"Thank Merlin, it's Saturday!" I hear from the bed next to me.

"Alice…" Mattie groans. "Shut up…"

"Sorry, Mattie." She says sheepishly.

"What's the time?" I ask.

"Nearly ten."

"Oh crud. Bloody soggy cornflakes!" I yell, sitting bolt upright.

"What? What's wrong, Az?"

"I've got to meet Amos at 10.30. I'm going to be late!"

"No, you're not; you just need to dress quickly."

I jump out of bed and run over to my closet, pulling out my black jeans, purple scarf, orange t-shirt and my black coat.

I shower quickly, fixing my hair with a drying and styling charm, and run out to meet Amos by our spot.

"Hi," I say puffing.

"Hey," He says coolly, placing a kiss on my lips. "Shall we?" He offers his arm and I take it. He leads me out to the Black lake, where a blanket is set up.

"Wow." I breathe. And it is wow. On the blanket, there's a picnic basket, presumably containing food, some butter beer and glasses, and there is a dusting of rose petals around it.

"Do you like it?" He asks gently. "I've put an invisibility charm on it, too, so we can have some privacy."

Privacy? FOR WHAT?

Okay, Azura, calm down. It's about time you had another make-out session with your boyfriend.

He pulls me onto the blanket and pours me some butter beer. I smile and take a sip.

After some good food, we lay back on the blanket and Amos entwines his fingers with mine. "Azura?"

"Mm?"

"Can I ask you a personal question?"

"Uh, alright."

"A-are you a virgin?"

WHATT?? Did he just ask that?

"Well, yes." I say, blushing furiously.

He breathes a sigh of relief. "Have you ever thought about it?"

Of course I have. What normal teenage girl hasn't? "I might have, once or twice."

"I love you, Azura, you know that?"

I blush even more. My heart skips a beat. "I, uh, I love you too." Although it doesn't feel right saying it to someone I barely know.

He sits up, and leans over me. Oh god. He's so beautiful.

Amos' hot breath stings my lips and he tenderly kisses me, leaning his body on top. The kiss gets heated as our hands rove all over one another's body. I can feel the heat radiating from us, and my scarf suddenly feels tight and suffocating.

I pull it off, and go back for more. I love this feeling.

My hands find his shirt, unbuttoning it, and pulling it off his torso. Oh, those muscles… I hope I'm not drooling.

My teenage hormones kick in and my hands are moving of their own accord, as they find his belt buckle and easily undo it.

Wow, where is this coming from?

He stops me here. "A-are you sure?"

Do I want this? Do I want to go all the way?

Oh, stuff it, what's the worst that could happen? I'll use those contraceptive charms, I'll take precautions. Besides, isn't it every girl's dream to do it with guy she loves?

But, do I love him? How do you know?

Well, there's only one way to find out…

I nod, going in for another kiss. But as we hungrily rip at each other's clothes, something nags at me.

I don't know what, and I don't care as a sudden pain rips through me, from between my legs, and I realise it's too late to turn back now.

I'm not sure how long it lasts, but we lay there panting and sweating, despite the cold.

"Are you okay, Azura?" He asks.

I nod my head, despite the dull pain that's going through my body. "We should get back." I tell him.

"Yeah, do you need help up?" I take his offered hand, and get up with a groan of pain. "I guess it's more painful for girls." He grimaces. "Sorry, I really shouldn't have let you continue."

"Look, Amos, its fine. I chose to do it. You were even sweet enough to ask if I wanted to go through with it." I tenderly push some shaggy hair out of his eyes and kiss him, wrapping my arms around him.

He takes a deep breath. "I love you." He whispers in my hair.

"I love you too, Amos. Come on." I point my wand at myself, and I'm suddenly dressed and clean.

He does the same for himself and magically packs everything up, and he walks me to the dorm.

When I get upstairs, I collapse on my bed. "Hey Az, how was Amos?" Alice asks me.

She's the only one in the room, and I really need to tell someone. "It was… good. Alice, can I tell you something?"

"Yeah, go ahead. I won't tell if you don't want me to."

"Swear?"

"Swear."

"Amos and I, well, we, uh, I'm not a virgin anymore." I confess. It feels good.

She looks at me shocked. "I'm sorry, do you mean to tell me, you had sex with Amos Diggory?" She says quietly.

I nod, looking away from her, with a blush crawling up my cheeks.

"Oh Azura! Are you okay?" She asks.

I realise I'm crying. Oh god, she's going to think he raped me!

"It was consensual, right?"

"Yes, Alice." She sighs in relief.

"Then, why are you crying?"

"I don't know." I admit.

She throws her arms around me, and I realise why I'm crying. I don't love Amos the way he wants me to. The way you're supposed to feel about the person you lose your virginity to.

"Alice, I think I've made a mistake." I say to her.

"Why, Az, what's wrong?"

"I don't love Amos… He said he loved me, and I said it back… but it felt… wrong…"

"Azura, are you telling me, you regret it?"

"Well… Oh, I don't know!" I take a deep breath. "I mean, I like Amos, but I don't love him… It feels wrong to tell him."

"Ah, I see." She smiles at me. "Honey, it doesn't matter if you don't love Amos, you've only had sex. It's not like you're marrying him."

I feel like she's my mum, giving me relationship advice.

"So, it's not a bad thing?"

"No! Of course not! As long as it was consensual sex, you don't need to be in love with him. Besides, people fall in and out of love all the time."

"Thank you Alice. It's really helping." I am truly grateful.

"So, how do you feel?"

"I'm in pain. Alice, is it normal?"

She chuckled. "Yeah, I was sore for a couple of days, but it gets so much better." A blush creeps up her cheeks as she realises what she just said.

I laugh.

"So, was it okay?"

"It was really romantic."

"Give me details, please."

"Well, he took me out to the lake, set up a picnic and fed me breakfast and butter beer. Then we were kissing, and suddenly, I had the urge to rip off his clothes… He stopped me and asked me if I was sure, I told him I was, and well, we did it, then and there."

She gasped. "OUTSIDE? BY THE LAKE? IN PUBLIC? Weren't there sticks and leaves everywhere?"

Well, come to think of it… my back hurts… maybe there were a few rocks…

"We had charms on so no one would see, and we were on a blanket. I didn't get too many sticks in my back." I told her.

"Oh, thank Merlin." She said.

"But afterwards, he apologised to me, saying he should have stopped me. Isn't that weird?"

"Yeah, that is odd… Maybe he knows you don't really love him…" She said thoughtfully.

"I don't know, but I can't help but think I should set him straight, before it gets to out of hand."

"Yes, you should. Az, I think you need to tell him how you feel. However, a fling is always good. I think you need someone who can distract you, until you do find someone you love." She reasons.

"A distraction…" I repeat thoughtfully. "I think you're right, Alice, I think I need a distraction." I agree.