Authors Note: Sorry for such a boring chapter. There will be better ones to come :)

"Where is that stupid place?" Haruka muttered, irritated that she'd already driven down this street 20 times and she still couldn't find the place she was looking for. "Taiki said it should be here but I don't see it!" she said to herself, her voice raising in frustration.

Then out of the corner of her eye she spotted it, the big tall silver building Taiki had mentioned.

"Oh for fucks sake." she yelled as she drove over to the building and parked.

She got out of her car and slammed the door shut before looking up at the building. There was a sign on the building that read Sakura Counselling, the cursive letters surrounded by cartoon like images of sakura flowers.

"So cheesy." she muttered to herself as she walked up to the building. She grabbed the handle and pulled it open only to be met with the strong scent of artificial sakura flowers.

She walked up to the front desk where a young women probably in her early 20's sat. She had long curly hot pink hair, and was probably wearing 50 pounds of makeup on her face, combined with a hot pink dress that was obviously way too tight on her curvy figure. Haruka groaned quietly at the sight. "Hi, I'm here for an appointment with Dr. Lee."

The girl looked up at her and tilted her head. "Dr. Lee?" she repeated.

Haruka let out an irritated sigh. "Hai, Dr. Lee."

"Ahh ok. Name?"

"Tenou Haruka."

"Ok Mrs. Tenou, Dr. Lee will be with you shortly."

"Arigatou." Haruka replied before walking over to one of the short chairs and taking a seat.

Even though the room was covered in bright colors, Haruka quickly found herself bored and began to let her thoughts wander and thought back to that conversation with Taiki, when she told her about this place.

It had been another one of those nights where Haruka had woken up screaming from another nightmare.

Drenched in sweat, she quickly reached over to grab her phone, dialing the number she now knew by heart.

A man answered and she could tell he recognized her when he spoke. "Room 147 right?" he asked right away, obviously aware that this was a usual thing since she called almost every day at around this hour.

"Hai." Haruka answered quickly and there was a brief silence before she heard a sudden click indicating that someone had answered.

"Hello Haruka." Taiki said meekly, already knowing who was on the other end. She let out a soft sigh before speaking again. "What happened in the dream this time?" she asked gently.

"I saw Michiru again but this time she was standing there holding a baby and she told me it was one of the twins and when I looked down I saw that I was holding the other one and she was so happy and I..." Haruka began between sobs but eventually broke down full on crying once again. She hated the fact that she was being so weak and how vulnerable she felt. She hated that all her walls she'd worked so hard to build had just come crumbling down into heaps of rubble and she had no clue how to build them back up again.

She heard the younger girl let out a soft sigh. "Gomenasai Haruka. I know you miss her." she said softly, her voice filled with sadness for her friend. "If you want," she began. "I saw a place downtown the other day called Sakura Counselling. Maybe you can check them out since they'd probably be able to give you more help then I can."

Haruka sniffed and wiped away the tears that kept falling. "Maybe..." she said quietly, thinking the idea over in her head.

"Well if you want to set up an appointment with them let me know and I can give you their address and phone number."

"Ok, arigatou Taiki."

"It's no problem Haruka." Taiki said, and although Haruka couldn't see her she could tell she was smiling.

She heard a soft rustling on the other end of the phone and a soft mumbling. "Go to bed Yaten, I'm just talking to Haruka." the starlight said, obviously having woken up the eldest of the three.

"You woke Yaten up?"

Taiki giggled. "She's a light sleeper, unlike Seiya." she whispered obviously trying to keep her voice down.

Haruka smiled. "Arigatou Taiki, good night."

"Good night Haruka." she said and the line went dead.

Haruka was snapped back into reality when she heard a door open. A short lady who appeared to be around 40 stepped out, black hair up in a bun, dark round glasses framing her small eyes, and a long white coat over top of a black dress that fell to her knees.

"Tenou Haruka?" she asked as she looked around the room.

