. Kagome would smile, bite her lip, and shiver; he chuckled at how he still had that effect on her to this day. He sighed and walked away from the photo, shutting and locking the door. Smiling as he walked to his car and drove off, playing the re-runs in his mind of that night.
Kogua and Kagome walked out of the ice-cream shop. Kagome with chocolate-chip cookie dough ice-cream and Kogua with chocolate. They had eaten at a little restaurant and they were now getting dessert. "Okay, now that we are both full of food and now eating dessert, now where do you want to go?' Kogua asked. Kagome licked her ice-cream "I dunno, why don't we go to the park." Kagome said smiling up at him. Kogua smiled back down at her. "I think I can do that, we can walk from here-."
Kagome shook her head "No, not the one here, the one with the lake." Kagome said biting her lip. Kogua smiled and nodded his head "Okay, we can do that too. Come on, Kaggie." He said as he put his arm around her shoulders. Kagome licked her ice-cream again and looked up at him, smile on her face eye brown raised. "Kaggie?" she asked him and he chuckled. "Yes, Kaggie. Everyone calls you Kags or Kagome, and I've always wanted to call you Kaggie. So I am going to call you Kaggie." He said as they walked to the car. Kagome smiled and rolled her eyes at him "Not everyone calls me Kags or Kagome. Just to let you know." She said. "Then what else do you get called?" he asked as he opened the door for her. Kagome blushed lightly and bit her lip and slid into the passenger seat. "Um, I rather not say… it's not that they are embarrassing or anything. It's just I don't want anyone else to know, they are kinda personal." She said quietly. Kogua shook his head at her and smiled "Don't worry about it, Kaggie. You know you are adorable." He said, his face inches from hers. She looked up at him "Really?" she asked him, blinking her eyes.
"Yes, you are very adorable." He said as he inched closer and Kagome backed up a little. Kogua smiled and pulled away and closed the door for her and ran to the other side of the car. Kagome blushed and looked down at her fingers and she started to play with her ring. Kogua looked at her "Sorry, I didn't mean to make you nervous." He said starting the car up. Kagome shook her head "It's okay, I'm just not use to people getting that close." 'Except for InuYasha.' She added in her head. "Well I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable." He said as he pulled out of the parking lot. "It's okay." Kagome said as she started to lick the ice-cream again. Kogua took a look at her as she licked that ice-cream and he started to get hard, he gulped and then looked at the road and he coughed. Kagome looked over at him "What?" she asked him, cocking her head to the side. "Nothing, it's nothing don't worry about it." He said as his hands tightened on the wheel. "Okay." She said and they drove the rest of the way in silence.
InuYasha pulled into the parking lot of a little Italian restaurant. Kikyo looked at him smiling "Inu! I've been wanting to go to this place for weeks!" she squealed and kissed him on the cheek. He gave her a small smile as they both got out of the car. "I knew you would like it." He said as he wrapped his arm around her waist and they walked into the restaurant.
A few minutes later they were seated outside and sipping wine. Kikyo was chatting on about something, but he turned her out, girls were always chatting on about something. InuYasha nodded and looked out over to the park. It had a big lake in front of it and he smiled. Kagome loved going to parks, the one with the lake was her favorite. She would go and take pictures of it all the time. He could almost see her now, smiling and laughing and biting her lip walking across the way, looking at the lake…
Wait! That was Kagome he was seeing and she was with someone, a guy. InuYasha's eyes widened and his blood began to pump. His Kagome with some other guy, as the guy touched her and flirted with her, getting closer to his Kagome, made his blood boil. The guy that she was with, had his arm wrapped around her waist and he was whispering in her ear, Kagome was laughing about whatever the guy had said. InuYasha claws dug into the palms of his hands and made his skin bleed.
The guy was now playing with her hair and Kagome's hands were on his chest, trying to playfully push him away. But the guy just smiled and brought her closer. Kagome shook her head no, got out of the man's arms and began to walk away. But the guy just went after her, and grabbed her hand and kissed it and Kagome blushed and let him lead her to wherever they were going to go next. InuYasha's demon was screaming to be let out and to kill and tear apart whomever that guy was, that was touching his Kagome; he could already feel the red seeping into his eyes.
"InuYasha?!" Kikyo called out and InuYasha turned to her. "Wow." She said as she saw his eyes. "What's wrong Inu?" she asked him tenderly. InuYasha growled low in his chest "Nothing, just saw something very, very upsetting." He said and then the food came. Kikyo just nodded her head and started to eat the food. InuYasha didn't even touch his food, he had lost his appetite. So that's who her, "old friend" was; some guy that she could flirt with and be with in public, in front of everyone else. That guy she was with he was a demon, he could sense it and if he was a demon who should have seen the mark he had placed on Kagome. Unless, they hadn't gone that far yet; if the demon had seen the mark he would have stopped doing what he was doing. Demon law demanded it, or the punishment was a battle to the death. It relaxed him some to know that they hadn't done anything that intense…yet.
