Author's Note:
Hi guys! I hope everyone is doing fine. I need your opinion for the next chapters. Do you want me to include Ana's POV in this story? I really need your reaction about this, so please leave me a review. I will get my cues based on your reactions :) Here is a new chapter. I used a song called Just Give it Time by Jon McLaughlin. I hope you will enjoy it! Thanks to MidnightSteele for editing my story. ;)
It is Saturday morning, I am checking some documents in my study after Ana and I had our breakfast. Someone called Ana on her phone so I grabbed that chance to do some work while she is busy taking the call. I want to spend this weekend with just the two of us so I need to sort this out and I am ready to enjoy this weekend with Ana. I am about to stand from my seat to look for Ana when she angrily enters my study. I'm confused as to what got to her nerves to look like that. I am just in my study and for sure, I haven't done anything wrong. We had a great breakfast earlier and this reaction in Ana's face worries me so much.
"Christian, is there something going on that you need me to know?"
"Baby, can you please take a seat first? I don't know why you are acting like that. You were okay a few minutes ago. And what are you talking about, something that you need to know?"
"Oh come on Christian! You're a smart man and there's no need for me to tell you what it is. You know what you did not tell me."
"You know everything Ana. Just say what it is that is making you upset now."
"Really? I know everything? So why is it I have no idea about GEH buying SIP?"
Oh, I never saw this coming. Yes, I am aware that Ana will know about it soon but not today. The deal was done yesterday, so how come someone knew about it now? I need to choose my words and be very careful.
"So someone called you up today and informed you about it then. I don't know how the news spread that fast but I had no plans of not telling you, Baby. The deal just got closed yesterday."
"I don't care when the deal was closed. My point is, you did not tell me that you were going to buy it. Why SIP, Christian? Because I'm there and you need to control me while I'm at work?"
"Oh, baby please don't think like that. It's not about the need of controlling you, but it is a need for me to make you safe. You know my issues and I am hoping that you understand that part."
"But I don't want you to be connected with my work. I don't want others to think that I have a job because of you. I want to do it on my own… to be in a place because of my hardwork."
"I do understand your point Ana. And believe me Baby, I have nothing to do with you being hired at SIP. I just thought of buying it because I want to explore the publishing industry and I want you to be safe. It will give me peace of mind and at the same time, I'm expanding my company."
"But why didn't you tell me earlier? It would be better to know it from you rather than having someone call me to inform me about it."
"I did plan to tell you today. I am just sorting out the documents here. But I guess I'm a little too late as you already knew it before I could even tell you."
I hope that my reasons are enough to make Ana feel better. I didn't want to hide it from her in the first place. She is still quiet and I think she is thinking. Her face won't give any hints as to what she is now feeling. I started to stand and go to her. I want to embrace her and say sorry if I made her feel bad. I stand at her back and give her a hug from behind. I rest my chin in her shoulder.
"Baby, I'm so sorry if you feel bad about it, but please understand that I just want you to be safe. Being away from you makes me feel uneasy and the thought of you not being safe really makes me crazy."
"I understand. Just give me the same understanding as I really need some time to process what happened. Can you do that Christian?"
"What do you mean by giving you time? Are you planning to leave?"
"I am not running, okay? I just want to be away today and I will be back tomorrow. Please give me this time for myself."
"Please Baby, don't leave. You can stay here if you need me to be away from you. I will go to my parent's house so you can have the apartment all to yourself."
"No Christian. Please trust me to do this. I will let you know where I am. I am not leaving you, just think that I am in a vacation."
"You're gonna come back...?"
I feel myself as if I am a kid afraid of being alone and begging someone just to be beside me. But I don't need to be selfish. Ana assures me that she will be here tomorrow and I need to understand her the same way she understands me. I have no choice but to give in to what she needs. Like what we agreed before, we have to talk, to come to a solution and take the necessary action. I want her to feel that I am willing to walk the extra miles if that means that she will be back to me again. I start to release her from my embrace.
"Okay Baby. Just don't forget to tell me where will you stay today and please let Taylor drive you anywhere you want to go."
She walked to where I am standing and put her fingers under my chin to make me look at her. She smiled, before saying, "Thank you Christian. I will be back. I just need to clear my mind. I am not running. I am not leaving you forever, I just need time. Okay?"
And I just nod. And I am rewarded with a smile from her, she gave me a hug, and started to walk out of the room. I can hear her talking to Taylor and that gives me a little relief.
I start to make my way in the bedroom, and Ana is trying to pack a set of clothes that she will be bringing. I just sit on the bed watching her. I can't do anything and it scares me, but a little voice inside me reminding me with Ana's words…"I am not running. I am not leaving you forever, I just need time."
I did not notice that Ana is now standing in front of me as I might have been staring at the same spot of the room for a few minutes. I look at her and she sits beside me, holding my hands.
"Christian Grey, I love you. I will be back, I promise."
I try to prevent a tear from escaping in my eye, so I just pull her towards me, hug her so tight, and whisper how much I love her.
I choose to stay in our room. I don't want to see Ana out of the door. I am sure Taylor knows what I expect him to do. I am confident with that. After a few minutes, I can feel my blackberry signalling a new message.
To: Christian Grey
From: Anastasia Steele
Subject: I love you!
Dear Christian,
I know you are still in there and not wanting to get out of the room. Please don't feel that way, I will be coming home tomorrow, that's a promise. I love you Christian, please don't doubt that.
Only Yours,
Anastasia Steele
With that, I tried to compose myself and come out of the room. I go to my piano and start playing a song. After playing, I decided to go to Taylor's room to ask how Ana was. Before reaching in his door, I can hear music surrounding his room. I never thought that he does love music. As I came nearer, the lyrics became clearer.
Still waters, heavy hearts
Plans we make all fall apart
Disillusioned and lost in the gray
How can we fix the heart when it breaks?
Don't know how much more you can take
Just give it time
It's gonna get better
Now is not forever at all
Just give it time
Everything changes
Tomorrow comes today will be gone
Everything's gonna be fine
Just give it time, give it time
Quiet landslide when nobody knows
Regretted decisions that nobody chose
Under water and sinking fast
No way out, no way to get back
What might have been is lost in the past
When the world you're in is still again
And it all fades out
You've reached the end, begin again now
Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be alright
Just give it time
And as usual, the song speaks to me; the words that I need to tell myself. Yes, we just need time, and Ana deserves to have hers; if she wants it. At the end of the day, everything will be alright...
Author's Note:
I am not that happy with this chapter but I want to give you something today. Please don't forget to leave a review and do tell me if you want Ana's POV. Thank you for reading and I will wait for your reviews. :)
Thanks again to MidnightSteele. :)
