Talking
Sunday was a very boring day and by the end of it I felt guilty and sick. I got up at around six and walked down stairs. Dad was making breakfast again but this time it was just plain cereal.
"What time did you get home last night?" I asked
"Ten. I see that you had a tiring day,"
"You have no idea," I mumbled. Dad came and sat next to me.
"So, um….. Emmett and you are-," I got up from the table and put my half finished bowl in the sink.
"Kid wait, sit down,"
"No dad!" I shouted at him. "I am not going to sit here and let you assume things just because I am single and I went with my friends to a partner activity! Just because my school has become co-ed" Dad cut me off.
"Bella clam down. I'm just worried about you,"
"You know dad, you shouldn't. You have been so paranoid since mum died that I can't take it anymore. I am capable of protecting myself! Please just clam down," I turned around and stormed off to my room crying. I have never talked to my dad like that and it must have hurt him. I felt like my world was crumbling down and all because a stupid kiss. I didn't talk to him at all for the rest of the day. When I wanted to say something, I backed out from saying it and he continued doing what he was doing. That night, I walked into his bedroom to apologise when I saw him on the bed with his and mums wedding album. He was looking at the pictures and stroking mums face.
"Dad?" I said opening the door just a bit. "Can I come in?"
"Of course, come here," Dad said with open arms. I ran up to him and gave him a huge hug.
"I'm so sorry dad; just a lot of this happened at Rock Climbing, I was just tired,"
"It's okay Bella. I'm kind of used to not being the one you usually talk to, and to tell you the truth, I don't think I would want to be the one to try and resolve all your girlie problems"
"I always had mum for that," I said giggling. "God I miss her,"
"Yeah, me too," dad replied. He sighed and reached over to grab the wedding album. Dad pointed at the first picture of him and mum. Mum was so beautiful. Her green eyes sparkling, her face flawless and her light brown hair was pulled back with a purple lily. She was twenty when she got married, only three years older than I was now. Now about Dad, couldn't say the same. He looked so daggy in a suit. At the top of the photo it said 'Charlie and Rene'. The first year of grief is always hard but I felt stronger than ever now. I was ready to help my dad through his grief as well. I walked to my room and lay in my bed. As I went through all the things that happened this weekend, I felt sick and worried about the next day. I feel asleep and hoped for a good day.
Emmett didn't come to school until lunch. I was worried he wouldn't show up at all and it would be my fault. I didn't ask him why he came later on; all I did was talk to him about Saturday. We walked onto the oval and sat under an oak tree. Emmett sighed and then looked at me.
"Bella, I'm so sorry,"
"Emmett, please don't beat yourself up about this whole thing. It's stupid to risk our friendship over that,"
"I know," he turned and looked at the road. It was silent for a few minutes and then Emmett turned and looked at me again.
"So do you want to forget it happened?" he asked.
"No," I said in a soft gentle voice. "Do you?"
"No, what do we do?" he asked.
"Well if we don't want to forget it happened that only means one thing,"
"Boyfriend and Girlfriend," Emmett sighed.
"Or, we could slow it down," He looked at me surprised.
"We'll go out, get to know each other better and if we want, then we can get together. But until then, we can stay friends," Emmett put a smile on his face. We hugged and started laughing. He helped me up and we walked back to tree where the rest of our group were sitting. "Oh, I almost forgot," I said. "If it doesn't work out, our friendship will not be broken," he smiled.
"I promise," I felt relived that this actually went so well. I owed Alice a huge thank you. When we got back to the tree everyone was looking at us. We didn't answer any of their questions about 'us'. They all stopped asking but Alice got the hint that we were dating.
"Don't worry. I'll ask tonight!" Edward said laughing. Crap! I forgot about our study 'date' I just stared at him. I thought I would love having Edward over but really tonight I was dreading it. We hoped into his car and drove home after school.
"So….. you and Emmett and thing now?" he asked.
"Aaah, your worse than my dad," I said. Frustrated, I turned and looked out the window.
"Sorry, I just wanted to know,"
"No I'm sorry," I said turning to look at him. "Emmett and I decided to slow things down and start to go out. You know, learn more about each other then decide if we want to take it further,"
"That's good," Edward said. He didn't mention it at all on the rest of the way home. Chemistry was first on our hit list. We had to revise the periodic table- including the atomic number and symbol for each chemical.
"I wonder what the symbol for love would be if it was a chemical on the table," I mumbled. Edward laughed. He grabbed my table and drew an extra box. In it he wrote the number two, drew a love heart and wrote love underneath.
"The atomic number is two because you need two hearts and the love heart is pretty self explanatory. So there you go," I smiled and looked away. Have you ever had word vomit?
"Edward I have to tell you something. The day I met you, I fell in love with you. You're just amazing. The reason Alice set me up with Emmett was to help me get my mind off you because of Tanya. Tanya is a nice person and I must admit I am very jealous. Now I don't know what to think," He looked at me with the same expression on his face as before I told him. "But, remember how you nearly kissed me,"
"I can explain-"
"I don't need you to explain. I just want you to know that its confused me a lot more than I should and I like Emmett, and I think I may like him more than a friend but then there's you," I thought I was able to handle this but I started tearing up. I couldn't believe what I just said. Edward looked at me and he smiled. I didn't go on.|
"Bella, you're a sweet girl and I must admit that you are beautiful. I'm so sorry, I cant, I don't-" it was hard for him to get the words out. "What happened, there is no excuse for it and I-" He took hold of my hand and looked into my eyes. "At the time, I felt something that I never felt before but it was just that moment. I don't know why it happened but it did and I just want to let you know I have no other feelings for you. You are just my very good friend and that's it. I do have a girlfriend and I am faithful to Tanya,"
"I know Edward, I just had to get it off my chest."
"I know what you mean," I loved Edward on Friday but today it's a different story. He just told me that he wasn't interested and even though I sort of knew that from before, it hurt and slowly the love died.
We continued with our study until nine o'clock. Dad still wasn't home and when Edward left. I waved goodbye and walked back into the house. I was still confused and know torn between Edward and Emmett but I just have to wait until the date to see what happens.
Hey all,
I hope you're not mad about Emmett and Bella. Please continue reading and you'll all see that this really is a Bella and Edward story.
Keep reading and review :)
-x-Nancy-x-