Kagome smiled as her and Kogua walked hand-in-hand and it felt incredibly good to do so. She hadn't felt so alive on the outside in a long time. Sure she was so alive on the inside, but being able to me intimate and touch and flirt and just be with one another, without speculation of something was great and she couldn't help but smile.
Kogua seemed to be like her outside boyfriend, in a sense. She didn't care about him as deeply as she did InuYasha, but she could learn to like him somewhat as much. Nothing and no one could ever, ever replace InuYasha in her heart and soul, but maybe he could help her with her wounds. She looked up at him and couldn't help but smile, it was great to be like this in public and not to have to hide everything. He looked back down at her and smiled back, and he rubbed their noses together, which made Kagome's smile even bigger. "What?" he asked her and Kagome just chuckled. "Nothing, just really, really happy is all. I haven't felt like this in a long time." She said smiling, snuggling closer to Kogua. "What do you mean?" he asked her as they walked to the car.
Kagome smiled and shook her head "It's nothing, just with the whole entire me loving someone who will never love me back thing. It wears on you after a while, to constantly give yourself up again and again and again for the same person, only to realize that in the end all you will ever be is the fall back girl. And no matter how hard you try, no matter how many times you cry and no matter how many times he completely and totally shatters your heart into a million tiny pieces. You still love him with all those tiny little pieces and even when you think that you are over him; he comes back at you full force and you can't help but get on your knees and pray that he stays and that he really means this time. It leaves wounds on your soul and your heart when it happens to you all the time and by the same person. Even after you know that it will never be and you know it in your heart and mind, your soul still calls out to him and your body still reacts to his touch and every emotion you thought that you threw away, comes back at you at full force crashing into you. Even after you know that he's hurt you and that you won't ever be; you still love him with everything you have, because you're afraid that once you let go; you'll never get something as good back. I don't know after all this time, those wounds are still there and it still hurts and aches and bleeds and you just want it to stop. And the only person you are willing to let you help stop the bleeding, is the same person who hurt you in the first place. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to ramble on like that; it's just a lot of emotional baggage to carry around sometimes." Kagome said biting her lip and looking down.
Kogua stopped walking and, lifted Kagome's chin up so she could look him in the eyes. Kagome's eyes were watering "I'm sorry this happened to you, you don't deserve it." Kogua said wiping away the tears that had begun to fall down her face. "I guess I don't know." Kagome said still biting her lip. Kogua looked her deep in her eyes and said "I will never hurt you, you don't deserve to be treated like this, you deserve better. You deserve someone who will love you back with everything he is, has been and every will be. I'm so sorry he hurt you Kagome, I wish I could take all that pain away; you've been through so much." Kagome's bottom lip quivered at what he was saying. It was getting to her, what he was saying, because that's exactly what she wanted to hear for such a long time. But what she really wanted to hear was InuYasha say: "I love you, I want to be with you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want you, I need you, you are mine and I am yours. No one and nothing will ever take you away from me. I love you, Kagome I love you." But InuYasha would never, ever say those words and she came to accept that a long time ago.
But Kogua, just by saying that made it a little less painful. Kagome's got lost in the gentle way he was touching her, in the softness of his voice and how sweet the words sounded in heart head, heart and soul. Kogua leaned in closer to her, their mouths centimeters apart, she could feel his warm breath on her lips and then he kissed her full on the mouth. Kagome closed her eyes and kissed him back, she kissed him back until she felt like he had erased all the pain away, even though she knew that he hadn't.
Kagome pulled away and looked him in the eyes, she looked down and bit her lip. She wanted to open her eyes, and be looking into InuYasha's golden eyes, not Kogua's green eyes. Kogua sighed and stepped back away from her. "Come on," he said gently, grabbing her hand pulling her toward the car. "Let's get you home." He said and Kagome just nodded her head and followed. For her the whole world had stopped; in that one kiss it changed everything. She felt the comfort, love and support that she needed all in that one kiss and she could keep kissing Kogua and feel happy. But it wasn't InuYasha, it was nice and it was a distraction and she liked it a lot, but it still didn't fill that same spot that InuYasha filled up when he kissed her, touched her, made love to her. Nothing could ever fill that, no one, but maybe Kogua could help fill some of the wounds, maybe just maybe he could.
