Sora x Riku
Warnings: fighting, cussing, and slight sadness.
Updated due to corrections! and new chapter! Hope you enjoy!
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Sora's pov:
"Sorry, Riku..." I mumbled sadly.
I dropped the broken lamp onto the floor without realizing it. What have I done? Seeing Riku on the floor unconscious made me feel like I was a criminal, maybe I should be put away.
"Sora, why did you do that?!" Roxas exclaimed as he quickly stood up to check on Riku, putting two of his fingers to his neck to check his pulse.
"Believe me Roxas he would have send you to the hospital, or worst killed you." And it was true I never seen Riku so angry before, not even after what I did to him. "Is he.." I was beginning to tremble, I never meant to hurt him, or at least hit him so hard to the point of killing him. I would never forgive myself.
Roxas sighed, "He's alive, just unconscious, good thing there isn't blood." Letting out a deep breathe that I didn't know I was holding, I was relief that Riku is okay.
"Now, Sora, what's going on? I know something must have happened between you two." He questioned, removing his fingers away from Riku's neck.
"If I tell you you'll hate me." Just like Riku. There was silence for a moment before Roxas spoke, getting up since he was kneeling on the floor.
"Sora, I can never hate you, you're my best friend." Roxas said sincerely but I knew deep down he will be disgusted with me once I tell him the truth. Well I guess he deserves to know, I just hope for the best.
"I raped Riku." Was the only thing that came out of my mouth. I was trying my very best not to look at Roxas as he gasps in shock.
"What?! That can't be true; you would never do such a horrible thing." Roxas stated, his voice sounded shaky.
"It's true, I tied Riku up when he was drunk. I saw that as an opportunity so I took it, but he saw what I was doing and became disgusted. I begged him to at least sleep with me once and I'll never show my face to him again. He hesitated but forcefully agreed."
"Then it wasn't rape! He agreed so you didn't rape him!" Roxas scowled, he still was trying to defend me.
"It was not consensual, Roxas. You should have seen his face, he was practically afraid... of me." I trailed off, frowning. I still remember Riku telling me to stop but I didn't listen.
"No, No, No! I know you didn't do this, you wouldn't do this. Riku told you lies, Sora!" Roxas was in denial, he really didn't want to believe the truth.
"Roxas, his friends beat me up! Riku was so fucking furious that he told them that I should be taught a lesson... but he didn't mean it." I tried to reasoned, and saw Roxas' eyes widened. He looked enraged.
"So that's why you got jumped, and Riku was hurting you because of that. So was everything your fault?" Roxas hissed, gritted his teeth and his hands clenching to fists.
"Yes." I admitted, but didn't want to say the other reason why Riku was hurting me. Roxas would have been shocked if he knew I was beginning to like him and that Riku was mad because of that.
"Listen, Roxas I-" Ouch.
I landed on the floor as Roxas threw me a rough punch. Okay I didn't expect him to actually punch me, just to leave bitterly or disgusted. I touched my left cheek that received the heavy impact; Roxas' punched hurts more than Rikus'.
"What the fuck, Sora!? I can't believe you, no wonder Riku was pissed and hurt you. I would do the same fucking thing if someone fucking raped me!" There is the anger, he finally sees the truth.
"Roxas, I never wanted any of this, I just wanted Riku... at least just once." You can't get all the things you want in life, I know that because Riku will never be mine.
"So it gave you the right to rape him! How could you do that?! Just seeing you makes me sick." Roxas scoffs as he coldly glares at me.
My eyes widened, "Roxas, please don't say that. You're my best friend." No, I didn't want Roxas to say such hurtful things.
"WAS. I don't know you anymore, I'm sorry but this is all your fault, Sora." He barked. I lower my head, my eyes getting watery. Its true...
"No it's not." A groaning tone answered.
Both me and Roxas' eyes widened and looked at Riku, who was sitting up and checking his head as he ran his hand through his silver locks.
"Riku?" I called out surprisingly with a hint of nervousness.
Riku's pov:
Oww my head is killing me, what the fuck happened? Softly opening my eyes, everything was blurry. I heard loud, vivid voices. Sounded like Sora. Am I disoriented?
Wait... Sora, he knocked me out. I remembered now because I was punching Roxas so he had no choice.
I wanted to get up or at least move my head but it was hard. My head thumped loudly from the pain, so instead I stood still on the floor till everything starts looking clearly.
Seeing two figures across me, I assumed its Sora and Roxas, and they sounded like they were arguing. I heard Roxas saying something about Sora getting jumped and something about me hurting Sora. What were they talking about?
My vision was slowly getting focus and I see Roxas in front of Sora, then I finally understood the conversation they were having. Sora told him the truth, it makes sense now. Roxas was furious with Sora which is rare to see since they got along very well.
Then suddenly Roxas punched Sora in his left jawed. What the? Now that made me see red. I tried so desperately to get up using my elbows for support, so I can at least sit up.
Damn it! My whole body is numbed because of the tremendous pain on the back of my head. But I need to fucking get up so I can fucking punch Roxas again!
