On the last day that we were going to be at camp was the best. We had found a huge pile of boulders and climbed all the way to the top. You could see everything from up there. We regretted not coming up her for the fireworks. Once we got back to camp we were exhausted. I went to my tent and took a nap, while the other lounged around.
At some point Beck was lying next to me but he was awake and looking at me.
"Good night sleepy head," he giggled.
"Good night?" I questioned.
"Well saying good morning wouldn't be really appropriate," he replied.
I looked outside, he was right. It was dark out.
"Wanna go for a walk?" he offered.
I was still sleepy so I just nodded my head. He pulled me up and we got out of the tent. The others were around the camp fire talking and laughing.
We called to them telling them that we were going to go for a walk. They told us not to get eaten by any bears…or lake monsters.
The walk was quiet, probably because we were both taking everything in. the moon was full and bright tonight. it reflected off the lake and made the forest light up in a magical way.
I wonder what Jade was doing.
Wait, what? That was a random thought.
But once I got her in mind I couldn't stop thinking about her. I had always wondered something about her.
"Wanna go for a swim?" Beck asked me looking towards me. God he looked amazing in the moon light.
"Didn't you learn from the last time we went swimming in clothes?" I replied.
"So let's skinny dip," Beck said as if it were nothing.
"What? Are you serious?" I said thrown off. Beck just took my hand and pulled me to the edge of the lake.
"C'mon no ones around, it'll be fine. Just go with it," he offered.
Just go with it. Something about that made me trust him. It was Beck after all, not just any one of my past loser boyfriends. It was Beck.
He slid off his flannel and his tank top and waited for my. I guess we were going to do this. So I slid of my jacket and slowly my shirt now all that was left was my bra. I slowly and awkwardly made that off too. I could see Beck grinning but I was trying to not make eye contact with him. I could feel my cheeks getting hotter by the minute…and it got even worse. Beck went and started to undo his belt and slid everything off.
He came up to me and lifted up my chin, "just go with it."
And with that he ran towards the lake and jumped in full force. I couldn't help but laugh.
Fuck it, I thought and pulled the rest off not making eye contact with Beck and then just jumped in. There I had done it. we both just floated there for a moment and just looked each other in the face.
"I love you," Beck said to me.
"I love you too," I said to him.
We both still just floated there and swam around a little.
"What do you love most about me?" I asked with a huge smile on my face I couldn't help it.
"Hm, tough question," Beck said now looking like he was deep in thought, "I love how good you are. You always try to do the right thing and you're a great friend. I love the way your eyes light up when you sing, and the way you snort when you laugh."
Ok that was embarrassing but with all these string of compliments, I let it slide.
"Oh and I love the way you look right now. You're beautiful…" he said with a dreamy look on his face.
I swam closer to him and pulled him into a kiss. A kiss full of passion and…well on his end lust. I could feel him on me…there.
"Sorry," he said embarrassed, "can't help that…"
"you wanna go lay down," I asked. There was a patch of perfectly green soft grass from where we had jumped in. Beck nodded and followed me. I walked past out clothes and layed down on the grass and fully relaxed. Beck followed suit. Everything was perfect.
"I'm sorry if I pushed you to far," Beck threw out.
"It's ok I wouldn't of done it if I didn't want to," I replied. That was the truth. I still hadn't stopped thinking about Beck in that sort of way. The stress of home just intensified how much I wanted it. But now that we were here…lying next to each other naked, I was nervous. Beck seemed totally relaxed.
The sky was more amazing out here. It was the perfect shade of navy blue with billions of stars around. Now that we were away from the city lights, you could see everything.
When ever I sat out under the stars I always started thinking. I couldn't help my curiosity, "do you know what Jade's so mean?"
"Huh?" Beck asked.
"Ya know Jade. She's so cold and hard. Has she always been like that? What made her so…mean?" I wondered. Maybe she was just born that way.
"She told me she wasn't always like that…" Beck said.
"What happened?" I asked.
"Well…" Beck said looking conflicted. He turned over on his side and faced me, "if I fell you do you swear not to tell anyone?"
"Of course…" I promised. I really did mean it. I really wanted to know what it was.
"Well when Jade was born, her parents were only 17 and 18," Beck started to explain, "her dad was a really bad alcoholic. I guess Jade's dad used to do bad things to her like hit her and stuff. She never really told me how bad it got but I knew that he got arrested and is in jail for awhile."
"Wow…" I said stunned, "when did that happen?"
"For years, her dad was always abusive. She told me she stabbed him with a pair of scissors in self defense when she was 10 that was when he got arrested. After that her and her mom just choose to let it go. They didn't really talk about it. I think she's just still angry and hasn't let go," Beck said sadly, "I always promised her I'd take care of her."
I didn't know what to say. I never thought much about Jade's family life but I never thought it was that bad. Suddenly I felt sorry for her, no wonder she was so bitter. Now I didn't blame her for being so mean all the time.
"Wow… I never thought she had it that bad," I confessed.
"No one has a perfect life," Beck said sadly.
"Still suddenly its like once you find out someone else has suffered it makes them more human," I said now turning to face him.
"Yeah I know what you mean," Beck said looking into my eyes again.
"Beck, do you miss her?" I asked worried about the answer.
"I don't know. I'm always going to lover her in a way but honestly no I don't. Not like that anyways. I feel sorry for her and I tried to help her for years. But I don't think she wants help. I can't help someone that doesn't want it. I'm sick of being tied up in her drama no matter how much I want to help. It's just to depressing…" he answered truthfully.
"It's too bad; I wish she'd open up to us more. We all might be able to help her if she'd let us," I replied.
"I just don't think she wants to," Beck said.
"Beck…" I started to say.
"Yeah?"
"Did you mean what you said earlier? Ya know about…loving me?" I asked.
Now Beck turned over and was on top of my sitting on his hands, "Yeah I did."
I slid my hands around his neck and pulled him in, "me too."
The kiss was so calm and peaceful. It felt so good to be away from everything, the city, the parents, even of friends. I could tell Beck was getting nervous. He didn't go any farther than where we were the last time. Although I could tell he wanted it.
"Beck…do you want to?" I asked. Boy this felt awkward.
"Are you sure?" he asked, "absolutely positive."
"Yeah, I am." I replied.
"Ok but just so you know you can tell me to stop at any time,"
"I know."
"Just tell me if I'm hurt you or not ok?
"I will."
"One more thing…
"What?" I asked getting impatient. The anticipation was driving me crazy.
"I love you."
"I love you too…"
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