The ride home was silent between Kagome and Kogua. They were both thinking about what had happened and wondering where to go from there. Kagome was biting her lip, biting down so hard, she split her lip and made her lip bleed.
Kogua, pulled up into the drive way and turned off the car. They both sat there in silence, not knowing what to say. "Look, I'm sorry about kissing you earlier in the park. I shouldn't have done it, if you never want to see me again I understand." Kogua said. Kagome shook her head "Don't be sorry I kissed you back, if I wanted to pull away I would have. I'm just confused right now, but I would like to hang out with you more. Today was fun, just give me some time okay." Kagome said turning Kogua's face towards her own, so he would look her in the eyes and know that she meant it.
Kogua smiled and nodded and kissed her lightly on the lips. Kagome wrinkled her nose and backed up. "That wasn't an open invitation to kiss me." She said slightly annoyed. Kogua chuckled "Sorry Kaggie, you are just too cute to not kiss. I'll call you later, go inside and get some sleep." He said gently and Kagome couldn't help but smile as she got out of the car. "Okay, night Kogua." She said and she ran up the drive way and walk way to the front of the house. She unlocked the door and ran inside and shut the door quickly and kept her back against the door. Kagome smiled and ran her fingers over her lips. It may not have been the same fiery, hot, kiss that InuYasha had given her, but she liked it none the less.
Rin came from the kitchen into the living room, saw Kagome and smiled. "Did you have fun today?" Rin asked her and Kagome nodded her head. "Yes, yes I did. Is InuYasha back yet?" Kagome asked while moving away from the door and towards the stairs. "Yeah he got back about an hour ago, seemed a bit angry at something. You might want to go see him." Rin said and Kagome nodded and ran up the stairs to go see InuYasha. Even though Kogua could fill the gaps in her heart and soul, InuYasha filled it up to the brim where it over ran into something deeper.
Kagome walked into the room and closed the door, InuYasha was sitting on the floor doing relaxation exercises. Kagome took off her shoes and quietly walked over to where InuYasha was. Kagome crouched down in front of him "InuYasha?" she asked softly and sweetly. InuYasha's eyes flashed open, red seeping through them; he growled. Not a sexy low growl, but a deep threatening, dangerous growl that made Kagome gulp.
"InuYasha, what's wrong?" she asked again, fear evident in her voice. InuYasha's demon was smiling on the inside when he saw the fear in her eyes and heard it in her voice. "Does it matter?" he spat out at her. Kagome's eyes were wide and she looked confused. "Of course it matters, why wouldn't it?" she asked him looking worried, biting her lower lip, nervously. He laughed a deep laugh, not one of happiness or amusement, one of anger. "The way you and that demon you were flirting with, I'd say that I didn't matter at all." Kagome's eyes widened at his response. "Oh god, you saw us." Kagome said her hand going to her mouth.
"InuYasha it's not what you think honestly I can explain." Kagome said, tears threatening to spill over. "Explain?! Explain! Explain how I came home and you weren't here and I went crazy, because I thought something happened to you! Explain how I was this close from tearing that guy to pieces, beacause he was touching you! Explain that to me!" he yelled at her and Kagome's tears fell down her face like a waterfall.
"How do you think I feel, whenever you are around Kikyo, or you talk about her! For once I wanted to know what it was like to not to have to hide anything. For once, I wanted to walk down a street and hold someone's hand. You do it daily; with Kikyo I don't have anyone. I walk around watching you two all the fucking time! It kills me inside literally, each time I think about it. It hurts me physically, every single time. I use to sit there at night and curl up in a little ball and cry, endlessly for hours and hours. I was in so much pain; I didn't know what else to feel. Goddamnit, I have loved you for years and years and years endlessly, unconditionally and fully and the crazy thing is, is that I still love you and I will always love you." Kagome cried out at him, sobbing.
InuYasha froze, at her words he didn't know that he had hurt her that bad, he had no idea. Kagome shook her head "I'm leaving for now. I'll come back tomorrow. But InuYasha I'm not going to sit and wait for you forever. I could and I want to but I won't do it." Kagome said and she ran from the room, crying. InuYasha stood there frozen as he heard the door slam, and the car squeal away and he just stood there. Not fully realizing what he had just lost.
O.O ... no, it's not the end for InuYasha and Kagome, you just have to go through the bad before you can get to the good. But yeah, my boyfriend read this and at the time we were just friends, my ex had just broken up with me and he understood, this was around the time that my current boyfriend wasn't sure if he was in love with me or not. But yeah... XD it turns out alright, just gotta get through the bad.
Anyways, as always please R + R I love the feedback. :)
Love, My-Immortal-Heart
