Rosies POV

Sian hadn't come back yet. She's been lost 4 hours now… I am truly worried because I know the state sian could be in after what sophie told her. Even though Sian is not the self destructive one I know she must be dying inside. I want to go out and look for her but I cant leave the house in case she comes back. I told Jason to go and search for her. Besides its freezing out there, I thought it couldn't get any worse when it started raining. Such a dramatic scenario…they should do a movie oh and I could play sophie as I am totally hotter than her. Kissing Sian though..Ew.

Focus Rosie, where would she be? Ough who am I trying to convince I don't fucking know where she could be, such a great friend I am…But this is all Sophie's fault isn't it? if she hadn't fell or jump or whatever she did Sian wouldn't be rapped or lying unconscious on the street, or sleeping in a bench being robbed or anything that can happen to a girl alone at this time in the night. It is all Sophie's fault. Don't get me wrong, she is my sister and I love her with all my heart, but it seems as if she has lost her brain lately, she is screwing up everything. I don't give a flying fuck that she is in hospital, that doesn't excuse her behavior. Im not the one to be sympathetic or complacent, she makes mistakes and she has to accept the consequences and if something happen to Sian she will have to deal with the consequences of my fist, then we will see whether she comes to her senses or not.

Anyway I should have been with her, stuck by her when she needed me, as the big sister I am. All this roof thing wouldn't have happened then…Sian took all the responsibilities and tried to help Sophie while I was running away from all the drama going on in my house. I left my family due to my selfishness. Ough stupid brain why do you have to work now and not when I need you? Just fuck off I don't need you to tell me I have to blame myself too.

I cant bare staying here doing nothing anymore Sophie fucking Webster is going to hear me once and for all. I grab my coat and put my heels on faster than ever and ran out of the house to my car. Passing through the deserted streets of Manchester fits exactly my mood, I don't want to see anyone. I need to see Sophie and tell her how wrong she is and I need to get there quick. Rushing through red lights I don't have the time right now to stick the fucking rules I need to arrive at the hospital and go back to look for Sian. I rushed to the now darkened and half empty halls till I got to the room. In the door way a man was stood looking inside through the window but as soon as he saw me he hurried along the hall out of my sight.

"You little bitch are going to hear me! All this shit burying us is your fault! I promise you if I find a little cut in Sians skin I will fuking kill ya!"I screamed entering the room

"Shhh Rosie! She is asleep""Oh Sian you are here oh my god" I said running towards her and hugging her tight" I was so worried…how stupid I am to not come here earlier"I started sobbing ." I'll call Jason to tell him you are here and we'll leave ok?"she nodded" I love you Sian.""I love you too sis"

Sians POV

My short trip through the city helped me to clear my mind and reach a decision. I know I cant live without Sophie thats a fact, I am not able physically of living without her, just thinking about it makes me sick. Yet I realised that this is the end of a chapter, right now my life is teaching me in the hardest way it found that I don't have to be attached to anyone, I don't need anyone to feel complete, to not feel lonely. I got myself. After everything with my so called family my childhood went quietly, anyone noticed me. Of course I was the typical blonde with blue eyes who everyone said 'such a cutie', but my parents just lived their life with me as another piece of furniture. Thats why along my teenage years I was begging for attention and that led me to Ryan. However when I started going out with Sophie the lack of attention left, yet it wasn't the attention Ryan gave me, it was the attention which love brings, something that I never imagined. The love Sophie showed me, taught me, made me develop something more intense, a bond between us.

Right now I am not giving up on our bond, on us, I am building my own life from the ruins of my broken heart. I need to give this chapter a closure, as Sophie said, we both have to if we want to have a healthy relationship, maybe it will be as friends or as something else, but im not going to do predictions, I'll just take what the future give me knowing that I will always be in love with Sophie and accepting that as I gift.

After Rosies outburst in the hospital she is giving me some time to say goodbye, more to myself than to Sophie.

