CHAPTER NINE! :D :D
I crumpled to the floor as words spilled past my lips. The lips Edward used to kiss. The lips Edward used to caress. The lips Edward used to love. . . I wasn't even coherent enough to know what I was saying by now. The pain was too much to handle. I was grateful that God at least had the decency to allow me to be numb.
By the time Alice had dragged me to her glossy, yellow Porsche I was coming to my senses again. In silence, we both buckled our seat belts. "Bella," Alice murmured. "What's wrong?" I stared at her.
"What's wrong? What's wrong? You have to ask? Seriously Alice? How about I ring up Marie to tell her to randomly pop up and steal Jasper?" My tone of voice shocked me. I never raised my voice and most especially at Alice.
I guess I was just too heartbroken. . . Or I was becoming depressed. If I let myself go, I wouldn't be able to come back. I wouldn't be able to cooperate correctly. . . Like a broken car that was impossible to fix. Alice's hurt expression told how bad my words had affected her. "Alice, I'm sorry. . . I-" My gaze traveled to the floor. "I'm sorry,"
Alice shook her tiny head. "It's alright. I guess that was a stupid question. I'm just worried for you, Bella." She smiled slightly. "So, what do you want to do?"
I thought for a moment. I wanted to fall off the face of the earth, but that wasn't I want to do the most. Pleadingly, I stared into Alice's eyes and said, "Alice, I want to be a vampire. Please-"
I stopped talking when I noticed the pained expression on her face. "Bella, I can't. Edward would be furious. "I almost laughed. Almost.
"Edward doesn't care anymore Alice!" I snapped.
"Yes he does, Bella! You know it." She snapped back. "You know I can't turn you."
"Fine. " It was silent for a moment until I continued talking. "Spring Break is coming up, so. . ."
"So?" she asked.
"So, I can waste my time at La Push." I gave her a satisfied smirk
"Bella!" Alice whined. Oh come on, she can't still be prejudice
"Alice, please. You know Jake won't hurt me. You know it, I know it! Edward wouldn't approve, but that was the Old Edward. The new one just broke every single promise he ever made. Do you know what it's like to love someone who promised you so much, but turned around and broke all those promise? But no matter what, you still love him! My love for Edward is hurting me? Do you understand, Alice? Do you?" She sighed and nodded.
"I've never felt that way, but I suppose your right. You just do what you have to do."
"Thanks "I didn't notice we were already parked. I looked around, already having an idea where we were. I glanced at Alice. She just smiled and gave an encouraging nod. As I stepped out into the forest the spring breeze tangled my hair. I walked slowly, all the way to the spot where the opening was. I hesitated.
Should I? It was worth the pain. I pushed back the big bush and walked right into the sunlight meadow that I loved so much. The meadow full of life and magic. I sat down in middle, the heat of the sun beating down on me.
Edward was different. . . I knew that for a fact. I couldn't think of how it happened. I knew it had to do something with the fact that his wish finally came true. He was human. I guess Old Edward didn't remember the old saying, "All wishes come with a glitch. "
Lexi was the glitch. I knew, no matter how angry I was, Edward's memory wasn't the whole glitch. I knew I had to fight for him, no matter what. I love Edward! Our love was undying and I wasn't ready to give that up. Not for some stupid wish
I let my mind wander a million miles away. To the first day Edward brought me here. Behind my eyelids, I could see a row of brilliant and bright colors dancing. . . At the sound of a twig breaking, my eyes snapped open. I had fallen asleep. Alice was standing right at the opening of the meadow waiting with a worried look. I got up and yawned.
"Sorry, Alice. I guess I fell asleep. Can you drop me off at my house?"
"Yeah, I'll take you right now."
On the way home, I stared out the window lost in my thoughts. Alice drove slowly. A first for her, but instead of making me glad, like it would've done if things were still normal, it only brought more pain. It was suspenseful, slowly inching to my prison. My personal Hell.