The blonde stood up from her seat and walked over to her. "That's me." she said with a cocky grin on her face.

The lady smiled and shook her hand. "It's nice to meet you, I'm Dr. Lee." She said. "My office is right this way, please follow me." she said and turned around walking to a room at the other end of the hall.

Haruka followed and found herself in a pale grey room with a dark black couch and a small little desk and office chair. In front of her was a clear glass coffee table filled with writing paper and assorted pens and pencils.

She sat down on the couch and was surprised at how soft it actually was. She folded her legs and tried to prepare herself for the difficult conversation that was coming.

The shorter lady had sat down on her office chair and her hands were folded, her eyes intensely focused on the young lady sitting in front of her. "So tell me what brings you here?" she asked softly, her voice kind and caring.

Haruka took a deep breath in, as many memories of her and Michiru came flooding through her brain. "Well you see a few years ago my wife or my girlfriend at the time, Michiru, was diagnosed with leukemia. She went through years of chemotherapy and a little over a month ago she was told that she a month left to live. Her last wish was for me to carry her child by combining our egg cells.

"I did wind up pregnant, but with twins. 3 weeks later I received a call in the middle of the night from the hospital. They told me to come as quickly as possible so I did." she said as she started choking up. "They then told me that she had less then a week to live. I wound up crawling into her bed and sleeping next to her.

"She woke me up the next morning and told me she loved me. Then..." she started to say but her voice caught in her throat and she felt tears coming to her eyes. No, I won't cry in front of a stranger. she thought as she blinked away her tears.

"...her heart stopped." she finished, the words reminding her how hollow and empty she felt on the inside.

The older lady's eyes were filled with sadness as she looked at Haruka. "Gomenasai." she said softly. She paused for a moment trying to gather her thoughts. "Your wife wouldn't want to see you this sad though. She'd want you to move on and be happy.

"Now thats not something anyone can accomplish over night but with time your heart will heal even though it may feel like it won't. You'll always carry a piece of her through your twins, so you'll never be completely without her."

Haruka nodded slowly. "I guess that's true but I just don't think I'll ever be able to fully get over her. I don't think my heart can love anyone else. I feel like I'll always be mourning her and wanting her and nobody else."

"Well you'll always mourn her to an extent since she was your wife and you did truly love her but over time there might be someone else who you can find room in your heart for as well."

An image of Taiki appeared in the blonde's head and her eyes widened as she tried to force that thought out of her head.

Dr. Lee tilted her head at the girl's expression. "Is anything on your mind?" she asked.

Haruka forced a smile and shook her head. "No, daijoubu."

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After about an hour the session came to a close as Haruka paid for the visit and arranged for another appointment. "Arigatou!" she called out as she left the building, the fake sakura scent leaving her senses as she stepped outside and into her car.

The drive home felt like forever as the things she'd said stuck in her mind. Her thoughts were a jumbled up mess, each thought intertwining itself with another continuously until she could no longer decipher any of them.

She made it home but with a pounding headache. She walked inside and slowly headed upstairs, plopping down on her messy bed.

She laid there for a bit trying to sort her thoughts but nothing was untangling.

She sighed in frustration and got up, hoping to find a pill for her headache somewhere. She rummaged through her drawers, knowing that somewhere she had pills but she couldn't remember where. Her hands rummaged through her things before she felt cold metal beneath her fingers.

Haruka grabbed onto the metal object and pulled it out, coming face to face with Michiru's transformation rod.

She felt tears come to her eyes as she examined the still perfectly in tact rod. The colors were still vibrant and the symbol of neptune on top seemed to stare at her dauntingly in the face as if to remind her of what she'd lost.

She carefully put it back not wanting to look at it anymore. She closed the drawer and fell backwards onto her bed trying to keep herself from crying.

"Neptune..." she whispered sadly, as she stared up at the ceiling before she eventually fell asleep.