Ok. So most of you are asking why it's twilighty right now. It's like this. Right now, Bella wants to move on with her life and is, in a way, trying to run away from the hurt her past has given her, losing her Bella-ness in the process. But life isn't fair and lets what she's running away from catch up with her— in a way. Although… life isn't too cruel to her and gives her some source of sanity.;) So these reminders, these dejavu events help comfort her instead of letting the pain crash in on her again by letting her reminisce all the events that led up to her and Edward being a couple. Of course, you're gonna say that is twisted. Shouldn't she be more hurt what with all these reminders of Edward? Well let me remind you that Bella's way of thinking is far different from most humans. And I used that concept. She finds a whole new Edward in Patrick and Patrick sort of helps stitch her up as the story goes on. In this fic, the huge similarity with Edward that she finds in Patrick is not heart shredding but comforting, possibly even endearing. You'll find a deeper reason as the story goes on. There is still sooo much more that is going to happen, you know. Anyways, back to the explanation. Patrick here serves as somewhat like Jacob and wakes the Bella inside her, willing her to live again. But of course, it isn't smooth sailing for any of them. So stay tuned to see how Bella, Patrick and Edward cope with things and see how the story turns out.:) I hope that explains things and if you have more questions, please don't hesitate to ask.:) Oh, and don't worry. Edward will be back soon… maybe.:) Muwahahaha.
Now, on with the story!
Disclaimer: I do not own the twilight series or any of its characters (even though I wish I do). They all belong to the brilliant mind of Stephenie Meyer.
Chapter 9: Remembering You
"Oh no. Oh no, no, no, no."
"What is it Alice?"
"She almost got killed! Jasper, she was almost run down by a car!" I paced about the room. We were in Denali, visiting Tanya's family. And Edward was in who knows where when Bella was back in Forks slimly surviving a near-death experience thanks to an anonymous vampire that just moved in and there was no guarantee that Bella was safe from him because his control could waver any minute thanks to Bella's indescribable blood sweetness!
I was not panicking. Clearly, I was not panicking! I instantly felt a wave of calmness emanate through my body.
"Thanks Jas." I smiled.
"No problem," his gaze full of love, "shouldn't we tell Edward?"
I sighed. "I would if he would just answer his stupid phone."
Last time I called to tell him about the new vampire family that moved into Forks, he didn't answer his phone. Honestly, why was he keeping a phone with him if wasn't even going to use it? Of course, he made me promise not to keep tabs on Bella knowing it would be all the more difficult for him to resist going back to her. I followed his wish… but that didn't mean I could stop the visions from coming on their own. I was too attuned to Bella.
"Alice you said she was almost run down. What happened?" Jasper snapped me from my reverie. His voice was transparent with concern— he may not be as close to Bella as I was but he cares for her as much as I do… he just isn't comfortable enough to show it.
"She would have been killed if that vampire hadn't interceded." I said softly.
"Is Bella safe now, then?" I stared at him darkly. When has Bella ever been safe?
"From the car? Yes. From the vampire? No."
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When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears. I held your hand through all of these years and you still have all of me.—Evanescence, My Immortal
"Aah!" I sighed. "Why did I fall for that?"
I followed Victoria's scent up to Texas and now I was in Brazil. Realization dawned on me when it was too late. I was following a false trail and by now, her scent was all but gone. I tried to retrace my steps hoping to catch it again but it was for no avail.
My focus wavered as my thoughts came back to Bella. Tracking down Victoria wasn't really that much of a distraction. I was horrible at tracking! I wasn't even in the right continent.
I laughed at the irony. I couldn't track Victoria but I had no difficulty hearing out Bella's heartbeat as long as it was within my vampire hearing. I had a hard time following another vampire's scent but I could keep track of Bella's scent as naturally as breathing. Up to now, I still couldn't explain the phenomenal draw I had towards my angel…
Ugh! What situation had I put myself into? I couldn't stand being away from Bella any longer. I wasn't trying to live through one week at a time or even one day. I was fighting through a single hour. It was only a matter of time before I boarded a plane and went back to Forks. I would beg Bella to take me back if I had to.
But that shouldn't happen. I left to protect her from the monster I was and I could never allow my control over my selfish desires to waver. As far as I knew, what I was doing was for the best, for my love, no matter how much it tore me apart.
I lost my trail of thought as the cell phone in my pocket vibrated. Alice. It was the second time this month that she called in only a margin of a week or so and the nth time she called this day.
I debated with myself whether I would answer or not. It was possible that my family just wanted to know where I was. And I couldn't possibly face them, not right now when I was still crumpled and broken.
I thought of how hard the situation was for Carlisle and Esme. They didn't want to move out of Forks but they trusted my decision. They would do anything to keep Bella away from harm.
Alice was the one who contested my decision the most. She said it would only pain me further, more so Bella, if we left. If I wanted to protect her, I should stay with her was what Alice said. She really has regarded Bella as a sister—but this feeling was backed up with the vision of Bella as a new born.
But Alice's reasoning was illogical to me. How could I possibly protect Bella from what I was if I continued to be with her? It didn't make any sense. Every waking minute she spent with me was already a suicide attempt.
I sighed again. But what if Alice was calling because something important occurred? It was far from being implausible.
What if she got a vision about Bella and it was anything but nice? Having Bella's luck, that was a possibility. But I told Alice not to keep tabs on Bella and she promised. I trust her enough to not go back on her word.
I stared at the rising sun finally deciding on answering her call. But as I was about to open it, it stopped ringing. She would call again if t was anything important. You can hand it to Alice on being a pest when the situation called for it.
I put my phone back in my pocket and closed my eyes as I secluded myself in a dark unlit alleyway knowing the sun would not reach me there. It would cause my skin to sparkle and I couldn't let people see that. I chuckled as I remembered once saying to Bella how much a traffic jam that would cause.
So I stayed there in that unlit alleyway allowing thoughts of my past with Bella to intrude. I remembered her smile, how the blood rushed to her cheeks as she blushed and the way her chocolate brown eyes exuded such strong emotion as she sat down on my lap and gazed into my eyes, that very first time she said "I love you."
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