When I heard Roxas said, "No wonder Riku was pissed and hurt you. I would do the same fucking thing if someone fucking raped me!" I knew that I had to stop him right there, he was going to make Sora feel awful.
My heart clenched and was overwhelmed with guilt when Sora cried out that he wanted me... for him at least once and it would have made Sora happy. Oh Sora...
Roxas continued saying hurtful things to Sora without any regret. My blood was boiling as I looked up to see Sora closed to tears. I snarled, enough is enough!
Using all my strength to sit up and narrowed my eyes to Roxas. "Not it's not." I answered, groaning in slight pain but tried my best to endure it.
Sora stared at me with a feared expression, he was afraid that I'll hurt him I'm assuming. But I wasn't going to do that anymore. I'm done with hurting him, I'm tired of being angry when there was nothing to be angry about.
"What do you mean its not?" Roxas inquired, coldly glaring at me not caring if I was okay or not.
"Because it's not. He didn't rape me, I wanted it." Sora frowned and looked away. When he looked away I glanced at his bruised cheek that was getting swollen and darkening. I slowly stand up.
"Cut the bullshit, Riku. Why are you defending your 'rapist'!" Roxas exclaimed irritated with a mixture of confusion.
I growled. "You don't know what the fuck is even going on, Roxas. It was not rape! I agreed because I LOVE HIM!" I shouted to Roxas, my face was glowing bright red, not out of embarrassment but out of anger. "So I suggest you leave before I give you the same treatment you gave Sora again."
Roxas scoffed. "Like how you have been treating him?!" He countered.
"Why do you care? I thought he made you sick." I heard him say that loud and clear, this bastard.
Roxas stiffed, "Whatever, I'm out of here. You're all fucking sick assholes." As he was about to leave the room, "Roxas?" I called out.
"What?" Roxas grumbled, bitterly, turning around. "Can't yo-"
Sora gasped as Roxas crashed to the floor, his nose bleeding as I inflicted one final punch toward his nose. "Get out of here and never come back."
Roxas quickly got up and left cursing under his breath. As soon as he left silence enrolled in the room.
Sora was the first to speak. "Riku I-"
"I'm sorry." I apologized, interrupting him.
"No.. I'm sorry for everything, and for knocking you unconscious." He said timidly, his lips curling to a frown.
Sighing tiredly, I walked towards Sora and noticed he flinched when I was about to grab him. He recoiled out of fear, was I really an asshole? Wait, Yeah I was..
"Don't be scared, Sora. I'm sorry for hurting you ... I don't know what got into me." I paused, thinking the right words to say next because I have to tell him the truth.
"You wanted me to suffer and I deserve it because I-"
"No. You didn't deserve anything, Sora. I wasn't mad at you because of what you did, I was upset that you told me that you liked Roxas. You basically used me and then decided to tell me that you like someone else. Do you have any idea how I felt? How much it hurt to hear that? Because it was painful.. " My heart was aching right now, it hurt to even talk about it.
Sora began to cry, "I never meant to hurt you, Riku. I just didn't want pity anymore, and you felt bad for what happened to me so I wanted to do the right thing. Which was liking someone else so you can leave, that way I wouldn't be a nuisance to you."
Wait, so he never stopped loving me? I thought when Sora said he liked Roxas he stopped having feelings for me. Then I remembered the incident we had on the bathroom, Sora told me 'I love you' and I didn't believe him. Once again guilt began to overflow.
"Do you really love me? Or, was it just in the heat of the moment?" My train of thought was broken when Sora asked that quietly, looking at the wall and not at me.
Stopping for moment to think, I truly didn't know how to answer that because I myself am confused about everything. But I know deep down there's feelings forming in my heart for him. I offered my hand to Sora so he can stand up from the floor, he grabbed a hold of my hand as I helped him up. Gently since he is still injured.
Finally I responded to his answer. "I don't know."
"Right. Of course, it was obviously in the heat of the moment. Silly of me to think that." Sora's voice cracked and force a small, fake smile.
"Sora, I don't love you." I see Sora tensed, closing his eyes tightly, afraid to hear what I was about to say. I kept continuing, "But lately I have been thinking a lot about you, every time Roxas was with you I couldn't help but feel jealous. My heart would often beat loudly just by seeing you." I admitted.
Sora stared at me shocked as if I grew an extra head. He seemed skeptical; I don't blame him for thinking that.
"Does it mean that you..." He trailed off, scared to finished the sentence.
I genuinely chuckled, "Yes, it means like you."
Sora sobbed but this time out of joy, and hugged me softly. I raised my hand to touch his brown spikes, affectionately.
"Thank you." Sora whispered happily through my neck.
It's time to forget the past and look forward to the future together.
Author's Note... I am so sorry for not updating this sooner! 3 whole months... Ouch, sorry. But I made this chapter longer to make it up. And summer school is almost over yay! I can write faster! Also this story is almost near the end, sadly. I'm trying to finish this one and 'brothers always have your back or is it your heart' because I have tons of ideas for other stories, seriously! But I'm trying to finish some stories so I don't get caught up in anymore work or get overload! Anyways this story got updated in corrections! So feel free to reread it!
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