I know Edward is being an ass. But this is the chapter in which he starts getting better, promise. The Harry Potter movie was amazing, and my fiancée and I threw Swedish Fish and popcorn at the people walking around in full-on costumes and quoting the movie in fake English accents. How fun.
EPOV
I wasn't a complete idiot, just a dick. Bella was the person to make me realize how important love is, and the only person I want to share it with. Before Bella, I was trapped in a life so unfulfilling it would have eventually driven me crazy.
In
a field outside of town we could always be alone
Carry a blanket
maybe a basket - and that's it
Innocence was the key I was locked
up never free
Until you turned me
I thought we would end up together, get old together, have a family together. The aspect of sharing a life with Bella was so sweet, and I had thrown it away.
Like
vines we intertwined (like vines we intertwined)
Carelessly
growing up and growing old
Life was on our tongues (on our
tongues)
And it tasted heavenly so good
Laying around the apartment, I had never realized how empty it was without Bella around. I deserved this, and I had to suffer for what I had done to her. But what had I done? I wasn't cheating on her. I just had a problem, and Luciana is the only one that understands it. I deserve to be alone.
I
wake up and I feel alone
I was just asleep
Right where I
belong
Inside this sad, sad song
She was too good for me. Too sweet, too innocent, too….perfect. How she had fallen for me I would never know, but I did know I wanted her back. I couldn't lose what we had. I don't want to ever wake up from the happily ever after that is Bella.
I
knew this was a dream it was too good to be true
And the
coincidences were a bit much too
Who wants to wake up?
Who
wants to lose it?
Who wants to live in this place?
I have nothing keeping me here; nothing holding me down. I need her. I can't stop picturing her in my mind, but it's getting harder to keep her there with me. I know she's here, I know I can find her again.
Blankets
here keep me from cold
Holding tightly my pillows
Frantically
searching for her
Inside my head she's somewhere
Is this all a dream? A nightmare? Will I wake up and Bella is here with me, close to my side. I rubbed my eyes. Nope, I'm awake. Bella coming back to me is all in my imagination; she doesn't want me anymore, she told me that herself.
This is hell. This is where I deserve to be.
She is somewhere
I
wake up and I feel alone
I was just asleep
Right where I
belong
Inside this sad, sad song
(AUTHOR'S NOTE: That song is "We Intertwined" by The Hush Sound.)
BPOV
"Bella, I have to tell you something." Alice and Jasper stood in the doorway; Alice nervously wringing her hands.
"Okay." I was sitting in Edward's old room at the Masen mansion, mindlessly fiddling with an old Magic 8 ball I had found under the bed.
"We're moving out of the estate." Jasper said, and both of them plopped on the bed next to me. "And we're moving into our own place."
"That's great guys." I forced a smile then looked down at my hands. "I'm so happy for you….but I thought you didn't want to live together until you got married." Alice smiled widely and Jasper wrapped his arm around her.
"Jasper just asked me to marry him, Bella!" Alice finally squealed, throwing her arms around me. "Just a few minutes ago!" She fished a beautiful ring out of her pocket and held it out to me. Smiling widely, Jasper slipped the ring on her finger, and they both looked at me expectantly.
"Wow…..this is amazing." I managed. "You guys are going to be so happy." My voice cracked and Alice's face fell.
"Honey, are you alright?" She asked, and I held back a sob.
"Bella, don't cry." Jasper begged, holding me tight to his side and kissing my forehead.
"I'm sorry I'm ruining this for you. You can go celebrate, I'll be fine." I assured them, waving them away while trying to stop the tears running down my cheeks.
I would never be as happy as they are right now. The man I love doesn't love me back anymore, and I'm stuck raising our daughter on my own. I had quit my job several months into my pregnancy; Edward had more than enough money for the both of us and I really wanted to be a full time mom. But now I had nothing. Edward had been paying all the rent on our apartment, I had used his money for clothes and food and other essentials. I didn't have anything except for Dora and my friends. That's it.
"We were going to go out to dinner with everyone, and you should come." Alice said, taking a tissue off the nightstand and helped me wipe away my tears.
"Is Edward coming?" I asked in a small voice.
"He's my brother, Bella." Jasper said in an equally soft voice. "Can you handle being around him, or do you want to stay home?" Anger surged through me.
"No! I'm Alice's best friend, and I'm coming to celebrate with you." I said forcefully, getting off the bed. Alice and Jasper stared at me, surprised.
"Oh….okay. We'll leave at six." Alice said, slipping her hand into Jasper's and pulling him off the bed. Well, she couldn't really pull him, she just held on to him as he stood up.
"Great." I said in a forcibly cheerful voice. "I just need to find a sitter for Dora, and then get ready." I threw my arms around the both of them. "I'm so happy for you." I whispered.
"Thanks, sweetie." Jasper kissed my cheek. "We'll let you get ready."
They left the room and I fell onto the bed, rolling into a ball and muffling my cries with a pillow.
Can you guess what's wrong with Edward????? See, he didn't cheat on Bella, and he still loves her. You'll find out what's going on with him in the next couple of chapters! Please review…..
Xoxo- Melodyella aka Mellie