I tangled my hand once again with sophies missing how soft her touch was...

FLASHBACK

Last week was the first time we've slept together and saying it was mind-blowing is an understatement. I am still I little confused about everything though and I feel as if im pushing her. I cant take the guilt of breaking her vow just because I am a hoe that cant keep her hands to herself. Nevertheless we've been all touchy-feely these days as if we couldn't be in the same room without touching each other. Maybe we were holding hands,or we brushed our arms cooking closer than necessary,or we were cuddled into each other on the sofa. Actually we've spent the whole week cuddled watching telly, dvd's or just chatting and laughing as old times, well it wasn't old times when her mom left to see Rita, Rosie or to buy something and we started making out. Anyway when we weren't near, as sally was getting a bit suspicious, we were always glancing each other. I cant even count the amount of times I've caught Sophie looking right at me cleavage or just openly staring at me. Im not a saint either, I've never enjoyed so much the stairs before as I discovered I could happily go up and down the stairs all the times I want as long as sophie is walking before me. That sexy bum of hers is killing me, as well as her body.

She's always been eclipsed by Rosie, don't ask me why, I love rosie but I find her a total slaper. Plus she has not Sophie's eyes, or long hair, or tanned sexy body, or that mouth...oh crap that mouth...see! I'm getting carried away just by thinking of her!Anyway I am waiting her as Rosie convinced us to go clubbing with her and some friends. Sally is sleeping over her sister's as she hasn't seen her during the holidays, you can tell after everything with Kevin and Jack I totally understand that she didn't find the time. So Sally let us stay here as long as Rosie is in charge, yep I don't understand either why would she trust on Rosie over us but hey we are spending almost 2 days without Sally checking Sophie doesn't kiss me I am not complaining.

Rosie is helping me to drag sophie downstairs and let me get ready a little surprise for her. At first Rosie was a bit taken back since she is her sister and we are like family but she is good as long as both of us are 'prudent'. Rosie's words. As if I could get her pregnant or something...

Finally, we've arrived at the club which is really nice by the way, there is a long bar with blue light and a big dance floor with loads of tables on the other side. Sophie and I go get a table while the others order the drinks and I find myself staring again, I bet she choose the dress just to tease me, as she is being doing all week. She is wearing a black skinny dress which shows part of her back and hug her curves in a way that is driving me crazy. Before that night she always wore hoodys or clothes that doesn't point out her upper body, but since that night she is always wearing tanktops, and tonight's dress...

Siting down on a sofa she wrapped her arm around my shoulders keeping me close. We've been like this all the time we've been drinking and I can genuinely say that rosies friends are actually nice. However sophie is growing excited about dancing with me, as she's been whispering in my ear the hour we've been .

So we tell everybody and go down the dancefloor. We are now I bit tipsy grinding into each other to Turn me on by david guetta and nicki minaj. In our clumsy state we hold onto each other for support and I tangle my arms on her neck while she places her hands on my hips but soon she lower her hand to cup my bum. I don't notice the music changing, I just feel the sound waves vibrating through me and Sophie's body rocking to the beat in time with mine. I've always thought that people who come to a club to grind into their boyfriends\girlfriends can fuck off and go shag to their own house but I cant help myself with Sophie, she so sexy dancing here with me, I feel like I want to remove every gap and hold her into a while I look at my watch and jump I little noticing we've been dancing for an hour."Soph"I whisper-scream in her ear" can we go home now please"

"what why?are you ok?"ohhh look how sweet she is" its just that I cant do to you the things I want in public can i?" I say to Sophie smirking. We make our way back as fast as we can trying to avoid each other gaze as we both know we wouldnt control ourselves if we saw the look of pure lust in our eyes. We arrived home and I convinced her to stay downstairs until I call her as I have to put the finishing touches on my surprise. I've covered the room with petals, candles, notes and paper hearts. I heard a soft crack on the door as it opens and I can see my gorgeous girlfriend approaching me.

"I hope these are happy tears"I say wipping the tears off her face as she scanned the bedroom"Soph listen last week well you know when, it was amazing but I think that maybe I rushed or pushed you as we were a bit drunk. Dont get me wrong I don't regret anything but as it was your first time and I wasn't as gentle as I wanted to... well I need to make it up to you. We've been all week teasing each other and its weird but I see you with different eyes. All I can think about is that I want to show you how much I love you. As I said this is a bit weird cause you are my best friend but-"She silenced me with a kiss.

"I love you Sian you don't have to make it up to me cause im the one who asked you to stay. I want you every minute of every day. And I always will. Now shut up and kiss me I've been horny all week." This girl knows how to kill the moment. But truth is it turned me on. She gripped my neck as I run my hands up down her spine while we caress each others tongues. I parted our lips turning her around to unzip her dress kissing my way down her know exposed skin, earning all sorts of gasps from her. Note to myself:take your time with her back. I spun her around again after taking off her dress and lift her up grabbing her thighs at first and now her bum. I carried her to the bed lowering us and hitting the covers grinding myself into her involuntary as she has still her legs around me. She pushed up my upper body to discard my blouse. Now both in our underwear as she removed my skirt painfully slow brushing my thighs with her fingertips. I start kissing her body, trying to find every sensitive spot I can play with. As I said I want it to be slow, gentle full of love, yet full of passion too. I want to please her in every way possible. I start kissing her jaw, her neck and her earlobe, the places I knew full well I could get to her. Eventually I lowered myself kissing her collarbone but rising myself up a bit to lick her adams apple. I kissed my way down to the edge of her bra still without taking it off and leading my mouth down her bellybutton and her hipbones. Every touch, every kiss, every lick of my lips, my hair tingling her skin made her gasp, release soft moans and sounds I cant get tired of hear. I kneeled beside her changing from my position straddling her I turned her down so she was now with her back on me. I laid on her body kissing her again now up her spine to her neck. I made my way up linking our fingers and sliding my thigh between hers adding a bit of pressure. I reached her bra and unclasped it when she said"Sian..please..." "Your...wish..is my...command" I said between kisses. I spun her back around straddling her again and taking off the last piece of clothes covering her. We started rocking our bodies together feeling the wetness raise soaking my own knickers with her centre. Neither of us could wait any longer,i needed to take her right there and then, and I did something I wasn't expecting myself to do: I placed myself between her legs cupping her breast with my hand and taking her nipple between my fingers as I entered her with my tongue. "Fuck Sian!"

"Im trying" I said with a smirk as she gasped feeling my warm breath in her centre. I don't know what I am doing. I just...I am letting my instinct lead me. I found another sensitive spot brushing my tongue with the front wall inside of her "Oh babe right there" she gripped tighter the covers moaning as I quickened my pace trying to get deeper into her. I want to taste every little inch of her. As her breathing was becoming erratic I opened more her thighs with my free hand and found her clit circling it with my fingers."Ouuuhgg!" As I felt waves of pleasure all over her body, I kept going on with my actions enjoying everything as a kid in a amusement park. I could feel myself getting turned on just by the sounds she was making. I know that I can easily get turned on by her but not to this levels. I thought I could orgasm just by thinking of what we were a while she reached her high shivering and screaming loudly."AAAH SIAN" I licked her centre clean brushing my tongue over her clit earning another wave of pleasure from my way back and after the 5 longest minutes of my life waiting for her to ride her orgasm and catch her breath again a sweaty Sophie hugged me tight resting herself on me.

"I don't know if my body will be able to deal with this forever I am knackered"

"Oi are you complaining?" "noway powers, your name really fits you" she said giggling.

I single tear rolled over my cheek, 'the last one' I promised to myself as I kissed the top of sophie's hand and left the hospital.